What is The Tales of Three Triplets about?

The lots of thoughts and risks went into putting this out for you to guys. I hope you enjoy reading them.

I had started writing The Tales of Three Triplets originally when I was in year 10 I think it was; which would be back in 2006 I think it was, not 100% sure it’s been going for so long that I’ve been re-writing it none stop over the years. I have at least 20 questions that I have found; each question I will answer truthfully, honestly and the best I can so that you guys can understand what the main reason behind this.

1) Explain the title: The Tales of the Triplets came about when I was trying to think of what to cool the whole book; as there was or will be a series of short stories that will link up to all the stories through out the book, it shares the tales of what they have got up to and each one tells the story or how the feel at the time of the situation.

2) What category or genre do you think it fits into? The genre is a fantasy children’s book; to which they can explore the world of their imagination, letting them go wild with the thought of having different types of animals and wanting to go to old places that may have been mentioned in the book.

3) What do you think the author’s purpose was? The purpose was to get the insight of each triplet; as each character has their own unique, sense of doing things, but two of them do slip up when they push the wrong buttons or never know when Duncan is going to go off on one. Mainly James says something that ticks Duncan off because of his stupidity when he doesn’t think; before he says it, he just says it before thinking. 

4) Something you liked about it: The fact that they are learning about themselves along the way; whilst looking for something, but also to be able to get to know each other more as they haven’t been together since they’ve been an infant. Also each one has my sort of character; weather I’m angry I make one of the characters angry, if I’m upset get one of the characters to be upset and so on. 

5) Something you disliked about it: What I don’t like about it is; even James winds me up at the best of times, throughout the series. I know I know I made the character; every author has one character that they really don’t like don’t they? I’ve just told you mine. 

6) Describe the setting: Each story will be a follow on where the previous story had left; in which flows swimmingly like they were meant to be one whole book, but with the each story has twist. Just to as when you think they will be safe! Then boom! Something happens to them. 

7) Which character did you like most? There’s this one character that I love the most; but I can’t really tell you much about him; he is a classic fun guy, who’s related to the triplets one way or another but they don’t know it yet and neither does the person. He’s always a practical joker that plays tricks on everyone from left, right and centre. 

8) Which character did you like least? As I have mentioned in one of the questions the one character I least don’t like is James; he does try his hardest to be not the stupid one, or the annoying one as that but he’s just one of the poses characters that you just want to punch in the face. Pretty much want to do that everyday at people in the real world to be honest; but I like it in this world as I get someone else to do my dirty work, at the end of the day it’s my characters and I can pretty much do what I like within reason of course. 

9) Describe one of the main characters: To describe one main character…hmm like me think. I’m going to go for Duncan; this is because I based Duncan around my cousin who’s autistic, so I thought wouldn’t it be cool to explore through the eyes of a character who is autistic. But with a shocking twist that he is only half autistic because of this magical power that he has is stopping him fully developing the full special needs. He can also experience a normal life as well. Duncan has blonde browny hair; rather likes it flat and into his eyes a bit, he’s taller and the oldest out of the three of them. 

10) Would you get these stories published on paper? I would definitely get these blog story post as on paper one day soon; I would love to see how well they do, that’s why I want to see how well they do on my blog websites to begin with. If they do well then I’ll find the courage to get them published. 

The whole process of the whole Tales of the Triplets; can be quite challenging at the best of times, were I loose touch with it either because I’m so busy with other things or I don’t know what to write or get so frustrated with it that I don’t think that they are good enough pieces of work. 

Monjority of the process can be easy when I know what to write; as my pen flows onto the paper, I don’t actually write the story I let the characters tell the story for themselves. It’s all about them. They are the stars of the stories. Not me. I like to think in my head that I have a meeting with all the characters; one by one they have ideas for me to write down, or they give me ideas on post it’s that they have written i.e. Me obviously. 

When it thunderstorms I cheekily joke with myself; that I’m not coming up to sort them out I’m busy, you sort yourseleves out this time. I tend to joke about the quotes and share them on twitter then realise that no one knows the in joke. Other than my sister and my cousin. However now that I say something in cross reference you guys know even if I’m writing a blog and I say something. You would think hang on; that would be so somebody rather would say, I generally don’t realise myself sometimes. 

