A Moment Like This Week – 4th August to 11th August 2017

Moment like theses you just realise where your week has gone; when you feel like you haven't done a lot this week but actually, you have done quite a lot.

This week has gone out of the window with my weekly blogs as I've been so busy working with and on Sentebaleblogs and Sentebale Team out in West Africa through the social media and etc. Also the main man himself Prince Harry. This is why Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays will be or have been gone out of the window this week; I just want to say thank you for your patience with everything going out the window over here, will find away to work around the whole thing once I know what I'm doing got my routine with them.

The fact that I'm currently watching athletics but haven't watched it all this week. To be honest I haven't had the tv on much at all this week; it's been either waking up late, YouTube videos, brief films either on Now Tv or a DVD whilst working my arse of with the Sentebaleblogs and everything. However I'm quite impressed that African runners are astonishing; I can't even run to save my life but heyho, I take my hat off to all of the runners anyways.

Also I haven't done things I needed to do either; which is shocking but then again seeing some of my friends helped me in the long run, also doing things to take my mind of other stuff which is good. Yet I suppose keeping myself busy is quite normal for me in a long run; yeah might have had a few relapses with my mental health but hey I pulled through it like I always do, knowing that I've got good friends and etc.

My aim is for tomorrow is to tidy up the lounge; put the washing on, looking like it was neat and tidy, make attempt of sorting the rest of my room out and look to see if I can do any extra jobs along the way. That's what two of them I should of done this week but because of not sleeping properly and feeling dreadful by the morning been slacking in what I've been doing and most of my day has gone. The worst bit is that I hate when it comes to food because your like oh my god is really time for food? Don't even feel hungry? Yet at the best of times I have to force myself to have something. Don't think I will tonight not feel to brilliantly and not particularly hungry either.

Hope your day has been good? Not raining one bit I hope. Catch you guys laters. Chow xxx

Anja Reggren Lovein – Case

Anja has been through a lot by the age of six years old; fighting for her life everyday, no one should have to go through what she has to everyday at the age of 6.

“My name is Anja Reggren Lovein; I'm from Kogi which is in middle birth of Nigeria, I am very sick not keeping any weight on due to diarrhoea. It's just me and my mum now. I would like to tell you my story through someone else so I can get my voice heard along with my mum’s voice. She's my best friend and we've been through a lot in my tiny life so far”

As you have heard little Anja’s voice talking about herself in the opening; what I'm going to tell you will be shocking for any mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, sister and brother have to go through to look after their siblings or parents, grandparents, children and grandchildren.

Anja Reggren Lovein is just 6 years old due to her health she looks like a 4 year old girl; who suffers from diarrhoea to which we all know is horrible to deal with but we can get better from it, along with doctors advice and medical care that we can get. Yet for Anja and her mum Joy they only have each other; no other family members to help, no money coming in to help Anja to get better and Anja is an only child of Joys because her father had dies two years ago.

So this means that Joy and Anja have only got each other; they can't live without each other, the fact that they are team of Lovein family they are continuing fight each battle together not just on their own. Joy not only just lost her husband two years ago; she has chosen to continue to fight, remain strong to look after her only daughter. She does not want to loose another person in her family; Anja has a part of her dad inside her that Joy can't live without, Joy just wants and wishes her baby girl to be well enough to grow up and enjoy life like everyone else. That's every parents dream is to be able to see their children achieve their goals.

Anja medical bills are estimated about 500,000 Naira it maybe more than that; in British money it is a roughly £1,053.98, anonymous donor has already donated £300 to the cause who have sent straight away to start the treatment. We ask for your help and continue to ask for your help to raise money to help Anja and her mother Joy in this journey together as they are team Lovein fighting the horrible sickness bug disease once and for all along with girl power.

Girl Power Quotes:

“What's wrong with being, what's wrong with being, What's wrong with being confident?” – Demi Lovato – Confident

“You hear my voice, you hear that sound” Katy Perry – Roar

How to donate for Anja Reggren Lovein:

“look…look there's the link come on. Do it for me please. Even the anonymous writer is helping me write this. Come on click on it and donate. Shhh she thinks I'm cute too” Anja Reggren Lovein

The money will go to this link here down below and it will go to her and help with her medical care.

