The fact that I had little sleep and been up all night. Then have someone come in saying that another phone call from another cold caller etc. Then saying that they are looked it up and etc.
The point of having no little sleep when I started this blog piece; due to not being able to sleep, so many things going on in my mind at the time. Then spent the whole day not being myself either; I couldn’t face doing a day of paperwork or blogging prep, it was that bad that everything got too much for me. I’m okay now just on the mends; but hey at least I’m getting all my blogs done now, the thoughts of giving up on it was hard enough.
The feeling of wanting to give up on my blogging; was when the feeling of not being able to think why my blogs aren’t good enough? Why am I putting all my time and effort into something like this? Why isn’t it going anywhere? It’s just probably that I was just going into a crap stage possibly or I wasn’t feeling well. I don’t know but I seem to notice that; I have stages in life that my life gets so overwhelming, the one thing that I’m like good at is the one thing that I actually want to give up on.
Maybe it’s a love hate relationship that I have with it; along side the love hate relationship that I have with my dyslexia, the fact that I have that shows that I’m not giving on the whole writing thing. No matter how crappy I’m feeling or feeling frustrated with myself; there’s always the next day of something inside me saying, come on pick up a pen, or pick up the iPad stick a YouTube video on your phone and write what you want to write that comes to mind.
I’m not 100% sure why I have days that like I want to give up on blogging but I don’t think I would ever give it up properly. The time and effort that I put into it; shows that giving up is the weakest thing you can ever find, for me personally I’m always in the determination of getting through the pain power one way or another. Then I’m okay I have the sparks of creative and I get loads of the blogs and writing done before anything else happens.