Star Light Categories – Friday Time Recap Time – How do I respond to things that change without my say so

Everybody hates changes at some point in their lives plus it happens everyday throughout your life whatever it is. I for one had loads of changes in my life that I couldn’t control to the point of if it happens it happens. The fact that everyone I know who know me quite well enough to know how hurt I get if I open up to someone then they either abuse it or walk out for no reason what so ever and then decides to walk back into it. 

The first time I had to respond to the things that changed in my life I use to go quiet, withdrawn and take it out on the people who let me down. This was the only way I knew at the time how to respond to something like that because I had so many people do that to me I had enough of it all. 

These days where people let me down I just let them go and do what they want because at the end of the day if I explode and everything at them. I know that they will win so I just let them go off to the point of I don’t actually care; yeah I’m hurting inside, along with being angry and etc. I know people who want me to talk about it but to be honest I rather not because at the end of the day I’m the one that has to live with it and I don’t want to continually getting reminded of things. 

Yes it will effect me if I don’t talk about it and not be able to trust anyone but at the end of the day people have to earn the whole trust from me at the end of the day. It’s not like I can hand it straight over to them on the plate like they are a dog or something but trust has to work both ways. 

Star Light Categories: (15.6.18) Friday – Friday Time Recap Time – Paradise

My love I need to explain to you when I’m with you I’m in paradise but my mind; oh yes my mind what can I say without you, my mind it rides off in the other direction when I have my moments and it rides on the negative because I’m left outside alone. You know when I’m with you in the storm in the paradise doesn’t last forever because on the paradise roads I will ride on down the road on my stag keeping me safe until we find you.

I will find you, I will hold onto you and I’ll be there. I know you heard it from the other boys that I wasn’t coming back but that’s not true it’s all in your head. You know I’m real because this time I feel like this paradise can’t keep us away from each other because it keeps you awake as it’s running through your bloody veins in your human body. You know that my love is heading your way find your stag because you’re love is heading your way.

My love I need to explain to you when I’m with you I’m in paradise but your mind; oh yes your mind what can you say, you’re nothing without me, your mind it rides off in the other direction when you have your moments and it rides on the negative because you’re left outside alone. You know when I’m with you in the storm in the paradise doesn’t last forever because on the paradise roads you will ride on down the road on your stag keeping you safe until we find me.

My time. My time. My t-t-time will never end the helter skelter because we will be out whatever the weather. You open your cabin door to find your stag waiting for you to get back onto that open road; mmm my mind hopes you will follow the stag to where we should meet, my heart, my heart and my boom boom heart beats and thumping against my chest. Knowing that I’m alive. I’m alive a lot more now as you start to follow the stag.

You stop. Why oh why did you stop? Oh my, oh my. The stag tried to push you on a bit further into this paradise to go and find me. You start stroking the stag feeling the love in your bloody veins knowing that stag is right. Don’t need to blame anyone anymore. You know that the paradise of our love is there. Roll on. Roll on. Meet me there. Hold on. Hold on. You are strong. You are strong. My, my, my your strong….

Friday Time Recap Time: Summer Time Madness

After feeling so tired during the day and sleeping most of it in between job runs. I can now say I can’t sleep along with one itchy arm where I’ve got an injury from my job lots of scratches; we all know when it starts to itch you know it’s healing the worst bit is but luckily I’ve put plasters on it to stop me from going for it, it’s literally right under the plasters.

Heyho it’s part of the job I suppose well been doing it for so long I just get use to it but to be fair it’s been awhile. To actual fact I managed to win them over the last couple of days with straws and they were fine. Tactics always work with me because once I’ve worked someone out the next time I know how they work and use the something that they like or don’t like to my advantage. It works with adults because I’ve actually tried that it worked and that was that.

It’s been a year ago today (Friday) (25.5.18) that I left my job that I had worked for 4 years and a year next week that I walked straight into the job that I have now just barely leaving my old job. I’ve done that before I had a week off after finishing college and went straight into volunteering jobs for about three months and half. Then walked into a actual job that I didn’t want to have but had to take it at the time because I was on job seekers allowance at the time.