Sentebale-Nigeria

Patience

“Patience – the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. An ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.”

Just have a little patience as I'm still hurting from the love that I had lost; just have a little patience when I'm paranoid about something that might not be true, just have a little patience that I'm frightened of the new relationship that may lead to somewhere good. I am feeling your frustration and hurt because anytime now all my pain will stop; as you hold me close inside your arms tonight please don't be too hard on my emotions because I still need more time, and my heart has that numb feeling as I'm letting you in as I'm still healing.

Please just try and have a bit more little patience because I really want to start over again; I know that your my salvation, the one I can always depend on, make me strong again believe me I’ve got this far of moving on but give me more time on getting over the scars that run so deeply. It's complicated please understand me. When I say that is hard to believe but I have had to start again believing in myself along side with believe in you as your not like anyone else.

Just have a little patience for me; have a little patience when I miss read things because of I'm not use to the papers, the fear of seeing other girls round you makes me feel threatened and want to still you away from me. I know that you won't leave me because we've been through together so much; you gave up a few things, I've giving up a lot to be with you.

Until that day you kissed me; there was a side that I never knew, when I can't sleep I know that you are thinking about me. When I cry in the rain I know that I'm lost but I know that you are searching for me; when I heard your voice in the distance I start running in that direction, until I finally find you I could finally feel your skin touching my skin and your lips touching my forehead.

I know having the patience we would find away that we can have in the way that our world stops around us. We are only human and I’m only human when my demons want to fight us; I know this world is ours, because I know my demons will loose the war because of our patience and love.

The Unknown Fear: Beauty and Beast

This week I want to con-bind Teenagers Life Crisis with this The Unknown Fear Category; because I believe teens can relate to this in so many ways, that no one understands unless they have been throw it themselves.

I find myself at the current stage in life but always will because that's who I am unless I turn my mind set and beat the beast that’s controlling me inside my mind. Each day I try and take a photo of myself as I see who I really am inside and out; as you can see in the four pictures, I actually like who I am, how I do things and how truly pretty that I really am. The fact that I capture it and post it through social media it has given me the confidence of taking pictures of who I am; I'm in control of the camera no one else is, I wouldn't take a photo of myself if I have an really bad off day and put it up. No way I'll be doing that I can tell you that right now. That's how insecure I am about it all. This is my little tale of how my beauty and beast is like in my life; my story, my life of all the issues that I have within myself.

Tale as old as time can this be true as it can be; as I'm barely even friends with the beast inside me, them somebody bends the unexpectedly and a little change some say at least but both a little scared of loosing each other. Neither one is prepared to give up on each other but that's what I call as beauty and the beast battling her out.

Ever just the same but always a surprise like it was once before; just to be sure when the that will rise, the same old tale at this time is played in the same old tune in the distances like a distance memory. Bittersweet and strange like I'm finding that I can change; when I learn that I was wrong at the time I don't want to listen to what other people are saying,

There's always the certain sun that will always come out; making me feel better about myself like I'm confident in myself that's what the beauty of it when the sun is in the east, but there is the other certain sun that doesn't come out and it rains then the beast will rise in the east.

Our take is now as old as time along with the song that has as old as the rhyme; but I call it pour beauty that takes over winning over the beast, even when it's the hard times beauty and the beast always battle it out no matter what happens. That's why I call it the beauty and the beast.

Insecurities that some celebrities make me feel

People in celebrity world who have to look good and etc in the eye of the public; which every girl and boy growing up wants to be like them, for me it's completely different.

