What the hell am I doing?

To the one of those annoying 6 little words that I hate the most right now; who, what, where, when, how and why. They can all just do one right now; never done something so complicated in my life, blogging my own stuff is easy.

As I've just use one of the annoying six words from the picture; this week I've come crawling for help from my fellow readers and fellow bloggers, to give me a hand or give me some advice of how the hell I’m going to run this with hardly any money to get it going.
So far I have got a Facebook Page, Blog Website, Fundraising Sites, Instagram and Twitter. Oh don't forget I have a board on Pinterest on it as well.
Social Media:
Twitter: @sentebaleblogs
Facebook Page: @sentebaleblogsnigeria
Instagram: @sentebaleblogsnigeria
Pinterest: @lizzyarrow
Blog Website: sentebaleblogs.wordpress.com
The fundraising sites are practically nearly on every site that I use; along with lots of paperwork that I use for this website, also now that I'm doing paperwork for this blog and etc it's like how much paperwork do I really need to do. So over the weekend just been (5th-6th August 2017) me and my friend were in the library I was photocopying and she was counting how many sheets I've got if I missed any out. Probably about £20 worth of photocopying; some of it was for this blog as well, I'm currently half way sorting it all out and then realised that I brought the wrong sheets for the laminator so I can't laminate them either.
Lots and lots to do yet alone trying to keep up with blogs for here; looking for another job to gain more money, and everything else. Not sure how people say I was a Wonder Woman doing everything all at the same time. Who knows I’ll get there in the end I suppose.
Anyone knows or got ideas that can help me with raising money for the foundation for Nigeria all let me know by emailing me on this email address sentebaleblogsnigeria@outlook.com thank you muchly and appreciated as I'm stumped for it and I'm asking for your advice for it as well.

When you have more than one day of being a total d***?

Yep I know it's a Sunday but I can't help in doing this blog on a Sunday when it comes to one of those days that you had one too many off.

The fact that I have admitted on my national blog on a Sunday Special; that I can be a total d*** at the best of times, but not that sort of a d*** where someone is always is one all the time. I have mine when my insecurities, jealousy and many more come out all at once. Then start feeling rather s**** about it because you just wish you hate those feelings of not being good enough; feeling threatened by someone else who maybe good looking, right sort of person and what not.
Yep that's me. I'm one of those sort of people that feel like I'm going to get replaced because of not matching the right boxes; I end up listening to my insecurities, the past pain and etc. Which to means that I blow everything out of proportion and hurt the people that I love the most. That's pretty much me. It's only rarely that happens if I'm on a War path with myself then it's more dangerous territory; once I'm in the no mans land and someone who knows me too well, try and break the barriers down more they don't even know if they are going to come out alive or not. They actually turn out alive when I break down crying and wave the white flag to say it's alright.
There's been so many times within the two weeks I've been in floods of tears; then been actually been a complete arse, because of it as I've been all over it and there's been coming to my aid from left right and centre. On that no mans land and they've been like no matter what I thrown at them; they wouldn't budge because they know it's not me at the end of the day, they just want to keep me safe.
This is where you get your true identity of life where you know where your good friends are in life.

Do patients have a right to die via physician – assisted suicide?

This Topic makes me feel so sick, upset and angry to the point of why am I even bothering doing my job that I loved doing for so long. When people whom became disabled through a disease or accident or something and they want to die because they can’t cope with it anymore. 

In my brief summary of this topic that I just mentioned about this; is that every time it comes up on the news I physically have to leave the room, or trying not to listen to it because it makes me feel so sick, upset and angry that people who are capable to do anything had their world turned upside down. Either a disease, accident or something else that made them become disabled; they want to fight for the laws to be changed so that a physician can help them by assisting them in suicide, because they can’t cope with the torture of thought of not being able do things that they use to do.

