What is something that you really want to do, but you haven’t done it because your afraid?

What is something that you really want to do, but you haven’t don’t it because your afraid?

I’m going to go straight into this one without an introduction; because otherwise I will forget what I want to write about, plus this really doesn’t need an introduction does it? I’ve just given you one just now.

There’s always something that I really wanted to but haven’t done it because I’m so afraid of doing it; is becoming a writer, it’s been my all time favourite thing to do but I don’t know how it will plan out. It’s like I want to pursue it but I’m too afraid to do so; as I don’t believe my work is good enough for anyone, this is why I’m doing a trail and error with blogging to see if it will workout or not. 

One day I will see if I can be successful in doing blogging; then if it does work, I will go on and purse the whole writing career in one go. Would love to hear you opinions? Either your wish you could do or give me advice on what I can do myself? All are welcome. 


What makes a best friend?


People have different auroras about them; they have different ways of making a best friend for life, it’s all down to the base of their characters and lifestyle. 

What makes a best friend?

What makes a best friend for me is where I find that once I get to know someone by either I get on with someone really well or you don’t get on with. However this is what makes a best friend for me:

  • Great sense of humour 
  • Get the same wave length 
  • Know how to be silly and stupid with
  • To be able to get on with
  • Have a great connection with 

There probably be more but I just can’t think anymore; you either got it or you haven’t, there are people in this world who can be controlling in so many ways. Sometimes you don’t realise until someone who’s outside the relationship can see it and mention it to you. That’s when you become more aware of it or you still don’t see it until something happens.

What brings you happiness? All big and little things.


Everyone has something’s that bring you happiness weather it’s big or little; at least you have something to make you smile about, everyday or when you remember the time that it happened at the time.

What brings you happiness? All big and little things.

All little things that bring me happiness is when things are more magical than anything else; from a child’s progress to something most memorable time that I have had, here is a few things that brings me happiness. 

A nice summer’s day blue sky, no clouds, warm day and lots of positive around the place. 

Being with friends who bring the happiness to ones life; share the most fun positive memories, life long friends can always bring joy to life.

Success in little things that I wanted to achieve and carry on achieving one way or another; shows strength to strength everyday, also to take shape of your life no matter what.

Sorry this one is short but as there’s been four blogs today; might as well keep this one short, wasn’t planning on the other one today but heyho it happens

What does my ideal day look like?


Everyone has an ideal day on how they want it to go; but it may not seem to be like it in the ideal world around us, especially this economic climate and etc. However some people can just do it without even trying to; that is not fair on the rest of the world who have to pay the taxes, and etc, 

What does my ideal look like? 

To be honest my ideal day would like probably most likely to be; running my own business/blogging so I can write all the time, go and explore lots areas of the country so that I can blog about them. Create more ideas weather it’s blogging or story writing; something more creative, so I can achieve more things in life than I am already.

Here would be my ideal day would look like:

  • Blog prep 
  • Paperwork for blogs such as social media, planners and etc
  • What I may need to order for blogging 
  • Go out on adventures to somewhere different to bring new things to the blogging world.

These are just the outline of my ideal day may look like as there’s so many things that I would like to do but no time to do it all in an average world like mine. Unless your someone like a YouTuber whom gets million hits; then you get paid for it everyday, who knows I’m just working it all out still. So I shouldn’t moan to be honest with you; I’ll get there in the end, just need to be patient and keep on doing what I’m doing. Is by loving my work, continue in writing that I love and just go with the flow. I like to go with the flow to be honest with you as it’s more easier than chase the million dollar question because at the end of the day no one really wants to work do they.

What’s draining your energy? How can I reduce it or sort it out?


Everyone has those moments of something that drains your energy; you always find away to reduce the amount of things that you shouldn’t have or trying to sort it out. It also depends what it is that makes you feel like it; I know mine is so draining to the point off, that nothing can wake me up so I do stupid things before it’s too late. For instance putting conditioner under my armpits instead of my hair; without realising what I was doing until I did it, it was literally too late to do anything else. Does anyone else have these moments?

What’s draining my energy? How can I reduce it or sort it out?

What drains my energy at the best of times is Mental Health; my mental heal has been getting worse since February, due to the fact that I have got family problems going on at the moment. So trying to keep busy by working, blogging, seeing friends if I can and looking after my grandma out; but on top of that sleeping doesn’t help at all, two weekends now that I’ve been sleeping a lot during the day. It’s not good when I need to be doing things; however when I’m so tired and depressed, I can’t even physically do it. 