This weekend just been has it me the worse; not because I haven't watched much tv or anything, but because I have days when I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone and etc. I try each day to wake up to feel positive, do my make up each day with out fail even if I don't feel like or I notice that I've got my hairs growing back on my chin because of one of my health issues cause it to grow there. The unnecessary hairs that are a waste of space; that's what I call it anyways because that's what I call it, yet I try and cover it as best I can even if I don't shave it off if I'm feeling rather crappy about myself.
The fact that most female stairs are like putting it on for show saying “oh look at me I can get what I want because I'm so damn hot; making all the men population across the globe fancy me, and all of the celeb male stars even the royals in some of the countries who have them. All because I have big boobs and well dressed” and so on, so on. I could list them all but I don't want to waist your time or my time on how pathetic they are to be honest. “Oh I don't want him, I want him instead” can think of a few people in that picture.
You could just say that I'm just being paranoid and jealous; yes but that's because guys who butter me up, either just want me for one thing and one thing only or just end up being close friends of mine to be honest. The fact is though I'm so use to being on my own but as soon as I let my guard down to anyone something bound to happen; like they disappear off or go away with another female and say “we just good friends” I can understand if they’re working need to go away for something that's fine but when they don't tell you that they are going away and you then find out that it was with the opposite sex. Then how else are you going to believe that they are telling you the truth. But then again old habits of being paranoid is because of someone in the past that you thought you got over it but obviously happens. Then like jealousy came out so bad and what the hell is that all about; when it comes with the stars it bothers me to the point I hate them because they think they are all it, to be fair their are some you think seriously how the hell did you become a celebrity then you realise who their parents are. So they didn't have to try hard to get what they want.

What the hell am I doing?

To the one of those annoying 6 little words that I hate the most right now; who, what, where, when, how and why. They can all just do one right now; never done something so complicated in my life, blogging my own stuff is easy.

As I've just use one of the annoying six words from the picture; this week I've come crawling for help from my fellow readers and fellow bloggers, to give me a hand or give me some advice of how the hell I’m going to run this with hardly any money to get it going.
So far I have got a Facebook Page, Blog Website, Fundraising Sites, Instagram and Twitter. Oh don't forget I have a board on Pinterest on it as well.
Social Media:
Twitter: @sentebaleblogs
Facebook Page: @sentebaleblogsnigeria
Instagram: @sentebaleblogsnigeria
Pinterest: @lizzyarrow
Blog Website: sentebaleblogs.wordpress.com
The fundraising sites are practically nearly on every site that I use; along with lots of paperwork that I use for this website, also now that I'm doing paperwork for this blog and etc it's like how much paperwork do I really need to do. So over the weekend just been (5th-6th August 2017) me and my friend were in the library I was photocopying and she was counting how many sheets I've got if I missed any out. Probably about £20 worth of photocopying; some of it was for this blog as well, I'm currently half way sorting it all out and then realised that I brought the wrong sheets for the laminator so I can't laminate them either.
Lots and lots to do yet alone trying to keep up with blogs for here; looking for another job to gain more money, and everything else. Not sure how people say I was a Wonder Woman doing everything all at the same time. Who knows I’ll get there in the end I suppose.
Anyone knows or got ideas that can help me with raising money for the foundation for Nigeria all let me know by emailing me on this email address sentebaleblogsnigeria@outlook.com thank you muchly and appreciated as I'm stumped for it and I'm asking for your advice for it as well.

When you have more than one day of being a total d***?

Yep I know it's a Sunday but I can't help in doing this blog on a Sunday when it comes to one of those days that you had one too many off.

The fact that I have admitted on my national blog on a Sunday Special; that I can be a total d*** at the best of times, but not that sort of a d*** where someone is always is one all the time. I have mine when my insecurities, jealousy and many more come out all at once. Then start feeling rather s**** about it because you just wish you hate those feelings of not being good enough; feeling threatened by someone else who maybe good looking, right sort of person and what not.
Yep that's me. I'm one of those sort of people that feel like I'm going to get replaced because of not matching the right boxes; I end up listening to my insecurities, the past pain and etc. Which to means that I blow everything out of proportion and hurt the people that I love the most. That's pretty much me. It's only rarely that happens if I'm on a War path with myself then it's more dangerous territory; once I'm in the no mans land and someone who knows me too well, try and break the barriers down more they don't even know if they are going to come out alive or not. They actually turn out alive when I break down crying and wave the white flag to say it's alright.
There's been so many times within the two weeks I've been in floods of tears; then been actually been a complete arse, because of it as I've been all over it and there's been coming to my aid from left right and centre. On that no mans land and they've been like no matter what I thrown at them; they wouldn't budge because they know it's not me at the end of the day, they just want to keep me safe.
This is where you get your true identity of life where you know where your good friends are in life.

