Life On The Open Road – Daily Positive In Life – Nearly cried in the first 5 minutes

Within the first 5 minutes of the semi finals of England and Croatia I nearly burst out crying with joy when a footballer scored in the penalty within first five minutes. When they played a clip of fans in Hyde Park cheered so loud that they chucked their beer up in the air when we scored. 

I gave up in the end watching it due to getting a headache also one of my parents started to shouted at the tv. Yes I know so many times the team had tried to score and be head of the team already but don’t need to shout at the tv. When it comes to the semi finals everyone wants to win the semi finals due to the fact that it’s a lot harder than you think. 

The last time I checked as I’m currently writing this blog is England 1 and Croatia 1 this was at 20:45pm GMT it seems to be a tight game at the moment. Everywhere is quiet no cars on the roads just sitting very still; every so often a car goes by but the first time in years, everyone is glued to the seats, biting their nails, becoming stressed and anxious due to this game. 

I’m actually enjoying the peace and quiet at last for once. Well while it lasts anyways  I still believe in the boys to win it; they are creating their own history forgetting about the past history, bringing it forward to the new decade and century that should of been done all those years ago. 

I’m so proud of Gareth Southgate and all of the boys they have literally made history of the decade even this century; they made a name for themselves playing all their games to the best of their abilities, and most importantly they made England great again and proud of what they have done. They have literally gave us hope, belief, proud and all of the positive words that we can all think off.

I don’t understand why people went straight to twitter and be so negative about it all; they did us proud, they represented us to the point off knowing that we can achieve things. They proved that for all the young players coming up; squished all the bad negativity vibes of the past, we need to stop living in the past and live in the present. 

This is the day (11.7.18) we move forward not backwards. We need a lot of positivity in this country all over the country. Don’t need to bring up the government, Brexit and the pig coming to the country.  We are just proud of what our team have done for us; they have been on the front line for us, so don’t yell at the tv thinking you know best but as soon as your on the pitch or whatever you’re  doing in your job that’s literally on the front line. The pressure is on you and you don’t know nothing. Just be proud of your English team no matter whatever it is. Rant of the negativity over! 

Everyday Online Diary Entries – (7.7.18) Saturday – You’re not sure what your grandparent is on?

Literally on a roll with these blogs today (7.7.18) just rolling off my thumbs as I’m typing away giving you as much content as I can today. Today I’ve over slept due to the fact that I didn’t get to sleep until 2:45am in the morning and what not. Today has to be a funny one I really mean it let me explain. 

I spent an hour at a fun day then spent a few hours with an grandparent who has dementia; not sure what they are on but they are on something in fits of laugher not even sure what I do to people, I do it with the children I work with just send them into hysterics must be me or something. 

Another fun fact is that England are in the semifinals in the World Cup football is coming home; it’s coming home its coming, football is coming home. Come on  Croatia you can win this football match. To be fair I think the reason why we haven’t played Russia yet and hope not is because what’s happening at the moment in England. To be honest I hope Russia go out to be honest because I think they cheat in their games. 

Today of all days has turned out to be a positive day to be honest out in the sunshine, having a laugh with a grandparent who has dementia and just being happy and free of things today. What have you guys been up too today? Who’s proud of the youngest England team winning all of their games except one? 

#throwbackthursday: What have you done today to make you feel proud?

As you may of guessed my head hasn’t really been with it this week as much like last week but I’m slightly getting there I think. She says with few red marks on the outside of her elbow arm on the radiator that was on; didn’t really think much off it to be honest because I was happily colouring in my next picture that I had made, along with watching something on the Really app yeah I could feeling it burning but didn’t really think much off it. That’s what you get for not wearing long sleeves.
However with the whole what have you done today to make you feel proud? Well I manage to do a days work with two shifts morning and afternoon with a same driver and the a supposed run at lunch time but cancelled whilst on it haha but hey get paid for it. Even though I didn’t really fancy working at all today to be honest but someone has to earn money don’t they.
In the mist of people making it out that it’s my fault for things as per normal but I managed to create a new picture and corrected it somehow but not sure if I like it or not heyho. Still in the works but I’ve also made a healthy dinner this evening for myself; I know people me craving health food when I’m also craving junk food at the same time, I definitely need my head scanned to see if I’m feeling alright haha.
What have you done today to make yourself feel proud? I would love to know to be honest but I know you guys won’t comment haha. Unless you do then I’m proud of you that you made yourself proud that you achieved something.

