Everyday Topics: (8.6.18) Friday – People who gate crash

I’m one of those people who hate people who gate crash things whether they were invited or not because they just want to control everything. I generally believe that people who are self loathing people who make it out it’s all about them and be center of attention.

I genuinely don’t understand why people do that because at the end of the day people who they think that they are their friends will turn against them. Either fall out or they will diss them whether it’s on YouTube or in the papers or magazines or even on social media.

No matter if they are rich, famous, youtubers, or just normal human beings because it’s not right; I’m not one for the whole up taking someone down by naming and shaming anyone, especially in public because at the end of the day they are the ones showing their true colours than the one it’s actually aimed at.

I’m not naming anyone or anything. I observe people quite well because I keep to myself unless there’s something to put people back into their place. People may call me a ninja some call me assign just go in for the whole speak my mind. That’s the best way forward to be honest especially for me because I’ve let people like that walk all over me throughout my life even though no matter how much I’ve helped them and what not.

They throw it back into my face and say nasty things about me which aren’t true and what not but also they are the ones that me down not the other way away around. People’s egos do need to loose a few pegs now and then. That’s when they realise how much they annoyed me when I decide to speak my mind about things especially what they do that isn’t right.

Everyday Topics: (7.6.18) Thursday’s Topics: I could shoot myself in the foot with this one.

Okay guys I could shoot myself in the foot with this one here; yet this is my opinion and I respect other people’s opinions too, everyone has opinions neither of us are right or wrong. It’s brought to my attention in the last couple of days that I’ve been watching a few people’s videos to which I’m leaving out because I actually like their content. However what goes behind the scenes doesn’t bother me what so ever because at the end of the day it’s not my business nor do I really want to know what’s going on. I’m one of those people who like to pry on other people’s problems or anything. I just hate the whole attention, attention seeking and play off the whole who has more fan base or subscribers whatever they want to cool it.

I just enjoy the videos that they make at the end of the day; if they make me laugh, make me be on edge, make me want to come back for more then that’s great because at the end of the day I respect them for who they are and don’t really need to share their whole life stories like other people seem to do like it’s a home diary. For example: Big Brother Style. Some people like to do it, some people like to do other things that are different and have their own twist to it all. Yeah I write diary entries but I don’t tell you guys my life story in them; I literally choose what I want to share, what content I want to write about and plan it to make sense.

I don’t understand one thing people who say “I made you big” “no I made you big” and so on and so forth. I don’t actually care how they do it to be honest because at the end of the day fame doesn’t really bother me; you may find how much people think I did this on my own, it took me years to do and etc but yet if someone helped you along the way wouldn’t you be grateful that they helped you to get onto the platform?

Instead of being grateful or anything they just split off from you and cause conflict between all the friends that you both know. It’s just silly and childish at the end of the day. Unless your one of those people who fake making their videos; harass other YouTubers because they like them thinking that you’re going out with them, spreading lies that people stole you’re ideas and everything else. Also making it on the news saying you’re homeless and making a YouTube video saying “today is my last day in my home. I am now homeless” oh come on firstly use your brain and common sense.

First off all if you were made homeless you wouldn’t be still making videos; you wouldn’t have you’re camera to make videos still, and most importantly you wouldn’t have anywhere to edit or upload you’re video or videos. Secondly if you’re account has been cancelled or what ever it is that they do; you can’t make another YouTube account under the same name because they will find out, and shut that one down as well. Thirdly I can tell someone is lying, a fake and everything else years of experience with people in the real world. Acting like you’re all hard paying other people to do the work for you to make you look good because they are terrified of you as you might do something to them. Oh please just get over yourself man.

People take years to get where they are; things don’t happen over night trust me I’ve been doing blogging since the end of November 2015, it’s taken me this far to where I am with 1,317 subscribers I think I last checked and at the end of the day I’m doing the blogging and the writing for myself because I love writing and I want to become a writer. I also like to show people who have confidence issues, low self esteem and many more that they can do things if they put their minds to it and stick at it. Trust me I’ve been through a lot in my life. I’ve taken on so many challenges in my life away from the world of today.

I always say to anyone who is reading this or someone says to me I can’t do this. I stick to this saying for Life On The Open Road Project “be yourself, love yourself, don’t let negativity people bring you down and most importantly don’t let your own negativity mind bring you down” I believe that people can do things if they put their mind to it changing what they think about themselves take chances that you want to do with your life. Just make the right decisions and not the wrong ones.

I know I’m quite straight forward in this blog than I normally am but I just wanted to put it out there that you make a decision wether a youtubers or any other blogger you come across tries to win you over or make you think the other person is wrong. Just don’t let them manipulate you in any other way because at the end of the day it’s you’re mind who you want to watch, read or be friends with if your a blogger reading this or a new blogger just about to start out. Just be you and that’s all that matters don’t let people change of who you are or what you should do with your life or your content.

I just want what’s best for you at the end of the day that’s all. Just be you and stay true to yourself no matter what the out come is. Try their idea if it doesn’t work it doesn’t work because at the end of the day you have to find away what works for you. Apologies if this became a rant but I just wanted to get this sort of topic out there in one peace.

Love you all. You are you that’s what all that matters.

