What has made you angry recently?

That part when you scheduled a post; you just about to post the same picture on another website, then you see what it had been written on the top. Your like opps! All well are you bothered about it? I’m not because guess what its a Monday extra in the first place during the week anyway. 

I’m quite glad that I found this title for this week and of course the subject. I did get mad when I realised what I had done; now I’m like whatever it’s a Monday extra feeling, no ones going to complain. Are they? Better not be….haha I’m joking really. 

What made me angrily recently was rules and laws that Caspian has to obey. No matter how much we try and raise the money; or do things we always seem to get blocked at every turn, even if we have had a lot of help to begin with. It just seemed to be never ending; yet no matter how much we argue or share our frustrations, we still love each other and always find away. Even when I’m having a lot of health wise kicking in; knowingly he can’t be there to help, knowingly he frustrates his job and family rules and law that they follow. Especially when you don’t have any money to do anything doesn’t help the situation either. That makes me more angry; as I’m working so hard that I’m just not getting anywhere hard enough, even though I’m trying my best to do everything that I can.

The second most recent thing that has made me feel so angry is people who; think I should apologise for something that I did, when it’s their own actions that have caused me to do that in the first place. That makes me angry; I hate where they think that they are so important because they have the highest status, you think actually are they for real and they show signs that that they can be frauds. Then deni that they aren’t abusing you; they are actually abuse comes across in lots of categories, mentally abuse is one of them and I should know.

Last but no means having the possibility of a hearing aid in one ear; after all this time not having to have one for 26 years or so, yeah it’s one of those things you will have to have them at some point in your life. I am grateful that I haven’t had to have them so far but now the whole sense of feeling like; I’m going back on myself again, proving myself that I can do things and to be able to carry on doing the things that I want to do. I just hate major set backs every time when something happens like my health issues kick in one way or another.

I think this blog has turned into more of a rant than what made you angry recently; unless it is a rant title name that give you the permission to do so, them I’m going to take this as advantage of using it as a rant Friday Time Recap Time! Along with sharing my rant anger with my fellow readers and bloggers who probably feel the exact same feeling that I do about certain things in life that shouldn’t happen but it does.

The worst bit is and this is the last complaint, rant, whatever you call is that my ear is causing so much pain that it’s much better if I had my head laying down. I can’t do that all day long can I. I have work to do ear and your not helping the situation haha.

The part where you just want to scream!

The part where you just want to scream but the only way to do so is in a journal. Have you thought what it must be like for a writer who has lots going on in their mind; yet the things on their mind is stopping them from putting pen to paper, this is what my world in my mind as a writer.
So in this journal you will find your on a chase throughout the journal; which speaks of the journey that once use to be lived in, but now the journal is speaking of the journey. Now come. Come and read. Read for yourselves what it’s like to live in a writer’s head; that everyone thinks writers don’t get a writer’s block, that’s not true everyone has those days. I’ve had one two many of them this week. (Week of the 10th July 2017).
Let me begin how I grateful I am for you to come and read my blogs and their stories; without your care and love to read them, it’s shows me great courage to continue in writing even if I’m having a bad day for some odd reason or another. So far this week I have managed to get some of my blogs done on time this week; which is a success as monjority of the week, I’ve been so stressed out with other things. All I just wanted to do is scream because I couldn’t get what I wanted done. Done. Where to the point if I wanted to that I actually wanted to give up of trying to live my dream as a writer; whilst everything around me is closing in, to the point of do I actually want to make this a success or not. 

I know it’s not going to be a permanent thought of mind when you have a writer’s block; when you have so many other things going on in your head, all you want to do is scream, shout, give up and even want to punch somebody to the point because you got to that state of mind. Writer block is completely to everyone who writes; like I’ve just mentioned about my mind just want to give up and etc, it shows the whole different side of you that no one actually see’s. They see someone being successful in their craft or hobby. 