The process for me is each section is a beginning has a set of questions; the second section has a set of questions, and the last section has a set of questions. Each question has a paragraph each of a brief summary of what it be; once the brief out set of the whole story is done, in the next notebook I write it out all out adding more description into the paragraphs and then when it comes to the typing up I edit the story that way. To which is my average story time writing process; I also like to research places to add more feel too it, and if I’ve been there then the sense of the characters would feel too.

Body Shaming

The action or practice of humiliating someone by making mocking or critical comments about their body shape or size.

‘Body Image’ Someone perceives their body and assumes that others may perceive them. This image can also affected by family, friends, social pressure and the media. People who are unhappy with the bodies; this is because they don’t seek healthy nutrition information may develop lots of different eating disorders, meaning that ‘Eating disorders’ are unhealthy relationships with food that may include fasting, constant dieting, or binging and purging.  

Body image is closely linked to self-esteem; meaning low self-esteem in adolescents can lead to eating disorders, early sexual activity, substance use and suicidal thoughts. This is where you can post encouraging notes in your school bathrooms to be able to brighten your classmates day. 

Approximately of the women 91% women are unhappy with their bodies and resort to dieting to be achieve their ideal body shape. However unfortunately only 5% of the women who naturally possess the body type often portrayed but the Americans in the media. 

58% of the college – aged girls feel that they are being pressured to be a certain weight; this is because of other girls that they see in magazines, idols and other girls in their year pressure them to be in that weight or think that they should be that weight but yet it confuses them of who they are and their true identity. The studies shows that there the more reality of television young girls watched the more likely is to be able to find appearance that are important to them.

However there are 1/3 of the people who admit that they have ‘normal dieting’ who merge the pathological dieting. To which you will find 1/4 who those will suffer from a partial or full on eating disorder. A survey had showing that 40% of women and about 20% have agreed in which they would consider the cosmetic surgery in the future; which the statistics have remained the relatively that are constant, that’s across the gender, age, martial status, and race.

Students; especially girls who consume more mainstream media, place the greater importance on the sexiness and the overall appearance than who do not consume as too much. This is where I have mentioned it roughly in the previous paragraph about the students at college. 

The fact that 95% of people eating disorders are between the ages of 12 to 25; which only 10% of the people, who are suffering from an eating disorder will only seek the professional help. 

In other research that I have read and what has brought to my attention is that 90% of teens unhappy with body shape; nine of ten the British teenage girls who are unhappy with their bodies, are within their mother’s who seem to appear to be responsible to which passes on their own insecurities.   

Out of the 2,000 girls who were questioned for a poll that was given to them; at the time it was set towards them at the time, only 8% who had said that they were ‘happy’ with their appearance. Meanwhile the 87% say that they were ‘unhappy’ about their appearance. According to the teen Magazine survey for Bliss; those who had said that were unhappy about their appearance, was due to the thoughts of their own mothers had some what ‘insecure about their own body image’. This can be because they could over hear what they mothers talking to their female friends or partners and etc; to which makes the 90% of the teens say that they are unhappy about their bodies, and think that their mothers are talking about them or they don’t want to end up like their mothers. 

Whilst there are 19% of the teenage girls who were questioned about being over weight; when actually 67% thought they needed to loose weight, this shows that just 64% of these girls are under 13 have already been on a diet from a very young age. 

The research that I had disclosed that there are some worrying facts that there are long lengths of young girls; would go on their quests for a beauty bodies, because they can’t seek for help or have the confidence to ask for help or talk about it until it is too late. A quarter of 14 year olds (26%) have said to the researchers who have done the polls and etc. Have actually considered having the plastic surgery or even taking the diet pills; which have rising within those who were overweight to 42%, which you may find within the teens that almost fifth (19%) have told the researchers that they were already suffering from eating disorder such like anorexia or bulimia. 

