I woke up this morning thinking this was never the way I planned not even my intention but I got to be brave; as I’m hanging out by the fence of the bike shed with you but I lost my discretion, this is not what I’m not use to but I just want to try it on you and you agreed to let me try.
I kissed a girl and I liked it. The taste of her cherry chapstick still on my lips in my science lesson as I bit my lips thinking about that kiss; I couldn’t believe that I kissed a girl to try it, I hope my boyfriend don’t mind it even though it felt so wrong but it so right and it doesn’t mean I’m in love tonight as I came home from school. Laying on my bed thinking about kissing a girl that day and I liked it.
Your name stayed in my head but it doesn’t matter because your my experimental game. It’s just human nature even though it’s not what good girls do it’s not how they should be behave. Yet my head gets so confused it’s hard to obey our thoughts when we are so magical with soft skin, red lips and so kissable. It’s hard to resist it and resisting the most touchable thing. It’s too good to deny it so why is such a big deal; it’s innocent thing to do of falling in love with someone who’s the same sex as you, just need to get over it as this is now the 22nd century not the 21st anymore and the world is changing.
Where is the moment when we needed a friend the most as you tried to kick up the leaves but the magic was lost; as I watch you walk on by completely ignoring me that I was there, they tell me your blue skies had faded to grey along with your passion for things had gone away and they told me that you didn’t need to carry on. Yet they had asked me to help you get by.
As I got up with my notebook and pen I tagged along to see if I you even notice if I was there; you shrugged when I spoke to you like you couldn’t care less if I was or not, you just stood there in the line like you just hit a new low and you’re just faking a smile with the coffee to go. As we sat in your office with the door closed you told me that your life has been way off line because something would trigger it off and you start to fall to pieces every time like your too tire to carry on.
As your bad day rolled in to every other day. You’re just taking one day at a time hoping that it would get better but you start singing a sad song; all you need to do is turn it around yet you say you don’t know how, and tell me to not lie because one day you will top yourself if it doesn’t work. You work at that smile and to for a ride because you had a bad day do something that you like doing to cheer yourself up; the camera doesn’t lie as you’re coming back down, you know you really don’t mind you had a bad day that you manage to turn it around.
All you need is a blue sky holiday to which you are entitled for even to the point of they would laugh at what you say; all I know is that you don’t need to carry on because your going on holiday because you know when sometimes the system goes on a blink inside you, you need to take some time off knowing that the whole thing could turn out wrong when your away. You know that your not in the wrong.
You went on the trip that I took you on where the passion is to help you when you needed it the most; oh by the way it’s just you and I on this trip, no one else and it’s just going to be the most well deserved break that you need in the sun. No more bad days for awhile.