Day 5 Of 30 Days Challenge for Autumn: Love someone more when you see them on a business trip

Are they true stories or are they not? You decide if they are or not. I know what’s right and I respect your opinion.

The fact that I got mixed up on what days I’m on with my 30 Day Challenge and then soon realised I was right the first time. You’re just like erm someone send help I think Lizzy’s lost the plot. Yep that’s basically me all over yet again; I’m doing a Frank moment of madness, without the keys or was I? I’ll let you decide on that one.

Especially when I get too soppy about Caspain when he goes on business trips; I don’t get to see him much when he does, damn schedules that he has haha. Then I cheekily stalk him in a good way seeing pictures; there’s always a good side to him that I like about him, and then there’s pictures you just interpret of what the hell are the security on at the time. That’s just me reading into the picture of a story mind; “it’s alright I’m on a high because I’m working for a well known family business man, also a friend with the royals” or “I wish I could win girls hearts over like he does”. The two most favourite ones that I miss about him but when I do see his pictures and video clips of him when he’s away; it has to be his cheeky grin with his ginger beard, also his voice when he talks it’s like when he’s talking I always think that he’s secretly sending me a message that everything is going to be alright. Can’t wait to see him when he’s work scheduled calms down a bit and that he promised me two months off his time to be all about me. Can’t wait to trade them in hehe. Not even sure how that’s going to work. As I don’t like being spoilt or having the attention on me but heyho.

Yes I know suck it up Lizzy. Thanks guys. Love you too. I do have to say this was the easy one to write today. Hehe. Might as well plan tomorrow’s one. If I can that is but I never know what to write until it’s late at night. Just when I’m about to go to sleep. Nice one brain.

Beauty Products I use daily

I had this idea for the last few days now as nearly everything that I use everyday is running out; no money until next week to replace them but I can tell you which brands I use daily, when I have them on a average day. I’m not going to do it in order to what I put on my first; it’s just too technical, along with I use different brands at different times.


I use Garnier Skinactive Micellar Cleansing Water to take off any make up off that I may of missed when I use B. Micellar Cleansing Water.


I use B. Micellar Cleansing Water first before anything else. Just to make sure that my make up is off or there’s anymore left that I’ve missed. I also use B. Make Up brushes to apply the correct make up that I use.


I use Revlon make up of contouring and corrector. Two of the most expensive things that I buy but I don’t care to be honest I like the brand and it works for my skin.


I use out of the Collection range Sheer Loose Powder Ivory, unless they are out of stock I use something that’s closer to it. Compressed Powder Ivory unless they are out of stock then I go for something closer to it. I also use Medium Cool or Fair Concler and I also use black liquid eyeliner.


I use Barry M Ivory foundation and Primer. If they don’t have my foundation I try and get something near to it.


I use Maybelline New York Massacre the extreme look (red massacre one) can’t remember the actual name of it. Maybelline nude colours eye shadows and sometimes their contour colours but not that often.


I use Simple Cleansing lotion, make up wipes and make up remover if I ran out of the wipes or I haven’t got anymore Cleansing Water left.


That’s basically the only things that I use for my daily make up. I sometimes buy double of things so that it will keep me going for about four months or so to keep me going for a bit while longer

Haters/Social Media/Press/Exs: Look what you made me do

Dairy Entries Online……are they true are they not you decide.

Dear Haters/Social Media/Press/Exs

I really don’t like your little games because it ruins my life; hackers, all the lies and self control over people even when your not around me anymore. Don’t act like your on a tilted stage because you can’t get what you want; the role that you made me play, making me out as the fool and a bad person. This is why I don’t like you and I don’t like your perfect crime. The way you laugh as you lied about everything especially when you say who you really are but actually it’s not; it isn’t cool and I do not like you one single bit.

Yet now I’m taking control; I’m breaking these chains because I’m getting smarter and starting to get harder in the nick of time, the fact that I rose up from the dead hiding from my fear. I have a list of names and guess what all of you are in red, in capitals and underlined. I don’t check it just once but I check it twice to make sure.

Look what you made me do. I’ve deleted all of my social media apps because I’m living in fear of being hunted or talking to hackers. Look what you just made me do. Thank you for making me realise how much your complete arse holes who have no lives; just want to ruin other people’s lives guess what you just ruined mine but I’m not going to let it happen no more. So look what you just made me do I’m going to fight back and when my love of my life back.

Look what you made me do as now I’m fighting back as I don’t like your kingdom keys anymore; they once belonged to me but now I threw my key of all keys away, only one person has my special key and no one else can have it. The world moves on, another day, another drama; but for me I hope karma comes back round and bite your arse one day.

I don’t trust nobody unless they are really close to me; guess what I know what I’ll be is an actress staring in your bad dreams, because you know why. This is what you ruined, you won’t be getting me back either way because I’m going to take control of my life. I’m with someone else and I know that they are right for me.

So here’s my message for all you haters, hackers, press and Ex’s:

“I’m sorry. The old me can’t come to the phone right now.”

“Why?”

“Oh. Didn’t you know. The old me is dead. You killed her.”

………

Two worst things to have mixed together

Ever felt so drained and had to change your top at least twice because you sweat straight through your first top at the being at the day. Yep that’s me all over. Based on today’s outcome (Thursday 24th August 2017)

Today of all days I had the worst combo ever. The fact that I was trying to not think about going to the hospital appointment today as I hate hospitals and doctors; no matter how much I go to the doctors in the first place still doesn’t help with my anxiety, I did have one of my parents there with me but I know that they were just trying to help and everything but talking for me when I’m on edge really doesn’t help me.