I’m quite surprised that I managed to come up with this blog on Wednesday 12th July 2017. The day I had that day. My word I couldn’t even tell you even if I tried. Whilst I was trying to work on my blogs and etc; I was trying to sort out things with Caspian and his things, whilst having a complete argument, trying to push him away and what not. To be honest he’s not even giving up on me that easily. 

The best thing is about Caspian no matter how much I try to push him away; he knows how much I’m fighting my demons, he believes in me no matter how much I want to be left alone. To be able to talk to him about things can unclear my head from writer blocks; then look at what views I have on each blog websites, then say actually what am I doing. I shouldn’t give up on this. I need to believe in myself to be able think I can do this; I’m going to carry on with this and take down the writer’s block one way or another, to remind myself what the blogs are good for and what other people say or thoughts that I may have about it all. 

This is one of my reasons I have writer’s blocks when I battle my demons; I think of the whole I’m not good enough, until someone so close to you and says no your not. Its like them saying I’m not abounding you because of what you have got or what has happened to in the past; your the reason why I love you because you have the passion to do something in life, I want to help you get through the pain barrier first. 

All you got to do is not give up on yourself; find your strong hardcore man or women who believes in you no matter what, I hope this helps you guys. 

What is May’s next move?

You start to begin to wonder if there’s anyone going to shut down Theresa May; as soon as possible, whilst trying to shut down nearly every political person who does not understand.

Things that May has been trying to do since the general election or as she puts it a snap election. To be honest May has made so many mistakes, so many u-turns, trying to preach the Good Friday Agreement with Northern Ireland. Even with agreement with them still not looking good; however she’s asking Liberals (Liberal Democratics) for help to prop her up; along with asking David Cameron to back her on things, this goes to show how much she is desperate to say in power and for the money. 

 I am glad that the fox hunting u-turn because otherwise if they did bring back fox hunting; they would want to bring back everything else that is being protected, to which what time period are they trying to go back to? 

I personally think delaying the queen speech was pretty much stupid and waisting everyones time. You knew it was going to back fire one way or another; I take my hat off to the queen making a statement with her outfit for the day, to say to Theresa May that it’s better to stay in the EU. Yes the queen is getting on a bit but she hasn’t lost her marbles; she knows every crock and crannies, when it comes to each primeminster who had served her and her country. She knows what she is up against; every time there is a new primeminster or the same primeminster, she’s not daft one single bit. Since that day everyone realised what really is going on; as the queen reads out the speech, now all of the hard work that poor May had put in and now the queen speech goes out of the window. 

It does go to show that it has made clear in what is going on; what May’s game plan is, they are now trying to block her every move. Even monjority of her cabinet is trying to block her every move. 

Neither May or Corbyn are good at their rules; either one of them will bank crupt the a whole of UK in one go, either of them in power. How about cut all of their pays; take all of their luxuries away, and everything else that they may have as I am for certain that’s where all our money is going. On them so that they can lavish all the good things in life; whilst we have to work our arses off to get what we want, cuts need to be in their areas not our areas that we need the most. 

Theresa May comes out fighting for austerity. Which means that after sacking George Osborne last year 2016; which means that she has stuck with his austerity script, which has prompted Corbyn to grow confidence since the election to which had landed series of rhetorical blows. “The Prime Minster found £1bn to keep her own job” he had noted of the DUP deal. Quotes and more information are found on NewsStatesman for the full article. 

Another mp is coming out with is that May is frightened out of her own skin; this is because she doesn’t want to call for another election, due to the fact that she knows that labour will win. That’s why she’s calling on everyone to back her up in the way that she can’t loose her job. To be quite frankly the longest and oldest standing mp is quite right if you ask me; she is frightened of loosing her job and the power that she has. I rather she wasn’t in power anymore but then again I don’t want Corbyn in either. 

