Thursday Online Diary Entries: Week today starts the Valentines Challenge (Vomit ahaha)

The fact that I thought I had another week left of January I thought man I’m struggling here; then I soon realised that this time next week will be 1st February 2018, the start of 14 Days Valentines Challenge and I thought what a plonker Rodney.

Yes it’s right first Challenge of the year this year for 2018 what’s the best way but to kick it off with Valentines Challenge ay. I wasn’t too sure wether I was going to do this Challenge or not because I hate Valentine’s Day for lots of reasons and I thought no Lizzy you will do this challenge no matter how much you hate it.

I have made a list of 14 days of titles for each day to write for and it will be schedule for each day until we reach to the final day. When I say schedule for each day it could be or could just be written on the day who knows. I prefer to schedule you them to be honest it’s one lest thing to worry about at the end of the day.

To be honest I should be writing them now as we speak to be honest but they can wait for another a day. As I’m struggling to write the rest of the weeks blogs this week as I was on a roll to begin with but seem to have stopped. Ah well you got to win and loose some don’t we.

#throwbackthrusday Online Diary Entries: Swish Swish

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Wether if you believe this or not it’s your opinion but I know the truth. I like to share my emotions in my stories and my online diary entries stories.
They are led on to think that this woman is the one that can win the nation; but do they know what this woman is a fake she hasn’t won the nation at all, they are just strut about their well known is settling down but not with the right girl. They are only out to see him and that’s why I love Caspian so much because he knows who really loves. So what the fuck?
A tiger who doesn’t lose sleep and don’t need opinions from selfish and self centred people. So don’t bother coming for me because you know I can get you banned and arrested if you ever came near me. The fact that you don’t know me but I got you clocked you because you’re such a joker of leading people on no one actually likes you. You can kiss my wedding ring when me and Caspian get married believe it or not I’m sticking around for more than a minute get use to it.
Here comes the broom in the ballroom making that swish swish bish another dance with me and Caspian in the spot light; you can’t touch this because your game is so tiring and you should retire because an old coupon has expired and the karma doesn’t lie. I don’t keep receipts but my accountant does. They soon realise that your the fake one day; haven’t won the hearts of the nations like his brother and his wife, so get over the competition for the lime light and get out of the way. It’s not all about you at all because no one seems to care about you what so ever.

Revisit Case….Famlies in need of help with school things

Don’t worry this isn’t a scam all of my information came from a good friend of mine)

There are four children who use the foundation for other usage for the money such as money that provides school clothes and school equipment that they need to use everyday. You have Jackson age 7, Tobe age 7, the twins Theresa and Tony age 6. Their parents didn’t know where to go to ask for help or come to help them like our system that helps us gain money to buy school equipment and school clothes for our children.

The foundation in Nigeria helps not just for the children in the home but also to help the children who also would like to attend to school to learn. So each child’s parents had an idea/been recommended by a someone; that we also work along side parents to help them by providing them their school fees, to which we find that they are now going to school and to be able to follow their dreams. Due to the generosity of the donations that’s been coming in to help them.

There are so many families that want what’s best for their children like our four awesome stars that took part in this type of story. Every child has a dream and every parent want to see their child succeed in schools and go off to see the world as their parents couldn’t achieve their goals at the time that they were that age.

In aid of helping like Jackson, Tobe, Theresa and Toby is by helping by donating no matter how much to Ruffles Care Bear who is the mascot of this blog who loves to looking after children to make them feel better.

https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/rufflescarebear

#throwbackthursday: Do you believe in people who would want to make a career out of writing?

I’ve never stopped believing in others who want to make a career in something that they love to do; unless they haven’t got the passion or self driven to help themselves to push themselves forward to do it, if they expect to have it handed to them. Then why should I even bother trying to help them at all.
I always have time and see people’s potential in them if they want to write them write; I can help them as much as I can with knowledge, experience and how I work around the difficult times when it comes to a writer’s block. I help a blogger out time to time; when they don’t PROOF READ THERE WORK! Haha I know at the best of times it’s hard to see where the wrong places are or you’re not sure where you put your grammars. Even if your grammars are in the right place or not.

I even get them wrong half the time. It’s not easy. It just practice and get someone to help you or have someone secretly do it for you and email them to you. That’s what I do to be honest and I get the whole OMG! Or that’s cool. I’ve only get like one whole blog needs correcting or just one or two paragraphs needed editing. I like it even better that I don’t have to do anything at all.

I’m like yay night off from proofreading someone’s work. I always make sure that I write my blog posts or stories out by hand or on a word document because I can proof read my work as I’m going along. I don’t read many books but when I do it takes me a month or so to read them; but that’s me struggling with reading anyways due to learning difficulties, however reading other people’s blogs, reading over my stories and blogs I can prove my reading other ways. You have to find away that suits you because it’s not work but being a better writer you have to proof read your work before hitting the publish button.

Plan what your going to write out on a word document or be old school and write it out on piece of paper because at the end of the day that’s the only way to learn and teach yourself to learn from your mistakes as a writer. This isn’t a nag just away to help you proof your writing skills.

