Everyday Topics: (8.6.18) Friday – People who gate crash

I’m one of those people who hate people who gate crash things whether they were invited or not because they just want to control everything. I generally believe that people who are self loathing people who make it out it’s all about them and be center of attention.

I genuinely don’t understand why people do that because at the end of the day people who they think that they are their friends will turn against them. Either fall out or they will diss them whether it’s on YouTube or in the papers or magazines or even on social media.

No matter if they are rich, famous, youtubers, or just normal human beings because it’s not right; I’m not one for the whole up taking someone down by naming and shaming anyone, especially in public because at the end of the day they are the ones showing their true colours than the one it’s actually aimed at.

I’m not naming anyone or anything. I observe people quite well because I keep to myself unless there’s something to put people back into their place. People may call me a ninja some call me assign just go in for the whole speak my mind. That’s the best way forward to be honest especially for me because I’ve let people like that walk all over me throughout my life even though no matter how much I’ve helped them and what not.

They throw it back into my face and say nasty things about me which aren’t true and what not but also they are the ones that me down not the other way away around. People’s egos do need to loose a few pegs now and then. That’s when they realise how much they annoyed me when I decide to speak my mind about things especially what they do that isn’t right.

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Everyday Topics: (7.6.18) Thursday’s Topics: I could shoot myself in the foot with this one.

Okay guys I could shoot myself in the foot with this one here; yet this is my opinion and I respect other people’s opinions too, everyone has opinions neither of us are right or wrong. It’s brought to my attention in the last couple of days that I’ve been watching a few people’s videos to which I’m leaving out because I actually like their content. However what goes behind the scenes doesn’t bother me what so ever because at the end of the day it’s not my business nor do I really want to know what’s going on. I’m one of those people who like to pry on other people’s problems or anything. I just hate the whole attention, attention seeking and play off the whole who has more fan base or subscribers whatever they want to cool it.

I just enjoy the videos that they make at the end of the day; if they make me laugh, make me be on edge, make me want to come back for more then that’s great because at the end of the day I respect them for who they are and don’t really need to share their whole life stories like other people seem to do like it’s a home diary. For example: Big Brother Style. Some people like to do it, some people like to do other things that are different and have their own twist to it all. Yeah I write diary entries but I don’t tell you guys my life story in them; I literally choose what I want to share, what content I want to write about and plan it to make sense.

I don’t understand one thing people who say “I made you big” “no I made you big” and so on and so forth. I don’t actually care how they do it to be honest because at the end of the day fame doesn’t really bother me; you may find how much people think I did this on my own, it took me years to do and etc but yet if someone helped you along the way wouldn’t you be grateful that they helped you to get onto the platform?

Instead of being grateful or anything they just split off from you and cause conflict between all the friends that you both know. It’s just silly and childish at the end of the day. Unless your one of those people who fake making their videos; harass other YouTubers because they like them thinking that you’re going out with them, spreading lies that people stole you’re ideas and everything else. Also making it on the news saying you’re homeless and making a YouTube video saying “today is my last day in my home. I am now homeless” oh come on firstly use your brain and common sense.

First off all if you were made homeless you wouldn’t be still making videos; you wouldn’t have you’re camera to make videos still, and most importantly you wouldn’t have anywhere to edit or upload you’re video or videos. Secondly if you’re account has been cancelled or what ever it is that they do; you can’t make another YouTube account under the same name because they will find out, and shut that one down as well. Thirdly I can tell someone is lying, a fake and everything else years of experience with people in the real world. Acting like you’re all hard paying other people to do the work for you to make you look good because they are terrified of you as you might do something to them. Oh please just get over yourself man.

People take years to get where they are; things don’t happen over night trust me I’ve been doing blogging since the end of November 2015, it’s taken me this far to where I am with 1,317 subscribers I think I last checked and at the end of the day I’m doing the blogging and the writing for myself because I love writing and I want to become a writer. I also like to show people who have confidence issues, low self esteem and many more that they can do things if they put their minds to it and stick at it. Trust me I’ve been through a lot in my life. I’ve taken on so many challenges in my life away from the world of today.