To be able to reduce the whole problem or be able to take some of the weight off; is by talking to people at work, working, being with close friends that know and be there for me as much as they can when I’m going through a difficult time and to be able to continue to do what I love doing is writing. Without writing in my life I think I would be totally lost without if you know what I mean; it’s one of those things that it’s my comfort zone of being there, to express my feelings through the words and how I want to write it.

Do you have recurring dreams? Explain.


The recurring dreams probably do happen to lots of people; however people say no I don’t, I bet they do they just want to make you look like a weirdo that no one likes. Don’t panic if you do have recurring dreams; because I do but I wouldn’t call them recurring dreams, I would call them recurring nightmares. Haha.

Do you have recurring dreams? Explain.

My recurring dreams are more about me going to school as a kid but always doing my job that I’m doing at the same time. I’ve been having these sort of dreams about nearly three weeks now; I’m so sick and tired of it all now, I don’t even know why I’m dreaming about going back to my old school to be honest. Never liked school in the first place. 

It’s always the same two places; different scenories each time I have them, then it keeps me awake and some points it keeps me up with worry that I’m going to be getting them. So I would try and stay up late; so I can out ride the nightmares, personally I think it’s stress with everything is going on. In my personal life. That I like to point out for you guys,

If you have recurring dreams what are they? Would you share them or you wouldn’t? I’ll let you decide what you would like to do.

April Newsletter 2017


I thought I might start doing the newsletter as I’m going along this month because I can never remember what had happened over the past month or so. I hope your enjoying the new official blog now as it’s finally up and running. Didn’t really take to long to do really. Probably tweak if here and their over the next coming months; so that I know how it can run it smoothly, also to be able to help you guys to see what’s happening also. 

Would love to hear your comments about the new blog website it would be nice to have some opinions on the new blog. Hope you are able to join me to carry on with the new journey that I am taking. 

April Newsletter 2017

Spring has finally arrived at the start of the month we had lovely warm sunny weather; that made me wanting to go out for a walk with no problem what so ever, love the feeling of the nice warmth air on my face and my skin. Enjoying the fact that I don’t have to take a coat were ever I go; is a bonus because I’m one of those people who hate carrying things like coats, when it says it’s going to rain and it doesn’t. It’s also that time of year when it’s getting warmer; that’s when my feet are like give me air, give me air get these warm ridiculous soaks off my feet. I have odd occasions kicked off my shoes at work because it’s been so hot; I don’t care if my feet get run over or not by the equipment, it causes more damage on my feet wearing shoes, than wearing without them to be honest. 

I’m getting into lots of programs recently like Once Upon A Time on which now that I’ve caught up; I have now turned to Grimm and that’s so awesome that I can’t stop watching it right now, it’s so amazing and addictive. There’s not many things that get me glued in watching things to be honest; but now that I have got things I enjoy watching now then when I was growing up in my teens, there’s more things out there than before. I do try and watch things like Game of Thrones and etc but just need to get into them a bit more I suppose.

The first week of April has been fairly busy; from meeting up with an old friend from college, looking after a relative and also trying to get blog paperwork done as much as I can as I’ve had the time off to do it all. Along side blogging and putting it up on the new website; it is a lot of hard work to begin with but it keeps my mind occupied if you ask me, glad it’s been getting done or now sorted shall I say haaha. Writing the newsletter in bits so lots of past/present tenses in the wrong places: opps but if I don’t start it now, I’ll know that I would forget it all by the end of the month. 

Easter holidays of 2017 have now officially and truly over; Easter weekend feels like a life time ago, you guys probably haven’t got much Easter Eggs left. I remember when I was telling a friend of mine all about the true tradition of Easter; he replied that he doesn’t even remember it, when he was learning it. I wish I could forget it if you ask me; but growing up in a Christian family and going to church a lot when I was younger, it’s a lot harder than you think in trying to forget it. So I try and not brag about it because through school I try not to let people know incase my peers would bully me or something. Other than that I don’t believe in it anyways so it was okay but you never know those days or these days what people might say or do.