The fact people who use to be able to walk, talk and etc couldn’t understand how people from adults, teens and children be able to live like the way are. I mean being disabled and their families have to look after them with constant care all the time; until one day something happens to them, they become throwing a hissy fit and take laws into their own hands because they don’t want to be like it anymore. 

Personally they should stop being selfish; they shouldn’t have the right to commit suicide with the help of a physician. Kids, young people and adults who were born with a disability who may not understand; non verbal, and many more things don’t can’t say how they feel or anything. They grew up with the constant care, medication, hospital treatment and everything else. 

At least people who had a life that lead to be a normal one before anything else happened; at least they got a life before it was taken away from them, so just grow a pair and do one because I’ve been on both sides. You have no understanding or how hard it is to see children having seizures, and everything everyday. They have it far more worse than we do when we become disabled; so don’t be blooming disgusting by asking a doctor to help you die, get over yourself and deal with it like everyone else can. Even Stephen Hawkins has out lived his condition; he was just having a normal life, then became the most cleaver of them all. Even when he’s disabled. If he can do it you can. 

There is life after having a terrible outcome but you jus have to work through it; the pain barriers are there to get you to fight back, what do you think the soldiers do when they become disabled. Give up hope or pick themselves back up again? They pick themselves up again. Not everything is about you. Going to stop as this makes me so mad. 

The Fear Of The Unknown: Fix a Heart

This week I had to write something with a meaningful meaning but also I hadn’t had a chance to write a story for this week. So it’s poetry this week guys. It’s a little short one for you.

It’s probably what’s best for you; if I went and left you too it because I only want the best for you, and if I’m not the best then you’re stuck. I don’t want to be third best at everything; I want to be there for you, I want what’s best for you but I just feel like I’m a third wheel. I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind. It feels like when you can’t talk to me about things; it feels like you’re pouring salt in my cuts.

I just ran out of band-aids because I don’t even know where to start as you can only bandage the damage; you can never really can fix a heart, even though I know what’s wrong but how could I be so sure. If you never say what you feel, feel. I must have held your hand so tight; you didn’t have the will to fight, I guess you needed more time to heal,

You must be a miracle worker because your swearing up and down; like you can fix what’s been broken, yeah. So please don’t get my hopes up if I’m going to be a third wheel in this relationship; no, no, baby, tell me how could you be so cruel?

Calling out to all businesses and local business

Calling out to all businesses from the back and beyond, don’t forget local business in Guildford and surrounding areas of my hometown. 

Calling out to all businesses from the back and beyond, don’t forget local business in Guildford and surrounding areas of my hometown. I would like to ask you to help donate and retweet this blog to your fellow business friends, clients and all of the galore. Think I’m starting to sound big headed all well got to advertise one way or another haven’t I; by throwing in my amazing skills of dry sense of humour into the works of things, the reason why I want to reach out to you awesome people is because I have been assigned to this mammoth task of helping a charity called Sentebale but only just one area of West Africa and the country that I am based of helping is Nigeria. 

In Nigeria there children who are out there who need your help, be their voices, and your love. The charity has only set the foundation in Nigeria barely six months of this year (2017), they literally have nothing to help the children to read, write or learn knew skills that will equip them for life. My offer is too is this. If you help us to raise the funds to be able to get things up and running. We will be able to help train the children who can learn new skills; how money works, how long it takes them to make the projects and most importantly know that with the money of each product that they make gets sold. The money will go back to them through the charity; if this sounds right up your street by helping the children, to provide for themselves and to achieve positive goals. 

Let me tell you the story of what their life is like out there along side quotes from one of the countries that has been founded by Sentebale already. You may need tissues or a shoulder to cry on when you read this.

Story of Nigeria and the children who need our help

Nigeria is a country that nestled itself in the middle of Benin which boarders which is the West of Nigeria; in the East you will find Chad and Cameroon, in the North is Niger and in the South lays the coast of Gulf of Guninea which is facing out to the Atlantic Ocean. Nigeria is actually known as Federal Republic of Nigeria; it is also referred to as the ‘Giant of Africa’ owing to the population and economy, as it is the most popular country in Africa and the seventh most populous country in the world. 