Silent Moments

That day that shock the whole nation as we come to terms with our first attack; this is a story of what it must of felt like on the day when it all happened, the day that 52 people who had died that day.
The birds swooped down; that very morning, today was like any other day. I wake up to my annoying alarm clock; to tell me to get ready for my day, I didn’t really want to but it was so sunny, warm and blue skies. What could go wrong on 7th July 2005? Nothing can would it. I’m just an average 14 year old going to school like everyone else in London; that day me and my friends decided to go and get the underground trains that day, than we normally do in the morning if we were running late for the bus. 

Our parents always knew our game plan because one of us is always running late one way or another; that’s why we all get on so well, we stick together all the time. This was the early 2000’s at the time nothing much really could go wrong; typical teen head at the time, but we were living the life of freedom and care free. So we got to the underground train that we normally get on a running late day; still thinking our day would be alright, as we got onto the Circle Line that was going to be stopping near Aldgate and Edgware Road. Fortunately our parents rang in saying that the trains were running late; should be in by 9:30am, they were more expectable at that as we did come from different part of London but also our parents were the governors of the school. Not bragging or anything. 

The train had started to slow down at about 8:49am that’s when I started to think something wasn’t right; this route wouldn’t stop here, would it? I looked around as my friends were still talking like they haven’t even noticed anything strange or anything; no one wasn’t seem too bothered about the whole train stopping, there was one guy looking dodgy but then again I always thought men were strange people in the first place. Someone’s phone went off that caught my attention. Then the next thing all I could remember was me, my friends and everyone else in the carriage went up into the air we all landed in a heap. 

I could barely move or say anything. All I could hear was people screaming in pain; I could taste blood in my mouth. I knew. I knew I just been attacked but by what? I couldn’t sit up or anything. I just thought where are my friends are they are alright; with the whole fear of oh my god! I’m going to be left to die, no one is coming to get me. I want my mum. 

I don’t even know what the time is; I could hear voices coming down the tunnel, they were getting closer and closer. The screaming had stopped; unless that I can’t ear anything, everywhere is pitch black other than the people who were coming to rescue them had torches.

I could hear foot steps coming into the carriage; I was starting to loose consciousness, as one of the rescuers had started to shine the light in my face to see if I was alive or not. Then shouted to the others what I could make out as the blood had started to pile up in my ears; ‘a young teenager over here who’s alive but in and out of consciousness’ few extra people came over and they started carefully to lift me up on to a hard something. That I wasn’t too sure what it was. 

It still felt a very long time and dark in the tunnel but as soon as my rescuers got me out to the platform and out of the station the sun had gone in. The clouds had gone in; something was wrong, all I could remember was being put back of an ambulance then fell unconscious. 

I don’t even remember what happened after that all I can remember is waking up in hospital; with a hospital gown on, cards and gifts at the end of my bed not being able to move. My parents were there when I woke; they called the doctor and nurse to come, I started to panic of what has happened. 

I literally couldn’t hear what they were talking about; which grew made me grow into panic, this had to be serious why can’t I hear and I can’t feel anything. I started to cry as it was hard to understand; this is harder than I had imagine, my mum was trying to calm me down….It took me 12 years to recover with the lots of help encouragement; but I’m working hard, building up charities in people who are effecting in the attacks. I miss my friends everyday; some suffered the same as me, however some of them died in the attack. 

This is a story of what may of felt like being in the first attack. A point of view of a victim who may have lost everything; how to rebuild their lives after attack that may effect them for the rest of their lives, along with the flash backs due to the recent events.

June’s Newsletter 2017

June this year has been quite surprising this year; with lots of things that have happened, from leaving my job to getting a job within a week, gorgeous but annoying heat waves, to great sadness and be able to carry on no matter what each day throws at us. Most of all is that I can focus on my blogs a lot more than I use to; from being able to write loads, schedule them, post them and most importantly to be able to pick out good blogs that I know are going to be good and publish them on another blog company page called Vocal Media to which I’ll be able to get paid from. 