Do patients have a right to die via physician – assisted suicide?

This Topic makes me feel so sick, upset and angry to the point of why am I even bothering doing my job that I loved doing for so long. When people whom became disabled through a disease or accident or something and they want to die because they can’t cope with it anymore. 

In my brief summary of this topic that I just mentioned about this; is that every time it comes up on the news I physically have to leave the room, or trying not to listen to it because it makes me feel so sick, upset and angry that people who are capable to do anything had their world turned upside down. Either a disease, accident or something else that made them become disabled; they want to fight for the laws to be changed so that a physician can help them by assisting them in suicide, because they can’t cope with the torture of thought of not being able do things that they use to do.

The fact people who use to be able to walk, talk and etc couldn’t understand how people from adults, teens and children be able to live like the way are. I mean being disabled and their families have to look after them with constant care all the time; until one day something happens to them, they become throwing a hissy fit and take laws into their own hands because they don’t want to be like it anymore. 

Personally they should stop being selfish; they shouldn’t have the right to commit suicide with the help of a physician. Kids, young people and adults who were born with a disability who may not understand; non verbal, and many more things don’t can’t say how they feel or anything. They grew up with the constant care, medication, hospital treatment and everything else. 

At least people who had a life that lead to be a normal one before anything else happened; at least they got a life before it was taken away from them, so just grow a pair and do one because I’ve been on both sides. You have no understanding or how hard it is to see children having seizures, and everything everyday. They have it far more worse than we do when we become disabled; so don’t be blooming disgusting by asking a doctor to help you die, get over yourself and deal with it like everyone else can. Even Stephen Hawkins has out lived his condition; he was just having a normal life, then became the most cleaver of them all. Even when he’s disabled. If he can do it you can. 

There is life after having a terrible outcome but you jus have to work through it; the pain barriers are there to get you to fight back, what do you think the soldiers do when they become disabled. Give up hope or pick themselves back up again? They pick themselves up again. Not everything is about you. Going to stop as this makes me so mad. 

The Fear Of The Unknown: Fix a Heart

This week I had to write something with a meaningful meaning but also I hadn’t had a chance to write a story for this week. So it’s poetry this week guys. It’s a little short one for you.

It’s probably what’s best for you; if I went and left you too it because I only want the best for you, and if I’m not the best then you’re stuck. I don’t want to be third best at everything; I want to be there for you, I want what’s best for you but I just feel like I’m a third wheel. I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind. It feels like when you can’t talk to me about things; it feels like you’re pouring salt in my cuts.

I just ran out of band-aids because I don’t even know where to start as you can only bandage the damage; you can never really can fix a heart, even though I know what’s wrong but how could I be so sure. If you never say what you feel, feel. I must have held your hand so tight; you didn’t have the will to fight, I guess you needed more time to heal,

You must be a miracle worker because your swearing up and down; like you can fix what’s been broken, yeah. So please don’t get my hopes up if I’m going to be a third wheel in this relationship; no, no, baby, tell me how could you be so cruel?

Calling out to all businesses and local business

Calling out to all businesses from the back and beyond, don’t forget local business in Guildford and surrounding areas of my hometown. 

Calling out to all businesses from the back and beyond, don’t forget local business in Guildford and surrounding areas of my hometown. I would like to ask you to help donate and retweet this blog to your fellow business friends, clients and all of the galore. Think I’m starting to sound big headed all well got to advertise one way or another haven’t I; by throwing in my amazing skills of dry sense of humour into the works of things, the reason why I want to reach out to you awesome people is because I have been assigned to this mammoth task of helping a charity called Sentebale but only just one area of West Africa and the country that I am based of helping is Nigeria. 