#throwbackthursday: The day I met the Prince? – Story Based

Call me the storyman for one I am the one with all the stories. You might think your fully awake; however we all know that your just about to drop off to sleep one way or another, unless your one of those people who are so tired that you actually can’t sleep until realised that you have just fallen asleep with your eyes open. Now have you heard the day one ordinary girl met one unexpected person that she wouldn’t expected ever. No! Snuggle up and let me tell you the story how she met her true prince.

It was never going to be an ordinary day for me well at least I don’t think so but I like to keep to myself as the best I can. Until one day in the summer I get a message from this Prince of England that everyone in the country and the world fancied. Me I couldn’t care less but secretly I liked him too but not overly obsessed with the whole idea. The fact that he found me just on his own accord and what not on instagram whatever social media I had at the time.

Yet we hit it off really well took him a few attempts to convince me that I’m making the right decision of saying ‘yes’ to going out with him but in the end I agreed. We continued to talk everyday without fail. However we somehow managed to loose each other thinking that we were talking to each other but people were imposing us. Then managed to reconnect one way or another after finding out that we had been talking to fraudsters.

As I was walking down my road not really thinking about anything; I just finished my morning work run shift the road and the path was still icy because the sun hasn’t come round the front to melt it. I missed my footing and started to slip as I started to fall someone had managed to grab hold of me before I fell to the ground hard. I wasn’t really expecting anyone to have been following me home or walking down the same road as me.

I looked round to see who it was who had kindly stopping me from falling any further. There stood 6ft2 man, bulking muscles, ginger hair and the most cheekiest smile you can ever ask for. ‘Caspain’ I answered like my chest had been squeezed all of the air out of me. I knew I had my massive grin on my face because I had immediately wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. I had never ever felt so happy in my life that he had finally came to rescue me from my ivory tower.

#Throwbackthursday: Re-Visit of Sorry not Sorry

The best feeling of having the worst morning to the best evening all I can say is that I for one knowing that I can beat anything if I know that I won’t feel threatened from anyone again. So I decided to turn it into a story but a re-visit of sorry not sorry in another wave of some sort of story.

Payback is a bad bitch and when you mess with someone like me I’m the baddest because I’m out there looking like I want to take revenge. Yet I feel like I’m a 10 the best that I’ve ever been because I understand him much better than you did; I know how bad this must look to you but yet you damaged your reputation, that must of hurt even seeing me like this by standing by your man who doesn’t even love you. Guess what it’s going to get worse as you are just about to be kicked out to where you come from; now you’re just looking like you have this massive regret on your face because being over confident, over powering, getting what you want and being to proud of who you are. You will never get a chance like this because me and Caspian are too strong; love, care, understanding and most importantly one main person whose been watching over us both kept us a lot stronger and together.

Now continue to pack your bags because we don’t want to see you ever again as your a fucking savage. Can’t have this life that we have because we owned it like no one else can have it. For me to be nice to take it on you but guess what? I’m not going to do the mind trick that your trying to do by getting me and Caspian to split because I’m sorry I’m not that sorry being bad to you got me feeling kind of good in finding my confidence once again. Now that I got inspired as the tables have turned once again in my life it’s like I’m on fire and that burns like crazy as when you received on a cold day like today.

The most finest people who are made for each other to kill the traumatic experience of someone who’s more dominant than anything else. Telling me how it feels is so much better telling me to take a chill pill; but right now this going to sting you because the grass is greener underneath me, than yours as your sinking in the sticking and sinking in the muddy English countryside. Yes you can see me with him with your bright colour technicolour binoculars; you can always talk about that talk as much as you can, but your still continuing to walk that walk that way off not coming back.

#throwbackthursday: 6 layers of clothing and 6 layers of covers. I’m still cold!

Ladies and Gentlemen its come to the point of me to say “I’m officially cold!” That’s right if you know me really well; you soon get use to me wearing 6 layers of clothing and 6 layers of covers in bed, I still get cold and believe me as I’m currently writing this in bed and my arms are getting really cold.

The reason for the whole 6 layers of everything in bed is because I do tend to get really cold in bed I’ve always been that cold as a person. Not that cold hearted person who tells people things because I hate them right through. It’s my circulation at the best of times; I’m even like that in the summer at the best of times where I’m so cold that I’m wearing either 6 layers of clothes out or one huge thick cardigan on, I am getting better in the summer but it’s become more of a security thing for me to wear umpteen clothing.

It’s once you’ve grown up trying to keep yourself warm and etc it’s difficult to except the amount of clothing on when it’s really unnecessary but being in Britain you really don’t know what the sort of weather your going to get from one extreme to another. Then again I never know wether I’m coming or going with my body heat at the best of times. The fact is my comfort at this time of year with lots of clothes on in bed with lots of covers because makes me feel safe. Your probably thinking I’m weird or your thinking hang on I do this too I’m not the only one who does this.

