The feeling of lost and confused.


The feeling of lost and confused.

The weekend that had my whole world just got turned upside down. To the point of freaking out and confused. 

The hardest part of this is I don’t know where to begin to write; I suppose I should start from the beginning, then find the end somewhere. Would be a good start wouldn’t it. I like to make sure that my readers and clients know this is everyone’s worst nightmare; for themselves, but also for a parent or a child witnesses their love ones crumble or confused. This is what I want to share with you on my daily basis; I do have good days really good ones, however I have really bad days that I can’t seem to get out off. 

As I’m writing this I would like to say thank you for reading and listening to my story; also I’ve actually got a clear head, where I’m doing loads of posts for you think I’ve writing about three in one day; one was a hit and miss but it was alright, two with clear head. Which is achievement. 

My story begins with meeting a guy who I thought he really liked me; felt like we known each other for months, but it was only a week. When it came to the mid week we met up; he really liked me and I really liked him, I thought he said would you go out with me and come round. By Friday I was trying to contact him as I was having a complete nervous breakdown; until I found out that someone else messaged me back to which my whole world turn upside, I had wished he would talk to me first but the whole weekend he hadn’t messaged me at all. 

I couldn’t understand why someone would do that to someone who they really liked; then something more unusual happened to me, on which I can’t say private client confidentiality etc etc etc. To be honest my head is still coming around to the idea; but they didn’t know or what was happening at the time, probably now know why my head is over the place. All I can say nice one guys. Not like I’m complaining or anything it’s rather nice to be able to be recognised with the whole what I do; how I do things, and what not. 

I wish I could revel my clients but I promised myself and to them I wouldn’t. Yeah whilst everything was going on in my head; the guy that I liked, having multiples of anxiety attacks and along with private clients. I think I have lost quite a lot of sleep in one weekend; I don’t even know if I’m going to get much sleep tonight after I’ve finished here. Sunday 11th June 2017. 

Living with anxiety is hard everything is out of your control; sometimes when I’m completely out of control, I don’t know what I’m saying and apologies if I had offended them. It’s going to be a long night now; just had a paracetamol just to bring down how hot I’m feeling, but also to help calm my nerves as well I was literally getting the shakes. On which it might of trapped a nerve in my wrist or I’ve done something to it, so use to it now it’s like my second nature if you ask me. Good night I hope you all have a lovely sweet dreams as I’m going to try and get some sleep. If not I have no idea what I’m going to do. 

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