Heatwaves 

This year’s June 2017 we’ve received the most lovely hot weather; I do have to say a very hot weather in fact, that reached the highest temperatures in 41 years meaning the last hottest heat wave to be so high on that day (21st June 2017) the longest day was the year 1976. I remember when I was like in year 10 I think it was we had heatwaves and we got sent home from school but it wasn’t as bad as this years heatwaves. Reaching the highest of 35 degrees to cross the country to the boarders of Scotland; from 22nd June 2017 some areas have been expecting thunderstorms, some were expecting thunderstorms but never happened. Yet still humid and but cooler than it has been since the last few days. 

Tragedies that have happened

When we all thought it just couldn’t get any better; we had a tower of flats that went up in flames from electrical compliance; to which it caught onto something that’s called Cladded Fittings for outside of the buildings but that was actually banned in the UK, in Europe and the US. But why was it fitted in the first place? That’s the question along with the fire sprinklers why did Chancellor Hammond and the rest of the government ignore the voices of the community in the North Kennginston in the first place? 

Then at least 4-5 days after that someone decides to go and attack a mosque in West London; to which why do they think it’s okay to attack other cultures when it’s not even their fault, they help us we all help them. What makes the person in question thinks it’s okay to do it? Out of disappear? Or out of hatred or what? 

I let you think about that. I only wanted to touch base on this briefly as I’ve recently talked about it in my recent blogs. 

Leaving a job, getting a job in a week

It will be a month since I’ve left my full time job; probably not the best way to do about it but in the space of a week of leaving I manage to get a job somewhere else, to be able to help bring in money along the way when I decide what I actually want to do with myself long term. I am impressed that I could actually that I managed to get a job within a week of leaving my old job but also to be able to sort myself out in between leaving and starting my new job. 

Lizzysweeklyblogs 

Since being off and not working I’ve beginning to focus a bit more on my blogs; on which they have been more effective and also been more focused on, than it has been when I’ve been working. Still haven’t quite worked out how to fit in my paperwork schedule in yet but will work that one out; as long as I know that I’ve got two days to do the 4 events, then the rest of the time I can do here and there with everyday post. It has been a hit and miss with paperwork this month; but I’ve got something’s written down and what not for my data collection from social media, heyho just need to work on it a bit more and get my head around it so that I know what days I’m doing what day. Fortunately as the heat is slowly cooling down; I’m more able to concentrate with what I need to do and what not, probably use this as for my last Friday Time Recap Time, as it’s the last Friday of the month so figured might use this blog for that so I don’t have to worry about it as much. 

Vocal Media

Vocal Media I may of touched based with you in one of my blogs the other week; Vocal Media is a company that has lots of different categories that you can put your work in that you specialised in, for example for this newsletter would most probably or more likely to be stored into what they call a journal category. 

Vocal Media is a bit like YouTube in away; that you have to get certain amount of views to be able to start getting paid, to which I thought na this isn’t me I don’t think my work isn’t good enough. I know you lot may disagree with me on this; the truth to be told you guys are right, my blogs are good enough for people to read them. I only pick out the ones that I think are going to be success on my blog; then put them on there to see if it’s the same, however it is a success on there to find out that most things do work on things than others. 

I may have to write something differently for Vocal Media I’m not to sure yet; as I’m trying to figure out how to make my blog as a successful in the long run, so I’m going to continue what I’m doing by choosing which ones are going to be the best set of blogs to go up on that website. 

Here we go once again!


I know I have just touched based with this and moved the original blog to Sunday Special; also due to the heat wave that we’ve been getting, the technology has been unbearable to handle even by holding it as it’s been over heating. So I had to get my notebook out to be able to pre-plan what I was going to write; to which I didn’t have to use any technology as much as I could on Tuesday to write this, but to be able to write it up when it was a lot cooler than it was throughout the day. 

Barley a week to recover from the tower fire; someone decides to attack a mosque in another part of London, to which point that the police are treating it as a terror attack because in recent events have been terror attacks. Accordingly to the event number 4. The attack had happened minutes when an ill man was being giving first aid by some of the public; who were near by the mosque, people came into the mosque which interrupted Ramadan Night Prayers that evening to help. 