Nigeria has also been known to one of the most population of youths in the world; along with approximately 188 million inhabitants in the country alone, the fact that this is a well known and popular country to go to. However I would like to take you down to behind the scenes of the reason why I want you to come, read and donate. 

The fact is in Nigeria no one really talks about the needy, the homeless and the orphans in the country. There are children who have witness loosing their parents to HIV right before their eyes; there are some children who don’t even know that they have contracted the disease, or even been passed down from their parents until they get tested and some come back with positives.

Children become homeless due to being rejected from their families, their communities, or even when they eat with other children at school the teachers think that they are going to pass it on to other students. Children from all ages do not understand how or why they are being treated as an out cast to everyone. There are some children who cannot finish their education due to the fact that their families or friends cannot afford the uniform, materials or even worst luck is to looking after their other siblings due to the fact that no one else can due to their parents or any other family members passing away from HIV. 

As I was watching a few youtube video clips for research and etc for this page; I have picked out a few stories from three different generations one from a 9 year old, a teenager and a nurse. Why not read on; see for yourself how they manage to cope with having HIV, along with a nurse who is helping one of the children today. Please bare this in mind that; these are real life stories that I’m talking to you about, along with their ages may have changed since I have taken on this role.

Children/nurses in Lesotho have come to tell their story (when it was documented at the time). Here are their stories of how they deal with it all. First story quote is being told by Mots’ Eliso Motaung from Lesotho “My name is Mots’ Eliso Motaung. I am 9 years old. It’s terrible living with HIV. I never tell anyone that I have HIV’ 

The second story quote is from a teen (I didn’t really catch the her name) but this is her story. “When I was young I got sick, I didn’t feel good about myself. People didn’t like me playing with their children. At school I wasn’t allowed to eat from the same plate as them because they said I would infect the others. I was very upset. I wondered why me? What have I done that makes me different from other children” 

Third story is where a nurse who knows the teen’s background and this is what she had said “she was very young only 6 years old and she didn’t understand what was happening. I think HIV was stigmatised because people didn’t understand it. HIV is the same as any other disease and we’re now able to treat it, and get better.’ 

That’s just one country tackling the HIV that has effected the children no matter what; this is what we want to do in Nigeria to be able to tackle the needy, the homeless and Orphans that have been effected in this way by the terrible disease. One volunteer that I have asked what is it like in the home that he works in he replied ‘It’s fun (working with the children) Nigeria is a place of fun. Different kids with different talents and when a volunteer worker see’s a new kid, they start to wonder, what does this kid have now?’

We want to raise money to be able to help us to buy enough materials that can produce enough to be able to products and to teach the children new skills; how to make money, how to achieve things in life no matter how bad their life is or what they had to go through in their time they have. Along with we need to have enough money to be able to fund everyday essentials that we can use; like toothpaste, toothbrushes, hair brushes and etc. 

Every little donation that you make will help go towards these supplies; no matter how little or how big, we appreciate it and it will go along way to help the Nigerian children who need the love and support that is coming from everywhere else. In showing that they are being heard, listened to, being loved and cared for no matter how it is received in the correct manner. 

Click here to donate thank you 

Sentebale – Nigeria

To contact me for taking part in selling the products and many more please email me on sentableblogsnigeria@outlook.com 

In the light of remembering 100 years and Dunkirk

In memory of 100 years ago was the First World War between 1914-1918. In the running of the 100 years; Christopher Nolan had created a film about Dunkirk; the tragic, the fear, the frightened has come to the screens as actors recreate the days of Dunkirk. What it must of felt like when the Second World War happened from 1939-1945. In the days of the 1940s on the beaches of Dunkirk.

