Daily Challenges – Summer Challenges – Day 2 – Power

Hold up no you didn’t bow to me because I’m not that chick that walks behind you around town. Just because you’re packing to go down to the south that doesn’t mean I’m going to follow you or lay down crying to get over you. Oh you think I’m backing down now because your a man; I’m so not sorry anymore I have the power to do what I want as I have the right, even you made the rain fall I can make it shower. 

You should know that I’m in control of my destiny and everything so come and take the wheel as long as you don’t forget who has the power? I’ve got the power. Hold up what’s happening over there. There’s no tears left to cry anymore because girl you don’t have to be brave anymore you have the power to stand up to your abuser. Here’s how you can do it. I make it this look so easy like tick tick boom like it’s gasoline-y that’s why they call me lamborghini because I’m too fast and to powerful to be taken down. 

That’s because I know what I’m worth from zero to a hundred the toughness of my body makes them shudder and stutter. Let me just start my engine by pushing the button because I’m coming first in this race; you’re just a pathetic man who just want to take control of everything but guess what I make the rain and the shower too, as you should know that I am in control now. So as long as you don’t forget who has the power now; I have the power too and it’s more powerful than you think I am. 

Don’t be fooled by the weak and useless girls they will wrap you up in the trees in the arms of an animal because they got you thinking that I’m all innocent but wait until you get home. You should remember I am the one in control and so is the rest of the girls. 

Don’t forget that I’ve got the power.

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Everyday Online Diary Entries: (21.6.18) Thursday – Dry Sense Of Humour Never Dies

I do find that when my mental health kicks in it always tries to take the last two things that keep me going. My writing and my dry sense of humour but they always seems to shine through no matter how hard it tries but it never does. That’s why I like the whole I can do better than my mental health I literally just use it as my advantage. 

Today (21.6.18)  I made a few jokes about the situations that I’m in like this morning I was at the doctors having a blood test; I’m not good at needles so I had to look away, I literally said to the nurse when she asked me which arm do I prefer to have blood taken from. I replied my right arm because you won’t be able to get any out of my left it’s practically dead with nothing in it. Even a child tried to do it by scratching it and only a little bit came out. 

I made one down the phone to one of office ladies at work to see what I was doing tomorrow. They were like “oh you’re with such and such tomorrow. If that’s okay with you?” I replied “unless Michael wants a death sentence” she burst out laughing it was like if I really have to then it’s fine but I don’t particularly want to. 

As you may can tell I don’t complain or say no to things but when something I don’t think is right work either knows or I just sort it out myself. However this week has been a bit difficult and weren’t in the mood for someone’s behaviour on which I normally can put up with. This week was the week that I wanted to put up with that sort of behaviour especially from an adult. 

It got sorted out in the end and I’m generally good at doing my job don’t get me wrong I get what I’m given and the respect that I get. I give it back to them with the amount of work they give me because that’s how it suppose to work. Give and take, give and take. The fact that bring out my humour and etc from what I do across to the office base I literally prefer to joke around, be friendly and what not than walk in and say this and that should happen. Unless something does happen they get what they are given at the end of the day. 

Sense humour and joke around gets me through life no matter how serious it is but at the end of the day you got to make it peaceful and pleasant one way or another for everyone. 

 

Summer Challenge: (21.6.18) Thursday – Day 1 – Longest Day Ever

The fact that I thought yesterday (20.6.18) was rather along day to be honest especially when you have had one of those days that you wish you just stayed in bed for that reason. Yet today being the 21st June 2018 a long day which means longer light in the evenings. I’m like great that’s all what I need right now haha. Okay I’m stuck what to write for my first challenge I might as well write a story. 

The Seven Nation’s are closing in

I’m going to fight them all off because the seven nations of the army can’t hold me no more. Their grip is coming off as I talk to myself at night telling myself I’m going to fight this as I’m better than this; who needs to hide behind a cigarette I can’t forget what you did behind my back that time you lied about me, I’m going back and forth in my mind. 

The messages that coming from my eyes telling me to leave it all alone because you know the truth so I don’t want to hear about it. Everybody has got one story to tell about me everyone can think what they like but everyone knows that from the Queen of England to the hounds of hell. They will know where I’m going because on my way back I’ll catch and try to serve it to you.

I know that’s not what you want to hear but guess what I’ll do because the feeling in my bones are coming. I’ll find a home and that’s what I’m going to do because as far from this soap opera grows for evermore. I’ll work the straws out because the sweat that drips out of every pore you may think I’ll come after you acts like I’m bleeding of all of the words that you say about me. 

As I’m bleeding right before lord even if I can’t sing no more and the stains on the carpet as my blood trickle down. Tell me to go home when you want to spread lies, make me leave and many more. I’m still standing here and I’m not moving any further away from this. I just do my job and that’s it. I’m not letting the seven nations coming in and close to control me.

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Star Star Light Categories: (20.6.18) Wednesday Evening At 8 – The Strangest Things

Just want to give a massive big shout out to a lovely sales assistant in my local mini supermarket who gave me 6p as I thought I had enough money but she came to the rescue and did it for me. I think I would of given up to be honest but because she said I was a regular and that she sees me in there all the time. That’s just goes to show a Good Samaritan is out there and you don’t find nice people out there who care about other people. 