Muslim worshippers had taken into their own hands like every other attacks that we had face; to hold him down as the attacker shouts at them all, stopping people from kicking him even further. They all had to wait for the police to arrive to which they had come immediately to the response; I couldn’t believe how well we all take it in our everyday lives to, take it in our daily routine if something like this happened we get on and just do it by going full steam ahead and help people. Even as I take my hate off to the muslim community and a few of my friends are muslims I have nothing against them what so ever; they are here to live what we live under, they respect our culture and we respect theirs. They help us and we help them; at the end of the day they proved to us and the world that we live in this country; you attack their country, then your attack my country that took us in. We are not letting you win. That to me is a strong message out everyone in the world.

Some politics say it’s just an incident that happened. Erm what planet are you on and where have you been in the last three to four months? They aren’t incidents they are terror attacks. Some politics are saying that it’s just an incident that has been continuing to happen; hang on a minute, how is it an incident? It’s a blooming terror attack; it’s okay for them getting protected from any harms way, we are the ones that are getting attacked and not being protected. That’s why we are taken this as our everyday lives now; along with taken it into our own hands that to help local services, because the politics can’t be bothered to do anything to help or do much about it. 

Prime-minister in talks with the religious leaders on how to protect their religion and their events; which means that the police have taken into account by stepping up the mark to help cover the rest of Ramadan and ED, to make sure everyone from Muslim community right through to all different religions and community to feel safer until it ends at the end of the month.

A man had died; along with 9 people were taken to 3 different hospitals, while 2 were being treated with minor injuries. No matter what happens these days; you have to treat everything as a terror attack, you never know if they were doing it alone or with a group of people. Yet we have to be really vigilant even more now; even we do get attacked every two weeks or so, it’s like as we just about to relax along side with the whole country’s cliffs. We get another attack or something that shocks the nation and the world. Yet we are setting a good example where at least we run towards the problem; than running away from it, to show that we aren’t afraid to do anything but in our mind set we are but you have to help the other people who need your help. What I’m asking is think to yourself where would you be in 5 years time if you look back and say I did that? I helped them when they needed someone the most. I wish I did something to help when someone was in that situation. Just ask yourself the questions what would you do? Would you run the other way or would run towards it? 

Video tribute to the attacks.

Hundred Watt Club and Guildford Fringe have teamed up once again!

                                                                    

                                                           Sensuelle – the headline act

                                                                    ​Photo by David Slater

Hundred Watt Club and Guildford Fringe have teamed up once again to bring the sauce, the sass and the downright silly to Guildford Fringe Festival!

In true Fringe style, the last weekend of Guildford Fringe Festival features one of the best nights out around, as the Hundred Watt Club commandeers the Electric Theatre on Saturday, July 29 in fabulously feisty fashion.

Indulge in a glittering evening of burlesque and cabaret, brought to you by a lustrous line-up of acts never seen before on a Hundred Watt Club stage.

Your host for the evening is celestial wit and holy drag queen, Virgin Xtravaganzah. She will be joined on stage by statuesque showgirl Sensuelle, with hoop tricks from record breaking hula artist Symone, and side-splitting comedy burlesque from Crimson Skye. And making her debut on the UK stage, traditional Music Hall madness ensues from bawdy broad Aunty Mae.

“I cannot think of a better show to include in our last weekend of Guildford Fringe Festival’s 5th birthday bash! I am particularly excited to see Aunty Mae’s debut performance,” says Guildford Fringe director Nick Wyschna. 

“A regular fixture on the Guildford Fringe events calendar, The Hundred Watt Club is always a huge hit with our audience – so much so that our last five shows were all sell-out successes. Due to its popularity, please get clicking on the Guildford Fringe Festival website and nab your tickets in advance to avoid disappointment.”

Dig out your best vintage gear and get ready to party!