I am currently in my late 20’s now; just slowly coming out of depression and anxiety once again, I would be insecure about my body the way I look and etc. Throughout my teens and etc; I would show that I wouldn’t care but actually I really did care about what I looked like, how I would dress and what not. I would compare myself to other people; I wish I was pretty, I wish I didn’t put so much weight on and etc. When I was in my mental state of mind I would just bing eat; whatever money I had I would go and get family packs of crips, chocolate and fizzy drinks or even just sleep my days away. Part of my mental health was because I didn’t like myself or who I was. 

I do have lots of positive about myself when I make the effort of making myself look really nice; look pretty, looking stunning and I take pictures when I do to post them on Instagram. I either caption them or just leave them on how it is; because I have no words to describe them, but I know that I have caught a really good and positive photo of myself at the time I had taken it. 

I am slowly getting the chance of getting to know myself; feeling the confidence that I need to know that it’s okay to have a bit of weight, I know when I do my make up and looking nice that I know its the real me. Even when I don’t feel like it and feel bad about myself; I try my hardest to be able to look presentable as much as I can, even if I’m not going anywhere special. 

Update and Announcements

The updates and announcements for this week of 24th July 2017.

This week I want to make a quick announce that I have been posting a few of my blogs on Vocal Media; I’m not leaving my official harding working blog, readers and followers, but I thought of joining with Vocal Media to be able to help fund the official the website to keep it going. 

I would like you guys to check it all out along with checking out other people’s blog work as well. I also would like you to help me share the link that I have attached. https://vocal.media/authors/lizzy-arrow 

When politics don’t really understand!

The fact that politics don’t know how much of a struggle everyday life; from health issues to money issues and etc, they just think about themselves.


In the world of politics I believe that they think that they are the only people in the world; no one else really cared about because they are just liars and just tax people more, what about tax the riches more not the poor. However that’s how they live by taking it all but never give what they promise; we should’ve known that you were trouble hang on, behind that glisten of what looks like a promise but actually they are telling something different. 

No matter how much you beat us with black and blue with the taxes; until we go numb so we can’t squeeze no more out of use, when you visit the devil tell him I said “hey” because when your back to where you came back from the job. I’ll be sitting in your place; because you are mad primeminster; that’s because it’s they way you are, but your smile in my face trying to scare me trying to make me make a mark out of me but it won’t work. 

Hey! Slow it down what more do you want from me; there might have been a time that we trusted you, but at the time I wouldn’t give the damn but now here we are. I can plain see now; you are just money grabbers like the rest of them, people are trying to make names for themselves but you just messed them up. They need to a second to breathe. Yet you just keep on coming around; thinking that there’s nothing wrong, there might have been a time when we would let you slip away. I just don’t think we would of even try now; you can’t even save our lives, with all the promises that you have made.


From my twitter feed by the newspaper article of The Independent; how can you possibly ban the rip off charges on the credit and debit cards, when there’s a catch involved theres always a catch 22 with politics. I don’t even remember the last time they tried to ban it the last time. It would be nice to be honest. If the rumours were true then it would be amazing and we can save a bit more money but however I don’t think this is possible right now. 

Whatever that comes out of the politics mouths is never going to stick; for example remember me talking about Grenfell Tower going up in flames back in June, they still haven’t received money or new homes. They are still in accommodation that they have been put in by the council and the government. That’s causing the hotels billings of pounds of losing profit and such a like. Unless they are paying the government are paying for it but then again you never know for certain what they are doing now. Saying one thing and doing the other. 

The fact that I just researched more about our money crisis; there is a sharp rise in personal loans, which could pose a massive danger to the UK economy. This is has been warned by the Bank of England. 

Within the outstanding loans like car loans, credit card balance transfers and personal loans. Have been increased by 10% over the past year, the Bank’s financial stability director Alex Brazier said.