I always say to anyone who is reading this or someone says to me I can’t do this. I stick to this saying for Life On The Open Road Project “be yourself, love yourself, don’t let negativity people bring you down and most importantly don’t let your own negativity mind bring you down” I believe that people can do things if they put their mind to it changing what they think about themselves take chances that you want to do with your life. Just make the right decisions and not the wrong ones.

I know I’m quite straight forward in this blog than I normally am but I just wanted to put it out there that you make a decision wether a youtubers or any other blogger you come across tries to win you over or make you think the other person is wrong. Just don’t let them manipulate you in any other way because at the end of the day it’s you’re mind who you want to watch, read or be friends with if your a blogger reading this or a new blogger just about to start out. Just be you and that’s all that matters don’t let people change of who you are or what you should do with your life or your content.

I just want what’s best for you at the end of the day that’s all. Just be you and stay true to yourself no matter what the out come is. Try their idea if it doesn’t work it doesn’t work because at the end of the day you have to find away what works for you. Apologies if this became a rant but I just wanted to get this sort of topic out there in one peace.

Love you all. You are you that’s what all that matters.

Everyday Topics: (6.6.18) Wednesday – Ariana Grande suffers from PTSD

“No tears left to cry” Ariana Grande is awesome person, beautiful person and amazing person who can take on anything no matter what life throws at her. So heavily grounded not letting fame get to her head; taking on trolls, haters and many more things. Down to her mothers support, guidance and love. Now like every other person who witnessed, become a victim and many more. Ariana has another thing to face.

Ariana has now has to face Mental Health Issues of PSTD I can understand that she can’t talk about it because it was her show that it happened to; she lost so many fans that day, she had lots of fans became victims of traumatic injuries and feels like it’s all her fault when it isn’t.

Ariana is allowed to feel the same thing as everyone else; she was also effect too because she had amazing time putting all the things into the concert to give her fans the show that they wanted, and someone decides to ruin their Birthday, Christmas present and many more things. A night out watching their idol waiting for a year or so until that night in Manchester turned to a nightmare.

Ariana is 24 years old young singer rose to fame in 2008 throughout acting and singing owning herself a household name from being a childstar with a young strong minded young girl. Not letting her fame get to her head; she helped people to escape from the concert with her mum, she came back after a few months put on the concert in memory of the injured, victims who where there and victims who had lost their lives on the day of the attack.

No matter how much she had to struggle with but she’s loyal to her fans; sharing her feelings, trying to talk about what happened but can’t because she will end up crying and most importantly she is a fan of her fans as they are a fan of hers. She showing them that “it’s okay we are in this together. We are strong. We are one. One love is all we need” she gives so much positive throughout her songs and being a normal human being. She doesn’t use her fame or her fortune to help her to get onto the platform making her big headed. She gets down on hands and knees work with her fans.

That’s what I love about Ariana she’s so grounded and turns every negative into a positive; speaks her mind if she needs to, defend anyone if she needs to and most importantly being her true self. She has a strong mind and she will have PTSD for the rest of her life become anxious every time she goes on stages to perform but with the support of her fans, security and musicians. Most importantly her family and friends close by to get her through it all; she can show the world that no matter how little or how big something might be that can trigger off her mental health she will find away to deal with it. She won’t let her define her and her show to her fans that it’s okay to take baby steps to face your fears. It’s going to be a long recovery for her and her fans.

Few of her videos in memory

Meeting some of her fans

School Choir in memory

Ariana Grande Live One Love Concert – One Last Time

Ariana Grande – No tears left to cry

The Weekend Topics: (2.6.18) Saturday – Blaming your mental health for something!

Saving my hands getting burnt from my iPad I found my iPad keyboard so I can get most of my blogs done this weekend. I’ll explain to why I haven’t gone away in another blog for another day. However this will give me the opportunity to focus on my blogs a bit more as I have now got ideas to write about. To which is written down now before I forget what they are.

