Star Light Categories – Teen Lifestyle: Old Social Media that I grew up with – 21.8.18

In this day in age the most common thing about social media and online people is that people share so much personal things that are going on with their lives. You may think it’s safe no one will look back at it or when you apply for jobs and etc. Trust me people will especially employers of you’re applying for a job that you wanted to do for the rest of you’re life. Even if it’s a silly things you did on the internet as a teen at the time because they will find away around it along with people who know you may worry about you. Just be careful what you put up in the future even if you’re having bad time. 

I try and speak out mental health issues because there’s not enough help to get by everyday and everyone is letting their voices be heard because no one is listening to them at the time when they needed help. Along with not enough understanding of what’s happening and why people suffer from this illness. 

Enough said on that. You’re probably thinking what old social media is she talking about here. All we know is Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and Pinterest. Yes there’s a lot more social media before this time but since then with these 4 social media accounts have taken the world by storm all of the old social media accounts have died out. 

When I was growing up Facebook had just started out, I had msn which was chat rooms, Bebo it was like Facebook at the time I think it was, My Space was another one that was popular at that time. You may wonder why I’m having a reminiscence of these sort of social media is because I was colouring a picture that had a message called “My Space”  which had a completely different meaning to it obviously because it was all about the space and around the world. 

It just gave me the idea of the whole topic for you guys at the time. Since the other social media had died out and Facebook had out lived all of them; new ones grew and became popular with it all, everyone uses them in different ways, however there’s always one slight problem with that. That is because you will get more scammers, sex offenders and many more that can harm you in one way or another.  You have to be extremely careful in what you do; if something doesn’t sound right or feel right, please report it to your parents and the police even if they tell you not too. They will try everything to get inside your head and control you. 

Star Light Categories – Teen Lifestyle – It’s all coming back to me now – Story Based

There were nights when the wind was so cold like my body had froze in bed; if I had tried to listen to it as it was gusting right outside my bedroom window, I would of hoped to hear your voice once again and maybe give me a clue why you had left me so young. The were even days when the sun was so cruel that all of my tears felt like that they had turned into dust like I just knew my eyes were drying up forever whenever I got bullied; theres was nothing for me to cry because I was already a broken soul, all of the memories just came flooding back to me. 

I remembered the day I had finished crying since the day you left but I can’t remember where, or when or even how. I had banished every memory you and I had ever made; the thought of you coming back to me being a parent once again in my life, you gave me a hug like you never disappeared and you gave me birthday presents like this and now it’s all coming back to me. It’s so hard to believe but it’s all coming back to me. 

There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light in the sky where I sworn  I hold never do again. Yet they’ve always seemed right but there were nights of endless cries but the system had laws that we weren’t allowed to do. All of the fun memories that we made me was all lost long time ago like it was dead to the world. Yet it’s so hard to resist when you walked back into my life I can barely recall all of those days in that moment of dark haunted adoption place. 

There were so many empty threats and hollow lies they told me; that no one wanted me just like my parents did, it hurt me even more worse and so much deeper and there were so many hours that just went on for days. Yet when it came to my new adoptive family came there were so many chances it wouldn’t be me. 

Now that I see the evil women I know now that she’s just a history with the slamming of the door and I made myself strong again and never wasted any of my time on her since then. As it’s all coming back to me from day one entering that house. The flesh and the fantasies of getting out of there I can barely recall but it’s all coming back to me now. 

If I could forgive you for all this and if I can forgive you all that. I might forgive and forget but it’s all coming back to me. When you see me like this as I see you as that I just like to tell you how much hell you put me through because now you know how it feels; you seek for my forgiveness but it’s all coming back to me now. 

Star Light Categories – Teen Lifestyle (26.6.18) – You can have it all – Story Based

I’ll tell you what it’s going to be like once you leave school because when I last saw you on the bus you were just in your uniform and that was that. There was more to meet the eye than passing by; I can tell you what it’s going to be like in five years from now, I saw you on the bus in the distance future I looked at your shoes they were starting to fall apart. I would remember you saying to your friends that you would find someone rich enough to buy me everything that I want. I don’t need grades or anything. 

Coming back to the reality I turned around to tell you that you would need grades and everything just incase you don’t meet the man of your dreams. It won’t be my fault wheather you take my advice or not because I won’t care because I won’t regret a single thing taking my grandfathers advice as I turning my life around at the last minute. I chose to live my life how I want it. 