‘In contrast household incomes have risen by just 1.5%, he said. “Household debt – like most things that are good in moderation – can be dangerous in excess”, Mr Brazier said. Mr Brazier, in a speech to the University of Liverpool’s Institute for Risk and Uncertainty, added that this increase in debt was “dangerous to borrowers, lenders and, most importantly from our perspective, everyone else in the economy”. He warned that High Street banks were at risk of entering “a spiral of complacency” about mounting consumer debt levels. “Lending standards can go from responsible to reckless very quickly. “The sorry fact is that as lenders think the risks they face are falling, the risks they – and the wider economy face – are actually growing,” Mr Brazier added. Mr Brazier hinted that the Bank of England could force banks to take further safeguards against the risk of bad debts if it was deemed necessary.’ Reference from BBC website http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/business-40712573

Brick By Boring Brick

So I’ve basically just pulled a all nighter; can’t sleep, can’t breathe, too cold and yet I’m too warm.

It’s all about the heads in the cloud; don’t think this is your fault, that I can’t sleep because I’m trying to rescue you from your ivory tower. Your walls are full of magic; if this is true, I’m coming for you as I’m coming to tackle your nightmares because I’m here to protect you from them. You don’t have to be scared no more. 

This might be crazy what I’m going to say, with the air that will take us away. If the happiness is the truth; but it comes with bad news talking about this and that, just clap along if you know if the happiness is too you. You can’t bring me down because your love is too high; if there’s no room without a roof, you know what that is. As the love is too high! 

Even though we are building by boring brick; yet we both know we hate this part, I thought we are stronger than this. I hate this part right here. Everyday of every scene; we telling each other whats hurting us, from being so apart. I know you hate this part right here. I know you will ask me to hold on for a bit longer; I will ask you the same, I’m not going to leave you no matter what. 

We can walk like a champion as we are young and free; somewhere you hold yourself, walk like a champion talk like a champion. We got nothing to loose because we’ve got two things on our side; we have each other’s love, we got one most important thing. We’ve got one special lady keeping us together; nobody does it better than she does, I know that she would want us to fight the system. With all of the crazy things we are trying to do; I know that I cant go back to the way it was, I don’t think you want to go back to the way it was. 

With the room that has no roof on. We are giants. When I look into your eyes and when you look into my eyes. Its just you and I. There are giants across the water; I could see someone sitting on one of the giants, we are giants in our hearts. As we build by boring brick; not just any building by boring brick, we are building the love into people’s lives. I whisper into your ear. I can’t shake this feeling off. That’s what they don’t know because I’m building with the love boring bricks with you; because I’m not shaking it off, I know who’s not shaking it off. Have a look over where the giants are. 

I light up the sky above you; I’m not going to fade away from you, because you and me will be standing right by side of each other. I’m not leaving you no matter; I’m going to fight this, we are going to rule the world as the stars are coming out tonight. They are lighting the sky tonight just for you; as I’m staying by your side as the sky is being lit up, by the stars for you. For you. 

Rumour has it, rumour has it, I didn’t stay up all night to get all this done. Rumour has it, rumour has it, you have made my heart melt with your loving and smile. Along with the frown that I keep on telling you to stop doing that; because that I had said it, I didn’t really meant it. Rumour has it, rumour has it, that theres a whisper in the wind with the words with your name on it. 

I love you; as my heart burst again, just thinking of you and seeing you on my screen. Seeing your face light up; making me feel proud of you, with the smile on your face. You may have my number; you may have my name, but you can have my heart more than ever. You go where I go. I go where you go. Would you see what I see. Your loving eyes melts my worries as my loving eyes melts all of your worries. As we standing tall together and let the skyfall around us. 

How do you start turning your blogging into a business?

The thought of turning my blog into a business; is hard work but very rewarding, also for filling at the same time. It can also be frustrating at times as well when you have days that you feel like your not getting anywhere.

Turning a blog into a business can be very hard to start straight away; where you haven’t got the correct bits and pieces to be able to start living off your blog work weather it’s YouTube or writing blogs, you have to do it on the side lines of a job that pays you in the time being. 

In which in the mean time you can save money that way; also to build up your viewers and readers as you go along, whilst creating videos and blogs I recommend that you keep a record of each day, each week and each month of how much you bring your viewers/readers in. This shows how much you have made the progress of what you have done; but also when you build up the credit of your hard work, starting to making contacts within the year or so. Your able to adventure out a bit more; this also you can get contacts coming to you as well to help you build up your youtube / Blogging world, believe me all this will help with your social media skills that you use to market your blogs. 

