Revisit case of….: Taiya and Kehinde Adventure

(Don’t worry this isn’t a scam all of my information came from a good friend of mine) 



You think your whole world is normal or think your whole world could be upside down just one tiny little thing. Yet what happens if your just 8 or 5 years old witnessing your parents get murdered on your door step? That’s what happened to these two brothers who’s whole world just turned upside down.

The eldest brother didn’t have time to think about what happened; it was what’s going to happen next if the murders found them, and where they going to be killed too. He had to get his brother out of the most dangerous and frightening place.
Taiya is 8 years old and his brother Kehinda is now 6 years old. These two brave heroes who kept each other alive; from witnessing their family in a community fight to their family home burnt to the ground. At the time that this was happening Taiya was at 8 years old and Kehinda was 5 years old; Taiya has to persuade his younger brother to come with him because it was no longer safe for them to be there anymore, but also Taiya was also the only living family he had left that could protect him and find somewhere to live to be safe from any danger that may come their way.
One day Taiya had seen an on coming van that was going to Asba; as it had stopped they sneaked onto the bus without being caught, as they had arrived at Asba and sneaking off the van.

They tried to ask people for help. However they just completely ignored them and carried on doing their daily chores; despite how hard Taiya and Kehinda’s hard work in asking for people’s help, they were drawing to hunger and tired by that stage but weren’t given up. Yet a friendly and kind gentleman of whom had been watching them for awhile had came up to Taiya; explained that he had thought he was doing a marvellous job of looking after his brother, even if they both witnessed a horrific murder and coming all this way to get help.
The gentleman explained that it was his turn to look after them because he knew a place that they can stay as long as they want, along the way he explained that Ofuobi Foundation Home is for children who are in need and they can both stay together as one family unit along with meeting with new people. Taiya can also can be himself and grieve along side with his brother with the support and care that the foundation gives out.
They stay in contact with the friendly gentlemen who had helped them; I believe that they wanted to give something back to him, by showing him that they can grow up as two fine handsome men. Getting their story out there to share with the world what they had to endure as young children; from one nice civilian that they came across, they want to try the world who may help even more by donating no matter how much they can afford.

In aid of helping like Taiya and Kehinda is by helping by donating no matter how much to Ruffles Care Bear who is the mascot of this blog who loves to looking after children to make them feel better.

https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/rufflescarebear


Wednesday Evening Post: New year goals 2018

Welcome to Wednesday Evening Post 2018! First one of the year. Didn’t actually realise how tired I am after drinking a cider can’t even remember what it was now but it was my favourite anyways. No I’m not drunk. So don’t ask a stupid question I’m just tired that’s all.
This year I rather not get a new year resolution or resolutions because they never seem to stick or anything plus I forget or they break in day one. So what’s the point in making goals if they aren’t going to work. Goals on the other hand I think I can stick to those quite easily if you ask me.

Goals of 2018

  1. Save as much money as possible
  2. Work on my blogging and writing throughout the year
  3. Be as positive as I can be
  4. Over come things that I thought I never could
  5. Prove to myself that I can do things for myself
  6. Be able to achieve a successful writer (on going goal since between 5-7 year old kid.)
  7. Keep on proving my dyslexia with my writing (have come along way since school) given up on maths.

That’s about it to be honest. Sorry I just went straight into it because I know I’ll start talking jibberish and not get anywhere. I am now going to say good night as I’m starting to fall asleep now. Good night.

Wednesday Evening Post: Maneater

I am no where near as a maneater but everybody keeps looking at me; every time I walk in through the door you start screaming at me, everybody come on now what are you here for? I don’t like the all eyes on me all of you are crazy I don’t even know either if you want to be me or be with me? I am no maneater but I know someone who is. Let me tell you a little story of a maneater.

Do you wish you never ever met her at all? Maneater who makes you work hard hard; makes you spend hard make you want all of her love, demands everything from you. Do you wish you never ever met her at all? Because she’s a maneater that will make you buy a car, make you cut out cards make you fall real hard in love.

When she walks you’ll notice that she walks with a passion. Even when she talks. She sounds like she can handle it. You think that she’s joking when she asks for something boy she actually means it because she will throw a hissy fit in public making you look like a fool. You act like you never ever seen it but everyone looks round to stare at you; like your the bad guy in the situation yet you do anything to keep her by your side just because it will stop people staring at you and says that she loves you for a long time.