It will definitely won’t be my fault and I won’t care if you fail to get the life you want at a drop of a hat. I won’t regret a single thing without giving you a warning right now. I can tell you what it’s going to be like if you lost a limb if you threaten someone with a knife; if you leave at night not telling your parents where your going because you think they don’t nothing, yet if you’re alone in the dark bleeding and your parents aren’t there to hold you tight whilst being rushed to hospital.

Leave but I can still tell you what it’s going to be like as I sit by your side at the hospital because I found you bleeding and you held my hand feeling scared. If only they knew or understand that I was your guarding angel; your parents came running in to be at your side, they held your had not even noticing that I was there and brought you in. 

It’s really not my fault and I don’t care how much you blame me for telling you the truth I won’t regret one single thing. You can have it all if you change your life around because it’s alright as I’m going to give you it all to you. You never lied to me before. 

Just as you were about to get off the bus you turned around to say thank you. I had already disappeared where you and I were sitting. You couldn’t work out who you were talking to. 

Star Light Categories: (12.6.18) Tuesday – Teen Lifestyle: Those annoying zits/spots!

You’re probably thinking or screaming “YES! She’s finally posting about the annoying zits/spots!” Every Teens nightmare when they hit puberty what makes it worse is when the heat comes they come out more. Am I right? It’s okay if I’m not because everyone has different make up gene in their body; if you haven’t learnt it in school why not? Or you have and you weren’t listening because you find sciences so boring?

Your probably thinking she’s got perfect skin now and did she have perfect skin when she was a teen. To be quite honest with you I still get spots now and then more so now because of the heat; I absolutely hate them with a passion because they are so unattractive to be honest with you, not as much as on my face because I use loads of make up lotion every morning and then loads of other things before I start with the whole make up routine.

I didn’t have any routine back when I was a teen because there wasn’t anyone out there to inspire me to wear make up or groom myself other than stupid unnecessary hair that’s not meant to be there. This was the early 2000s when I was in my teens because there’s nothing you could do or anything but then I acted like I didn’t care about what I looked but I just convinced myself that I wasn’t pretty enough or anything even though I tried the effort to make myself good about myself.

Spots/zits for me are a pain because I hate it so much especially with the whole massive one on the side of your chin no matter what side it is. There’s alway one where everyone can see it no matter how much make up you put on to cover it as soon as the make up starts to come off if you been working a lot and sweating a lot that’s when you know everyone starts to notice it.

Especially if you’re at school and kids might start picking on you or make fun of you because of it. To be honest you guys have probably got the best outcome of stuff to sort out all of the spots/zits to sort them out than I did. I didn’t even have the patience to stick with the daily things to sort them out. I think I just popped mine when they came but I don’t know if it’s true or not if you’re meant to pop them but I came out fine no scaring or anything. Don’t know who came out with that lie or rumour to be honest with you.

If you know the reason why you shouldn’t pop them do let me know because I never understood that one even to this day and I’m a whole lot older than you guys. I’m useless at talking about things like this when I blank things out when I was teen; I’m quite good at blanking my past out to be honest, if you want to me do anymore about these types of things do comment below I’ll try and be as useful as I can be.

Teen Lifestyle: Clothing Range, Prom Clothing, Make Up changed since I was a teen. (2001-2010 my teen years)

Over the last 8 years since 2010 had arrived the new decade had arrived thousand of new clothing line, make up, prom clothing have changed since my time when I was a teen. Things have changed since the complete 2000 had arrived; I started secondary school/high school to some people but we call it secondary school in the U.K. however I started secondary in 2001 in September, through the time of school and college clothing and make up industries were still trying to work out what to make millennium a house hold name for itself.

It was trying come out of the 90’s to which they were trying to do the cross over; it still wasn’t much until now where you can actually find your own dress sense, more range of make up and a lots more ranges of prom dresses now then there was back in my day. There’s plenty to chose from and being able to feel you. I guess theses days now fashion has become more adaptable to what people actually want; they are getting there in lots of different areas from one generation to another generation suiting for everyone needs, which is really nice and cool. 

