Everyday Post: That knot in you’re stomach?!

Don’t you just hate that knot in you’re stomach that won’t go away especially when you want to sleep? Yep that’s what happened to me no matter how much you try to relax by doing things that you think will help you relax but as soon as you want to turn in you’re head is like nope sorry I’m going to throw everything at you like you deserve it. To which will tell your stomach to tighten it self like you want to vomit no matter how much you don’t want to but yet you feel like you’re going too.

Whatever it is that’s causing me to feel like this can go and do one because it’s already disrupted my day as it always has. The day before I mean and the past week so it needs to stop. Along with my hair needs to stop being a pain in the arse as well along with making scab wounds on top where I’ve been scratching my head too much because it’s been so itching due to dandruff. I genuinely think I’m having late 20’s crisis here guys don’t even know what’s going on.

So this morning I woke up at 5:15am my own occurred (not sure if this is the right word or the correct spelling) cord? Oh wait found the right word that I’m looking for. Scratch that occurred and replace it with accord. Let me start this paragraph again. So this morning I woke up at 5:15am on my own accord without any disruptions what so ever but yet I needed to pee….sorry too much information on that front.

The stomach knot has now gone for now whatever that was but all well just hope I don’t have to feel it ever again. I wonder how that could be possible to be honest if the stomach can turn itself into knots does anyone know? Along with the butterflies in the stomach when your excited but anxious and nervous about something?

I know right this is weird that I’m coming up with knew things to write about without even trying to. Don’t panic! Don’t panic! You’ll still have your stories too as I know how much you like them.


Wednesday Evening Post: Today just goes out the window!

Not even sure what actually happened today and I’m just literally blogging off my phone because I can and I haven’t prepared today’s Wednesdays Evening post. I’m not even sure what this is about but heyho. Let’s talk about how much I hate adult life of today shall we. Haha

Today one of my best friends decided to ring me at 5:15am forgetting that they are currently 4 hours ahead of me. They were like oh it’s like 9:15am so I photo screened them the time difference done it a few times today. Then half an hour later my job decides to message me to say they need me and I’m like at least I’m half awake nearly.

Then I finally got out of bed about another half an hour later. Hardly awake what so ever then out of the door by 6:45am back home at 9:30am for 4 hours. In that four hours pretty much sorted out something what my friend wanted me to do; afterwards went round my local Sainsbury’s shop and I thought I do a bit of house keeping to get two loafs of bread because someone did the dishwasher, came home had breakfast and etc. Then fell asleep the rest of the time so I can catch up some extra sleep. To which I manage to be completely awake and on caffeine for the next run of my job at 14:15pm (2:15pm) got home at about 16:30/16:30pm (4:30/4:45) to find a parent buying two more loafs of bread. To their realisation that they didn’t know I left a message or brought some already. So extra bread for me to steal in the middle of the night but not sure how long that will last until I react to it.

I thought I’ll do a bit of the house keeping and help get a few bits to get by. Yet I’m trying to get myself back on the right side of everyone but yeah. Sometimes being an adult has its good times and funny moments. Now I’m gonna chill. As you may of noticed that I’ve not even corrected any of my writing in this or anything else. It is what it is with any planning involved. Might need to remember not to do this again on my phone haha. Night people sorry for late posts for somethings. Now you know what a day I have had off the record. Also remember the actual pictures are on the iPad not on phone jeez! Someone give me a holiday please.

Online Diary Entries: Adult life + Anxiety = Life sucks

You know when things go around where you got people making quotes whether it’s on facebook, Twitter and etc it either summons you up completely or summons up someone else that you know. There’s always one that summons me up completely where you swear to yourself at least 20 times a day; I’m pretty sure I’ve done that quite a lot today to be honest, when I’ve done something that wasn’t meant to happen and what not. I find that it’s normally the same word that comes out fluently at the time it happens; I’ve just done it with this picture (down below) whilst making it as I put a picture in the wrong place, without knowing what was about to come out of my mouth there goes that word again and your like seriously never swear to myself that much do I?

Then I realise when it comes to adult life and anxiety I find it’s a nervous habit at the best of times. A lot more but then I realise I’m being rather stupid about it all stop; yet adult life does really suck because at the end of the day all you seem to do is work work work and the pay pay pay bills. Like you don’t have anything else better to do in your life you then realise your like Bridget Jones with a bag of minstrels or something then start singing “all by myself” into a hair brush like nobody knows.

That’s sounds like me most of the time without the bag of minstrels or singing the song into a hair brush but a bed cover wrapped round me after a shift of work. Yay me I’ve just given myself a headache with anxiety and literally having a major anxiety attack on two people they were like erm erm right one was like trying to make me laugh and the other one was like I don’t get you. Hehe I like what he did there though even though he didn’t know he did….that’s what I think though.

Oh oh hang on a minute almost forgotten my favourite part when I’m feeling anxious is I watch Most Haunted or throw myself into writing. That’s how I save myself from most things in life.