Do you ever wish you never ever met her at all? Do you ever wish you never met her at all? Do you wish you never ever met her at all? Do you wish you never ever met her at all? Because you know she’s a maneater making you work hard. Make you want more for love.

Wednesday Evening Post: What would make me happy right now?

Wether you believe this or you don’t it’s your opinion I’m not going to judge you for your own opinions. I know the facts and it’s what I want to share with you guys.

Finally this week from the 6th November 2017 I managed to get this weeks 30 Days Challenge for Autumn sorted for the week. To which has given me the time to work on the other days that we haven’t seen or had for a long time; the challenge was meant to give me the courage, ideas and be able to work out what I can write about and yes it’s given me that area of guidance.

To what I owe this pleasure of what could make me happy right now is to be able to live and spend more time with Caspian and achieve what I would like to do in my time of writing and blogging that I can actually get paid for it. The two things that I love and want to do but also be with. This is because they are my go to happiness as I.

Caspian makes me laugh, smile, makes everything go away that’s troubling me for the time he talks to me, spends time with me and many more. The fact that he makes me feel safe and secure about myself is the fact that I know who I am and kind to myself. When he’s not around I’m alone but fighting my darkness of demons as much as I can on my own. Knowing that he’s there in the darkness as I’m coming closer to him. Feeling his 6ft4 dominating much of the past that I had to face alone; I can just feeling he’s presence coming closer, as more of me comes widely open to him.

Writing has always been apart of me to where I can escape to when I need it the most. It’s like my best friend as I use my emotions of what I’m feeling through the characters of what they feeling like at the time. To where I like my audience to know what actually feels like to know the pain of the character must be feeling and etc.

The fact that I’m so use to living inside my head writing is the only way that I can find myself to express how I am feeling than expressing myself to an actual real person.

What would make you happy right now?

Day 4 of 30 Days Challenge for Autumn: When were you last drunk?

It was back in March 2013 I think it was when it was with my closet friend at the store we both worked at the time in my hometown. I couldn’t care shit about the store then and didn’t care shit about it now. I’ve moved on with the world doing better things than selling shitty cards for the company.

We were the only 2 people drinking out of the four of us at the time; which was okay and understandable because one said that they were allergic to whatever Vodka was made out off, and one was driving on the plus side my deupty manger who was driving and close friend at the time said he would drive me home. Twice by then he had taken me home drunk bless him and I had to wake up with a hangover.

The time the hangover was so bad that I still managed to turn up to work hungover; that was because me and the other person who was leaving were drinking these two pitchers at the time by ourselves, I had bluelogon and she had monster something rather. Can’t even remember now; the fact that everytime I needed her to come with me to go for the toilet, I could really feel it that badly because I knew I didn’t eat anything before work or after work so I was literally feeling it.

When we all went our separate ways me and the deupty manager who was like a big brother to me at the time; made sure that I had food inside me at the time me, him and someone else went to subway and they were like keeping an eye on me. As I never drink that much and they know I’ve never been that drunk before either.

Once I had food down me and everything my friend took me home; the next day I was so hungover my head was pounding, I had to work that day as well but I couldn’t careless at the time because I hated my job in the first place. I got in and the manager at the time said to me how’s your head. I guessed that the other colleague had told her that I was pretty drunk the night before but I could remember it very well. As I remember staggering to the bathroom with my friend at the time walking along side me. That was pretty much the last time I was actually drunk back in 2013 haven’t got hammered since.

You know that feeling of I want…..

The Autumn Lifestyle of my world when I really want…..

It’s that time of year where it’s getting colder each day; the leaves are starting to turn to their autumn colours, loose their leaves and the mud starts to become horrible and muddy. That’s when I’ve started to get into a bath and into my pjs feeling. I generally don’t do that but these days I’ve actually wanted to do that because I’ve been up for almost 12 hours a day minus the weekend lay in is luxury for me to be honest with you.

The last couple of days I’ve just wanted to have a bath, get in my pjs, have my dinner and just chill in my room. So then if I do fall asleep then I don’t have to worry about having a bath or having to get dress in the freezing cold. The fact that I’m craving hot chocolate right now it’s ridiculous because I’m never craving it this badly; but heyho if anyone has great suggestions of wha flavour hot chocolates are out there do let me know, so I may have to invest in some because I liked the one that my cousin gave me but I never got round to getting anymore because I’m never have any money.

The other another feeling that I’ve been getting is me wanting nice cuddles with someone in bed because I’m forever cold and doesn’t help my hips hurt every so often. Not because of that guys come on what do you take me for. I wouldn’t be blogging now if I was. Rolling my eyes at you guys. Innocent children maybe reading these. I have joint problems okay especially when I have a trap nerve/lower back pain. Which effects it badly so odd occasions I do take something for it to help me get some sleep a night.

A bit of a short one tonight guys sorry. I’ve been struggling to write something the last couple of days. If there’s something that you want me to talk about please don’t hesitate and leave a comment below.

All the best

X

Online Diaries Entries: The Truth, The Bad, The Ugly Part 2

Online Diary Entries: Are they true or are they made up? You decide what the answer is.

The second part of my The Truth, The Bad and The Ugly. I wasn’t really going to do the second part to this story; but the fact that I was so upset, angry and missing Caspian. Lots of things happened yesterday (Tuesday 26th September 2017) I literally had a complete reality check of everything. I took it all out in the blog post that I put it up today.


The truth is it’s the first time that I’ve been apart from Caspian for a week; this is because we use to message, talk and etc everyday. I could handle the odd few days without him when he was busy and off on business trips. When it came to near death experience of myself which lost his late mother in 20 years ago I didn’t want him to be put into that position again with me. The fact I try not to talk about my relationship on here as much but when I find it hard to write a blog I don’t bother but when it comes to my feelings about things I just put pen to paper and write. Other than me forcing the pen to write something on a blank piece of paper that didn’t want to be written on if it wasn’t meant to be written on at the time. The fact that I just adapted Caspian’s positivity quote and his advice on things goes to show how much I love him and shows I listen to him more than anything in the world. He is my rock and without him I don’t know what I would do without him to be honest with you.


The bad thing is I let my insecurities get the better of me at the best of times. I also start to freak out and start pushing Caspian away even when he’s trying so hard to keep me away from my sheer demons of depression that I can get myself into. It is hard work to get me out of it but at the end of the day if I didn’t have him I think I would be worst off than I have already.


The ugly thing is that when I have someone that close; I know that I can’t have them for some odd reason, most of the time is all in my head and I’ve always told myself that. That’s why I think I have a lot hatred towards myself and push people away especially guys who I let in close they stay that way because they know I have those issues of do I actually know they want me or not. Since being with Caspian for 4 months he stayed put because he loves me even with my demons that I can’t seem to control without him. I know that if I have to control it on my own half the time because I can’t rely on him all the time.

However I can’t wait for him to come home at the weekend. I just want him home I just miss him so much. Don’t like the 5 hours difference between here and Canada. I suppose this is testing the relationship more than ever. Stupid connection in Canada haha. His words of his dislike of the country because he can’t talk to me as much as he would like to; like he was home here, also he just love me too much and misses me to much.

What the future of England looks like?

The fact that I already want to briexit out of the briexit because I’m getting depressed from it.

The interesting thing about my country is that we are the only ones who are like the smallest country in the world I think; but with 3 different names, to which if you are confused about what to call us don’t worry we as British have this confusion all the time. We never know what we are when we fill out forms, questionnaires and etc. If you must know what the three names we have they are: United Kingdom, England and Great Britain.

The fact what came to my mind just now is that currently that I don’t believe we are Great Britain at all; especially over the past 9 months due to the “!ah” (new name for name for May everybody), the fact that Trump who toots his trump because he has more gas than anything else. Thinks that it’s okay to send fighter planes and etc to bomb in Iraq and Syria; nope it’s not okay because you know why?, he’s drawing more attention to us more than we like to have.

Britexit is one of those words that I don’t give a flying monkeys about if I spelt it wrong; that’s because I want to divorce from the word permanently, britexit is just getting to the point of making me so depressed I’m just sick and tired from it all. There’s now talks of the second voting of referendum; more money coming out of our taxes, for a silly little cross for a silly thing that May can’t be bothered to help sort out the mess that she left created when we needed her the most. It’s not going to be a good future with her still as a prime minister I don’t think. As she’s not going to make it okay.

Haters/Social Media/Press/Exs: Look what you made me do

Dairy Entries Online……are they true are they not you decide.

Dear Haters/Social Media/Press/Exs

I really don’t like your little games because it ruins my life; hackers, all the lies and self control over people even when your not around me anymore. Don’t act like your on a tilted stage because you can’t get what you want; the role that you made me play, making me out as the fool and a bad person. This is why I don’t like you and I don’t like your perfect crime. The way you laugh as you lied about everything especially when you say who you really are but actually it’s not; it isn’t cool and I do not like you one single bit.

Yet now I’m taking control; I’m breaking these chains because I’m getting smarter and starting to get harder in the nick of time, the fact that I rose up from the dead hiding from my fear. I have a list of names and guess what all of you are in red, in capitals and underlined. I don’t check it just once but I check it twice to make sure.

Look what you made me do. I’ve deleted all of my social media apps because I’m living in fear of being hunted or talking to hackers. Look what you just made me do. Thank you for making me realise how much your complete arse holes who have no lives; just want to ruin other people’s lives guess what you just ruined mine but I’m not going to let it happen no more. So look what you just made me do I’m going to fight back and when my love of my life back.

Look what you made me do as now I’m fighting back as I don’t like your kingdom keys anymore; they once belonged to me but now I threw my key of all keys away, only one person has my special key and no one else can have it. The world moves on, another day, another drama; but for me I hope karma comes back round and bite your arse one day.

I don’t trust nobody unless they are really close to me; guess what I know what I’ll be is an actress staring in your bad dreams, because you know why. This is what you ruined, you won’t be getting me back either way because I’m going to take control of my life. I’m with someone else and I know that they are right for me.

So here’s my message for all you haters, hackers, press and Ex’s:

“I’m sorry. The old me can’t come to the phone right now.”

“Why?”

“Oh. Didn’t you know. The old me is dead. You killed her.”

………

Special Addition Revisit: Hello

A Special Addition revisit in memory of Daisy.

We all wondered where Caspian had gone; me, DC and KC looked over to where Daisy’s gravestone was, I told them to go and I’ll stay to which to my surprise DC agreed with me by telling me that he needed me more than ever. As I started to walk over; I looked back over I could see DC burying his head in KC’s arms, which made me have a tear rolling down my face. As I reached over to Caspian took his hand as I knew I wasn’t meant to but this was a one off; as his grandmother gave her blessing for this day to happen, when her two grandsons needed their partners the most. I whispered to him saying that a car will pick us up a bit later everyone else will go on ahead. Caspian snaked his arm around me after he let go of my hand; pulled me close to him than ever before, the fact that he knew I had tears down my face meant two things to him. One that I was crying because I wanted to take his pain away, second I was only about age 6 when his mother had died. I had started to listen to him talk but I knew he wasn’t going to let me go; I was like his prop to help him stand even though he was 6ft2, and I was 5ft4 and half but it soothed him a lot because he always would make fun about my height.

“Hello, it’s me. I was just wondering after all these years if you would like to meet to go over everything; they would say over the years at this time that it would become easy; even when the time should be supposed to heal you, but guess what I haven’t done much healing. Since Lizzy came into my life things have become much easier; less dreams than I have done, except this time of year I either keep her up or shout out in my sleep she comes running after she gets woken.

Hello, can you hear me? When we were younger and free there were so many happy memories; I have forgotten how it feels when you were you were my world, your warmth, your loving, your hugs and many more. There’s such a difference between us now more than ever; there’s a million miles away of where you are, I think you sent me Lizzy one way or another.

I have forgotten tell you. She’s just like you mum. Everything about her reminds me of you. I’m not going to let anything happen to her. I promise mum. She’s staying put for ever. Not moving. I don’t know how she does it when I get mad she looks at me the way you do or the way she says things to make me calm down. The way you do it’s like I’ve got you back. I miss you so much mum. I love you.”

We stayed a bit more longer. I hugged him tightly but gently at the same time. He kissed me on the forehead a few times; I knew the driver and security were hovering, I asked for two more minutes they agreed and went away. Caspian whispered to me and “I love you” I whispered back “I love you too”. Time was ticking along now so we had to go back otherwise everyone would worry where we had got to.