The miracle evacuation of Dunkirk in the Second World War has brought to real life again; through actors who played the roles of the soldiers who had died that day, trying to come home but left vulnerable on open lands of the beaches and the sea. Director Christopher Nolan has turned to the evacuation of Dunkirk for his latest acclaimed film; the fact that he brought back the the stunning great escape that helped Britain avoid defeat in the Second World War, showing that we had risked everything in the days of saving the British army. 

100 years ago was the First World War saw lots of unnerved, scared, frightened men who didn’t want to be out in the war zone; in May 26 and June 4, 1940 and that year saw some 338,000 troops rescued from the beaches of Dunkirk. Following Nolan’s success of blockbusters such as The Dark Knight and Inception; Nolan’s latest film that tells the story of Dunkirk, “the event that shaped our world”, as the poster says.

Nolan and his crew have gone to great depth of history, research and pains to faithfully to recreate Operation Dynamo to able to see what it may of looked like and feel like the time that had taken place.

Dunkirk – The Event That Shaped Our World/ Shaped Our Country

Lizzysweeklyblogs Review of Dunkirk 

I got invited to go to see the film Dunkirk by my best friend that I use to work with called Meg Anne. Who wanted to see it because it hard Harry Styles from One Direction in it; not sure at the time she knew the true history of the event, until I had to explain it all to her at the end of the film when she got confused on some areas. Which is understandable to be honest when I’m a bit older than her and did study it at school, went on the trips to the areas where they were fight in both wars (not at Dunkirk) and also knowing a bit more due to own self research along with family who are into different types of historical facts themselves.

The film was very in tense throughout the film; not much dialogue throughout the film but the fact that I was literally hugging my cardigan close to my face, meant I felt like I was there on the beaches with the soldiers who were frightened and scared at the time it was happening. 

Every time the camera panned to Tom Hardy and Kenneth Branagh when something serious was about to happen. I was like NO! And OMG! They are going to die but yet they survived every time it happened for another second, another minute, another half an hour, another hour and another day. You could tell something wasn’t going to be right; when the cameras went onto Kenneth Branagh, it was the way he looked up into the sky and he soon realised what was coming towards them all.  
I believe that all the actors who did the film have to be well and truly magnificent because to be able to experience something like that as acting if your adrenaline kicks in; the fear of the unknown what’s coming next, the fear of I’m going to be next one to be killed. 

I would rate this film as 5/5 because it’s absolutely brilliant. 

Guest Review: Megan Anne’s Dunkirk Review 

Apologies for strong bad language from my friend; she has no concept of her language, especially when it comes to Harry Styles. I’ll try my best to reduce the amount of swearing by bleeping them out but keeping them in as it’s her words not mine. However she wants me to had more to it just to make her look smarter but I’ll see what I can do.

I personally didn’t know what to to expect to begin with; but I was happy with the film based on the true facts of history, of our past that had changed our future that we live in today. The film was so tense that I was on the edge of my seat; making me feel like I was there on the beaches of Dunkirk, like I wanted to help save each solider that were in danger whilst putting myself at risk. The fact that I was confused at some parts of the film; yet having Lizzy’s knowledge and understanding of what it would be like out there, also having the understanding that one of he actors were actually the ones of the good guys as she explained to me which airplanes are which and which side they belong to. The fact that I know I can pick Lizzy’s brains for things like these topics; I know I can’t go wrong either way, and I like to learn new things that I didn’t know before. 

All the actors were amazing bringing everything to life; bring me into their world of what’s happening throughout the film, as there’s not a lot of dialogue throughout the film but the actors showed that their feelings of being anxious, panicky, petrified, running scared and terror stricken. Oh and the most important thing was that Harry Style was unbelievable; he was playing a character that I really didn’t expect play, but as he brought out the heart racing that my heart was going to come out of my chest. As there were lots of tense scenes that he was in; as I thought my life was going to be over if he died in battle of survival, “because of Harry F********* Styles” sorry guys I can’t help it he’s absolutely beautiful! 

