Newsletter December 2017 – Round up of the year of 2017

I was just looking up when the next century was and that’s not until another few years or so. Never understood that to be honest but heyho then it just occurred to me what century was I born in. I looked it up and I was born in the 20th century the last part of the 1900s.

I want to take on 2018 like no other give me an inch that I promise I’ll take a mile; as the danger is beauty that I face, I will face it with a smile because I’m on a mission with no restrictions so don’t give me a second guess and I’m born to be wild. I’m that type of chick that likes to rock the beat in my own way. 20th century girl I do what I like; because I’m going to take you for a ride, I’m going to live it up and not going to give it up.

I would like to say a massive thank you to all of you guys readers, followers and everyone who has giving me support to not giving up on my blogging and writing skills. No matter how hard things were in my life throughout 2017 but you guys were the ones that got me through it all. Yes there’s been bad times and good times at least we’ve all got through the year together.

Let’s bring 2018 more happiness and fun. Let’s see where this year is going to take us. As I have said and will say it again you guys were the amazing people on earth to get me through it all; along side my closet friends, family and even people who I have met along the way.

Let’s fight together and remain strong for each other no matter how low or upset we get. We know who to turn to at the end of the day. Happy New Year to you all. As my cousin messaged me saying “2018” “Great Big 2018” in his own special way of saying “happy new year!” God bless him and his special needs. God bless everyone.

Introduction for 25 Days Christmas Advent Calendar

I had sworn to myself about not doing this type of thing ever again as last year was like the most hardest thing that I could ever done. To be fair and quite rightly so. I didn’t really plan it very well or know what I was going to do with it. At least now I’m starting to plan it a month early so that I know what I am doing; how I’m going to write them, have a content page of which days I’m posting the topics and etc.

Planning ahead seems to me a great way of doing it for me so then I don’t have those ah shit moments and forget that I’ve got to do one. Even though we do have those moments; it’s like 7-8 weeks left until the Christmas holidays; yeah I looked it up, only because I was sorting out a child’s reward chart one day on the bus, so it was easy for me to know how long it was.

The fact that I haven’t even thought about the whole title content for the 25 days yet; I would like you guys to help me out on what titles you would like to see in the advent calendar, and also what you like to read as well. More the merrier and whatever does get used I can use them for next year as well. That’s if I remember them and remember where I’ve put them haha.

Leave the ideas down in the comments below what you would like to read and see in the advent calendar. I do have a month to get it all done and sorted my little lizzy pops. Hehe

September Newsletter 2017

As I remember to do this Newsletter now than later on in October.


Saving me writing out the question; plus I’m not 100% feeling right to the point I really need to take a paracetamol because my head is starting to pound on one side right now. Hang on let me go and take something be right back my lovelies……back my lovelies. September feels like it has flown by and felt like that I haven’t really had three months off.The fact that I’m suffering with a cold, back pains, drained, struggling to breathe and etc due to the bug that I may of picked up from my job. But I’m still carrying on as normal.

In this Newsletter I’ll be talking about lots of different things along with pictures that will define what I will be talking about. The fact that I wanted to try something different for this Newsletter this month; I just wanted to make it more exciting than just having boring captions in bold writing, making it more less unattractive than ever.


The past month or so as you may of noticed; I haven’t done much blogging for awhile, the fact that it’s been quite difficult for me to come up with new things. No matter how much I tried to think of things to write about; then it just brings me down as I think I’m a failure at it all, then I realise something. Blaming blogging for my mental health state wasn’t the answer. It was me and who I was. What I was feeling at the time of going at the time; was that I had just started a new job, lots of things going on at home and then a bit of trouble in paradise as well. Since then things have seem to have settled down; I began to be able to pick up my iPad, and start to write again.


For a long time since not being able to have any money or anything. I had asked my sister to get me some hair dye because it my roots were so bad and I started to notice that I was getting more and more grey hairs on my head. Now have four on my head not happy about it. I blame it on the stress than anything. Haha but I know it’s genetics to be honest. Now that I’ve got my hair dyed with the colour red passion I’m so happy and feel me again also it matches my hair extensions as well. That I’ve been wearing quite a lot recently even for work. I’m just glad that I’ve got an awesome sister that I can ask for to get me things for emergency.


At the start of this month I have started a new job and it is awesome. I’ve started to find my feet a bit more everyday and every week. It was a bit hard to begin with but now I’m getting there. I’m starting to love it a lot. Also using my knowledge of what I know and putting them into place and it is beginning to work.


Love of Caspian! He’s the best friend through and through. Some say “why can’t you both just be together?” To be honest we like to call it as close friends but others say we are together as we are never apart from each other. All messaging each other, laughing, whatever issue that comes up we sort it out one way or another.

I do miss him a lot when he’s away on trips and I’m stuck in the uk; but can’t wait to be able to join him for some of his business trips, and see what he gets up too when he’s out and about. It’s hard at the moment as he’s away and being busy but I know he’s checking my messages when I leave him them. Makes me smile a lot.

Going Unnoticed

Going inside with 13 reasons why a Netflix tv program.

