Ever thought why your mind always constantly keeps on swimming; your trying to gasp for air but you seem to keep on being dragged down because of all the thoughts inside your head, then your like why isn’t anyone listening to me? Why has no one noticed that I’m drowning? Why has no one noticed that I’ve gone missing?
Yet every time you scream for help load of water seems to enter your mouth making you chock, splutter and everything else. Yet still not hearing you? Then your body gives up trying to fight the water as the gravity starts to pull you down; that’s when people started to notice that your drowning, or even missing until the notice your body sinking to the bottom of the pool.
That was when everyone dived in to try and a rescue; fighting all of the Black nodded creatures that surrounded you, that was when they soon realise that your mind has completed under water. Once they got you out of the water you start to chock and spitting water out of your mouth.
You were in hospital for days but you were giving signs of improvement each day; trying to get yourself better but yet your mind was still feeling under water, until it all came clear to you one day that someone had come through the door to visit you. That’s when you were finally out of the water inside your head.
Health & Wellbeing of mental health and everything else especially when it comes to first month of autumn.
Our first English autumn is now and well and truly over. The fact that I’m going to do the Truth, the bad and the ugly for this one because I found it a bit easier to talk about certain things that matter to me. If I found certain things difficult or easy or something along the lines of that. So here we go.
September has been quite difficult in some areas. The fact that I had started a new job I felt anxious and afraid until I managed to find my feet. Yeah might of put someone in there place a few times in a space of a month; I finally found my feet, putting my things I know into place and working well. Relationship hasn’t been that easy either this month lots of insecurities and everything but always seemed to work out for the best at the end of the day. Polystic Overias Syndrome hasn’t been so nice to me this week either especially with my hormones.
The bad thing is when my depression starts to kick in; I start to feel rotten, I don’t know what’s going on in my head or within myself. Everything seems to not go right. Unless I’m going down with something or my hormones start playing up then that’s another cattle of fish. That’s when the ugly side comes in when nobody wants to take the full brunt of it all. To be fair I don’t really blame them. Unless it’s Caspain then he just takes it on dead on and stamp it out of it as best he could.
The most ugly thing about mental health and Polystic Overias Syndrome is that at the worst times they both come at the same time. I don’t understand when I have this problem where my hormones start to kick in; I can tell you now that this is very rare for me to have it now days, but when it comes it kicks off my mental health and I just can’t cope with it. Especially with both at the same time and it’s really truly horrible all I wanted to do is stay in bed and just cry. That’s the hardest thing that could ever happen to me. Not easy to say the least.
More to the point now that we have just finished one month of autumn; about to begin the next month autumn; we all know how English weather can be so depressing, and a whole lot worse than people like me have to face it everyday. Heyho I just have to keep on fighting it everyday.