Everyday Online Diary Entries: Storm Thursday (31.5.18)

Storm is once back again today for the end of May 2018 for the United Kingdom (31.5.18) today has been pretty much a long day for me to be honest I hate long days when I haven’t done much to be honest. However at 4:35am this morning it was completely foggy couldn’t see any of the small trees as I was looking out of my window that sat in my next door neighbours gardens; all I could see was this huge tree sitting in the car park of a restaurant that literally sits not to far from the end of my garden, just looming over everything like it was just outside my window even though it’s like in the next road. It always reminds me off the muppet character called “Sweetums” the big hair guy. Over the years I barely even noticed the resemblance of it all but at least 3-4 years the more I paid attention to it the more I actually could see it in the dark and the fog.

Later on in the day whilst things had started to brew over time; my autistic cousin messaged me to remind my mum his aunt to get the washing in as it’s about to rain/raining, so I had to move from the nice and warm comfort of my once messy floor room to go outside to tell her and the fact that he was sweet enough to message me to go and tell her was one thing. Even if it was joint effort with his mum telling him about it and get me to go and tell my mum. Then telling me about something important that was happening in like two months time and asking me what time would I be there and etc I was like I haven’t even thought about it as it’s ages away like another month. We have a special connection me and my cousin.

To be honest I’ve just spent at least half an hour just cleaning apart of my floor and hoovered it; from the door to my bed and visa bed to the door. It really needed doing to be honest with you not too bad but due to my tight muscle in my lower back I couldn’t spend too much time like bending up and down for long period of time. People say it’s because of my weight. However I know exactly what it is and what caused it. Just the job that I’ve been doing for the past 7 years doing the wrong sort of moving handling even though I’ve been trained but still do it wrong all well. Another thing I have to worry about along with the ligaments and the sprains and everything else. I think I’m just generally falling apart and I’m only **** years haha.

The fact we all know I get quite sassy when it comes to certain things you definitely will know that I will say as it is and be sassy after being down for so long. If you don’t…you do now because my friends always point it out to me when I do it to them and I don’t realise I’m doing it until they say. Just come to realise that I’ve just written a whole blog for you guys without thinking much about it and it’s not gibberish. That’s another thing that you guys may find about me when I do a very long blogs you know I’m on top form along with a few scheduled ones in the mean time as well.

I have planned some bits with this diary entry in my plotting journal book which to be honest is quite handy for me as I do watch a fair bit amount of youtube recently and my iPad is the only thing that I can actually watch things on it. So it gives me that effort, the push to say “hey you need to get back into writing in journals again get off the iPad and watch something. Whilst you do that write ideas down in your journal book.” So I have started writing back into one of the journals that I have and I’ve found two positive books that I started I think it was sometime last year I think it was. I kept on loosing one or the other; I think I might actually use one for Life on the open road project and one just general positive book, so I can start writing Life on the open road project blogs for you all in a diary form.

Chinese food tonight yum and saved off for lunch tomorrow now. All and all today been alright. Just be you, love yourself, don’t let peoples negativity harm and don’t let your own negativity thoughts control over you.

Hauls 2018: Primark Haul part 2 – how much?

Yo hey guys just typing up my notes from my blog notes of Primark Haul decided to write them down as my iPad is getting too hot to hold now so I decided to jot them down. Today (26.5,18) I went to my local Primark to get more nice summery clothing tops as I’ve noticed that I’ve grown out of some of my clothing that I’ve had over the years. Which is a shame really but all well what can we do.

I’m going to start with W-Button Kimo costing me £12.00 it’s cross between cardigan/swimwear sort of style where it’s long, lose and flows quite beautifully. The cardigan is black with flowery patterned with short sleeves, easy and lose. The size that I’ve picked up is size 18.

I brought another Will Button Kimo costing me £10.00 which is another flower pattern with black background with bright flowers and green long Kimo cardigan. Another long, lose and flows quite beautifully once again I do like my flow lose clothes in the summer and also in the winter because I get hot quite easily and I’m not that so claustrophobic. I hate the feeling so claustrophobic. I’ve got the size 18 once again.

Now I’ve got two different types of sleeves milit at £8.00 each and obviously size 18 one is patterned flowery top long and the other one is a stripy long one. I just find it comfortable and lose it’s just helps me quite a lot especially with this heat that we are having at the moment.

If you remember that I brought one black high waisted shorts at size 20; so I brought two more extreme rip high wasted shorts that are denim shorts to which it to my advantage I can wear them everyday, without using my black high waisted shorts. The shorts cost me £10.00 each.

All in total I spent like £58 roughly I know guys “how much?” The fact is I needed new tops, leggings and etc over the past two weeks of spending like £100 for two weeks but when you have lost your way for awhile and everything that you use to feel is like what’s the point in life.

The fact that I’m trying to take charge of my life right now trying to remain positive and get back into the positive frame of mind. It’s like you need to do something about it and fight for you’re life like no tomorrow. I’m currently fighting for my life with my mental health right now; I’m tired of letting it control me everyday now, I want to live my life now to the best that I can be and thats even with the blogging and what not.

Remember believe in yourself, you are strong, you have the passion to survive this and most importantly you’re beautiful in all different shapes and sizes no matter how you look. Ignore all the haters that hate you ignore all the negative that they give you even yourself. Be you, be yourself and love yourself no matter how much hard it is. Peace!