Online Diary Entries: Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land with a pen in my hand and my notebook in the other like they knew the pathway to where we needed to be. I felt the earth beneath my bare feet as I sat by the river and it made me feel complete. Oh simple thing where have you gone? I am here to talk to you because I’m getting tired of the life that I’m leading I need someone to rely on have you found someone for me as I came across a fallen tree that use to be yours; I felt like the branches where looking at me, I wrote in my notebook as I sat on your tree. Is this the place we use to love? Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of? I can’t see your little doors anymore or the door that you made me to climb in.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I’m getting old and I need something to rely on. If you have a minute why don’t we go back to where you are now as we can talk about it only somewhere we know. This could be the end of everything if we don’t meet; your my peace my everything, so why don’t we go to your land through that door of yours. Somewhere only we know so that no one can find us for hours.

Let me finish your story in my notebook. I like it when you sit on my shoulder and flying around getting excited that I’m there looking over my shoulder trying to read what I have written. Oh simply thing where have you gone? Oh there you are you cleverly disguised yourselves as dandelions; you did your magic with lots of pixie dust, so no one can come in or see what’s happening around me. I’m glad that we are back into somewhere only we know.

Online Diary Entries: Standby Me

There’s nothings impossible where there’s nothing unreachable when I’m so weary; you made me stronger due to your beautiful love that you give me which is unforgettable, I feel none of the winters cold when we are together. Immediately upon your touch, warmth, kindness and protection will you stand by me? Hold me and never let me go? Will you stand by me? Where I’m with you I know where I belong when our story gets told.

When the day turns into the night I look into your eyes I see my future now; all of the world and it’s wonders, I know this love won’t fade away even through the darkest and hardest days that we faced and going to face. I know now I will never question us anymore as you’re the reason and my only reason to keep on living. I am blessed to find what I need because you bring me back to life; like the world is loosing hope around us. You’re my only belief, you make things right everytime I need you like you risk it all for me like running in the fire for me after the time I do the same for you.

Stand by me. Stand by me. As I call in the winds as you can hear my voice with the rain acting as my tears; would you stand by me as I stand by you?, no more loneliness my darling you don’t have to be scare anymore. Just say I want you by my side and I’ll be there straight away like you are always there for me.

Online Diary Entries: Breathless

If you believe this or you don’t it’s up too you. I like to share my emotions and feelings in this story for the Online Diary Entries.

If I knew what I know now that our love was a fairy tale back then I would take charge and rescue you then on a yacht baby I know we would sail far away to a island where we say I do. We make the island our own and if we have children they would so look like you because you’re awesome, special, sexy and hot. You don’t even know how very special you are to me; you leave me breathless as your my everything that is good in my life, every time your picture comes up or you come into the room you leave me breathless.

I know that I can’t believe that you’re mine even when you have to leave to go out for the day you kiss me leaving me breathless. Our love is was written like a story book; where would it start? Would it start on the very first page on how we met or how I would dream about you all the time? You choose how to start it as it’s your story on how I walked into your life. The last chapter would be about how we are thankful we choose this life that we made together.

You must think I was sent from the heaven to earth to change you but actually you changed me because your like my angel; the thing that u feel is stronger than love believe me when I say “you’re something special to me” I only hope that one day I should deserve what you’ve given me but all I can do is try in my everyday life.

The fact that I love you more than anything in the world and leave me breathless every time.

Saturday Online Diary Entries: I don’t need a man

Wether you believe or don’t or you can relate to this. It’s up to you but this is story based on my emotions and etc that I use in this story. To which I know the truth behind it all.

As I work I see you looking at me like I’ve got something for you and the way you seem to dare because I’m not about to give it you straight away. The more I start to begin to trust you with things in which you know how difficult it is for me to open up but there’s things that I won’t do; you know how afraid I am to tell you like I don’t ever want to leave you, yet I have to leave you and you get confused in why I say that.

Then more you try lie about things to keep me by yourself the less I buy it; no matter how many times you hurt me, I don’t have to think it through no more if you know if I’m not into you anymore. I always telling myself I don’t need a man to make it happen because I get off being free. I don’t need a man to make me feel good I get off doing my thing. I don’t need a ring around my finger to make me feel complete. So let me break it down I can get off when you ain’t around.

You know I got my own life and I bought everything that’s in it. So if you want to be with me it’s not all about the bling that you bring; I want a love that’s for real, without that no deal and baby I don’t need a hand. If it only wants to grab one thing. The more you try to get me back the less I buy it and I don’t have to think it through because you know if I’m feeling you.

I don’t need a man at the time to get me through because I know I’m fine because I feel brand new. I don’t know need a man I’ll make it through because I know I’m fine I feel brand new. I don’t need a man I’ll make it through because I’m fine without.

Thursday Online Diary Entries: Week today starts the Valentines Challenge (Vomit ahaha)

The fact that I thought I had another week left of January I thought man I’m struggling here; then I soon realised that this time next week will be 1st February 2018, the start of 14 Days Valentines Challenge and I thought what a plonker Rodney.

Yes it’s right first Challenge of the year this year for 2018 what’s the best way but to kick it off with Valentines Challenge ay. I wasn’t too sure wether I was going to do this Challenge or not because I hate Valentine’s Day for lots of reasons and I thought no Lizzy you will do this challenge no matter how much you hate it.

I have made a list of 14 days of titles for each day to write for and it will be schedule for each day until we reach to the final day. When I say schedule for each day it could be or could just be written on the day who knows. I prefer to schedule you them to be honest it’s one lest thing to worry about at the end of the day.

To be honest I should be writing them now as we speak to be honest but they can wait for another a day. As I’m struggling to write the rest of the weeks blogs this week as I was on a roll to begin with but seem to have stopped. Ah well you got to win and loose some don’t we.