Fantastically directed film by Christopher Nolan. I would rate it overall 5 stars. 

10 Things That Makes Me Want To Stop Thumper!

The time when you know that your going to get a really bad headache coming; when it gets to the point of thumping like Thumper from Bambi comes along, and ends up getting his bouncing gear on and starts thumping against your skull. Yep I got that we’ll get that most days.

So 10 things that makes me want to stop Thumper from thumping my head on average day to day life; so that I can get on and do things can be quite tricky, especially you know whats causing the problems of the headache in the first place. 

  1. Overthinking can cause my Thumper to thump my brain like I’ve been hitting my head against a brick wall. 
  2. Stress can cause my Thumper to come when you just at least expect it. 
  3. Mental Health when my brain starts to go all funny and you can just about to hear and feel Thumper in the background thumping hard trying to be heard.
  4. The fact that when I’ve been crying so much I strain myself without realising and theres that thumping sound again. 
  5. Cold or a flu thats coming my way and thats when I begin to wonder why I get the thumping against my skull. 
  6. Sinus headache when they are all blocked up and begin to throb hard
  7. When shouting at someone or something thats when it makes my head hurt due to the fact that; I’m so like one of my parents that I go from 0-60 in five seconds.
  8. When my face starts twitching so much that it gives me the headaches because my face cant stop twitching.
  9. Sleeping too much or too little or just feeling goggle in the mornings
  10. Just when you feel like your a net between two houses that shout and your like a ping pong ball or tennis ball being hit back and fourth. That can give you headache at the best of times.

The fact that I just didn’t write what the title was actually about but heyho might as well change it like 10 things to avoid Thumper coming to attack my head. Or 10 things that I wish Thumper wouldn’t do to my head. I think I might of made a gobble goose of this weeks Wednesday post; it was a good idea to do it at the time when I had it, heyho Thumper looks to cute to not carry it out so no. 

My Everything

Thought I’ll bring in a joint blog morning session for Sentebaleblogs and lizzysweeklyblogs; well teaming up with me, myself and I writing them off course. The fact that I can do the amazing trick is going to be a test because I have no hope of being able to keep up with two blogs at the same time. So Wednesday Mornings at 10am is Sentebaleblogs time to have its first major Wednesday event; I thought who else knows how to kick start it all on a Wednesday, I know my Wednesday Evening Post at 8pm for Lizzysweeklyblogs. Joint effort they all say. 

I cried enough tears to see my own reflection in them; as they roll down my cheeks and into the river, that’s when it was clear that I can’t deny I really miss him and them. To think that I was wrong. I guess you really don’t know what you got until it’s gone. All the pain is just the consequences of the love that we have; I’m just saying on behalf of the children, I’m sorry for the sake of us.

He and them was my everything; until I realised that they had nothing to go on and it’s taking me a lot to say but now he’s gone to rescue the children, my heart is missing something and so now it’s time that I pushed my pride away. This is because you are my everything; you are, you are my everything.  

I know that you’re not going to be that far away but I still can’t handle all of the distance that’s between us; yet you are travelling with me in my heart, as I’m in yours. I hope this is a temporary feeling because this is too much to bear; when they have nothing, without him they know that sorry isn’t a cure but they know that he will get help from somewhere. The children wondered if it ever crossed your mind if they are worth fighting for; because they are his everything and they are my everything, it is time to feel what is is missing in your heart. It is time that you start pushing your pride away. 

Listen to the night sky. As it’s nice and peaceful. The stars glisten you can hear the words of tiny voice of the children singing; “you are, you are, you are my everything.” 

As Robbie Rotten would ask, “Why are those people making all that noise!?”

You got a friend in need, we got a friend in need, we got a friend in need. Who needs your help. 
As Robbie Rotten on LazyTown, has given laughter to children around the world. He created a foundation to help stop bullying. He is a tireless advocate for special needs children. And now Stefan Karl needs our help.