I want to guide you on recourses that I use to help me to build up the world of Lizzysweeklyblogs. The recourses that I use for Lizzysweeklyblogs are from Pinterests, social media, word by mouth and slowly by emails. Not particularly like emails as you don’t really get much of a response than social media but you have to do it anyway because at the end of the day you have to cover everything. 

What I get out of Pinterest?

You can use Pinterest as a blog platform to advertise your blogs or videos. I use Pinterest as for ideas and what I think may help me record, plan and many other things. Things such a like of Social Media Planner, Blog Post Planner, by My May Sunshine, Long Term Goal, Short Term Goal, Daily/weekly sheet, by ScatteredSquirrel.com, Habit Tracker by Clementine Creative, Daily Goal Tracker, by aileenbaker.com, Habit Tracker by Life On Matter, Monthly Blog Planner, Yearly Glance Blog Planner by Unknown, Blog Planner/Social Media by The B Bar, 

What I get out of creating my own sheets?

Making your own tracking, schedule and many more is to show that you are cable of showing your creativity and how you work. I created my own monthly reviews sheets so that I know that I can see how everything works but also there wasn’t really much to look on Pinterest that I could use at the time. 

I also use small little journals to record my data collection so that when I have the time I can write them all up onto the sheets that I have copied. I also have ones originals that are laminated; when I have run out of the copied ones, I can photo copy the original ones to how many I need at the time I need them. 

How do you stay on top of all your paper?

To be honest with you. I have struggled to stay on top off it to be perfectly honest; I only just sat down over the weekend to see where I have got up too, then I soon realised that I have missed placed all of my May logs, data work and everything else somewhere. I have no idea where I have put it but fortunately I managed to pull out a few sheets that I can lay my hands on; got back to my own website to pull off the months data collection for that month but not the blogs that I did for the month, it doesn’t matter too much but it would of been nice to know what days I posted without going back two months worth of blogs to fill in the blanks. If it turns up it turns up and I’ll attach it to the copied ones that I have recreated. 

Fortunately the past two months or so since may I have been transferring my sats collection data into my little notebooks; along with the days of what I had published on that day, so when I do actually have the time to get round to it, I can pull out the sheets and say ‘oh yeah that day I did etc’ so I can fill in my daily/weekly sheets for that week with out any problem what so ever. 

Where do you keep all of your paper work? 

I have three files that have got set titles on the binding of the A4 larch lever file; ‘Blog Post’ ‘Stats and many more’ and then ‘Goals Victory’, each one has its uses and divided into sections so that when I go back to the files I know where too look and what I need. Also to put the work into the correct categories without muddling them all up. 

I hope that this will help you to know how to start organising yourself of what you need to do when you want to start a business. I do recommend that you start out the basics of what I have done to start with; because you never know when you need the proof of what you need to take with you, when the time comes to the whole opening a business back account. Just work on building up to the creditable of your blog/youtube business; your name, your reputation and last but not least your style of how you are working. I will revisit this in a few months time to share my progress with you and how I manage to do it on my own. 

Who Says?

I wouldn’t want to be like anybody else. 

You made me insecure about myself; told me that I wasn’t good enough for anyone else, but who are you to judge when your just a control freak that just wants to own me. You’re just a diamond in the rough on the ground getting kicked about. I’m pretty sure that you got things you would like to change about yourself; but when it comes to me, I wouldn’t want to be like everybody else. Yet you want me to be like everybody else.

I may not be a beauty queen. I’m just beautiful little me. You have got every right to a beautiful life. So who says, who says that your not perfect? Who says you’re not worth it? Also who says that your the only one that’s hurting? Trust me as I’m the one who’s going to be fighting back.

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust? believe me or the bully trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you. 

It’s such a funny thing; when you know that nothing is funny when it’s you, you tell them what you mean and yet they keep over riding the truth like it’s a work of art that really never seen the light. Yet your beneath the stars which won’t let you touch the sky.