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: Footprints in the sand.

In a memory of someone that I have recently lost and the rest of my family.

You walked with me along the sand; as I could see you’re footprints in the sand and helped me to understand where I’m going. You walked with me as I was alone with so much unknown along the way; then I heard you say “I promise you I’m always there. When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair I’ll carry you even when you need a friend. You’ll find my footprints in the sand”

I see my life flash across the sky so many times have I been so afraid and just when I thought I’d lost my way. However you gave me strength to carry on that’s when I knew you found the rest of the family and someone else who’s close to me and someone else. That’s when I heard you say “I promise you. I’m always there when your heart is filled with sorrow and despair. I’ll carry you when you need a friend. You will find an extra footprints in the sand even if your weary I will know that you’ll be there.”

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Jars Of Hearts

Whatever you think if this is true or not it’s your opinion. I share my emotions and etc through my stories and I know the truth.

I know I can’t take one more step towards you because all of this waiting is regret but I know that Caspian, TP and Terry are my strong, will power and to see me through. I just need to tell you that I don’t want to be your ghost anymore; you can’t have the love that I love most, I’ve learned to live half alive and now you want me to break one more time.

Who do you think you are? Running around leaving scars and collecting your jars of hearts. Tearing love apart because you think you have it all; all I can wish for is you to catch a cold from the ice that’s inside your soul or to drop dead from your cold blooded heart. So don’t come back for me as I’m already gone way before you arrived; only my close friends just got it back for me, yet I hear you asking around and if I am anywhere to be found. I have grown far to strong and well protected to ever fall back into your clutches. Who do you think you are? Keep on asking for me. When you been told not to reach me or contact me.

It’s took me so long just to feel alright; remember how Caspian had put back the lights in my eyes, the fact that the first time we kissed and you didn’t like that one bit. You broke all of your promises and now you’re back to try and get me back for stealing your one true dream. All I can say is you will never get him back because we all know what we can do to ruin your reputation.

Day 23 Christmas Log Blog: “We belong together” Diary Online Entries

Weather you believe this or you don’t it’s your own opinion but I know the truth and some of my close friends know the truth too.

I didn’t mean it whenever I said I didn’t love you so; I knew I should of held on tight but I should of never let you go because I didn’t know nothing, I was stupid, I was foolish and I was lying to myself. I wouldn’t be still here without your love never imagined I’d be sitting here by myself. Guess I didn’t know you, guess I didn’t know me but I thought I knew everything but I never felt that I’m feeling now that I don’t hear your voice or have your touch and your kiss on the lips. I don’t have a choice what I could give to have you lying by my side right here.

When you left I knew I had lost a part of me; it’s still so hard to believe even when I ask come back baby please, because we belong together. Who else am I going lean on when times get rough? Who’s going to talk me out on the phone till the sun comes up? Who’s going to take your place because there’s ain’t nobody better than you? We belong together.

I can’t sleep at night when you are on my mind; Bobby Womack’s on the radio singing to me, if you think you’re lonely now? Wait a minute this is too deep, too deep. I got to change the station so I can turn the dial trying to catch a break and then I hear the baby face. I only think of you it just breaks my heart I’m falling apart; I’m feeling all out of my element I’m throwing things, whilst crying trying to figure out where the hell I went wrong. The pain reflected in this story ain’t even half of what I’m feeling inside; I need you, I need you back into my life.

28 Of 30 Days Challenge for Autumn: Diary Online: Hold up the Light

Once again I like to remind you that it’s your choice to believe this is true or not. It’s your opinion at the end of the day and I know what’s true or not as I’m the one writing it off course.

You can dance if you like you can sing every kind of every song but there is no reason for you to steal the show because it’s your show all along. As the orchestra plays the people are starting to take their seats; some people have been turned away as there’s no room left in this house. It’s just you and me left to take the seats in the box and if your life is your stage I’ll be watching.

I hold up a light for you and baby you can hold up for me. So I can be watching you coming through the darkness glee of the tunnel; as the light was getting higher in everything that you do, we had started to rehearse every scene and the on lookers were listening after we had realised that they were. I knew that we were in the exactly the right place; the tears had started to fall down on your face, for me to wipe away and kiss your wet lips.

Day 25 Of 30 Days Challenge for Autumn: Online Diary Entries: Revisit – Look at what you made me do

Kindly would like to remind you that this is my opinion and you have the right to believe this or not as you have a opinion as well. I won’t judge you but please respect other people’s opinions and mine when you comment if you wish to do so. This is a Revisit of my previous look at what you made me do.

“I’m sorry you found the old lizzy in this diary. I’m sorry that I can’t come today do you know why?”

“Why?”

“Oh, because the old herself is dead”

I don’t like your little games anymore; as you damaged my life even more so like you can’t even tell, don’t like your titled stage because the role you made me play like the fool of someone who doesn’t know what’s going on. No I don’t like you and I don’t like your perfect crime. How you laugh when you lie to my face like the gun was mine. This isn’t cool no and I don’t like you. Yet at least I’ve got smarter and harder in the nick of time as I rose up from the dead and I’ll do it all the time over and over again.

I’ve got a list of names and yours can you see is underlined in red. I’ll be Mrs Claus I check it once and then I’ll check it twice. Oh! I don’t like your kingdom keys anymore as they had once use to be mine; you asked if I had a place to stay, yet I told you that the world moves on another day another drama and guess what but not for me as I’m going to take on the world because all I can think about is karma. I’ve got mine yet you’ll get yours as I’ve got smarter and a lot harder in the nick of time. Guess what honey I have rose up from the dead and continue to do that all that all the time. I don’t trust anybody and nobody trust me but I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams.