People in celebrity world who have to look good and etc in the eye of the public; which every girl and boy growing up wants to be like them, for me it's completely different.
This weekend just been has it me the worse; not because I haven't watched much tv or anything, but because I have days when I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone and etc. I try each day to wake up to feel positive, do my make up each day with out fail even if I don't feel like or I notice that I've got my hairs growing back on my chin because of one of my health issues cause it to grow there. The unnecessary hairs that are a waste of space; that's what I call it anyways because that's what I call it, yet I try and cover it as best I can even if I don't shave it off if I'm feeling rather crappy about myself.
The fact that most female stairs are like putting it on for show saying “oh look at me I can get what I want because I'm so damn hot; making all the men population across the globe fancy me, and all of the celeb male stars even the royals in some of the countries who have them. All because I have big boobs and well dressed” and so on, so on. I could list them all but I don't want to waist your time or my time on how pathetic they are to be honest. “Oh I don't want him, I want him instead” can think of a few people in that picture.
You could just say that I'm just being paranoid and jealous; yes but that's because guys who butter me up, either just want me for one thing and one thing only or just end up being close friends of mine to be honest. The fact is though I'm so use to being on my own but as soon as I let my guard down to anyone something bound to happen; like they disappear off or go away with another female and say “we just good friends” I can understand if they’re working need to go away for something that's fine but when they don't tell you that they are going away and you then find out that it was with the opposite sex. Then how else are you going to believe that they are telling you the truth. But then again old habits of being paranoid is because of someone in the past that you thought you got over it but obviously happens. Then like jealousy came out so bad and what the hell is that all about; when it comes with the stars it bothers me to the point I hate them because they think they are all it, to be fair their are some you think seriously how the hell did you become a celebrity then you realise who their parents are. So they didn't have to try hard to get what they want.