*The show is strictly over 18s only, adult themes are employed and embraced with gusto. No dress code, but glamorous, vintage inspired-attire encouraged for both men and women*

The Hundred Watt Club is on Saturday 29 July at 8pm at The Electric Theatre, Onslow Street, Guildford. Tickets are £18 (£15 concessions) and are available online at www.GuildfordFringeFestival.com or by calling 0333 666 3366. Strictly over 18s only. 

Got to see my godmother!


Got to see my godmother!

I have to say today let’s scrap the introduction for this week as I just want to do it all in one this week; as I have a massive announcement but the title gives it away, quite a lot though. However also it might even given you the surprise of that I was actually baptised; yes I don’t believe in it all but my godparents are there for their uses at times, especially one that you don’t see as much. 

The last time I saw my godmother was about 2008; at that time it was still awarkard but it was nice to be able to spend of time with her with the family, 9 years later my godmother and her husband now adoptive godfather came back over from all the way from Australia as they’ve moved over there 18 years ago. When they came over my godfather was nagging me everyday since they arrived back been nagging me to come to their get together of old familiar faces that knew them on 26th May 2017, on which I did actually go to it was actually quite special even more special that being with but also I was lot closer to my great gran as it was her house to begin all those years ago. 

I had fun memories of going round there every day; sitting, playing and being with her up until she passed away, I think she might of passed away when I was about 3/4 years old before my sister was born. My sister and cousin never really got to meet her as they were born later in the 90’s; however the house went to two good people over the years, where they looked after it well and most of all I could go round there anytime I wanted because I know the people who are currently in the house. It went from my great nan’s house to my godparents to lovely people who I grew up to know through the church that I went to personally but I don’t believe in it. However I believe having both sets of godparents; it’s nice to have the balance of views, more to go to sort of people. My other set of godparents are my uncle and aunt; I have gone to them over the years but due to the certain stances, it’s been tricky for them well my aunt. 

However I am going to miss my godparents; as they have now gone back to Australia, my godfather’s next trick is to get me to come to Australia and visit them. Not too sure how that’s going to happen; as I’ve never been on airplane nore I like heights, so it’s going be difficult for him to convince me to go and visit them. Haha.

10 Things I’m Grateful for


10 Things I’m Grateful for

Why not bring in 10 things that I’m grateful for back or that haven’t done before; can’t remember if you ask me, I thought having this as Friday Time Recap Time. This will help to remember what we can do along of recaping that we maybe grateful for. 

  1. Having a few soul mates in my life that stay put
  2. Happiness 
  3. My closest friends
  4. My passion for writing and creativity 
  5. Time for myself
  6. My family 
  7. Great support network
  8. Summer is just around the corner
  9. Laughter
  10.  Especially having a life 

These 10 things are the great things to have in my life; without them I would be still falling apart, but also I can throw myself back into things when I know I’m ready to get back onto it.

Why are we still drawing up the past for the victims?


Why are we still drawing up the past for victims? 

Over the years few people have been coming to alight in our daily lives who are serving life for a reason; but in today society when you get life sentence you get 5-10 years, that’s not life. The people who are serving life sentences from 1960’s, 70’s, 80’s or even 90’s they had tougher sentences than from 2000 onwards; what’s changed since then? Even the people behind bars know that life is life. 

What sickens me more that the killers who had done horrific crimes all those years ago; this week are still getting the publicity that they want for their crimes, even though they are dead now. What message is that sending out to everyone? Also if you had a dying wish of not be placed where you killed someone or a few people; I’m sorry you have no say in the matter in my opinion, because if you killed innocent people for no reason then you’ll be buried where your victims were buried. 

Bear this in mind this is my own opinion in this blog; if you wanted to kill someone or something join the army, they will train you harder and make you learn from right and wrong. 

That’s for me this weeks Friday Time Recap Time; have a lovely weekend whatever you are doing, don’t get too wet or too sunburnt were ever you are in the country or round the world.