In the recent days of this week (week beginning of 26th May 2018) an American presenter wrote a racist tweet; they blamed it on their medication/mental health issues on doing saying that they didn’t know what they were doing. ABC channel took their show off air completely too right to be honest with you; I commented on someone blog this morning (2.6.18) I totally agreed what the blogger had said totally because I suffer from mental health issues such as Depression and Anxiety as you guys may know as I’ve talked about it a few times.

You know when I’m having bad day or a few days I either let you guys know or apologies if I haven’t written anything. You guys come back with great positivity and support to keep me going. I would never write anything that would upset anyone or anything when I’m in that framed of mind; knowing how much I want to at the time posting things thats on my mind, I know the out comes would be if it did happen and it would ruin my writing career.

I would never blame my medication or my mental health issues for doing something or saying something on the social media. Trust me I know what I’m doing I chose to let my mental health define me or I take control of my mental health and beat it every time I have a relapse. I chose to fight and control my mental health than letting it define me; at the end of the day I’m the one who wants to live my life as much as I can because at the end of the day I know who I am and how much I can cope with.

As some of you may know I’m quite straightforward and tough on things especially on myself because I know that I can do things if I push myself to do things. I don’t even know that I’m doing it at the best of times until a few people tell me and laugh. They laugh and say “I love being with you because you just say it as it is” even though they know when I’m quiet something I want to say but don’t say it and you have people who don’t know me that well think I’m just quiet.

I never blame my mental health or my learning disability for any reason what so ever or an excuse for things and etc. All I can say is “don’t post anything on social media that will get you into trouble and turn around to say ‘I have mental health issues or it’s the side effects of my medication’” you know exactly what your doing don’t lie through your teeth you make other people who have mental health issues look bad and make them look like they don’t want recovery or don’t want for help. There are few bloggers out there that I know who I follow who have mental health issues can turn their lives around because they want to live.

Remember “be you, be yourself, love yourself, don’t let the negativity people bring you down and most importantly don’t let you’re negative mind control you to bring you down”

Saturday Topics: Someone give me a bat?

Not impressed this morning never felt so restless all night anxiety, nightmares and most of all up for about two hours constantly going to the bathroom I know too much information but restless and anxious I just want someone to give me a bat so I  can knock my anxiety senselessly out of me. I literally had enough of my mental health for now don’t even know why I’m so anxious about. The fact that this past week or so it’s been horrendous not as bad as the other week to be honest but I don’t know what gives. 

Just give me a baseball bat any day of the week and let me beat the crap out of it. Trust me because no matter how much I hate other people having it and hate it where people who can’t help but try to but feel useless at the best of times want beat the crap out of it.

I just practically washed my hair, put my make up on, watched YouTube videos all day and slept to catch up after my restless night. Along with a few messages from friends to keep me going throughout the day but other than that today has been a long one thanks to the stupid restless night and anxiety.

I’ve created a new picture for Saturday’s Topics which down below I thought it be awesome to use the pictures that I colour in for the picture category for today. Let me know what you think and should I use them more often. Happy rainy Saturday guys.

Friday Topics: Alzheimers Diease is horrible

The most iconic tv star from such shows in the United Kingdom from Carry On and Eastenders Barbara Windsor; who bravely came out with the help of her husband letting them know that she has Alzheimers, in another words Dementia on 10.5.18. They both decided to come out now about it because they think it’s time before she gets worse; however loads of people all over the country who knew Barbara from different shows, and her charity work that was close to her heart gave their support, love and understanding. There’s always one or two who slammed them to get this a secret; yet reading the article about the complete cock up (excuse the language), Barbara Windsor hasn’t died she’s still living doing her daily activities with the help of her love ones around her, with the public support and understanding that loosing someone that they love and grown up to watch on the tv. 

I find that the TV news program very insulting to be quite frankly and very rude to the people who have the disease. They don’t even know how it feels to see a love one who is battling with it; they don’t know what happens behind close doors, or anything like that I for one should know what it’s like day in day out. I have a relative who also battling with the disease hearing that Barbara Windsor was diagnosed with it at age 76 in 2014 now coming out now as it’s becoming worse. It hit home a lot because the person that I love the most in my family was diagnosed with Alzheimers 5 to 6 years ago became worse but manageable now at the moment. It is a lot harder to contend with at the time but they aren’t dead; they are living battling on everyday, I take it as each day comes with them and I try to help out as much as I can but yes it scares me what I may find. At the end of the day they are still my love one; still special to me, and most importantly they still witty and funny when you know they don’t mean what they say to you. 