I ended up having two jobs walking into my second job practically just to gain a bit more money at the time. So by 21 I had 2 jobs in the new year and then after spending two years at the job I didn’t want to be in I spent 4 years at a special needs school ended my second job after about 3 years there. Now currently just about to complete my first year at the company I am now. Not too sure how long I will be there for but we will see to be honest with you.

I would love to get this off the ground and running that I can earn from it all. I know being a writer isn’t the easiest thing to do but I have so many ideas that I just can’t get to them it’s either involves money that I don’t have or the equipment that I don’t have. I just have to be continually working hard in what I do to get what I want I suppose. Even if I’m having a bad day like I want to give up on it all but I know myself to not give up even how much I want to but at the end of the day my stubbornness can teach me a lesson or two. I’m one of those people who can give up quite easily but then tell myself that I’m an idiot and stop being a fool get on with it.

I just give myself so much pet talk after putting myself down for awhile and then bounce back to say “hey….why do we fall sir….so we can pick ourselves up.” If you like to see great content like I have recently done like Primark hauls, Superdrug hauls, holidays blogs and etc. Yes I will be doing holiday blogs next weekend as I’m going away for three nights with a friend so it be amazing just what I need to be honest. Not going to tell you where I’m going just yet otherwise it won’t be surprise. Haha.

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Friday Time Recap Time: Consequences of other people’s actions

Meanwhile whilst learning the consequences of ones own actions but others around them or around you seems to think that their own actions doesn’t seem to matter but to blame others but not themselves. I do find that I find myself in these situations now and then but when you try to remind the other person that they have to take the fall too but yet they are too far up themselves to realise. Until one day it comes back round to bite them in the arse; they soon come running back to say “you know something you’re right”, you’re like well guess what when I say this is going to happen then you know perfectly well it’s going to happen but thank you ever so much for the whole acknowledgment of your own faults.
It’s like you may call me everything under the sun but at the end of the day your words hurt more; especially with someone who may have mental health issues who already know that they are like it at the time of feeling down, who can’t defend themselves as they normally would and so it make them feel a lot worse. Then remind them how much they hurt you and everything but ignored it and etc in the past no matter how much you forgive them. That’s when they soon realise that they have done far worse than you ever done; your like well then sort yourself out and let me know when you decide not being an arse, help them not make it worse for them in the long run.
To be honest sometimes it’s best to cut people out or go away for awhile so you can clear your head. All I have to say actions speaks louder than words and consequences will all ways come back to bite you’re arse one way or another. No matter how much you try and stop it.

Friday Time Recap Time: “Humour of life” what’s that when it’s at home

What a week! Don’t even know if I was coming or going to be honest with you; it’s been like works been busy to which I don’t mind to be honest I needed the distraction until I get home, and the almighty head starts to kick in with the whole anxiety, stress and everything about stupid things. You then think what the hell are you doing with your life really and that’s when you soon realise your worrying over stupid things.

Yet I have noticed that when I’m a bit behind of blogging or I’m struggled to even open up my iPad to turn to my pages this week especially two days this week that I just couldn’t schedule anything. That’s when I knew that there was a slight problem and personally I don’t think it should effect my blog stats but it does for some reason. This isn’t a get at its just that it’s an observation to be honest and I shouldn’t have to justify myself if I’m having a blip in my life to be honest. I know in the past I would give you guys a heads up but sometimes it’s will catch you by surprise that I haven’t scheduled anything for that day. Just think “oh maybe she’s been busy or she’s ill or something. She has got other blog stores and what not” it’s really not a get at its just that I do have others as well you can check out as well.

However thank you for being patience though even when I’m having a very bad blip in my life this week. I’m just got a lot of things going on in my head then work as well to be honest I like the whole going on long trips but sometimes it does make you tired. Especially when you got to occupy kids for x amount of minutes sometimes they just completely ignore you and your like alright then be in your own world of music. That’s a best bit to be honest with you. I’ve learnt I’m more pro active with behaviour needs and medical side of things.

Life can be so miss leading at the best of times it’s actually quite funny. I have worked out how my life turns out quite funny at the best of it sometimes but then you got to think hang on a minute I’m doing this one minute and the next I’m doing this. It does feel like I’m back at my old job it’s like on the go all the time you don’t have a chance to think unless you stop to be honest with you.
Yep I’m starting to ramble now haha. Remember if I haven’t scheduled anything I have others for you to read just check them out. Here’s a few rules haha.