Going to catch you guys later I’m cold and my head is hurting yay for headaches haha.

#throwbackthursday: I know I’m a failure

The Diary Entries Online back for so more this autumn before the winter comes. It’s your own opinion if you believe this or not. It’s up to you what you believe. At the end of the day I know the truth and I just wanted to share it with you.

No matter what I tell you. You make me out as a liar but I gave into the fire; at least now I should’ve fought it as now that I’m being honest, all I know that I’m a failure because know that I failed you. No one is perfect then you realise the truth of that I should of told you; I know I know I know, I should of done it better but you know me I just give up too easily when I try my best.

You realise that you had everything in front of you and you watched me walk away. I got nothing here without you; this is the one last time I need to take you home to make me feel whole again, for one last time I promise you after that I’ll let you go as she has stolen your heart away from me. All I really care is to wake up in your arms for one last time.

As you watched my body relaxed into your arms you begin to realise that I don’t deserve the pain that you have given me. I know I don’t deserve it but please stay with me for another a minute; I swear I’ll make it worth it, can you forgive me for just letting me have you one last time before you go and be with her. At least if it’s just temporarily I know this is all my fault of pushing you away. I should of been careful and I know, I know, I know I shouldn’t be the one loosing control.

As I slept in your arms not knowing that you would stay the whole night with me; even if I didn’t wake up like I normally do, you were there incase I did and you were still there in the morning watching me sleeping. You placed a kiss on my my forehand as I opened my eyes to see you in front of me. You told me “silly girl…I’m not going anywhere. I’m madly in love with you”……

The Unknown Fear: Your Fantasy

The fear that you and I is that we have fantasies of being together but when it happens it’s like we don’t even know if we want this or not. This gave me an idea when listening to the song “Fantasy” by the late George Michael and also it reminded me so close to home but just only the beginning for my friend Megs. So this is my take of my side of a story of all of my relationships I’ve had so far.

No matter how much you give; you give all the loving in your heart day in day, also all the loving that you give every year from the bottom of your heart. On which your heart that has more desire until one day you say you love me; then all of the sudden you tell me that you don’t, you continue to do this confusion of what you want. Yet there’s no point of hanging around if you keep on making me feel your love is in my hands and you say you stay.

You change your plans all the time; like there’s no point of hanging around as you have no time for me, so I’ll find another fantasy of my own choice. It’s kind of funny that all you do is make me cry but I’m only one that can make you happy; even if it’s only for awhile, but baby I can give you all the loving that your heart desires, when you don’t have the time to fill my desires I’ll go find another fantasy.

There is no price of love but there is a price of hate; to which I maybe guilty of as you make me wait, due to the fact that I don’t know your intentions. I try to look up at the sky up above for answers; I know my fate is in the hands of god until the time to push through up above, I need to know what’s going on for heaven sakes. Is this love? Is this love or invention?

I know you haven’t got any time for me; I’ll find my other fantasy, as I do I’ll watch you take someone’s heart and kick it around. Keep picking it up and watch it fall down because I don’t know what I am suppose to do when I wait for you to decide what you want to do. You either want me or you don’t want me? I don’t have time for time wasters like you.

Day 12 Of 30 Days Challenge For Autumn: Dairy Entries Online: Meg’s a Psycho Oath

Yay for this again. I do have to inform you it is your own opinion if this is true or not. No one is judging you for your opinion. I just want to make this clear that I can make my blogs personal or not. But I want you to decide if this is true or not.

You guys remember my best friend Megs right; everyone should remember as she dragged me to go and watch Dunkirk the film, as it has Harry Styles in it. Well she’s back but this time I let her roam with the idea of a title; especially this one I’m afraid, I should let my friends go riot over my blogs to be honest because they are quiet funny characters to do.

Plus I need her help with it in the first place; so being Megs I had to tell her what’s the first thing that comes to mind, that was this title and the blog was born. Throughout the day I had snapchat chats whilst we were both on breaks; or near enough, shes young and in love and we all know that means mushy brains. However the fact that she snapchat me this morning on her break saying “he hasn’t messaged me” I thought here we go mini version of me here being insecure and etc. Now I’m paying the price of her anxious mind and etc. The fact that I came down on her with a tonne of bricks the other night about it all; she knew I was telling her what she needed to hear, because I was just as bad with Caspian when I first started going out with him and I could see that she’s ignoring her own advice so in the end I had slap her with a wet fish a few times even harder to get her to thinking straight.

The fact that she’s 18/19 years old she’s hit that faze of gooy mess #psychomodeofinscureandparionad we all have those moments don’t we. I should know as I’ve had my fair share of them over the years; I just told her let it take it’s cause, yes it might happen or it might not. You can’t predict what’s going to happen ether way just take each day as it comes.

Even Caspain has to remind me not to over think things at the best of times; guess what he’s right, he knows how much I get anxious and freak out on him at the best of rimes. So far I’m doing quite well not freaking out as much as I use to; which is a good thing, but it’s all the same when you start a new relationship at the end of the day.