Wednesday Online Diary Entries: Confessions of beauty

Wether you believe this or not I don’t care it’s your opinion because I know the truth.

I’ve been sitting in the back seat with no chance of falling in love with someone nor hoping that I would believe that I was pretty enough for anyone. I even now that I have days that I don’t believe that I think I am. Yet the fact that it’s all in my head and knowing I’ve got amazing friends and really close friend you know him Caspian yes maybe we are going out. Yet I know that the amount of loving he gives me is more important than walking me home. What I mean by that no matter how much insecurities I have and etc he still loves me just the way I am.

I can’t deny the way my looks are even when I compare to other people but I know that I’m prettier than most other people who think they’ve got it all. I rather punch them or something because they are just full off themselves; when I discovered that I like who I am, why I am I thinking of the negative because it’s not sexy at all. Caspian always keeps knocking knocking at my door when I keep on being negative towards myself; as I open up not just him that came to my rescue he came a rush with calvery with Jp and Nemo, it’s like from the top to the bottom I’m that woman sunshine that he wants and he knows the reasons and so do them to never leave my side.

I always force myself to wear make up and everything like the picture in this blog post because I know how hard it is to get myself motivated and let the negativity towards myself take over. Yet this year I’m taking control of my life and know that I can do this. Believe in myself more than I should do.

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