Friday Time Recap Time – Friday Diary Online Entries: Break Free Of The Pain

Whatever you believe this or not it’s up to you. I know the truth that’s all that counts.

I told you when we first met that I had problems but you still loved me know matter what; if you want to help me and be with me take it, because I shouldn’t of said that you should of leave as the amount of times I pushed you away. I tried to hide it. I tried to fake it but I can’t pretend anymore; I only wanted to die alive because of my open wounds have now been opened, knowing that you’ve seen my vulnerability more by the hands of people in my past and I don’t want to hear about the person anymore.

Now that I’ve become who I really am because of you I’m now stronger than I’ve become who I really am; this is the part where I want to say “I want you more than ever” as this is the part where we both know I’m breaking free from my past, because I can’t resist it and can’t go back to it no more. Your better. Deeper inside me with hope and kindness like the highway of goodness.

You always had this little patience with me but I’m still hurting from all of the love that I had lost in the past; I can feel your frustration because all you want to do is stop all of my pain, you just want to hold me close and keep me safe in your arms tonight. Don’t be hard on my emotions because I need time as my heart feel so numb as I’m still healing. Please still have the little patience as I really want to start over again I know that your my salvation because your the one that I can always depend on.
I’m trying to be strong believe me it’s taken it out on me no matter how much anxiety I had to face believe me I’m trying to move on and take control. You know how complicated it is but your the only one that understands me. You can see the amount of scars that have been running so deep; it’s hard to believe that you have been fighting for me, it’s been long for you no matter how painful to see me go through so much and yet still continue to stay put no matter what I chuck at you. You always had that patient for me.

Yet I’m breaking free from all of the pain; finding my confidence once again, making me feeling strong and know when I’m weak. Your my everything as I’ve cried so many tears for you; it’s taken me lot to say but I’ve pushed my pride away to tell you that I love you so much, because what we got is worth fighting for and you are my everything.

Revisit Case….Annabel Inorin how her story began and how it en

(Don’t worry this isn’t a scam all of my information came from a good friend of mine)

Annabel Iron. Let me cast your minds back when I introduced you to her back in July/August 2017. I just wanted to refresh your memory why theses children need your help. At the time Annabel was 11 year old little girl; who looked like a normal little from Nigeria, she is a normal little girl but suffered from “Arrhythmias” yet she didn’t really have much of a life due to this horrible disease that effected her heart. She couldn’t do anything like any other child her age without fallen tired or become very sick. The fact that she was fighting it without any medical care or medication that could help her cope with it.

At the time of her being alive she didn’t have the right equipment or the right medication to be given the have a normal life. Annabel had to continue throughout the night and rely on the hand and foot by the hospital staff and her parents. Knowing that someone like Annabel who is suffering with “Arrhythmias” could pass away at anytime; due to the fact that they don’t have the right equipment and medical attention that they need throughout the day, to which they are missing out on having a normal life and not having to worry about her life wouldn’t be life threatening everyday but also to meet new people and be able to play with friends. However between 31st July – 6th August 2017 Annabel had passed away in her sleep with her family around her. The doctors and nurses tried everything to make her feel comfortable as much as possible but due to lack of equipment and medical care that they didn’t have at the time. Her tiny little 11 year old body couldn’t keep on fighting for much longer.
I have a huge respect for her family, her parents, her doctors and her nurses who have tried everything to help her feel comfortable and help her to be positive about everything. Even with all the odds were stacking up against them all. Trust me I’ve been working with special needs children from the age 21 until present still working with them.

I’ve seen first hand of children like Annabel coming and going with so many medical equipment that they need, medication that they need due to the health conditions. They are lucky in the U.K. that they have good health system that they depend on because you would never know each day to the next what will happen. The day I was told the news of Annabel passing it had truly hit home because I knew what it was like working with someone like Annabel.

All I can say is if you can find your heart to support a child who has a medical condition or a disability in the U.K. or your country; you can branch out a little to get some medical equipment and medication that they need in Nigeria, all I’m asking is to give a little amount that you can give by donating to this link below. That covers everything from the cases you read.

https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/rufflescarebear

Friday Time Recap Time: First 5 days of 365 days of the year 2018

 

Yay can’t believe the first 5 days of the new year has finally been completed feels like it’s been longer than that but that’s probably because lots of things has happened in the first 5 days of 2018 that you wouldn’t probably expect. In the title I could of been wrong with x amount of days it’s either 364 days or 365 days; do I really care most probably not, because I’m that exhausted that I can’t think or anything. Let me explain my first 5 days of this year had come about.