1.Remember I could be having a blip if I’m struggling to write

2.I’m probably busy

3. I’m probably ill with something

4. Stressed and probably want to punch someone (happens most days mostly my best friend Meg haha) I know I won’t punch someone but it’s one of those days.

Friday Time Recap Time: Time to chill

I’m not your average 20+ year old who goes out on a Friday night just to get hammered or anything like that; I just like to chill, blog if I need to, watch things and have my bed to myself monjority of the time. I tend to go out if I have arranged something but that’s not all the time because money is tight these days but people who go out drinking wish they didn’t after the next day with a massive hangover. I happily just chill with my peeps over the phone and what not.

Wish I never read out the menu of Burger King now to a child to keep them occupied I really want a junkie food again. There’s my alcohol money goes to on junk food haha if I wanted to get waisted I would of gone out and do that but it just doesn’t appeal to me to get waisted like other people and cause fights.

What do you do on your Friday nights let me know? Just for fun as I’m just chilling out and not bothering to do anything.

Friday Time Recap Time: What makes you fabulous?

This morning I posted a Superdrug Haul (2.3.18) the things that I had brought only if I could film what I do on average morning of my make up I would of done. Along side the idea of what the full works of readying my hair; drying my hair, make up and the full works it’s my hair and extensions it would be so easier than me typing it up. Plus I don’t have to talk either haha all I have to do is film and do what I normally do in the time of the process of everything.

The question of tonight’s Friday Time Recap Time I wanted to do this a few days but I was in a sort of a bad place where I couldn’t write about it because I didn’t feel fabulous at all. Yet this passed week it’s been snowing and what not so I had a bit of time to myself; where I’ve had words with myself because my eyes can always tell you there’s a storm happening, and then you know when I’m calm because my eyes go back to light blue.

I always terrified of myself because I never felt fabulous about myself; I always see how pretty other people are, people always compliment me and etc. Yet as soon as I redo my hair and make the time to do my face and everything I know I feel fabulous and confident. Being able to put make up on and doing my hair everyday gives me a purpose in life that I’ve actually accepted myself that I am pretty and etc.

I should be happy with myself knowing that it’s okay to me; yes it’s taken me a long time to accept myself but now that I’ve got an idea of who I am, how I like myself and what not the scares that normal open and shown had faded away it’s not psychological scaring that its on the skin. Mentally and internal inside it goes to show who is winning and whose loosing; yet sometimes it’s no okay when your doing so well, then bam the scares and mental state comes out without warning. All that I can say is it’s okay to be you and no one else.

Friday Time Recap Time: Common misconception of life

Common misconception of life can come in lots of shapes and sizes really; you think your going one way for awhile, then goes another direction for awhile and then another and so on. Believe me it happens to me quite a lot to be honest I think I had only 4 jobs in my life that I spent a fair few good years at them; then move on because at the end of the day it’s a job if you don’t like it you don’t like it, yet for me I don’t understand why people quit so quickly when they haven’t worked at one place for awhile.

Don’t even know to be honest the last job that I had; I was there for about good 4 years before I decided to leave to do something but then again I didn’t really think about it at the time, I just quit not the best way to do it but it gave me time to think what I wanted to do with my life and then that’s that. However after leaving barely had time to think about it someone I knew told me to apply for a job that they are doing; so I thought I might as well give it my best shot to be honest as I wasn’t sure I would get it, yet I was being reasonable to be honest and then all of the sudden I actually got the job after a week later. So I still had my 3 months off before I started but yet continued to going in throughout the months to do bits and pieces for the company ready for me to start for the September.

Yeah I enjoy it a lot. So currently that’s another journey I’m on at the moment but sometimes you think to yourself when your growing up I want to do this; I want to do that, and etc but yet as soon as you’ve done the work towards and the grades for it you soon turn a different direction of life that you want to do. Even you think this is actually not what I want to do to be honest; I wanted to be actress when I was a teen but then I decided not by the stage I left because I knew that my teachers didn’t believe that I can do things like that, then I went to another college after my first year at different one. Spent 3 years at another one doing sports I’ve got the qualifications for it all; I’m not even using them at the moment but it’s there if I do, I then just went into volunteering for a few months then got a job in a store. Wasn’t the best job in the world to be honest yet I was there for two years.

