Tuesday Online Diary Entries: “Friends” – Story Based

You say you love me I say that your crazy because we’re nothing more than friends I don’t see you as my lover more like a brother; I known you since we were like 10, yeah I know right so don’t mess this up by talking that shit about us. It’s only going to push me away; that’s it I’ve had it here we go again you saying you love me the thing is you’re making me crazy, don’t go look at me with that look in your eye. You know that look that you’re not going get away without a fight.

You can’t be reasoned with I’m so done with being polite I’ve told you thousand of times; haven’t I made it obvious? Haven’t I made it clear? Do you want me spell it out too you? F-R-I-E-N-D-S have you got no shame of course not because you look insane turning up at my door at 2am in the morning the rain pouring with attempt of flowers; I begin to think haven’t we been here before?, oh please don’t mess this up by talking about that shit it’s only going to push me away and that will end everything.

Here we go again don’t give me that look where you’re not going to get away with it without me punching you; as I know you can’t reasoned with even I tried for a long time, I just go along with it because I’m so done with being polite and I’ve made it obvious? Haven’t I made it clear? F-R-I-E-N-D-S that’s how you spell the fucking word! Get that shit inside your head we are just friends.
Ahhh we are just FRIENDS!

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: “Stargazing” – Story Based

Sitting in the campsite that I’m staying picturing the life before I knew you; it was okay, alright and it was what it was. I’ll paint my life in the sky before I loved you. There were never pictures in the hallway, no fireworks, no grand allure but the reason it only happens was that you came through my door.
Oh now my life feels more than just amazing to which I’m your eyes it makes me feel like I’m stargazing in the world of truly forgotten. It’s like living in a movie to which I’m Fred Astaire Singing in the rain; to where I’m finding myself seeing fireworks the whole grand allure, this is because it’s every time that you walk through my door.
Life feels more than just amazing in your eyes as I’ve been stargazing up close and personal but yet there’s no fireworks or no grand allure because that only happens when you come through my door. As I’m coming back to reality to where I’m finding myself under a blanket outside and I soon realise that I’m just stargazing.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: “I want to scream, I want to shout!” Story Based

No matter what I got to say but I have the words to change a nation yet I’m biting my tongue because I’ve spent my life time stuck in silence yet I’m to afraid that I’ll say something wrong. If no one ever hears it how are we going to learn my song, my story or most importantly my voice. So come on come on let me speak out because this is hurting me as much as you.

I’ve got a heart as loud as the lions in the London Zoo but why do I have to let my voice still be tamed? Maybe we’re a little different but there’s no need to be ashamed because you’ve got the light to fight the shadows away so stop hiding it away, come on come on. I want to sing. I want to shout. I want to scream until the words dry out. I’m not afraid because they can read all about it. Read all about it on how she is a gold digger, she doesn’t love you, she just want to be a princess and live the highlight.

At night we’re waking up the neighbours while the press is at my house making sure that I’m standing my ground; making sure that we’re are remembered that we are in love, we matter too and if the truth is forbidden then we’re breaking all the rules and let the TV and the radio tell our story again and again. It’s about time we got some airplay telling our version of events. There’s no need to be afraid I will shout out that you’re my love of my life.

We are all wonderful people when did we get so fearful? Now that we have finally finding our voices. So take a chance stand next to me help me fight for you.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: “Better Than Today” – Story

No matter how bad your day had started out but I can see what you can do but I know that you can do it better than that if you turn it around because it’s the talk of the town and I’ll make you forget all of the nasty comments that’s she has made towards you. I know you hate that something that you have even tried doing because you always got told that you can’t do anything better than them; all you got to do is lose the control almost every night because at the end of the day, you don’t care what other people may think of you and so you got to see what they do when we do it better. Yes I’m talking to you who’s reading this blog post.

You’ve got to feel it. You got to see it. Know how much you mean it because at the end of the day what’s the point of living if you don’t take a chance? You got to make today better than yesterday as you’ve for to lose it. You got to cruise it like I would do if I was there not giving a flying monkeys what other people think of me. Knowing that you got a chance of believing, feeling it, seeing it and know you do that dance of being proud of yourself each day.