This year instead of resolutions I started with goals because I know I can go back to them throughout the year; along with two close people who I trust know will help me stick to them as much as I can, if you want to know what they are. Why not check this weeks Wednesday Evening Post (3rd January 2018) as it’s on there.

The first two days weren’t the best start of the new year due to personal reasons along with me not sleeping properly as well. It never starts well for me in the new year I believe but I could be just being sensitive or something I don’t know; I’m just taking each day as it comes than rushing it all the time, I had two successful positives so far already to which is a good start in my book.

I have challenged myself to take control of my life the way I want it; I’ve actually started to save money which is a good start, and along side that I had the best positive news about my hearing where there wasn’t anything wrong with my hearing. The fact that one is weaker than the other one but the dr was confident that I should be fine and don’t need to worry about anything; yet its me being paranoid and anxious over my hearing, yet asked for hearing aid assessment just to be on the safety reasons and double check.

Friday Time Recap Time: Emotions run high when ones ill.

After all week trying to figure out what to write for this blog tonight; it occurred to me how much my emotions have been all over the place because of being ill with the flu, didn’t even realise or remember how much having a cold effected me that badly before until now.

The fact that I’ve had been waking up at stupid o’clock not thinking that I’m going down with anything to begin with; yet feeling hungry in the middle of the night, can’t sleep and etc. No one likes being ill at the end of the day but I find it a lot harder to express my feelings more when I’m not well because I could never express them in the first place. Long story for the reason why; let’s just say no one knows if I’m okay or not, because I keep to myself and don’t say anything until I end up in tears.

That’s when people notice something isn’t right to be honest; I don’t even notice when I’ve got a cold or anything because when I can’t hear that’s when my parents and my sister notice apparently I mumble and talk quietly. I never know that I do that until they point it out.

I generally don’t know when I’m going down with something until one day out of the blue like I had the other day; didn’t even see the signs of going down with something until I got it, and felt dreadful with my body that ached and etc.

Going to rest up as much as I can good night peeps.

Friday Time Recap Time: Coming Soon Lizzysweeklyblogs Merchandise/Products

Remember me talking about or asked you guys about having lizzysweeklyblogs store on facebook; not sure if I got many replies to it or many likes for it, I had thought about bringing it back up again but this time bringing it up on here but sharing my current in progress handmade things that I’m bringing out. I wish to have your comments about them wether it’s a good idea to have my merchandise coming out or not. Wether it’s too soon or not after 2 years of break through is the best idea.

I would like to know from you guys wether it’s good idea or not. Let me know what you reckon to what I have made so far. If you want to suggest any ideas to me in a long run if you think it’s a good idea let me know also down below. Okay as you guys are probably nice and wrapped up warm under a blanket. Your probably thinking I just want to see what your red head blogger has made so far.

Okay okay okay… here’s the first one. Little postcards currently have three types of handmade postcards I haven’t written on them yet but I’ve got a few ideas how to do it but yet some need finishing colouring in before I do it. So far I have made one with a letter box, a positive postcard, and a child like person just like me on the front of the other one. I have got a few more ideas to go on some others but you have to wait and see for those when they have been created.

My other two awesome creations are currently two posters that I have now completed; one with a Post Box in the middle with two butterflies and two little girls coloured in with red hair to symbolise me as your blogger along with a positive quote to get you through the day. The second one that I have created I’m not 100% but I’ll let you guys decide on it, but has three girls obviously symbolising me off course, a Post Box, a dog, two little flowers and two butterflies.

I am intrigued in what you guys have to say about these so far. Obviously I haven’t presented it well but when all of the work has completed and etc then I will have them more presentable and more smarter than they are all ready. Let me know what you think about them.

Can age gap relationships really last?

Friday Time Recap Time is back this week after a long break as I don’t even remember the last time I actually wrote one for tonight’s time/session. As I was writing my day 13 for 30 Days Challenge for Autumn realising that this month is the birth of my blog; as I was writing it I relieved how I find my titles, and what gave me the boost of what I needed for my blogs.

So I revisited a topic show that I would use for my blogs and have a look at what titles that I could use that would stand out for me. Which also gives me a chance to touch base with what I use to do in my first year of blogging. The first one that I have decided to touch base on is Can age gap relationships be a problem? Will they work?

