Wednesday Online Diary Entries: “Girl in the mirror” – Story Based

You can always sense with me there things ain’t quite right but I barely speak I can’t seem to sit still or sit tight because there’s many things that run and pass by through my mind. It’s hard to show when you’re the one with your eyes. Life expects me to be strong but it doesn’t always mean that I’ve to sing that song but do I need to take it; just go easy on yourself because I need to take it, I need to go easy on myself and I know what I’m like. 

I’ve been picking little fights with the girl in the mirror with girl in the mirrors who’s been stressing me out to be a woman. Oh I don’t need this today because I don’t know quite what to say to the girl in the mirror. Take this time to think when things out right because when I’m weak all I seem to do is fight for my life; three many ways that I could say but I’m not fine instead I hold it back with the water filling my eyes. 

Life expects me to be strong but that doesn’t mean that I’ve got to be strong all the time. Doesn’t mean that I’ve got to sing that song I don’t really need to take it but you say take it easy on yourself. So I need to take it easy on myself because I’m tired of picking little fights with the girl in the mirror. The girl in the mirror is stressing me out to be a woman but I really don’t need it today I’m pretty sure what I need to say to the girl in the mirror. 

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: “I see the light” – Story Based

All those days watching from the windows like all those years outside looking in; all that time never even knowing just how blind that I’ve been, now that I am here blinking in the starlight now that I’m here suddenly I see standing here it’s all so clear. Knowingly I’m where I’m meant to be like at last I’ve seen the light like it had been lifted; at last I see the light like the sky is new bringing in the warm, the real and the brightness but the world has somehow shifted. All at once everything looks different now that I see you in my world you are my prince of my life.
All those days chasing down a daydream all those years living in a blur but at the time; they were never truly seeing things as they were but now she’s here shining in the starlight she’s here suddenly I know that it’s crystal clear where I meant to go, and at last I see he light like the fog of pain has been lifted knowing that she’s been protecting me.
At last we see the light like the sky is new with the warmth, real and bright like the world has somehow shifted all at once everything is different now that we can see each other. I know that we will be together one day soon.

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: “Bad Day” – Story Based

Where is the moment when we needed a friend the most as you tried to kick up the leaves but the magic was lost; as I watch you walk on by completely ignoring me that I was there, they tell me your blue skies had faded to grey along with your passion for things had gone away and they told me that you didn’t need to carry on. Yet they had asked me to help you get by.

As I got up with my notebook and pen I tagged along to see if I you even notice if I was there; you shrugged when I spoke to you like you couldn’t care less if I was or not, you just stood there in the line like you just hit a new low and you’re just faking a smile with the coffee to go. As we sat in your office with the door closed you told me that your life has been way off line because something would trigger it off and you start to fall to pieces every time like your too tire to carry on.

As your bad day rolled in to every other day. You’re just taking one day at a time hoping that it would get better but you start singing a sad song; all you need to do is turn it around yet you say you don’t know how, and tell me to not lie because one day you will top yourself if it doesn’t work. You work at that smile and to for a ride because you had a bad day do something that you like doing to cheer yourself up; the camera doesn’t lie as you’re coming back down, you know you really don’t mind you had a bad day that you manage to turn it around.

All you need is a blue sky holiday to which you are entitled for even to the point of they would laugh at what you say; all I know is that you don’t need to carry on because your going on holiday because you know when sometimes the system goes on a blink inside you, you need to take some time off knowing that the whole thing could turn out wrong when your away. You know that your not in the wrong.

You went on the trip that I took you on where the passion is to help you when you needed it the most; oh by the way it’s just you and I on this trip, no one else and it’s just going to be the most well deserved break that you need in the sun. No more bad days for awhile.

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: “If you seek Lizzy” – Story

Lalalala blah blah blah I’m not taking much notice of your stupid empty threats that you make in the newspapers like have you seen Lizzy? Who is Lizzy? Guess what I own it because I know I got my radar on you because I know the truth it should of been have you seen Mia? Have you seen Mia tonight? Is she in the bathroom? Is she smoking outside?

Oh hunny guess what you can take piece of lime that me and Caspian are not going to by for you because I know what she’s like; a self centred women who doesn’t actually care about anyone except herself, just tell me if you have seen near by my house or near me or Caspian and I can’t get her off my brain as I see her a threat I want someone to take her home before she breaks my rules and contract that she signed.

You can love me hate me you can say what you want about me but all of the girls telling and begging me not to rise to it because I know you want to seek me to get back to me. Love me hate me but you can’t see what I see your too blind of hatred yet the secret services have told me that you want to meet up with me and beat me up. Yet you stood there feeling humiliated with all the crowds especially all the press because I didn’t show.

I’ve seen her once or twice since being here with Caspian since she knew my face but it was a bit hard to see to make sure where all of the people standing in the way. You can say what you want about me but actually you can’t see what I see; next time you tell me that you see her I want to know what she looks like and what she’s wearing because her outfits make her look old. If your going to seek me out? Or stalk me? Do it much better than you are already because you just need to get out of my way. It won’t be long until I show you who I really am.

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: It’s only Wednesday! (Wednesday Evening Post)

The fact that I’m that tired I can’t even remember what the Wednesday Online Diary Entries picture is; I can barely keep my eyes open to have a look properly so I decided to put Wednesday Evening Post pictures up, doesn’t matter to be honest as it’s Wednesday and it’s mid week I might as well use Wednesday Online Diary Entries under the Evening Post.

As it’s end of January 2018 I have to say I managed to keep my self going over the past month no matter how hard it was to continue fight with my personal problems throughout this month; the first time in three years this is the first time for me to start taking control of some of my personal life, than I have had previously 2 years and I wanted to share with you guys the success of having you guys keeping me going. Thank you.

This week has to be a very long but dragging I’m not even sure why it just seems longer to me for some odd reason. The fact that it’s Wednesday and nowhere nearer to Friday or nowhere near Monday; just smack bam in the middle of the week, even today has been so dreadful that I’ve been not myself. I even had force myself to get next months data sheets sorted before tomorrow to which I would of sorted them out earlier in the day if I was awake. I couldn’t even remember what the date of the month was for awhile as I started to wish the months away by writing the 8th month instead of the 2nd month.

I’m just glad that January Blues 18 is now well and truly over. Cheers everybody let’s enjoy the 28 days of February 18.