I may not be a beauty queen. I’m just beautiful little me. You’ve got the every right to a beautiful life. So who says, who says that your not perfect? Who says you’re not worth it? Also who says that your the only one that’s hurting? Trust me as I’m the one who’s going to be fighting back. 

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust an believe me or the bully trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you.

Who says that you’re not star potential? Who says that you’re not presidential? Who says that you can’t be in movies? Listen to me, listen to me. Who says that you didn’t pass the test? Who says that you can’t be the best? Who said, who said? Would you tell me who really said that?

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust and believe me or the bully? trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you.

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust an believe me or the bully trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you.

Who says that you’re not star potential? Who says that you’re not presidential? Who says that you can’t be in movies? Listen to me, listen to me. Who says that you didn’t pass the test? Who says that you can’t be the best? Who said, who said? Would you tell me who really said that?

Who says? Who says that you can’t be different? Who says? 

How good are you seeing through people?

We all have times when our gut feeling kicks in and we question whether to believe someone 100% – but when has your instinct turned out to be right? Have your suspicions about someone – a friend or colleague ever been proved true?

The more that I ponder about this sort of question; the more I think how do I know who to trust and who not to trust, then I realised it’s the vibes that people give off at the time of talking to them or the presence they give out that make them not worth trusting. 

The question is. Is it too easy to read people? The answer is no. Can it be more accurate than it shouldn’t be? Yes because one day that person can easily slip up on more things than you have; to which you know more things than they do or remember everything at once, unless I detach myself more in the real world or something I don’t know. 

However not everyone these days present themselves in the way that you expect; meaning their true nature or selves to the external world, like for example people or two faced blah blah blah. If you know what I mean. So many people have gone through a good portion of it in their daily lives; even if its not it would be in their entire lives living inauthentically, knowing what they are doing and think that people haven’t noticed or picked it up. They have this sort of two face mask that are no where near anything that resembles who they really truly might be or their real intentions are. All we can do is read our own perceptions of things that are presented to us; I have experienced that a lot where I knew that somebody didn’t like me, do things just to annoy me and talk about me behind my back. When I was having a bad day; I knew I didn’t want to be in that environment when I’m in that moment of upset and frustration, I did mention it to someone higher at the time but didn’t take much notice of it. Until two other people had come forward to the person and they soon realised how serious it was at the time that I wasn’t lying at the time. 

Another perfect example that I have actually recently observed was a builder who thinks he is so cool and a hard nut; on which he was always on his phone when I see him as I’m working in my dinning room, all I seem to have seen was him doing bits and pieces now and then but he monjority of the time he was either smoking or on his phone. To be honest to me I just feel like he’s a bit of tool to perfectly honest with you; at the time I saw my neighbour having words with him or asking him something or pulling his act together. Until I had enough when I saw him getting out his phone and etc; that was it I had literally had enough I was either going to loose it at him or go and let my neighbour know before I actually said something, believe me I could loose it and say what I mean. Believe me that was the hardest thing I could of done just keeping my cool and let my neighbour know; to my surprise he wanted to loose it at him as well, because he had words with him as well at the time I had seen him talking to him. 

 

Tell me something I don’t know 

The things that you may find that you and you just want to find something that you don’t know. You ask someone just to tell you something different; than you already heard or someone has already told you, like change the record.

Everybody who tells me, who I speak to says it’s so hard to make it, but yet so hard to break it or even get a break from it, there’s no way in faking the whole scenario. Everybody keeps telling me that it’s wrong to how I feel about it; that I shouldn’t believe in it, the dreams that I’m dreaming shouldn’t be persuade. I hear it everyday. I hear all the time. To the point of I’m never going to amount anything but they’re never going to change my mind; as I’m going to prove them wrong everytime. 

Oh! Tell me, tell me, tell me. Something I don’t know, something I don’t know, something I don’t know. Instead of a broken track record. Tell me something that I don’t know; like how many inches in a mile? What I can do to make you smile?, not keeping treating me like a child. 