Everyday Post: Playing around with stamps to create art work

Your probably thinking why would she use postage stamps to create art work; it would be expensive hobby to do if she did it that way, but be interesting to see what she came out with. Good idea but WRONG! Due to my expensive hobby of crafting when I have my moments however I was given an Paperchase Sketch pad for my birthday a few months ago; I thought I really want to do something really nice in there but what can I do, I know my drawings are pretty rubbish but still and that’s when I realised that I had craft stamps in a box.
The fact is that I enjoy art very much in my own time when I’m feeling like I want to do something nice for a change and keep my mind occupied for awhile. It’s one of my go to things at the moment just to take my mind of things; I thought I’ll give the craft stamps ago to create a picture using the stamps that I have, I did trial and errors to begin with which turned out alright but then I got the idea of what I was going and started to think and plan in what I want to do.

This is my first proper planned design piece that I’ve done to which I actually liked the most because I thought about it and what colours would go with it. To begin with I wasn’t too sure how it would turn out; as I was going along finishing colouring it all in, and once it had finished I looked at it. I thought this is awesome I like this very much indeed. If I did my art GCSE again and they would let us use craft stamps or something that involved them I would be so in for it. Doing lots of pictures and scenes without a problem yeah it might be called cheating but arts and crafts is still art at the end of the day it’s still your own piece of work at the end of the day.
I’m currently in the midst of doing this one at the moment and I’m enjoying every moment of it because I picked out what I wanted then placed them where I wanted them. Making the castle as a centre
piece of the picture like it’s in the woods. I will share with you what it would be like after it’s completed.

 

Online Diary Entries: “When I grow up” – based on a story

As I was growing up boys would call you sexy you just walked on by with a flatter smile or just give them a look to say “oh really” like you actually don’t care; you see every time you turn around you would scream to get my attention, yet I wasn’t interested in that sort of thing even if I should have done and now that I’ve got a confession. When I was young I pretended that I didn’t want attention but secretly I actually wanted attention from all the boys; I promised myself that I’d do anything to not get noticed but wish I did, then again I ain’t complaining now because I like my little lot of admires and I like my attention that I’m getting.

Then at that age we all wanted to be famous and date stars knowing that its all too good to be true. Yet now go ahead and say what you want to say because you know what it’s like to be nameless; you might as well make them know that know what your name is, when I was younger I knew what I wanted to say then and my dream was at the age.

This what I would of said when I was younger; when I grow up I want be famous, I want to be an star, and I want to be in movies. My closes guy friend once said to me was “when I grow up I want to see the world, drive nice cars and I want groupies” another girl replies “when I grow up be on tv where people know me read about me on magazines” and another girl replies “when I grow up I want to be fresh and clean be the number one chick who steps out onto the scene”

Yet you have to be careful what you wish for because you might actually get it; you just might get it but people use to tell me that I was silly, until I popped up on tv in their living room making them drop their cups off tea or coffee and I always wanted to be a superstar and knew singing songs would get me this far.

They never told you to be careful what you wish for because you might actually get it. Now that I see them staring at me because I’m such a trendsetter all I can say is yes this is true because what I do no one can do it better; you talk about me like I’m a hot topic but yet I see you watching me back then thinking I wasn’t going to do anything with my life, but now your watching me like “I wish I gave you the benefit of the doubt knowing how much you wanted it”

Teenagers Life Crisis: We are Who we are

Mama, mama, mama made me the way I am; my face, my face, my eyes could someone turn me up because I’m going to be speaking my mind. I’ve been waisting a lot of time looking in mirrors hating on me but now I like what I see. I know, I know that I will never be perfect but I’m going to work it now all I need is to let it go and you need to let it do. So put your new shoes on the new you.

We are who we are. Pretty just a pretty word; I’m gonna shine like a star because I’m the only me in this world, throw away all the books and the magazines I will never going to be like a beauty queen. I’m just going to be doing it for me and no one else. Mama, mama, mama made the way I am she had told me that I should looks up to the world with my head held high. As I’ve been wasting a lot of time looking at myself in the mirrors and hating on me now I like what I see.

I wake up every morning I look at myself in the mirror I like who I see because I know I’m just pretty than the rest of them. In the evening I carry on feeling the true meaning of me and when I go to the mirror I can tell that I’m tired of being strong all day long and just cry but sometimes I feel perfectly fine feeling happy with myself. On top of the mountain felt like we weren’t meant to come or be welcome here at all as everyone would look at us; but guess what I don’t care I like who we are, so to me it doesn’t matter if we’ve over stepped the mark or that we are not allowed to be in the party of being who we are.

There should be a reason to copy other people just to make us feel good; in every season I’ll take everyone’s name down in my jealous book because they are just jealous of who I am not who they are, I am just strong independent person like everyone else who knows who they are. I’m just a pretty girl who can do all the same things as they can; just choose not to do it but yet I do it in my own personal way with my friends, who love me for me not like a fake person you see around in groups.

Brick By Boring Brick

So I’ve basically just pulled a all nighter; can’t sleep, can’t breathe, too cold and yet I’m too warm.