I really like the prom dresses that have been coming out every year; I’m like my god they are so pretty I wish I had these back in my day, there wasn’t enough out there back then and everything. I ended up with a black mesh over a cream lining; I’m sorry I don’t have a picture of it or  me wearing it, I’m quite luckily I don’t have one saved on here because I’m quite conconsious about how look in it and what I was quite insecure back then. 

I thought I was fat back then but I was actually quite slim back then and I have put weight on over the years since then. I guess bodies changes over the years and what not. When I was a teen I didn’t wear much make up or anything like that over the years then like I said there wasn’t much make up back that then. I did have make up back then but it didn’t appeal to me back then; I just didn’t understand much back then as I didn’t have anyone telling me how to do it or anything back then, however I know more now and how to do it making me feeling comfortable with myself. 

I didn’t have much money back then because I didn’t work and etc obviously until I left college 2011. That’s when I started to earn money and being able to do things for myself; that’s when I started to work on myself, finding my way in life as a young 20 year old at the time who just finished education and etc. 

I believe that teens of today have got more freedom and money to be able to do things today than I use to have back then. It’s goes to show how much things changed the first 10 years of 2000 and now. It’s about the times changing over the years and also there’s things that I would of done when I could. The fact that there’s things you guys can’t do now what I use to do; especially with new houses being built, and etc. 

Teens lifestyle: “See you again” – Story Based

I got my sight set on you and I’m ready to aim like I have a heart that will never be tamed. I knew that you were something special when you spoke my name and now I can’t wait to see you again. I’ve got a way of knowing when something is right like I feel that I must have known you in another life because I felt this deep connection when you looked into my eyes. Now I can’t wait to see you again.

It’s like a film that every teen girl watches because the last time I freaked out I just kept on looking down as I stuttered as you stroked my hair when you asked me what I was thinking about. It like felt like I couldn’t breathe once again you asked me what was wrong with me; my best friend Lilly said “oh she’s just being Miley”, the next time we hang out I will have redeem myself but my heart it can’t rest until then I can’t wait to see you again.

I got this feeling deep inside as my phone rang and it was you calling me to ask me tomorrow night; I’m not a mind reader but I can read the signs that you can’t wait to see me again, my anxiety is tripping out like I want to but I don’t want to but knowing your fine with me and you help me calm down.

I just can’t wait to see you again that I can’t control my excitement but with butterflies in my stomach. I know you would come running to me to calm me down. Your my guardian angel and I can’t wait to see you again.

Teen Lifestyle: “I kissed a girl” – Story Based

I woke up this morning thinking this was never the way I planned not even my intention but I got to be brave; as I’m hanging out by the fence of the bike shed with you but I lost my discretion, this is not what I’m not use to but I just want to try it on you and you agreed to let me try.

I kissed a girl and I liked it. The taste of her cherry chapstick still on my lips in my science lesson as I bit my lips thinking about that kiss; I couldn’t believe that I kissed a girl to try it, I hope my boyfriend don’t mind it even though it felt so wrong but it so right and it doesn’t mean I’m in love tonight as I came home from school. Laying on my bed thinking about kissing a girl that day and I liked it.

Your name stayed in my head but it doesn’t matter because your my experimental game. It’s just human nature even though it’s not what good girls do it’s not how they should be behave. Yet my head gets so confused it’s hard to obey our thoughts when we are so magical with soft skin, red lips and so kissable. It’s hard to resist it and resisting the most touchable thing. It’s too good to deny it so why is such a big deal; it’s innocent thing to do of falling in love with someone who’s the same sex as you, just need to get over it as this is now the 22nd century not the 21st anymore and the world is changing.

Teen Lifestyle: Violence is not the answer to life

You will hear things in the news or play video games or watch violent films thinking that it’s so cool or they are awful things. To be quite frankly violence on the streets and towns are not okay; by coping things from video games or watching violent films are not okay because it’s not cool or anything like that, you won’t get 9 lives on a game and come back to life, once your dead your dead in real life and there is only a few that make it through the injuries but that’s because people who maybe near by witness or find the person who needs help to get to the hospital. Then it’s either a risk if they survive it or not but at least their family members know that they are in hospital and be there. 

Violence is never the answer in life you can be arrested and be in prison for the rest of your life because at the end of the day you won’t be able to break out of jail or no one else will break you out. In this real world it doesn’t work like that in a non real world I’m sorry to break it to you guys who think it is. 