This would of been Friday Time Recap Time! Blog last week Friday 8th September 2017 but never got round to finishing it so I decided to move it along a bit. Since completing on 13 Reasons Why on a tv program on Netflix; it’s has hit home a lot, especially with me personally where a girl called Hannah Baker struggled to open up but fear of being judged and making out that she’s a lie etc. Cyber bullying isn’t okay no matter if it’s at school and continuing still out of school just behind the computer screen.

There are so many ways of people who could get build and it just goes unnoticed from being at home; clubs, school and especially social media. Just out one tiny little detail that blows out proportion; remember my recent Dairy Entry for Haters, Social Media, Press and Exs – look what you made me do? No matter how much I tried to get away from the horrible things like people say “oh how cute do they look?” And so on on or the whole thing that people spread rumours that aren’t even true, or things set you off and feel like that you can’t move on.

To be honest I’ve been off Instagram, Facebook and Twitter for a good while now as I don’t have the apps on my phone or tablets but the best thing is it’s taken off a whole lot of pressure off me. Not having to worry or be insecure about myself. One thing I do have to say is that everyone has a story but they just take it out on one person and one person alone.

Some it gets too much and when the victims ask for help but they have the fear of being judged; yet that one person may not even take them seriously enough, or even try and stop them. It’s a complete warning signs to everyone have been missed. It’s like saying where did it go wrong?

Yet I’ve noticed personally if I try and talk I get shut down quite easily when there’s other things as well not just the one thing. Then it’s a lot harder to talk about things when people say it’s always the one thing. It’s like I explain it to one of my closes friends the other day and they can see entirely where I’m coming from. They quickly apologies for making me open up to them when they realised that they open a can of worms. To be honest I don’t blame them to be honest.

That’s basically what the 13 Reasons Why story is about; where one individual can’t talk about what is going on in their lives but then you have the one person who can control all of them, until someone does something but then two people come and try to get their voices to be heard.

All I’m saying is if your a parent or a teacher or a councillor or in that area I recommend you watch 13 Reasons Why to understand what any child is going through. See if you pick up anything that you may of missed.

Would you want to know you are going to die before hand or die suddenly without warning?

With all this earth will disappear on this day and bad luck Friday thing is stupid in my opinion.

Surprisingly as I put this question towards google just to get another point of view on the outcome of this topic; could I actually find what I was actually looking for?, some people saying yes and some are saying no. The fact is the people who have said no are correct because the things that have come up on google have lots of different ways of explaining the whole what illness and natural causes etc. Not particularly what I wanted or asked for to be honest with you; so my summary of this from another view point has completely gone out of the window, so basically I’m just going to have to share my thoughts with you without the whole different side of this.

I wouldn’t want to know when I’m going to die because someone like me who has mental health; you just dwell on the fact that your going to die on a persistence day time, and the hour your expected to die. When I rather live and wait until it happens to be honest. If my life does end tomorrow then hey that’s when it will be; on the other hand if I didn’t then I’ve got another day to live, and to be able to carry on with my day to day activities.

What’s the point in worrying each day when your going to die; when you have lots of things to live for in life, you make them happen as if its your last and not worrying about if your going to die everyday. That’s probably why I take risks on things than normal; risks that may work or may not work at the end of the day, I’m glad that I’ve done them than not doing them. I use to play it all safe and etc but now I don’t. However there are places that I don’t want to take risks on again because I’ve been there done that got the t-shirt as people would say.

What is your philosophy of when you should die? Or just get on with life and let the nature do its cause?

When we were young

The questionable thing for teens in this generation is outside what's that? But when I was young I was outside all the time not having to worry about anything.

When we were young the world seemed so old; however now the world is careless and cold, we did what we did years ago and now the generation do what they are told in this life. From 2010 backwards we had the world by our tail; that's when the good would prevail, along with the starships that would set sail and none of us would fail in this life.
Since 2010 onwards things have changed. Things shouldn't of happened not when you're young; we had drawn to whoever that would keep us together, along with the binding by the heavens above and now we have to survive the traveling at the speed of light and love.
When we were young; we adored the fabulous life of freedom of everything when we were young, we got to be the foolish and fearless of not knowing the cost of what we had to pay by letting someone else be strong. That was because we were young.
In the moment of grace; there was a long leap of faith of keeping everyone safe, but when we are young now there's always still going to be more glory stored away. This generation says this is our life; and all the bad things that are happening the government seem to be burning the bridges that we cross over, all we want to see is the firelight and we are the innocent that are getting over the old times. But yet we are young where everything seemed to be what we dreamed everyday; never knowing the cost of what we just paid for the lives, yet we are letting someone else be strong.
When we are young we start to look at ourselves and your will start to look at someone else to find that you recognise you can see yourself. Which makes you wonder when you had taken back what you've been given away but it must of been the last time you had your freedom.

The Unknown Fear: Fix You

The story of someone whom everyone tired to fix but need to help themselves to make it work.