It’s all about the heads in the cloud; don’t think this is your fault, that I can’t sleep because I’m trying to rescue you from your ivory tower. Your walls are full of magic; if this is true, I’m coming for you as I’m coming to tackle your nightmares because I’m here to protect you from them. You don’t have to be scared no more. 

This might be crazy what I’m going to say, with the air that will take us away. If the happiness is the truth; but it comes with bad news talking about this and that, just clap along if you know if the happiness is too you. You can’t bring me down because your love is too high; if there’s no room without a roof, you know what that is. As the love is too high! 

Even though we are building by boring brick; yet we both know we hate this part, I thought we are stronger than this. I hate this part right here. Everyday of every scene; we telling each other whats hurting us, from being so apart. I know you hate this part right here. I know you will ask me to hold on for a bit longer; I will ask you the same, I’m not going to leave you no matter what. 

We can walk like a champion as we are young and free; somewhere you hold yourself, walk like a champion talk like a champion. We got nothing to loose because we’ve got two things on our side; we have each other’s love, we got one most important thing. We’ve got one special lady keeping us together; nobody does it better than she does, I know that she would want us to fight the system. With all of the crazy things we are trying to do; I know that I cant go back to the way it was, I don’t think you want to go back to the way it was. 

With the room that has no roof on. We are giants. When I look into your eyes and when you look into my eyes. Its just you and I. There are giants across the water; I could see someone sitting on one of the giants, we are giants in our hearts. As we build by boring brick; not just any building by boring brick, we are building the love into people’s lives. I whisper into your ear. I can’t shake this feeling off. That’s what they don’t know because I’m building with the love boring bricks with you; because I’m not shaking it off, I know who’s not shaking it off. Have a look over where the giants are. 

I light up the sky above you; I’m not going to fade away from you, because you and me will be standing right by side of each other. I’m not leaving you no matter; I’m going to fight this, we are going to rule the world as the stars are coming out tonight. They are lighting the sky tonight just for you; as I’m staying by your side as the sky is being lit up, by the stars for you. For you. 

Rumour has it, rumour has it, I didn’t stay up all night to get all this done. Rumour has it, rumour has it, you have made my heart melt with your loving and smile. Along with the frown that I keep on telling you to stop doing that; because that I had said it, I didn’t really meant it. Rumour has it, rumour has it, that theres a whisper in the wind with the words with your name on it. 

I love you; as my heart burst again, just thinking of you and seeing you on my screen. Seeing your face light up; making me feel proud of you, with the smile on your face. You may have my number; you may have my name, but you can have my heart more than ever. You go where I go. I go where you go. Would you see what I see. Your loving eyes melts my worries as my loving eyes melts all of your worries. As we standing tall together and let the skyfall around us. 

Charity work you can do

Wanting to do something good with your life; there’s lots of things that you could do in your spare time, loads of official charities out there that you can help. 


The worst feeling is that your not 100 percent sure in what you want to do with your life; better still your waiting for prince or princess charming to come and get you, so that you don’t have to go to work or do anything. Have that luxury life that everyone else has; think about the children, the poor, the needy and the helpless. You may have a home to go to; family that care for you, still have loads of opportunities to give a try. What do the people who are in need have? Think about it whilst your reading this. 

Over the years I have helped with charities such like Children In Need a well known charity in England; my local charity called Challengers, and last but least a special needs school who has become academy trust within a year called Pond Meadow which is a local school in my hometown. When I was growing up I had lots of big aspirations; meaning there was lots of things that I wanted to do, but no one really believed in me. 

Well the teachers at school because I was in the bottom two sets; so they didn’t really care much about me and my grades, however since I’ve left school I still didn’t know what I wanted to do. First college didn’t really believe in me either; so I gave up trying my hardest to do that course, that was when I went to another college and that college helped me to turn my life around.

They helped me to believe in myself; along side them believe in me, I managed to work hard to get good grades, help me to focus on my creativity. You’re probably thinking why has this got anything to do with charities and helping people. I can tell you right now; it has everything to do with charities because if I believed in myself to do things when no one else would, I wouldn’t be doing what I am doing now.

Working with special needs children I provided them hope, encourage them, do things that they thought it would be impossible to do. They were being giving the life that everyone else had; believe me the things that I have witnessed, helped and made them do lots of progress. It made their day and your day one hundred percent good one even if there was things that couldn’t be helped. 

All I am saying is that if your struggling to know what you wanting to do in life after school or college; why not become a volunteer or a place that you become a paid volunteer, to gain some work experience and also give you some sort of direction in where you want to go in life. 

