Special Addition Revisit: Hello

A Special Addition revisit in memory of Daisy.

We all wondered where Caspian had gone; me, DC and KC looked over to where Daisy’s gravestone was, I told them to go and I’ll stay to which to my surprise DC agreed with me by telling me that he needed me more than ever. As I started to walk over; I looked back over I could see DC burying his head in KC’s arms, which made me have a tear rolling down my face. As I reached over to Caspian took his hand as I knew I wasn’t meant to but this was a one off; as his grandmother gave her blessing for this day to happen, when her two grandsons needed their partners the most. I whispered to him saying that a car will pick us up a bit later everyone else will go on ahead. Caspian snaked his arm around me after he let go of my hand; pulled me close to him than ever before, the fact that he knew I had tears down my face meant two things to him. One that I was crying because I wanted to take his pain away, second I was only about age 6 when his mother had died. I had started to listen to him talk but I knew he wasn’t going to let me go; I was like his prop to help him stand even though he was 6ft2, and I was 5ft4 and half but it soothed him a lot because he always would make fun about my height.

“Hello, it’s me. I was just wondering after all these years if you would like to meet to go over everything; they would say over the years at this time that it would become easy; even when the time should be supposed to heal you, but guess what I haven’t done much healing. Since Lizzy came into my life things have become much easier; less dreams than I have done, except this time of year I either keep her up or shout out in my sleep she comes running after she gets woken.

Hello, can you hear me? When we were younger and free there were so many happy memories; I have forgotten how it feels when you were you were my world, your warmth, your loving, your hugs and many more. There’s such a difference between us now more than ever; there’s a million miles away of where you are, I think you sent me Lizzy one way or another.

I have forgotten tell you. She’s just like you mum. Everything about her reminds me of you. I’m not going to let anything happen to her. I promise mum. She’s staying put for ever. Not moving. I don’t know how she does it when I get mad she looks at me the way you do or the way she says things to make me calm down. The way you do it’s like I’ve got you back. I miss you so much mum. I love you.”

We stayed a bit more longer. I hugged him tightly but gently at the same time. He kissed me on the forehead a few times; I knew the driver and security were hovering, I asked for two more minutes they agreed and went away. Caspian whispered to me and “I love you” I whispered back “I love you too”. Time was ticking along now so we had to go back otherwise everyone would worry where we had got to.

The worst kind of fear is going back to school!

I never liked school in the first place myself; then worked at a school for 4 years, why did you work in a school if you don’t like school? You might think that’s a bit weird and stupid.

I never liked school in the first place myself; then worked at a school for 4 years, why did you work in a school if you don’t like school? You might think that’s a bit weird and stupid.

The fact I worked in a school for four years it doesn’t mean I still like it but it means I wanted to do something for my life; yeah I hate the worst feeling ever when every new academic new year, new term and etc I still don’t want to go back. I’m dreading my new job to be honest; I’m not looking forward to it what so ever because it’s new, and a huge responsibility as well.

School phobia, school avoidance and school refusal can only be as described as an anxiety disorder that you will find in monjority of the children these days. This involved who might have an irrational or persistent fear of going to school. Each child’s behavior is different from any other child; there are children whom more likely to have a truant and express no apprehension about missing school, which that children who have tactical school avoidance want to be in close contact with their parent or caregiver, whereas truants do not. You may find school phobic children are often insecure, sensitive, and do not know how to cope with their emotions; to which appear anxious and may become physically ill at the thought of attending school, for example putting their head down the toilet and throwing up.

A typical type of separation anxiety normally occurs between 18 to 24 months; when parents start to leave them for awhile or dropping them of at nursery or a carer, at this age may cling, cry and/or have temper tantrums. However, there are older children who continue to have difficulty being away from home; due to the fact their parents are often attentive, loving and maybe over protective. This can become a result in some of the students of whom lack self-confidence and the ability to cope with school life. Any child who may show a higher risk for school phobia where they may not have no siblings to look out for them, maybe the youngest and all of their siblings have left school and etc as they are a lot older. Maybe perhaps they have a sibling who is chronically ill.