Personally in my opinion age gap doesn’t both me in the slightest because I’ve dated a few that are older than me; it wasn’t a problem for me at all yeah we had issues at the time because thats life, and split because of the issues that were occurring but nothing to do with the age a gap.

I am happy with the person that I am with now; yet they know that I have my doubts and insecurities etc, but without him being 6 – 7 years older than me I managed to over come the fears’ the doubts and the insecurities. We also work through our problems and many other things.

It depends on you and the person your with. It’s no one else’s business to be honest because at the end of the day it’s your happenings and no one else. However I do have a set limit on age bracket it but thats because its too weird for me and the people who I am thinking off.

Yet I am fine with x amounts of years older or younger with a limit of the age bracket that I have set myself at both ends. It’s your life your mind your feelings if you have a connection then go for it you won’t know without even trying it. Things may work it may not work but at the end of the day its your decision of what you want to do and have the common sense of doing it safely and securely.

Day 6 Of 30 Days Challenge for Autumn: Diary Online Entries: Bridge over my trouble waters

Wether you believe this or not it’s your opinion not mine. I respect your opinion but I know what’s true.


When I first met you I don’t know where to begin; so I start by saying that I would refuse forget you, I would refuse to be silenced and I refuse to neglect you because that’s for the every last soul up in heaven who sacrificed their souls to save ours. Even if I never met you I know that you could of been my dad, my mum, my sister, my brother, my niece, my nephew, my daughter or my son. Waving a plain white sheet out on the no mansland; but I can see your white tee up there in heaven as I’m with my friends on the ground trying to see up there knowing that your now at rest, and feeling free from all the pain you have up there.

I can feel your pain on the ground of who you have left behind; but we went back to the block where you grew up with your children, chilling out watching the other children running around playing in the road and the troubled water cams running past. That’s when I swiftly grabbed hold of your children; having to witness your death, and hearing how you died as we ran away from the torment that you had endure. I’ve come back with an army to build you a bridge to come back over for visits like they remember you.

When you’re weary and feeling small; the tears are in your eyes I will dry them all, I’m on your side and when the times get rough and tough. Friends are not only just can be found; theres a bridge over my trouble waters, thats where I will lay and just lay you down right there so that I can get comfort near you. There’s so much pain in my heart my community has moved me; they choose to gleam their bright light as we are facing the dark.

When you’re down and out walking the streets; the evening will fall so hard like a arm is wrapped around my shoulders, a voice will say “I will comfort you…yes I will” I’ll take your part when the darkness comes and all the pain is all around. I will lay down next to you; over the trouble waters but waiting for you to come across the safe crossing of the bridge, to be able to see you once again.

I refuse to forget you. I refuse neglect you. I refuse to let you go. I will fight for your memory. Your my hero, my saviour, my world and my protector. Lest we forget.

25 Facts About Me

Friday Time Recap Time this opening is an one off special as I haven’t planned it; didn’t really think that I was going to use it for 8 o’clock time but I will today as I have nothing planned, and this was half way completed at the time. So enjoy.


About time to when I should do a Q&A thing really and to be fair I was pretty bored. I wanted to do another blog instead of feeling sorry for myself for being ill and etc haha. So here’s are my answers to the picture up above but will put the numbers next to the answers so that you can refer back to the questions.


A1) Elizabeth Ruth Arrow.

A2) Capricorn.

A3) Meg Ann and few others.

A4) Pretty rubbish for a Friday.

A5) not answering.

A6) not sure at the moment.

A7) 5ft4 1/2.

A8) I have so many I don’t know where to begin.

A9) Writing, my phone and probably my bed right now.

A10) when people annoy me to the point of I can’t get out of it, being hurt and feeling rubbish towards myself.

A11) friends who know me well, kids that I work with, knowing that my blogs are okay.

A12) not sure.

A13) Prince Harry always be my secret crush (oops said that out loud), Hugh Grant and many others.

A14) did have five earrings in both ears,

A15) not sure.

A16) not sure.

A17) happy endings.

A18) iPad (haha).

A19) not hundred percent.

A20) this morning.

A21) definitely not.

A22) I can speak and understand none verbal talk.

A23) A few friends.

A24) nope once I’ve watched the series it’s finished don’t go back to it.