Here are some few ideas you may want to check out:

  • Local Charities
  • Children in Need 
  • Sports Relief
  • Comic Relief/Red Nose Day
  • National Trust 
  • English Heritage
  • Helping children in Africa

Remember me talking about my best friend Caspian; well he had asked me to help with one of his charities, to which I manage to scrape some money together out of my own pocket. Sent it to a country in Africa called Nigeria; I had received some photos, from the person who was on Caspian’s team through him of course and in the pictures they had shown me what they had received. I do have to say is that I am so pleased that they have got something that they truly enjoy the most. To also have a childhood that like everyone else. 

Do something to make will make yourself proud and seeing other people smile as they are being heard and listen to. Its that feeling of great sense of feeling to have when you have made someone’s day. 

How to conquer fears and self doubts!


The point of sleeping is that you were meant to be asleep but due to the heat I was up very early indeed; so I thought hey let’s get most of my blogs done or get some of them started so that by the time it’s gets so hot, I can stop and chill until its cool enough to do more. Let’s see how that plans out shall we. 

Everyone has fears and self doubts but people who say they don’t are calling themselves liars; no one is perfect, everyone has fears and doubts about things. If people saying to I don’t have any fears or any doubts; don’t believe them unless they can prove it to you that aren’t, if otherwise they are lying to you. They are just big headed people; who are just so up themselves that, they don’t care about anyone else but themselves. 

With me when my fears and self doubts kick in I beat myself self up for a few days; not quite like that but oh you know what I mean, jeez guys come on you know me. Can I just explain what I mean about how I conquer my fears and self doubts please? Thank you. I’ll give you a couple of my fears and self doubts as examples to help you picture it more clearly than a plain written texts sitting right in front of you; to which isn’t fun what so ever, other than someone like me telling you to just get over it. I’m not that sort of a person; I’ll guide you in the way it is a positive direction, so that when you take on theses challenges you can say I did that because someone believed in me and I believed in myself to do so. Yeah I believe in everyone who puts their mind to it. 

Okay for me my main massive fear is heights. Heights are like the most deadliest fear of mine in the world; you may think I’m going over the top with this, I wish I was but I’m not honest because I can’t bare the thought of something being so high and you have to climb it. Yet I push myself to do it as much as I can but when the time is right; all I have to do is I can’t do it anymore, there are times that I can do so many but when I know that I’ve put myself through enough I would break down crying because I know I’ve done what I can. This is whole height business is never going; even if you paid me I wouldn’t do it because I will not just get over it in any hurry, I can promise you that. 

But however I can say is that if you are determined to do something that you have a fear off; go and do it be brave, don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do it or tell yourself that you can’t do it. That’s called self doubting yourself in the long run; to which I do a lot but I can conquer things like that, where as soon as a fear starts to come in weather it’s a job interview, my writing isn’t good enough or anything that I might endure as a fear and then come out of it to think “oh I don’t think that went well” or “my writing isn’t good enough” but yet at the end of the day you get the job and your writing is really good look how many views you’ve got already. 

By realising that your in that flight and fright mood; your thinking what the hell was that about, nothing good really happens to me?, have they got the right person who is this person that they wanted to see and read about? All you have to do is believe this you can do it no matter whatever throws at you.

Got to see my godmother!


Got to see my godmother!

I have to say today let’s scrap the introduction for this week as I just want to do it all in one this week; as I have a massive announcement but the title gives it away, quite a lot though. However also it might even given you the surprise of that I was actually baptised; yes I don’t believe in it all but my godparents are there for their uses at times, especially one that you don’t see as much. 

The last time I saw my godmother was about 2008; at that time it was still awarkard but it was nice to be able to spend of time with her with the family, 9 years later my godmother and her husband now adoptive godfather came back over from all the way from Australia as they’ve moved over there 18 years ago. When they came over my godfather was nagging me everyday since they arrived back been nagging me to come to their get together of old familiar faces that knew them on 26th May 2017, on which I did actually go to it was actually quite special even more special that being with but also I was lot closer to my great gran as it was her house to begin all those years ago. 

I had fun memories of going round there every day; sitting, playing and being with her up until she passed away, I think she might of passed away when I was about 3/4 years old before my sister was born. My sister and cousin never really got to meet her as they were born later in the 90’s; however the house went to two good people over the years, where they looked after it well and most of all I could go round there anytime I wanted because I know the people who are currently in the house. It went from my great nan’s house to my godparents to lovely people who I grew up to know through the church that I went to personally but I don’t believe in it. However I believe having both sets of godparents; it’s nice to have the balance of views, more to go to sort of people. My other set of godparents are my uncle and aunt; I have gone to them over the years but due to the certain stances, it’s been tricky for them well my aunt. 

However I am going to miss my godparents; as they have now gone back to Australia, my godfather’s next trick is to get me to come to Australia and visit them. Not too sure how that’s going to happen; as I’ve never been on airplane nore I like heights, so it’s going be difficult for him to convince me to go and visit them. Haha.