That’s given me a positive mood than what I just had few hours before where I had someone venting at me because they were so mad at someone. I could understand so much but when I wasn’t myself in the first place and I knew they would be on one about something. 

I’m just literally so tired at the moment my medication is starting to kick in a bit more now so I’m more tired than anything. Did have a splitting headache first thing this morning so I slept it off as best I could. Pushed myself to have a shower and do my hair because my hair needed to be done and it was driving me mad with itchy ness because obviously been told I have dermatitis is a type eczema that can be triggered be contact by a certain substance. 

Eczema is the name for a group of conditions that can cause the skin to become irritated and dry. Most people with contact dermatitis can expect their symptoms to improve some cases will clear up completely. Contact dermatitis cause the skin to become red, blistered, dry and cracked. 

Strange things that we have to come to face in life you either have to take on the chin or let it define you. At the end of the day you choose what you want at the end of the day. You let the strange things happen and control you or not. 

Everyday Online Diary Entries: (20.6.18) Wednesday – Shut…you’re mouth

Right now I’m in a state of mind of where I want to be like all the time as I’ve got no tears left to cry. I’m picking myself up once again picking myself up because I know I’m loving, living and picking up the pieces once again. Picking it up picking it up, I’m living so I’m turning up a notch yeah I’m turning it up. 

Guess what I have no more tears in my body to cry over how petty you are about saying lies about me; saying to people that I’ve upset you when you don’t even tell me what I did wrong, I’m not waisting my time with you because I’m not like anyone else who has to become so clicky and what not. 

I ran out oh boy I like it, I like it where people tell me information that aren’t true because someone else lying and making me out as a bully. I know full well like I’m not I say how it is but that’s if people need to know what’s on my mind. Doesn’t matter how, what, where or who even tries it. We all know that I’m the one who will win because I’m not that bothered about what other people think of me or anything. I’m just doing my job in and out yes I may of walked straight into the job and be confident in what I’m doing but at the end of the day I’ve got more experience of how to deal with it all than you may think. 

You can’t even get me down even when it’s raining because it can’t stop now as I’m dancing in the rain like I’m dancing on your grave. So you need to shut your mouth. If you don’t want to cause a scene or don’t want to talk to me just shut your mouth because one day I might have a really bad day and tell you how it is even I’m struggling with my mental health. You know how it is if you get the wrong side of me there’s no going back. 

You may see me as a threat but I’m just being me doing my job as I believe in the children as much as you do but I have different attitude and I’m young enough to be their big sister. Just give it up already. As I’ve felt people like you who seem to be everyone’s favourite and think I’ve taken over the show. Honestly I just make people laugh, enjoy being with and most importantly I am who I am. 

I also calling out my mental health to shut your mouth because you’re not nice either I know I’m going to win this fight because I am strong. I am only human after all so don’t rain on me. As I’m the one fighting with you letting you know that I’m not going to be pushed around by you no more…

I am only human after all. I am only human after all so don’t rain on me. 

Daily Challenges: – Summer Challenges – (20.6.18) Wednesday – Introduction

Word up guys! How are we all doing? As you guessed I’m bringing back challenges as you guys seem to be requesting them; well reading my old ones giving me a hint that you want to see some more of them, as it’s been awhile for me in doing them and I was going to start this in July but it’s okay you guys want something now. I’ll do it now because I can see you guys trying to help me get through the darkest time at the moment and decided to bring the daily challenge back.

I’m currently not sure how many days I’m going to do yet but we will see won’t we because we all love as much as we can. Do let me know if there is a challenge with a challenge itself that you want me to tell you about and I’ll do it for you. If not I’ll come up with something challenges or something but as this is a challenge for me to write an x amount of days for the summer.

Okay I think I might do 31 Days Challenge starting from tomorrow (21.6.18) as it starts with a one and goes inside with 21 at the end of the day. I just like playing with numbers that learn maths because I don’t understand maths anyways. I think you guys have set me a challenge to do this challenge in the first place but without telling me but reading the previous ones. What do you think?

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Star Light Categories: (19.6.18) Tuesday Teen Lifestyle – Oh my god I can’t believe this

Time on your side that will never ever end but the most beautiful thing you can ever spend because your work a shirt with a name tag on it. Yet you lean on the counter feeling bored because your drifting apart like the tectonic plates in the sea causing tsunamis all over the world. Yet it doesn’t matter to me because all I wanted to be is a million miles away from here; somewhere more familiar as there’s too much time spent dragging the past up, I didn’t see you looking when I messed up but as your settling down in your early twenties. 

Knowing that you wished you had better grades when you left school your sucking more blood than a back street dentist. You’re life doesn’t matter to me because I all I wanted to be a million miles away from here somewhere else more familiar. Now I’ve achieved to what I wanted to do because I worked hard to get where I wanted to be… now I can say.