It ruins your life, love ones and many more this is because you think it’s okay to do it if your favourite character from a film or favourite game or just to impress a gang it’s not okay. Knife crime, gun crime and any other sort of crime that can bodily harm another human being is wrong. Furthermore attacking elderly people is wrong as well or robbing them is wrong why should they be the ones victimised when we should be helping them out. 

Don’t go swearing off or act like your one of those people who think your all it because at the end of the day what are you trying to prove? Respect or something. If you want respect you have to treat other people with respect the way they want to be respected and they will give it to you back the way you want it. Violence isn’t the answer to any of these solutions. 

Respect

R – Reverence 

E – Esteem 

S – Show Courtesy 

P – Point

E – Estimation 

C – Consideration 

T – Tribute 

Teen Lifestyle: “Bet on it” – Story Based

Better late than never but I did say this week was a hit and miss with blogs not being on different days due to being ill at the start of the week. (Ill on 30.4.18) 

You sit in class or college interviews or college open evenings; yet you find that everybody’s always talking to you trying to get into your head but all you want to do is listen to your own heart talking, and need to count on yourself instead of everyone else telling you what you can and can’t do. 

Do you ever lose yourself of getting what you want? Did you ever want to get on a ride then realise you just want to get off? Did you ever push away the ones away that you’ve should’ve of held close to you? Did you ever let go somewhere along the line? Did you ever not know what to do with your life? 

The fact that you’re not going to stop because that’s not who you are; you just have to give it all even if that’s what you got as it’s your only plan, will you ever find what you have lost? Deep down you know you can because you can bet on it bet on yourself because that’s what you want to make it right for yourself; that’s the only way to turn your life around as today is the day, your that type of person who means what they have to say and you can bet on it.

How will you known if there’s a path worth taking? Should you question every move you make? Yet with all that you have lost you feel like you’re heart is breaking but you don’t want to make the same mistake. 

The same question keeps on spinning around in you’re head like did you ever doubt your dream will come true? Did you ever blame the world, but never blame yourself? You will never try to live a lie again because you don’t want to win this game if you can’t play it your way. 

Your not going to stop for being who you are; all you got to do is to give it all you got even if you find what you lost because you know you can by betting on it, as you want to make it right as it’s the only way to turn your life around and that day is today. You know perfectly well you’re that type of person who means what you got to say. You know you can bet on it. 

Hold up give me room to think as you got to bring it down to you’re options by practicing you’re swing of doing your own thing; it’s no good if all your see yourself but in someone else is dream but not yours, however you got to go out on your own even if the world is such a scary place and all the answers to you’re questions all inside of you. All you got to do is to believe in yourself that you can do it.

Teen Lifestyle: “You belong To Me” – Story Based

I’m sitting near by on a bench at school with my friends I can hear you on you’re phone with your girlfriend because she’s upset as she’s going off about something that you once said yet she doesn’t get you’re humour like I do. We hang out in my room on typical Tuesday night listening to the kind of music that she doesn’t like and she’ll never know your story like I do. 

She wears short skirts I wear t-shirts but she’s a cheer leader captain and I’m on the bleachers bench taking pictures yet dreaming about the day when you wake up and find what you’re looking for has been here the whole time. If you could see that I’m the one who understands you and I’ve been here all along standing beside you the whole time. So why can’t you see that you belong to me. 

We walk in the streets with you in your worn out jeans I can’t help but thinking this is how it ought to be; laughing on a park bench thinking to myself “hey, isn’t this easy?” And all you’ve got to do is a smile that could light up this whole town because I haven’t seen it in a while since she’s brought you down. Yet you say you’re fine I know you better than that but you know what I’m going to say. Hey what you doing with a girl like that? 

She wears high heels that can break her neck I wear sneakers that won’t break my neck. She’s a cheerleader captain and I’m sitting on the bleachers bench taking photos for the school. I’m just dreaming about the day that when you finally wake up and find what you’re looking for has been here the whole time.

Standing by and waiting for me at my backdoor all this time how could you not know that you belong with me. I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night; I’m the one who makes you laugh when you know you’re about to cry, I know all of you’re favourite songs and you tell me about your dreams and I know where you belong and to think I know it’s me.

Have you ever thought maybe you belong with me? You belong with me.