Oh believe me I know how life is hard during the week but I live it for the weekend when you can hurt underneath; I guess it can really deepens that you know that you did awesome work on being positive towards yourself, what’s the point of worrying about being cool? As there’s a million things to learn that they never teach you at school; I can tell you that now don’t believe what they tell you because all we want is tomorrow to be better than today.

The whole fabrications that complicate the word in the world because theres too much useless information that plays in your head. Yet very clever people don’t know how much we all struggle and need a chance; then the clever people can’t understand the most simple things like we can do but it won’t stop our clever business.

You know what to do by feeling it, seeing it knowing how much you mean it because what’s the point of living if you know take the chance? You just lose it, cruise it like knowing you’ve got the chance to do it.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Since you’ve been gone – Story

Here’s a thing we had started of as friends but it was cool as it was all pretend yet since you’ve been gone; I started to fall apart like I lost someone in my life that I was going to be with, you dedicated and took the time but it wasn’t long when you called me yours. Yet since you’ve been gone all I could hear is you and her when I’ve been picturing us together for years; told you how I felt about you along with the longest crush, yet all you hear is my insecurities because it’s not the first time that I can’t breathe without you.
But since you’ve been gone I still can’t breathe without you it’s not the first time; I can’t move on but thanks to you I’ve been able to take a few steps forwards and few steps back, yet since you’ve been gone I can’t get what I want and how can I put it? You put me on a high pedestal even when I fell in love with you and our stupid love so song. How come I never hear you say “I just want to be with you” I forgotten those words you use to say to me everyday. I guess you never really felt that way.
I know I had my chances and you had your chances but we blew it. Now we are fighting for our lives to be together out of sight out of mind. Shut your mouth I just can’t take it anymore because again and again we argue because we just want to be together. I just so tired of screaming inside myself because I can’t take it anymore. Since you’ve been gone I’ve just felt so alone I don’t know what to do anymore.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Just completed 6 days of 14 Days Challenge for Valentines

Exciting news guys you will definitely get 2018 new challenge coming very soon to a blog page near you. On the 1st February 2018 this week you will get a 14 Days Challenge Of Valentines with stories that I’ve created from songs that I relate to in my life. Go to speak close enough anyway. You know I write stories and I use my emotions and how I feel towards certain things.

So far today I’ve written and scheduled day 3 to 6 so I can get ahead of myself as normal; so that I can create the next batch over the next couple of days with their correct pictures to them, in which that once they are sorted I can get them up and running before day 6. Just to keep them going as a flow until the 14th February 2018 when UK celebrate Valentines Day. VOMIT! Haha

Not a fan of Valentines Day to be honest still not going into it but heyho I just don’t understand why or what’s the big deal about it to be honest. I don’t know but I’m doing the challenge for the love of my readers nothing more nothing less because you guys are the love of my life and I’m going to share it with you guys.

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Jars Of Hearts

Whatever you think if this is true or not it’s your opinion. I share my emotions and etc through my stories and I know the truth.

I know I can’t take one more step towards you because all of this waiting is regret but I know that Caspian, TP and Terry are my strong, will power and to see me through. I just need to tell you that I don’t want to be your ghost anymore; you can’t have the love that I love most, I’ve learned to live half alive and now you want me to break one more time.

Who do you think you are? Running around leaving scars and collecting your jars of hearts. Tearing love apart because you think you have it all; all I can wish for is you to catch a cold from the ice that’s inside your soul or to drop dead from your cold blooded heart. So don’t come back for me as I’m already gone way before you arrived; only my close friends just got it back for me, yet I hear you asking around and if I am anywhere to be found. I have grown far to strong and well protected to ever fall back into your clutches. Who do you think you are? Keep on asking for me. When you been told not to reach me or contact me.

It’s took me so long just to feel alright; remember how Caspian had put back the lights in my eyes, the fact that the first time we kissed and you didn’t like that one bit. You broke all of your promises and now you’re back to try and get me back for stealing your one true dream. All I can say is you will never get him back because we all know what we can do to ruin your reputation.