Stefan has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. The operation he has had will prevent him from working for up to a year. We want him to use that year to rest and recuperate so that he can once again return to what he does best – making kids smile all over planet Earth.

We are raising funds to help Stefan and his family survive the coming year. Not only will they need assistance with medical bills, but it’s important that Stefan be allowed to heal his body and spirit without the additional burden of financial need.

We appreciate any amount of gift you are able to extend to Stefan and his family. As he moves from this difficult time toward a full recovery, we ask for your generosity, your prayers and good wishes.

As Robbie Rotten would ask, “Why are those people making all that noise!?” 

Let’s answer Robbie with a thunderous noise of gratitude and joy for everything he’s given to the world of children’s entertainment!

Help spread the word! Stefan Karl’s Year of Healing $157,525 of $200k goal raised. 

Go on donate, go on, oh go on, oh go on, GO ON! (Apologies not too sure why Father Teds house keeper took over) please help and donate to see him return to our screens again. 

Stefan Karl’s Year of Healing

The Inside Of A Teenager’s Mind and How To Communicate.

Teenagers who want to communicate but they can’t because they feel the fear of being judged, get criticism and etc from their parents.

To be able to communicate is to have the ability to connect when it really matters; even when it is often based on the ability to connect, even it doesn’t you have to build the positive of the relationships between a parent and a teen at the time. Even where there is sorting out any communication difficulties in the way of it but there are importance of big talks about significant topics with the teen who may feel embarrassed about talking to their parents about it. 

Channeling the communication to be open between the parent and a teen; is that teenagers may need their parents guidance and boundaries that they may draw and hold. This may have the impact of to be a tactical for any parents or teenagers to get this across on both sides.

Be assertive of your authority may need to be different; when dealing with authority it has to be averse teen, rather than an automatic respectful child. Teens still need to know that you are still interested, still care, on their side and watch. Even if you always don’t agree with them; you need to have the skills and the emotional resilience to go on offering help; even if the face is showing or behind the glass of indifference and opposition.

However getting locked into unhelpful ways of communicating with bickering, nagging, criticism that we all have at times with our parents and teens. Even though we tried to hard to avoid relating to them in every day life; it would either make it easier or just make it, plan lot harder to sort out the key issues.

Reduce the amount of indifference and the opposition between you and your teenager; is by improving your skills, every teen is different to the previous child. Not all teenagers are going to be the same; or the same as you when you were there age. Teens often behave in aways which that it will come difficult for you as parents to give them what they need the most. You as a parent cannot change your teen; but you can change what you do in life and how you behave differently, even if its comes to the point of matching the results in the other person. In which matching you and alternate their behaviour in themselves.

If you need a pet talking lessons or words to help start with the lines of communication open with your teenager, what should you be doing? That’s if you as a parent can help it in away of saying horrible or a criticism way. Why not look in ways of opportunities to talk off-message; like what interests they like doing, or ask if they can join or ask them if they want to come with you as a parent. 

Such like use ‘I’ messages, use open question, share something of yourself, treat the young person as an equal, practise what you preach, listen without judgement or criticism, appreciate them for their positive qualities, give unconditional love but hold strong boundaries over behaviour, give frequent ‘strokes’ as my mum puts it licks like a cat by stroking my arm and yes I did roll my eyes at that one, include the young person in family activities but give them the choice to opt out, understand and take action only when asked for help

For more info click on this link right here 👉🏻 👇🏻http://www.familylives.org.uk/advice/teenagers/communicating-with-teenagers/the-importance-of-communicating-with-teenagers/ enjoying my emojis and hyper links why too much these days. This is where I found my research; I let you in a little secret, I was reading/doing this when one of my parents were talking to me giving me a lecture about something. Believe me I try and avoid everything as much as possible and I’m 26 years old currently. By the time in the few years time I’ll be a lot older than this blog haha.