Oh my god I can’t believe it I’ve never been this far away from home. I’ve never been this far away from home running around listening, learning about the great rulers making the glory of their country greater. That was only think in the history that was growing. Knock me down when my dreams aren’t good enough I’ll just get back up again like PAC-Man powered up but I’m mire stronger than you ever think. 

It doesn’t matter to me if I’m still behind the table at school or behind a counter. All I want to be a million miles away from here to somewhere more familiar. Oh my god I can’t believe it I’ve never been so far away from home. Even if school or the weekend job was just around the corner that was the only time I’m far away. 

I’m million miles away from home I’m now following my dreams of adventuring the world. Living the dream job that I’m doing writing my adventures creating stories of what I’ve seen. Achieving is believing. 

Everyday Online Diary Entries: (19.6.18) Tuesday Online Diary Entries – Prepping Family Members Of medical needs

I’ve decided to continue fighting this mental health no matter how hard it is at the moment and not wanting to do anything but sleep. However the one thing that it’s currently trying to make not wanting to do anything is blogging and writing; no matter how hard it is at the moment for me, I’m taking it each day as it comes and will be back to my normal strength with the help of your guidance and your stags to help me get through this week. 

I will probably talk about it one day but right now isn’t the time to talk about it as it’s fresh and recent. I’ve decided to do some prep work for my family after what’s happened recently so that they know what I’m taking, what’s what and etc. I’ve started to do the whole set up with a grandparent of mine because few weeks ago I had to sort their medication out as there was so many medications and not enough of one. I decided to sort them out for one of my parents and one of my aunts so they know what’s what into boxes and then labelling them and so on. 

Whilst I was doing my medication list, emergency meds box for one of my parents to use incase of emergency and what not. I decided to do the same with one of my grandparents meds so that they know what they have got what’s been on hold and what’s etc. Also made notes page so that they can write down to let each other know what’s going on, what’s needed and etc. To be able to record what’s happening. 

I’ve done exactly the same for my parents and have a back up plan for one of my aunts so if I can’t get hold of my parents or anyone else they can contact them. Straight away if there was anything that would happen to me for any reason or another. It’s all safety reasons for myself and my grandparent at the time if something goes wrong or they miss read something or something happens they will know what to look up on the sheets provided. That I’ve been provided with the information that they need at the time because sometimes it all gets confusing and what has been done and what hasn’t been done. 

I like to be organised in that sense but I didn’t really think about doing it for myself until recent events accord. So I did the same thing but my parents have my emergency meds if I need them I have the rest as I’m capable to have the ones I’ve got. Unless things change again then obviously then revise the situation but for now for me it’s the suitable situation for me to do that for the time being. 

Remember you are beautiful, your awesome, your amazing and every positive thing that I could think off right now. Remember you are not alone. You have got people that care about you, love you and most importantly to help you. I am a sucker for not asking help but when I do oh boy admitting it is hard enough but accepting that you do it’s like “okay I thought I could handle it on my own but I can’t” that’s where you need to ask for help. 

Love you all and your beautiful stags. 

Star Light Categories: (18.6.18) Hustle and Bustle Advice of Blogging – How many blogs do you blog a day?

Word up guys! I hope you’re having the bless sunny day today (18.6.18) want to say a quick thank you for continuing to read my blogs yesterday (17.6.18) as I had become very ill over the weekend which wasn’t good. I am now on a slow but on the right tracks to get myself back onto the open road again. Along with my stag and you guys coming to the rescue with full force of your stats. Thank you if you are one of those people on here or on my instagram. We can do this together and stand strong. 

Onwards and upwards this is the second attempt of this writing this blog as I was on a role last week. Not 100% why I couldn’t finish it all off but I think I fell asleep whilst writing it. 

I genuinely try and write 2-3 blogs a day for the following day no matter what happens. I just believe that I can push out 3 as my limit but 4 is pure luck. I like the consistent within my blogs as much as I can. Knowing your limit of what you can blog and knowing when they are ready to go out. 

I like the fact that I do 2-3 blogs knowing the success of blogging three blogs out I know how to keep my readers entertained. Also keeps myself writing for you guys and myself to keep ourselves busy and not let our negativity get the better of us. 

Star Light Categories: (17.6.18) Sunday – Update in June 2018

Hey guys I just wanted to quickly update you what has happened and give a few massive shout outs to a few people. I would like to apologise for not posting a blog or blogs today (17.6.18) like I  normal would; I did start with a title, a picture all ready to get started but it couldn’t function what so ever and I was struggling and ill.

However I am on slowly on the mends of getting better now with the support that I’ve been receiving along with seeing you guys continually reading my blogs. Knowing how awesome you guys are of being positive if there’s not been a blog or so posted. Thank you for coming to the rescue on your amazing stags over the weekend knowing that you wouldn’t let you’re fellow stag and friend down. You’re love means the world to me and guidance of not giving up.

Most importantly my family and few of my friends coming to the rescue when I needed it the most without them I don’t know what I would do to be honest. Mental health isn’t easy on anyone from the one who’s suffering with it and the closeness of family and friends.

Also one massive HAPPY FATHER’S DAY to all of the fathers out there and especially mine as he’s awesome in his own special way.