A25) your turn to ask me questions for a next Q&A session

August Newsletter 2017

September has finally arrived with its very cold snap of Autumn is here and summer has officially now gone. So what has happened in my world of August 2017 that I want to share. There’s been lots of tears, arguments, laughter, happiness and many more things. I’m only going to share a few things in this Newsletter with you that I think it might be worth reading about.

Excuse me when I go and get something to eat; I’m actually quite hungry packet of crisps don’t manage to put me off or fill me up, so might as well raid the kitchen one way or another. Be right back.

Well that took longer than I expected fell asleep straight afterwards. My bad sorry. So August 2017 has been okay but lots of things happened that I don’t want to share but will share with you guys some of the things. First off my sister had turned 21 years old and I feel really old on that front but heyho. All good though even if it was strange. Met up with a few friends which was actually quite nice as I haven’t seen in a while or a long time. So it was quite nice to see them and put me in a good mood.

Then there was lots of paperwork and etc for my blogs on which I haven’t done much of recently but need to do some because I need to catch up on. Might do some over the weekend or so unless I have to do other things.

Then I started to have my introduction and all day first aid training for my new job. Took a picture and scared the heck out Caspian as he thought I actually did something. I was like are you that stupid haha. I knew he would of been over protective and etc as he started to know my track record when I get cross or something. The word comes to mind for me is gullible. But I love him for it.

Pretty much it to be honest. Sorry it’s a short one didn’t really do much that was wildly exciting but there you go I’ll try and make sure this month more exciting.

The 3 top things I should care about but I don’t.

The fact that I should care about is probably the most important thing in today’s society; but right now I couldn’t care less what happens, it happens it happens. If you know what I mean.

The 3 things I should care about that should be the most important thing in today’s society; but the fact that I couldn’t careless right now because right now it’s not happening yet or won’t happen as it’s just putting the fear in people, and personally I always think it’s going to happen when it happens. People who know me know when I’m quiet there’s something on my mind but I won’t say it; until I’m out of the room alone with the closes people who I know, and won’t say a word but other people think I’m just quiet and get on with things. It’s got me this far of keeping quiet until most recently that I’ve rattled people’s cages before I left one of my jobs. They weren’t happy about it but I don’t care to be frank. It’s like me and Frank from Rescuers Down Under; the whole time my mind is going riot, and everything else it’s just one of those things where just don’t get on the wrong side of me. I am generally the nice person you ever come across and always get asked questions what I think I should do if I was in that situation. I give the people the confidence to rattle people’s cages of don’t mess with me sort of thing.

So my top ten 3 things I should care about that I currently don’t:

Trump: The fat over size pig that calls himself as a president. Well he’s not putting people first; he’s putting himself first as always running the government like it’s a business, but it’s not a business what so ever and plus I haven’t seen him doing anything good other than taking unnecessary holidays, causes more upset in other countries and causes what might be like world war 3. To be honest I would rather watch himself fall over and get rid off to be honest with you. Then I would laugh my head off and call him all the names under the sun; I didn’t know who he was until he started to run for presidency, then I rather he was a know body than a somebody.

UK: The fact over the previous months like 7 months of 2017 I have become strong about what has been going on with my country; no one seems to care about the whole what we think, it’s all about the government, the riches and everything else but right now I don’t give a flying monkeys at the moment. They aren’t stopping the terriosts anytime soon, not caring in the world about other countries near by getting attacked and most importantly where the hell did this come from. About North Korea becoming a threat to us; not like we need any more crap from another silly country, who wants to control the world like Trump and whatever is going on between US and North Korea I pretty much want my county to stay out of it. (Apologies to any of my Korean readers) the fact that I don’t care right now about my county it’s because you can’t have what you want all the time. It’s tough s*** in my opinion.

People’s life stories meaning celebrities:The fact that I’m currently ranting and saying I should care and what not. Yes it hurts but right now I have other problems and I don’t give a to s*** about celebrities misery who are just self in loving, self absorbed attention seekers who crave it all the time and there’s me who just struggle day to day things fighting to be with someone that I love and you get the most idiotic person selling a story like Katie Price. I have a little respect for her and for her disabled son but whatever number husband she’s on. She’s starting to become a woman Henry 8th; without the whole married, beheaded, died and so fourth. I do give a flying monkeys about her love life all she’s doing making people insecure about people who read the trashy magazines and etc because they haven’t got anything else better to do.

I could go on for hours here guys but I’m not because I’m just going to wind my self up more and more; until I have a complete melt down about something or over something stupid, but heyho good night lovely peeps.