Everybody tells me I don’t know what I’m doing; this life I’m trying to pursue, all the odds of me loosing is piling up and everybody tells me that it’s just one in a million. More like one in a billion or one in a zillion. Yet I hear it everyday. I hear it all the time. I’m never gonna amount to much. They’re never going to change my mind. No! 

How many inches in a mile because I don’t know? You going to tell me something that would make you smile? Other than treat me like a child. My life inside me asked me “are you ready for it?” I replied “Yeah I’m ready for it.” “Really ready for it?” “Yeah I’m ready for it.” Now that I’m on my way, I know I’m going to get there one day soon. It doesn’t help when you say that it won’t be easy. 

How many inches are there in a mile? What has it got to take to make you smile? Than treating me like a child. How many inches are there in a mile! What hast it got to take to make you smile? Because your treat me like a child baby. 

Just tell me, tell me, tell me. Just tell me something I don’t know, just tell me something I don’t know, just tell me something I don’t know. As I’m waiting in the rain in front of you; to tell me something that I really don’t know, like are you going to support me or not. 

Because I know I will never make the same mistakes that you did; I will never let myself cause so much misery for my heart, as I will not break the way that you fell so hard onto the ground. I’ve learned the hard way before it actually get that far. Because of you. I never to far from the path that I want to take. Because of you. I learned to play on the safe side so that I won’t get hurt. Because of you I find it a lot harder trust not only just me, but everyone around me. 

Because of you I am afraid that I’m going to loose my way and it’s not too long before you point it out. That I cannot cry I know that’s the weakness in your eyes; yet I’m forced to fake it, with a smile and a laugh everyday of my life. My heart wasn’t even whole to start with; so my heart possibly break, just tell me something that I don’t know.

Just tell me!

What has made you angry recently?

That part when you scheduled a post; you just about to post the same picture on another website, then you see what it had been written on the top. Your like opps! All well are you bothered about it? I’m not because guess what its a Monday extra in the first place during the week anyway. 

I’m quite glad that I found this title for this week and of course the subject. I did get mad when I realised what I had done; now I’m like whatever it’s a Monday extra feeling, no ones going to complain. Are they? Better not be….haha I’m joking really. 

What made me angrily recently was rules and laws that Caspian has to obey. No matter how much we try and raise the money; or do things we always seem to get blocked at every turn, even if we have had a lot of help to begin with. It just seemed to be never ending; yet no matter how much we argue or share our frustrations, we still love each other and always find away. Even when I’m having a lot of health wise kicking in; knowingly he can’t be there to help, knowingly he frustrates his job and family rules and law that they follow. Especially when you don’t have any money to do anything doesn’t help the situation either. That makes me more angry; as I’m working so hard that I’m just not getting anywhere hard enough, even though I’m trying my best to do everything that I can.

The second most recent thing that has made me feel so angry is people who; think I should apologise for something that I did, when it’s their own actions that have caused me to do that in the first place. That makes me angry; I hate where they think that they are so important because they have the highest status, you think actually are they for real and they show signs that that they can be frauds. Then deni that they aren’t abusing you; they are actually abuse comes across in lots of categories, mentally abuse is one of them and I should know.

Last but no means having the possibility of a hearing aid in one ear; after all this time not having to have one for 26 years or so, yeah it’s one of those things you will have to have them at some point in your life. I am grateful that I haven’t had to have them so far but now the whole sense of feeling like; I’m going back on myself again, proving myself that I can do things and to be able to carry on doing the things that I want to do. I just hate major set backs every time when something happens like my health issues kick in one way or another.

I think this blog has turned into more of a rant than what made you angry recently; unless it is a rant title name that give you the permission to do so, them I’m going to take this as advantage of using it as a rant Friday Time Recap Time! Along with sharing my rant anger with my fellow readers and bloggers who probably feel the exact same feeling that I do about certain things in life that shouldn’t happen but it does.

The worst bit is and this is the last complaint, rant, whatever you call is that my ear is causing so much pain that it’s much better if I had my head laying down. I can’t do that all day long can I. I have work to do ear and your not helping the situation haha.