The feeling of lost and confused.


The feeling of lost and confused.

The weekend that had my whole world just got turned upside down. To the point of freaking out and confused. 

The hardest part of this is I don’t know where to begin to write; I suppose I should start from the beginning, then find the end somewhere. Would be a good start wouldn’t it. I like to make sure that my readers and clients know this is everyone’s worst nightmare; for themselves, but also for a parent or a child witnesses their love ones crumble or confused. This is what I want to share with you on my daily basis; I do have good days really good ones, however I have really bad days that I can’t seem to get out off. 

As I’m writing this I would like to say thank you for reading and listening to my story; also I’ve actually got a clear head, where I’m doing loads of posts for you think I’ve writing about three in one day; one was a hit and miss but it was alright, two with clear head. Which is achievement. 

My story begins with meeting a guy who I thought he really liked me; felt like we known each other for months, but it was only a week. When it came to the mid week we met up; he really liked me and I really liked him, I thought he said would you go out with me and come round. By Friday I was trying to contact him as I was having a complete nervous breakdown; until I found out that someone else messaged me back to which my whole world turn upside, I had wished he would talk to me first but the whole weekend he hadn’t messaged me at all. 

I couldn’t understand why someone would do that to someone who they really liked; then something more unusual happened to me, on which I can’t say private client confidentiality etc etc etc. To be honest my head is still coming around to the idea; but they didn’t know or what was happening at the time, probably now know why my head is over the place. All I can say nice one guys. Not like I’m complaining or anything it’s rather nice to be able to be recognised with the whole what I do; how I do things, and what not. 

I wish I could revel my clients but I promised myself and to them I wouldn’t. Yeah whilst everything was going on in my head; the guy that I liked, having multiples of anxiety attacks and along with private clients. I think I have lost quite a lot of sleep in one weekend; I don’t even know if I’m going to get much sleep tonight after I’ve finished here. Sunday 11th June 2017. 

Living with anxiety is hard everything is out of your control; sometimes when I’m completely out of control, I don’t know what I’m saying and apologies if I had offended them. It’s going to be a long night now; just had a paracetamol just to bring down how hot I’m feeling, but also to help calm my nerves as well I was literally getting the shakes. On which it might of trapped a nerve in my wrist or I’ve done something to it, so use to it now it’s like my second nature if you ask me. Good night I hope you all have a lovely sweet dreams as I’m going to try and get some sleep. If not I have no idea what I’m going to do. 

To rehabilitate and help others 


To rehabilitate and help others

This week I do have to say I struggled in the way of what to write for you guys in your hour of need; as my thoughts are still with the victims and who had passed away, but I believe there is good to come out of this and also it is very useful for every single of you as you read this today. 

I’m going to research or have researched quotes that you guys may like in the way of you can relate too; most importantly you guys have way cooler films at your age than when I was your age, believe me they were still in the making and starting out in my day. 

“Fairy Godmother: Now off you go… for you *shall* go to the ball.” – From Cinderella film. 

No matter how you feel about yourself; how scared you are? Or how anxious you are of going out to place? Due to the fact that bad things have happened to you; always have this quote with you, to give yourself the courage that you need to do when you get out of the house. That’s the best step forward is going to be able to go through that door and keep living. 

“Belle: [singing] I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I can tell… And for once it might be grand to have someone understand, I want so much more than they’ve got planned!” – From Beauty and The Beast. 

Don’t let your adventures stop because they have taken away your dreams and what they have planned for the rest of the world. Show them who’s boss. Show them that you are the one in charge. Let them. Know that you are standing up to them; with everyone who was a victim of the terror attacks understand, what it must feel like of the unknowing and what to do with themselves. 

“Aladdin: Wow. The palace looks pretty amazing, huh? 

Princess Jasmine: [glumly] Oh… It’s wonderful. 

Aladdin: I wonder what it’d be like to live there, and have servants, and valets. 

Princess Jasmine: Oh, sure. People who tell you where to go and how to dress. 

Aladdin: That’s better than here. You’re always scraping for food and ducking the guards. 

Princess Jasmine: You’re not free to make your own choices. 

Aladdin: Sometimes you feel so… 

Princess Jasmine: You’re just… 

Aladdin, Princess Jasmine: …trapped” – Aladdin

To be able to hold someone’s hand once again; like saying “do you trust me” and you hesitate of the uncertainty of what is going to happen if you set foot outside again, when they ask you again and you put your hand in theirs. Reply with a “yes” as they open the door still holding your hand not letting go; you feel anxious of not letting go, you know the massive big success in yourself. To acknowledge that you just got yourself out of the house; so you wouldn’t feel so trapped inside watching the world go by, but making the decisions off that are right for you. 

Just finding quotes that matter to you and how you feel. Even best way to do it is to analysis the quote of what it means to you; you alone and no one else, expect you as your the only one that can make it happen. People have different types off ways that the quotes mean to them; it’s not right or wrong people, are different to everyone else. Give it ago what do you think quotes mean to you.

Mental Health for young people


Introduction 

For young people

Young people can experience a range of mental health problems. Childhood and teenage years are a time when you are usually changing rapidly and developing all the time.

You also often have to cope with many different situations and unfamiliar challenges like exams, relationships and the other pressures of growing up.