In Nigeria there children who are out there who need your help, be their voices, and your love. The charity has only set the foundation in Nigeria barely six months of this year (2017), they literally have nothing to help the children to read, write or learn knew skills that will equip them for life. My offer is too is this. If you help us to raise the funds to be able to get things up and running. We will be able to help train the children who can learn new skills; how money works, how long it takes them to make the projects and most importantly know that with the money of each product that they make gets sold. The money will go back to them through the charity; if this sounds right up your street by helping the children, to provide for themselves and to achieve positive goals. 

Let me tell you the story of what their life is like out there along side quotes from one of the countries that has been founded by Sentebale already. You may need tissues or a shoulder to cry on when you read this.

Story of Nigeria and the children who need our help

Nigeria is a country that nestled itself in the middle of Benin which boarders which is the West of Nigeria; in the East you will find Chad and Cameroon, in the North is Niger and in the South lays the coast of Gulf of Guninea which is facing out to the Atlantic Ocean. Nigeria is actually known as Federal Republic of Nigeria; it is also referred to as the ‘Giant of Africa’ owing to the population and economy, as it is the most popular country in Africa and the seventh most populous country in the world. 

Nigeria has also been known to one of the most population of youths in the world; along with approximately 188 million inhabitants in the country alone, the fact that this is a well known and popular country to go to. However I would like to take you down to behind the scenes of the reason why I want you to come, read and donate. 

The fact is in Nigeria no one really talks about the needy, the homeless and the orphans in the country. There are children who have witness loosing their parents to HIV right before their eyes; there are some children who don’t even know that they have contracted the disease, or even been passed down from their parents until they get tested and some come back with positives.

Children become homeless due to being rejected from their families, their communities, or even when they eat with other children at school the teachers think that they are going to pass it on to other students. Children from all ages do not understand how or why they are being treated as an out cast to everyone. There are some children who cannot finish their education due to the fact that their families or friends cannot afford the uniform, materials or even worst luck is to looking after their other siblings due to the fact that no one else can due to their parents or any other family members passing away from HIV. 

As I was watching a few youtube video clips for research and etc for this page; I have picked out a few stories from three different generations one from a 9 year old, a teenager and a nurse. Why not read on; see for yourself how they manage to cope with having HIV, along with a nurse who is helping one of the children today. Please bare this in mind that; these are real life stories that I’m talking to you about, along with their ages may have changed since I have taken on this role.

Children/nurses in Lesotho have come to tell their story (when it was documented at the time). Here are their stories of how they deal with it all. First story quote is being told by Mots’ Eliso Motaung from Lesotho “My name is Mots’ Eliso Motaung. I am 9 years old. It’s terrible living with HIV. I never tell anyone that I have HIV’ 

The second story quote is from a teen (I didn’t really catch the her name) but this is her story. “When I was young I got sick, I didn’t feel good about myself. People didn’t like me playing with their children. At school I wasn’t allowed to eat from the same plate as them because they said I would infect the others. I was very upset. I wondered why me? What have I done that makes me different from other children” 

Third story is where a nurse who knows the teen’s background and this is what she had said “she was very young only 6 years old and she didn’t understand what was happening. I think HIV was stigmatised because people didn’t understand it. HIV is the same as any other disease and we’re now able to treat it, and get better.’ 

That’s just one country tackling the HIV that has effected the children no matter what; this is what we want to do in Nigeria to be able to tackle the needy, the homeless and Orphans that have been effected in this way by the terrible disease. One volunteer that I have asked what is it like in the home that he works in he replied ‘It’s fun (working with the children) Nigeria is a place of fun. Different kids with different talents and when a volunteer worker see’s a new kid, they start to wonder, what does this kid have now?’

We want to raise money to be able to help us to buy enough materials that can produce enough to be able to products and to teach the children new skills; how to make money, how to achieve things in life no matter how bad their life is or what they had to go through in their time they have. Along with we need to have enough money to be able to fund everyday essentials that we can use; like toothpaste, toothbrushes, hair brushes and etc. 

Every little donation that you make will help go towards these supplies; no matter how little or how big, we appreciate it and it will go along way to help the Nigerian children who need the love and support that is coming from everywhere else. In showing that they are being heard, listened to, being loved and cared for no matter how it is received in the correct manner. 

Click here to donate thank you 

Sentebale – Nigeria

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