Dear lord I must confess the thoughts of loneliness but you have to understand why I get so defensive about guys who want to be with me. I can tell you now that I couldn’t tell you before but I know you know as you have witnessed over the years of the horrible man he was to my mum. Let me tell you the story through my broke child eyes but I know now my mum is safe with you.
You have to understand that my mother was so young with such innocent eyes with dreams of a fairytale life and all of the things that money can’t buy. Yet lord she had thought he was a wonderful guy until he changed since he now claimed that she was all his the day she had taken on his name; the first time he took his anger out on her face was when they were on their honeymoon, did you know as she prayed to you she kept all of her pain locked away since then especially in front of us and yet you weren’t there to save her.
Oh mother we are now stronger because of all the tears that you have she but mother don’t look back you will know he will never hurt us again. I would like to thank you for all you have done and still showing your conditional love to us; you got me I got you together we always pull through, oh mother you never stopped us from being who we are and reminding us no matter what happens continue to pray to the lord for protection. One day we got told that we were staying home for the day because the social workers came one day whilst we were at school; that was the day he turned on his kids as one of us spoke out but we kept it quiet like you told us too, my mother knew she had to leave him in order to protect us from anymore harm and there was so many voices inside her head.
Saying over and over and over that she deserved much more than this because she was so sick of believing the lies that he told about her on how she got the cuts and bruises; even hurting the kids on every other odd occasions, because he couldn’t hurt my mother anymore yet she had covered the bruises as much as she could on herself and ours before we went to school. My mother got so tired of defending for her life and ours she could have died fighting for the lives of her children.
Oh mother look at us now we are stronger than ever before because from all of the tear you have shed; don’t look back now because he can’t hurt us again, god had heard our prayers sent guardian angels to come and save us. I would like to thank you for all that you’ve done and still do. Don’t forget that you’ve got me and I’ve got you together we always pull through. We always pull through as a a family like we always do with each other’s love.
All of this our life you have spent burying he hurt with regret of not doing it any sooner but remember mum he can’t touch us again. Remember every time he tried to break you down just remember who’s still around; until we as your children stood our ground finding our voices it was over because we are stronger than before, we weren’t afraid of him no more when he would come home drunk or got high or things that made him mad and would take it out on you we jumped in to save yours. We will never have to go back again because we are stronger from all of the tears that you have shed don’t look back from all of the pain because he can’t hurt us again.
So mother I want to say thank you for everything that you have done and still do; you got me I got you together we always move on, together we always pull through, know your happy with someone who treats you right there’s no turning back now.
He will always going to be there to help you get through everything as it was your turn to be protected from everything that was coming your way. He’s the best step dad we can ever have no matter how much we were protecting you; he showed that he wasn’t going to harm you or us like our real dad, to me our step dad is and always will be my real dad no matter what. I love you mum.
Lord you gave us the strength to carry on finding away to move on I like to say thank you no matter how much we hated you at the time you gave us the time but also you sent us the most beautiful guardian angels and now mum is happy once again and not afraid anymore.
I would like to say this is just a story that I have created please don’t think this is what’s happening in my life right now because it isn’t. This story could happen to anyone around us but don’t know what’s happening behind closed doors. Just bare it in mind that if someone says they are okay and make an excuse of getting bruises and etc. Don’t ignore it okay.