I had two jobs by that stage because I needed the money at the time then moved jobs in a school and still having two jobs then quit my second job in the second year in at the school. I then spent another two years at the school until I moved on. Basically I’ve been working with special needs a fair bit in the space of 7 years in that 7 years I’ve still write my heart out hoping that it will take off but that’s just in the near future I suppose.

You never know when your life will take you in the few months or years to come because at the end of the day you take each day as it comes. You never know where you going to go at the end of the day. Either you take the wrong path and stay on the wrong path or take the right path and then take the wrong path by accident then back onto the right path again. Life will just throw anything at you at the end of the day.

Friday Time Recap Time: Happy Australia Day!

Today on Friday or Saturday 26th January 2018 is Australia Day as they are a day head of us; as we are on Friday 25th January 2017 supporting Australia Day in different ways throughout the day, as Australia is apart of the U.K. for so long I wouldn’t tell you how long. I thought just for as my readers and subscribers for Australia I should honour them in style.

What Do People Do?

Many people have a day off work and use the day among other things to barbecue, go to outdoor concerts, and to play or watch sports events.
Different places in Australia celebrate the day differently. For example, Sydney has boat races including a ferry race and the tall ships race, while Adelaide celebrates with a parade, concert, fireworks, and a cricket match.
Australian citizenship ceremonies are often held on Australia Day. These are ceremonies to welcome immigrants who have been granted citizenship to the country. Although official, these ceremonies often have a festive atmosphere.

Public Life

Australia Day is a public holiday in all states and territories. All schools and post offices are closed. Some public transport services do not operate, and others run a reduced service. Stores are often open, but may have reduced opening hours. There may be some congestion on roads, particularly close to major events.
January 26 marks the landing of Captain Arthur Phillip at Port Jackson in 1788.

The landing is known as the First Fleet and had 11 ships with convicts. The arrival of the First Fleet represents the founding of the colony New South Wales.
In 1818, on the 30th anniversary of the founding of the colony, the Governor of New South Wales gave all government employees a holiday. He also celebrated the day with a 30-gun salute and a ball. In the following years, employees of banks and other organizations were also given holidays.
Initially, it was only New South Wales that celebrated the day, and it was known as First Landing Day or Foundation Day. In 1838, 50 years after the First Fleet arrived, Foundation Day was declared Australia’s first public holiday in New South Wales….”

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Friday Time Recap Time – Friday Diary Online Entries: Break Free Of The Pain

Whatever you believe this or not it’s up to you. I know the truth that’s all that counts.

I told you when we first met that I had problems but you still loved me know matter what; if you want to help me and be with me take it, because I shouldn’t of said that you should of leave as the amount of times I pushed you away. I tried to hide it. I tried to fake it but I can’t pretend anymore; I only wanted to die alive because of my open wounds have now been opened, knowing that you’ve seen my vulnerability more by the hands of people in my past and I don’t want to hear about the person anymore.

Now that I’ve become who I really am because of you I’m now stronger than I’ve become who I really am; this is the part where I want to say “I want you more than ever” as this is the part where we both know I’m breaking free from my past, because I can’t resist it and can’t go back to it no more. Your better. Deeper inside me with hope and kindness like the highway of goodness.

You always had this little patience with me but I’m still hurting from all of the love that I had lost in the past; I can feel your frustration because all you want to do is stop all of my pain, you just want to hold me close and keep me safe in your arms tonight. Don’t be hard on my emotions because I need time as my heart feel so numb as I’m still healing. Please still have the little patience as I really want to start over again I know that your my salvation because your the one that I can always depend on.
I’m trying to be strong believe me it’s taken it out on me no matter how much anxiety I had to face believe me I’m trying to move on and take control. You know how complicated it is but your the only one that understands me. You can see the amount of scars that have been running so deep; it’s hard to believe that you have been fighting for me, it’s been long for you no matter how painful to see me go through so much and yet still continue to stay put no matter what I chuck at you. You always had that patient for me.

Yet I’m breaking free from all of the pain; finding my confidence once again, making me feeling strong and know when I’m weak. Your my everything as I’ve cried so many tears for you; it’s taken me lot to say but I’ve pushed my pride away to tell you that I love you so much, because what we got is worth fighting for and you are my everything.