I beg of you please don’t treat people who have Alzheimers like they have passed away because they haven’t; they are still living, they are still human beings at the end of the day and most importantly they need support with their daily lives at the end of the day. 

Teen Lifestyle: Violence is not the answer to life

You will hear things in the news or play video games or watch violent films thinking that it’s so cool or they are awful things. To be quite frankly violence on the streets and towns are not okay; by coping things from video games or watching violent films are not okay because it’s not cool or anything like that, you won’t get 9 lives on a game and come back to life, once your dead your dead in real life and there is only a few that make it through the injuries but that’s because people who maybe near by witness or find the person who needs help to get to the hospital. Then it’s either a risk if they survive it or not but at least their family members know that they are in hospital and be there. 

Violence is never the answer in life you can be arrested and be in prison for the rest of your life because at the end of the day you won’t be able to break out of jail or no one else will break you out. In this real world it doesn’t work like that in a non real world I’m sorry to break it to you guys who think it is. 

It ruins your life, love ones and many more this is because you think it’s okay to do it if your favourite character from a film or favourite game or just to impress a gang it’s not okay. Knife crime, gun crime and any other sort of crime that can bodily harm another human being is wrong. Furthermore attacking elderly people is wrong as well or robbing them is wrong why should they be the ones victimised when we should be helping them out. 

Don’t go swearing off or act like your one of those people who think your all it because at the end of the day what are you trying to prove? Respect or something. If you want respect you have to treat other people with respect the way they want to be respected and they will give it to you back the way you want it. Violence isn’t the answer to any of these solutions. 

Respect

R – Reverence 

E – Esteem 

S – Show Courtesy 

P – Point

E – Estimation 

C – Consideration 

T – Tribute 

Thursday Online Diary Entries: Pot Noodle time!

Just had or earlier I did have Beef Tomato sauce Pot Noodle for my lunch was going to have the other day but didn’t I think I just slept monjority of the day that day. As you may can tell I do like my sleeps; I was getting better in not sleeping during the day but since being ill, going back to work I’ve gone back to that cycle off falling back to sleep and etc really need to stop sleeping during the day. 

Not cool though waking up at 5:00 in the morning half an hour before your alarm goes off but knowing that you were working a bit later than normal; but still not cool man when you want to have a bit more of your beauty sleep, I still ended up sleeping as soon as I got back home when I should of washed my hair and did my face. Oh well. 

The sun is out and warm apparently it’s here to stay for the bank holiday weekend that’s the rumours anyway; typical English weather could happen either way, it would be nice to have some sunshine staying put for a change. 

Before I continue working on a short story for Adventures of Borthwright Children that I started in the middle of the night; I might as well finish this off that’s taking me all day to do, as I’ve been on and off with it all day because I’m talking a load of rubbish today and I know I know it should be a free style blog but why can’t it be one of those online diary entries that I can just talk freely to be honest with you. I just wanted to sit down and write nonsense with a purpose. 

I’ve got a question for you is it right for someone who was attempting to rob a 78 year olds house but got killed by the 78 year old elderly person who was defending himself. On the day of the funeral the robber who passed away gets police protection and the 78 year old who can not live in their own house in fear of being robbed again. Do you think it’s fair that the 78 year old pensioner who worked all their life; paying their way live through the end of the Second World War and other little wars, making sure that their family have a good life and etc to be frightened and can’t rely on the services anymore for protection as they proven to protect the robber who was stealing in the house? 

The justice in my opinion these days have completely gone out of the window because elderly people who earned their way in life to make the world and their country a better place for us to live should be more protected from people who think it’s okay to steal from other peoples good hard earned money and get away from it. It’s not the first time I’ve talking to someone about this well similar situation but someone I knew brought a lot of moneys worth of goods and only received some of it. Yet the person who thought it was clever to steal X amount of goods that someone else paid and they steal it for themselves or to flog it off to someone else because they didn’t have to pay for it. Personally that’s just wrong to be honest I had the same situation where I ordered something for someone I know it was a cheap thing but I brought it for someone that I cared about and I received one set for myself and the second set for someone else on which never came. I complained that I ordered two of the same thing but the second lot didn’t come with the others that had arrived.