“Most children object to going to school at one time or another. However, a school phobic child often misses many days for vague reasons. Parents should be concerned if their child appears irrationally anxious, depressed, scared, and/or regularly says that he or she feels too sick to attend class.

Symptoms of school phobia are:

• Frequent stomachaches and other physical complaints such as nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, exhaustion, or headaches that cannot be attributed to a physical ailment.

• Clinginess, tantrums, and/or panic when required to separate from a parent or caregiver.

• Fear of the dark or being in a room alone.

• Trouble going to sleep and/or having nightmares.

• Exaggerated fears of animals, monsters, school, etc.” For more information http://www.kellybear.com/TeacherArticles/TeacherTip51.html the link is there.

I don’t remember much of school to be honest if I can help it; I try to forget it if you ask me, I hated school with a passion for lots of things. Then again I would make excuses to either go home or when I’m at home I say I don’t feel right or I have a genuine excuse of I have an hospital appointment so I won’t be in. To the fact that hospital appointments where monjority of my reasons of not going to school because of my ears as I was always constantly having operations or appointments one way or another. That’s when I was growing up at the time. I used my hormones and etc as an excuse to go home during secondary time; first year hardly been at the school, part of that got burnt down and every year since I wished it snowed or hot day or someone burned it down again. By the way I didn’t burn it down. Was funny when one of my brothers said that the school is on fire; as both of them were there at the same time as me when I started, I was like wicked and said well I won’t be going to school then.

What struck me was that I’m one out of four and not even one of us like school. For very different reasons; not sure if it’s because of we had different problems at the time, when we growing up with health issues one way or another and we ended up staying at home for long period of time.

To rehabilitate and help others 


To rehabilitate and help others

This week I do have to say I struggled in the way of what to write for you guys in your hour of need; as my thoughts are still with the victims and who had passed away, but I believe there is good to come out of this and also it is very useful for every single of you as you read this today. 

I’m going to research or have researched quotes that you guys may like in the way of you can relate too; most importantly you guys have way cooler films at your age than when I was your age, believe me they were still in the making and starting out in my day. 

“Fairy Godmother: Now off you go… for you *shall* go to the ball.” – From Cinderella film. 

No matter how you feel about yourself; how scared you are? Or how anxious you are of going out to place? Due to the fact that bad things have happened to you; always have this quote with you, to give yourself the courage that you need to do when you get out of the house. That’s the best step forward is going to be able to go through that door and keep living. 

“Belle: [singing] I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I can tell… And for once it might be grand to have someone understand, I want so much more than they’ve got planned!” – From Beauty and The Beast. 

Don’t let your adventures stop because they have taken away your dreams and what they have planned for the rest of the world. Show them who’s boss. Show them that you are the one in charge. Let them. Know that you are standing up to them; with everyone who was a victim of the terror attacks understand, what it must feel like of the unknowing and what to do with themselves. 

“Aladdin: Wow. The palace looks pretty amazing, huh? 

Princess Jasmine: [glumly] Oh… It’s wonderful. 

Aladdin: I wonder what it’d be like to live there, and have servants, and valets. 

Princess Jasmine: Oh, sure. People who tell you where to go and how to dress. 

Aladdin: That’s better than here. You’re always scraping for food and ducking the guards. 

Princess Jasmine: You’re not free to make your own choices. 

Aladdin: Sometimes you feel so… 

Princess Jasmine: You’re just… 

Aladdin, Princess Jasmine: …trapped” – Aladdin

To be able to hold someone’s hand once again; like saying “do you trust me” and you hesitate of the uncertainty of what is going to happen if you set foot outside again, when they ask you again and you put your hand in theirs. Reply with a “yes” as they open the door still holding your hand not letting go; you feel anxious of not letting go, you know the massive big success in yourself. To acknowledge that you just got yourself out of the house; so you wouldn’t feel so trapped inside watching the world go by, but making the decisions off that are right for you. 

Just finding quotes that matter to you and how you feel. Even best way to do it is to analysis the quote of what it means to you; you alone and no one else, expect you as your the only one that can make it happen. People have different types off ways that the quotes mean to them; it’s not right or wrong people, are different to everyone else. Give it ago what do you think quotes mean to you.