Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Since you’ve been gone – Story

Here’s a thing we had started of as friends but it was cool as it was all pretend yet since you’ve been gone; I started to fall apart like I lost someone in my life that I was going to be with, you dedicated and took the time but it wasn’t long when you called me yours. Yet since you’ve been gone all I could hear is you and her when I’ve been picturing us together for years; told you how I felt about you along with the longest crush, yet all you hear is my insecurities because it’s not the first time that I can’t breathe without you.
But since you’ve been gone I still can’t breathe without you it’s not the first time; I can’t move on but thanks to you I’ve been able to take a few steps forwards and few steps back, yet since you’ve been gone I can’t get what I want and how can I put it? You put me on a high pedestal even when I fell in love with you and our stupid love so song. How come I never hear you say “I just want to be with you” I forgotten those words you use to say to me everyday. I guess you never really felt that way.
I know I had my chances and you had your chances but we blew it. Now we are fighting for our lives to be together out of sight out of mind. Shut your mouth I just can’t take it anymore because again and again we argue because we just want to be together. I just so tired of screaming inside myself because I can’t take it anymore. Since you’ve been gone I’ve just felt so alone I don’t know what to do anymore.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Just completed 6 days of 14 Days Challenge for Valentines

Exciting news guys you will definitely get 2018 new challenge coming very soon to a blog page near you. On the 1st February 2018 this week you will get a 14 Days Challenge Of Valentines with stories that I’ve created from songs that I relate to in my life. Go to speak close enough anyway. You know I write stories and I use my emotions and how I feel towards certain things.

So far today I’ve written and scheduled day 3 to 6 so I can get ahead of myself as normal; so that I can create the next batch over the next couple of days with their correct pictures to them, in which that once they are sorted I can get them up and running before day 6. Just to keep them going as a flow until the 14th February 2018 when UK celebrate Valentines Day. VOMIT! Haha

Not a fan of Valentines Day to be honest still not going into it but heyho I just don’t understand why or what’s the big deal about it to be honest. I don’t know but I’m doing the challenge for the love of my readers nothing more nothing less because you guys are the love of my life and I’m going to share it with you guys.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Jars Of Hearts

Whatever you think if this is true or not it’s your opinion. I share my emotions and etc through my stories and I know the truth.

I know I can’t take one more step towards you because all of this waiting is regret but I know that Caspian, TP and Terry are my strong, will power and to see me through. I just need to tell you that I don’t want to be your ghost anymore; you can’t have the love that I love most, I’ve learned to live half alive and now you want me to break one more time.

Who do you think you are? Running around leaving scars and collecting your jars of hearts. Tearing love apart because you think you have it all; all I can wish for is you to catch a cold from the ice that’s inside your soul or to drop dead from your cold blooded heart. So don’t come back for me as I’m already gone way before you arrived; only my close friends just got it back for me, yet I hear you asking around and if I am anywhere to be found. I have grown far to strong and well protected to ever fall back into your clutches. Who do you think you are? Keep on asking for me. When you been told not to reach me or contact me.

It’s took me so long just to feel alright; remember how Caspian had put back the lights in my eyes, the fact that the first time we kissed and you didn’t like that one bit. You broke all of your promises and now you’re back to try and get me back for stealing your one true dream. All I can say is you will never get him back because we all know what we can do to ruin your reputation.