When you try your best to fight what you want in life; but you don't succeed the way you wanted, but you feel like you don't need anyone's help and when you can't sleep but you feel so tired. That's when you feel like your stuck in reverse like my Aunt Marie.

As the tears came streaming down your face; the fear of what you were going to lose something that you can't replace, when it's someone that you love what could be worse? Their lights will guide you home. As they wrap their arms around you they will ignite your bones as they whisper in your ear “I will try and fix you”

Weather your high up above or down below; my love for you won't go away from you, and I know that your love for me won't let me go either. You will never know without giving it a try of fixing it together.

You walked into the party; like you didn't want to be there, I know that you didn't want to as I held up close to me and you had one on the mirror watching all of the girls wanting to be my partner. It's okay I'm not leaving you as you have me in your inner inner circle. You can be so vain when this song comes on and you start thinking about you don't you, don't you.

“It's okay” I whispered “I'll fix this”

Giving you a squeeze before I made my way to change it; as I turned back round I saw you running for the door, I knew I had to go after you to be with you. That's what I do because I love you to the more than the moon and back.

A Moment Like This Week – 4th August to 11th August 2017

Moment like theses you just realise where your week has gone; when you feel like you haven't done a lot this week but actually, you have done quite a lot.

This week has gone out of the window with my weekly blogs as I've been so busy working with and on Sentebaleblogs and Sentebale Team out in West Africa through the social media and etc. Also the main man himself Prince Harry. This is why Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays will be or have been gone out of the window this week; I just want to say thank you for your patience with everything going out the window over here, will find away to work around the whole thing once I know what I'm doing got my routine with them.

The fact that I'm currently watching athletics but haven't watched it all this week. To be honest I haven't had the tv on much at all this week; it's been either waking up late, YouTube videos, brief films either on Now Tv or a DVD whilst working my arse of with the Sentebaleblogs and everything. However I'm quite impressed that African runners are astonishing; I can't even run to save my life but heyho, I take my hat off to all of the runners anyways.

Also I haven't done things I needed to do either; which is shocking but then again seeing some of my friends helped me in the long run, also doing things to take my mind of other stuff which is good. Yet I suppose keeping myself busy is quite normal for me in a long run; yeah might have had a few relapses with my mental health but hey I pulled through it like I always do, knowing that I've got good friends and etc.

My aim is for tomorrow is to tidy up the lounge; put the washing on, looking like it was neat and tidy, make attempt of sorting the rest of my room out and look to see if I can do any extra jobs along the way. That's what two of them I should of done this week but because of not sleeping properly and feeling dreadful by the morning been slacking in what I've been doing and most of my day has gone. The worst bit is that I hate when it comes to food because your like oh my god is really time for food? Don't even feel hungry? Yet at the best of times I have to force myself to have something. Don't think I will tonight not feel to brilliantly and not particularly hungry either.

Hope your day has been good? Not raining one bit I hope. Catch you guys laters. Chow xxx

What do I think about the situation?


You’ll be surprised why it has taken me this long to comment on the English politics; on this snap election/general election whatever you call it these days, to be honest my head has been all over the place and I wanted to see where it was going to go. May thought she was going to remain power because she thought everyone was going to vote for her; may I point out how many u-turns she made, how many mistakes has she made, how many people left her party since the election, how many more insults can she give to the whole country and most importantly she’s just dangerously getting out of control. 

The massive mistake she has made is most probably asking DUP party to join forces; I pray to god she doesn’t, that country has managed to calm down and respect each other. She hasn’t really learnt from her lesson from the three attacks especially the two most recent ones; also I have the uneasy we are not out of the woods yet, even if it’s quiet right now as we speak. 

You can feel it across the whole country; even the ground we walk on, you know as the dust settles. You can tell under your feet the shape of the UK ready like a parachute just about to fly back up into the air; along with the people in the country saying “here we go again” “where is it this time?”, yeah we may got the full brunt of it all but in a space of the week of both attacks you’d like we actually caught monjority of the people who could be a potential threat. 

If the whole coalition won’t work out within the next week and half; it will mean we will have to vote again, to which point I’m might just say go stuff yourselves. At the end of the day I’m so sick and tired of Conservatives; especially Theresa May because she is a vile woman, who has no hope for anyone but her party. If we did or could have a permanent prime minster; I would have to say it would have to be Stephen Fry, he’s just a pure genius man and he can see both sides of everything. The parties will still have their say but he will have the final vote along side with the speakers and the queen. 

Trump on the other hand I’m glad he’s not coming to visit; because I do not believe the queen would have granted to see him, does make me laugh that he won’t come because we aren’t going to welcome him into the country. All I can say is good luck of trying to come then in the next four years; don’t think we will ever change our minds, if you keep on insulting our people and our country. 

The cabinet that she has currently put in place at the moment; to which she has listen more too along side the whole House of Commons, when they urge her to rethink on certain areas of the country and more about what the country needs. Well that’s what I think anyways but you never know these days what the government thinking anymore; I hate the way Theresa May thinks she knows best, but also her job can be taken away from her at anytime. If not it should be because she’s a loose cannon which any route that she goes down; no one is really listening to what we have to say.