Of course I got them replaced and sent to me and so did the other person with their x amount of goods that they ordered. These days people are so desperate to get things for free but at the end of the day if they want something go and get a job earn the money show your children how to earn and live their life not show them how to set a bad example. Would love to know your opinion of this topic?

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: Taking control of the anxiety once again.

The past couple of days haven’t been great to be honest yet that’s probably my fault  who knows; you guys probably say “it’s not your fault…you’re just having a bad time  it’s not your fault. Your just having one of those days” yes it’s not my fault because when it’s in my head it’s a lot harder to get through it, it’s like I didn’t want to go to work (2.5.18) that’s when I knew I’m still letting my anxiety starting to take control. It was like last night I was trying talk to myself that I’ll be fine and so on. 

I know I’m doing the exact routine day in day out get up get ready go out come back home do what I need to do; get ready to go out again for another shift, come home and do a bit of something then go back out again to do another shift (that’s if I’m doing three shifts in one day.) just to keep my mind busy and myself occupied for the day otherwise I’ll be sitting at home wallowing myself pity. 

To be honest that’s why I try and post everyday even if I’m having a bad time or something just to know that I’ve done something positive towards myself even if I’m feeling like I’m useless and what not. I was even talking to someone the other day and I was just saying I might as well give up writing all together because it’s not getting anywhere I want to be and what not. I knew it wasn’t me because I love writing and so on. 

Even if you’re on your own war path with yourself you hurt everyone that you love around you; they know it’s not you talking it’s the anxiety and the depression that’s talking, (I’m only going off with my own experiences) trust me when I’ve been on my own war path people soon realise it’s not me who’s talking. I’m completely someone else not the bubbles person who takes control of the nature of things. 

The fact that I want to share with you the whole taking control of anxiety is by pushing yourself to get through it by taking control of it before it gets worse and takes control of you. Trust me I’ve been there done that got the t-shirt. I’ve let it control me because I didn’t know how to deal with it at the time. Yet people say I’m brave and strong; I’m standing there looking at them, and thinking you only know half of the battle. 

I’ve even started to have hot chocolate every so often just to calm the nerves down especially at night it does work I’ve just tried it last night (1.5.18) it’s like burning/melting away all the bad things that’s triggering it or trying it because it’s like saying enough is enough. I’ve asked a few people who do they who hates their mental health state more than anyone else. Meaning who’s willing to fight it more than people who just let it take control of them. Believe me a fair few people came back to me as said “you” ie “me” this is because they know how much of a struggle that I have had in the past with it and now that I’m taking control of it that’s when I know I’m not letting it define me of who I am. 

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Sunday Special Topics: Dancing in the storm!

Sunday Post I should of been away but things happened so I decided to dance in the storm but I really just don’t care anymore. That’s how I feel right right now but I’m not literally dancing in the storm guys; it’s just the feeling like I’m the one in the wrong all the time, maybe it’s just me who knows who knows. I normally by now joke about that I’m not sorting out my characters from my stories when the storm comes to the U.K. 

Way too warm to be able to sleep to be honest and yes I’ve written this in the middle of the night. Just casually watching the storm lighting up the sky it’s so pretty and bright. If you have me on Instagram or not yet there’s a video clip of the storm it’s @lizzysmornings it’s on there if you like to check it out and follow me on there too. 

With only about two and half ours sled this morning one of the houses in my areas decided to let their dog out; what does it do as soon as it gets out? Yes that’s it barks yap yap yap, I do have to point out this is and was at 7:00am in the morning of Sunday. Along with wait for it wait for it “Toby…Toby…Toby” a but respectful than normal but yet not really what you wanted first thing on a Sunday morning. 

I hope you guys have a good day, stay safe and enjoy you’re sunny Sunday whilst it lasts.