While often it’s possible to talk to parents or carers about feelings, you may find it hard to do so. You might express how you feel through being moody, getting in trouble at school or at home or by becoming angry easily. Some people also get odd aches and pains that can happen when you’re not able to say what you’re feeling.

If you’re able to carry on your usual life and don’t experience lasting unpleasant feelings, the best help is for parents, relatives or friends to be available to listen, to talk things through and to support you where they can. 

More rarely, you may experience difficulties that are more severe or long lasting, or you may find yourself reacting to setbacks in a more extreme way. You may tell parents or friends that you are distressed or unable to cope, or you may try to hint that you are and hope they speak to you.  This can lead to the support you want.  Often though, you may find you show distress through acting differently, with more intense moods or behaviour, either at home, at school, or with friends.

Occasionally, your feelings or mood may be so extreme or upsetting that you need urgent help. If you’re self-harming, running away, or saying you no longer want to go on living then you may need immediate support. If this sort of feeling continues for some time it is a particular clue that you might need to look to get help to cope with your mental health.

For parents

If you are a parent living with a mental health problem you might find our guide to parenting and mental health useful. If you are concerned about a child then see organisations listed under Useful contacts for more information.

Website I got this from is https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/guides-to-support-and-services/children-and-young-people/#.WSIB4VTTWf0 

Mental Health for young people

I sometimes find when I read or hear on the news that sometimes parents don’t even notice that their children are depressed or self harming; before they realise it’s too late when they commit suicide or run away, then you have no hope to understand why until they find all the evidence and they wish they could of seen the signs, read more and have more knowledge about mental health. 

Some parents are always there for the kids who go throw it; help them to get well, be there for them and let them come to them or go to them if they need to talk. Monjority of the young people’s parents know they are helpless; but trying to help them fight it along side them, gives them more encouragement to do so. 

You then have your parents who can only give you so much care; until they have had enough of it, telling you to do things, snap out of it and etc. Makes you feel a whole lot worse than you already are; that’s because people don’t understand what it’s like living with it, when they are feeling down about things or stressed about things. They start to take it out on you because they know your the weakest; that’s when you start to withdraw yourself more and more, but yet they still can’t see it and do it more.

All of your useful tips as parents and young people please go to the website under the introduction. This has more information and contacts for you to look for in guidance and to help.

Life of living with MHI and PCSOS


Introduction 

May I like to say is that I have plucked up the courage to inform you that; I am raising awareness of two topics that this blog is about, I’m going to tell you how I cope with them with everyday life.

MHI = Mental Health Issues

PCSO = Polycystic Ovaries Syndrome 

These are what the codes mean when I use them throughout the blog; as it is easier for me to write more easier and more freely as I can, when I’m sharing with you about them all. 

Life of living with MHI and PCSO

Living with these conditions can come easy at the best of times; however sometimes it is harder than to expect when one can play off the other if both go at the same time, or they can be perfectly fine. 

At 21 years of age I was diagnosed with PCSO due to massive big badly period pains; but yet no period that came, throughout my teens I use to have bad period pains and they would come. I use to go home early from school because I would end up in tears or wanting to throw up or worse off be in so much pain that I had to go home because I have to take something and sleep it off.

When I was diagnosed I had to take contraceptive pills on which made me ill; every 21 days I would have my head down the toilet every time I had finish it, then I had to stop taking it and now I have contraceptive implant that’s been perfectly fine odd occasions over the 6 years I had now and then periods but not for long or just in pains. 

However most recently it’s started to flare up again with a lot of stress that I’m under and in so much pain along with mood swings which is effecting my other health issue. Which is called mental health issues.

By the age of 22/23 I was diagnosed with depression and GAD (General Anxiety Disorder); this has been challenging for very long time, been on lots of different medication for it and etc. Still trying to find ways to be able to reduce the stigmas of them; but haven’t quite find out what ones work and etc, been to youth counselling and CBT. It has been a very long ride; however with my current situations it has been a lot harder to battle through it all, on which has effected my PCOS on which I have mention up above. This is still a work in progress for me but will talk about it more in the near future and I never let define me or defeat me as much as it tries to.

Something we are not


Introduction 

There’s two types of people that I have come across. The one where you’ve got people who talk about themselves a lot and manipulate people and you have people just keep things to themselves to themselves. 

Something we are not

Not too sure what or where I got this title from but I think it was from a song that gave me an idea; anything can give me an idea without thinking sometimes that’s how I work, that’s what makes me me.

To my readers this is not at aimed anyone just an observation of myself and people around me. I have noticed and have become more aware that people around me talk more about themselves than think of anyone else around them. People that I have observed throughout life so far; can be so manipulative, brag about themselves and complain about anything under the sun. 

Then you have someone like me who don’t complain, moan, tell my whole life story (unless something that I can relate to like now I can relate to this in a blog but this is like work for me) keep everything to myself bottled up until something happens. Sometimes you guys will know if something has happened that I haven’t blogged for a few days or a day. 

People really are not the same as each other; they really aren’t, I get to the point of when someone has annoyed me to the point that I would most likely to loose it with someone. Don’t rarely loose it with people but when they know that they have peeved me off they know not to say anything else. My friends know when to back off when I need space to calm down then come round and then I’ll talk. They know it might take all day or few hours to calm down or even sometimes to the point of they know when to step in if I haven’t calm down. They know it’s not me and I know it’s not them when they have a rough day.