Also this month I have had my first mini holiday of the year; went to Bournemouth on Good Friday and came back Saturday evening, loved it so much that I didn’t really realise how tired I was as I kept on dropping off everywhere. Asleep I mean; well not everywhere, jeez the amount of times I fell asleep in the car on the way back home I was pretty much so relaxed I was a sleep. Would love to do more mini holidays around England if I could; if I had the money, the time to do it and etc. Also to be able to blog about them would be awesome as well; so that people can enjoy them as much as I could, along with they can consider on where to go on holiday cheaply and worth their money. 

I have an irrational fear of…..


Everyone has that irrational fear of something; if your reading this and saying “nope I don’t have any irrational fear of anything”, well all I can say is this….imagine me coming through your screen shaking you, slapping you and telling you that your broken. What would your response will be?

Believe me I would love to do that to some people that I have met over the years and months of talking to people. Pretty much people hate having things coming at them; through screens, me on the other hand could be scary and could be funny. Either which that can be an irrational fear for someone you may know. 

My irrational fear is if something or someone is dead; but I’m the one to be expected to pick it up and put it somewhere or visit someone who has passed away, I would most probably wet myself if they come back to alive and jump out at me. Knowing me I would because I hate those things; more to the point of animals especially hamsters, due to one of my sisters hamsters constantly biting me on my fingers. Can’t pick up hamsters anymore; cats I can pick up they are alright haven’t really been attacked by them, other than fighting with them to stop them where they shouldn’t be going. However they are still same procedure if they are dead; I wouldn’t be able to pick them up, if I had a fight with a cat or something. 

With people; it’s harder because if you know them well enough, you just think they are just playing practical jokes on you. I think that’s what I thought with my great grandma; I was only a small child then when she passed, I thought she shad a glass case over at one point. 

That’s probably why I hate things like pigeons and slugs touching my feet. I don’t know. Who knows what will happen.

Something that didn’t feel right…


The day when you wake in the mornings; you think today is going to be a good day, or unless you think it’s going to be a one of those days you think why did I get out of bed. That’s me most days. I have those moments of mother instincts as we call them; as I have currently have a headache at this current, moment in time from either from work or I’ve just got way too much in my head that it’s going to explode.

I may not even a mother but I have those instincts of a mother; if something is going to go wrong, I either tackle it or just let it go over my head. Sometimes I choose to do both tackle and let it go over my head; at the end of the day I go to my job and I go home, that’s it that’s what my general life of working is. 

I do mention if something doesn’t feel right I’ll say it but sometimes I don’t because no one listens; then somewhere down the line people say “oh why hasn’t this been brought up before”, you then have people that we didn’t know if it was serious or not. That’s when I know people realised what I have been saying all the long was right and they were wrong. 

You can’t change the way people think; just let them find out the hard way, once they learn it they will pretty much know for the next time not to do it again.

The biggest regret that I made…

Introduction the biggest regret that I made…

There’s some people in this world who don’t regret anything at all; I’ve seen things that people who still not learning, all it does is wind me up to the point of I want to have a massive go at them because they really haven’t learnt anything what so ever. 

The biggest regret that I made….

One of my biggest regrets is that using social media in my teens as a diary; only did it once, never again. The safety of using social media is dangerous; at that time I was young in my teens, you could say I was young and stupid at the time. I did have a diary at the time as well; but I was so angry and upset at the time of what was going on, what made it worse was they reported back to people who I didn’t want to know. 

Yeah they were concerned at the time; that through more anger and hate, let alone trust and etc. People can do anything even if they are trying to help or want to make more problems in your life then. You soon realise your the one feeding them the gossip and etc. 

Over the years I have learnt not to post things up that could go back to people; who will bring up the past, has happened a few times and it just brings me more down on why would someone would do that to me. I do share some things to make awareness of what’s out there; like mental health, autism, kidney disease and alzimers. No one should hide away or cover them up; because they are frightened of what health and genes can do people, it’s like saying you can’t do this because your giving people what they want or anything along those lines. 

When I see people do it; please don’t shout it out to the whole world, not everyone needs to know. Only if your true friends should know what’s going on; not all the people who could be fake friends, there are lots of fake friends around than real friends. 

All I have to say is just be careful in what you write on social media; be careful who you tell, be careful who you can trust and most importantly write it in a diary. A dairy is more secret and secure place to keep everything in. Believe me I should know.