Never felt dreadful from just waiting for the appointment to hurry up and finish; when it hadn’t even begun or for me to be in the room, the reason I had to go was for my hearing test. Yet today it was good but then nothing is moving i.e. My drums due to fluids behind my ears. So I’ve got to be referred to another part of the hospital in the next few weeks or so to find out what else is wrong. So it’s going to be along process and not allowed to do anything to my ears like cleaning them out and etc.

During the appointment I had to look at the person who was talking to me head on; due to the fact that I can’t sit side ways like a normal patient would have to do, I physically have to sit on dead on straight to be able to look at them and lip read. I can tell you know that is exhausting beyond believe; the amount of concentration that went on I could feel my eyes, and my body just ready to fall asleep right there and then.

As soon as I’ve got home I just practically slept the whole time along with waking myself up with the whole talking in my sleep. Which isn’t good. Now I’m all hot and sweaty to which I don’t even understand why I’m like it but then again it could of been the dream that I had. It was an odd one. I think my mind is just digesting the whole what’s been going on in the past couple of weeks. Not the first Dream I had within the 24 hours.

The Unknown Fear: Confidence that rises and then it falls dramatically.

“I wrote ‘Fight Song’ as this declaration to believe in myself, and that is similar to what you are taught to believe in Girl Scouts. Building confidence. Building character. And above all else, being there for each other as a community. Rachel Platten”

Throughout my life confidence issues have always been the big issue for me as long as I can remember; yeah I’m confident with my friends, through believing in social media and etc but you always get those who do not understand how long you got yourself there by believing in yourself. You always find that as you start to build your confidence up when you have lost it for sometime; you start to feel it rising within you; thinking that your are going to get far in life because you have the belief in you that you never had, but yet you have that one person who knows which pin to pull it out from and your like so mad, upset and that you just want to give up on yourself. Like your not worth it anymore.

Yep that’s basically my life all the way through; I always believe in the positives when they mean something to me personally, I prefer to share them to people on social media because everyone needs positivity everyday and they need that encouragement to start the day read it along with going back to the post read it again if they feel a bit low.

Enough positivity can destroy the negativity but if you let negativity destroy positivity then what can you do. Listen to the negativity which will destroy your positivity of your confidence that you have made.

What causes low self-esteem?

The beliefs you have about yourself often appear to be statements of fact, although actually they’re really only opinions. They are based on the experiences you’ve had in life, and the messages that these experiences have given you about the kind of person you are. If your experiences have been negative, your beliefs about yourself are likely to be negative too.

Crucial experiences that help to form our beliefs about ourselves often (although not always) occur early in life. What you saw, heard and experienced in childhood – in your family, in the wider community and at school – will have influenced the way you see yourself. Examples of early experiences that could lead to your thinking badly of yourself include:

• systematic punishment, neglect or abuse

• failing to meet parental standards

• failing to meet peer-group standards

• being on the receiving end of other people’s stress or distress.

• belonging to a family or social group that other people are prejudiced towards

• an absence of praise, warmth, affection or interest

• being the odd one out, at home or at school.

Sometimes negative beliefs about yourself are caused by experiences later in life, such as workplace bullying or intimidation, abusive relationships, persistent stress or hardship, or traumatic events.

http://www.overcoming.co.uk/single.htm?ipg=8611

I always find that some songs that I like listening to help me a lot out by fighting back; there’s so many to chose from I wouldn’t be able to name a few to share with you, if you follow me on Instagram @lizzysweeklyblogsgoodmorning you’ll get random, fun, quotes and random songs attached to the picture of the day.

I always find things that are being positive so that it helps me out throughout the day; but along with sharing the positivity for others to feel proud, and positive towards themselves and make sure that they love themselves.

A Moment Like This Week – 4th August to 11th August 2017

Moment like theses you just realise where your week has gone; when you feel like you haven't done a lot this week but actually, you have done quite a lot.

This week has gone out of the window with my weekly blogs as I've been so busy working with and on Sentebaleblogs and Sentebale Team out in West Africa through the social media and etc. Also the main man himself Prince Harry. This is why Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays will be or have been gone out of the window this week; I just want to say thank you for your patience with everything going out the window over here, will find away to work around the whole thing once I know what I'm doing got my routine with them.

The fact that I'm currently watching athletics but haven't watched it all this week. To be honest I haven't had the tv on much at all this week; it's been either waking up late, YouTube videos, brief films either on Now Tv or a DVD whilst working my arse of with the Sentebaleblogs and everything. However I'm quite impressed that African runners are astonishing; I can't even run to save my life but heyho, I take my hat off to all of the runners anyways.

Also I haven't done things I needed to do either; which is shocking but then again seeing some of my friends helped me in the long run, also doing things to take my mind of other stuff which is good. Yet I suppose keeping myself busy is quite normal for me in a long run; yeah might have had a few relapses with my mental health but hey I pulled through it like I always do, knowing that I've got good friends and etc.

My aim is for tomorrow is to tidy up the lounge; put the washing on, looking like it was neat and tidy, make attempt of sorting the rest of my room out and look to see if I can do any extra jobs along the way. That's what two of them I should of done this week but because of not sleeping properly and feeling dreadful by the morning been slacking in what I've been doing and most of my day has gone. The worst bit is that I hate when it comes to food because your like oh my god is really time for food? Don't even feel hungry? Yet at the best of times I have to force myself to have something. Don't think I will tonight not feel to brilliantly and not particularly hungry either.

Hope your day has been good? Not raining one bit I hope. Catch you guys laters. Chow xxx

In the light of remembering 100 years and Dunkirk

In memory of 100 years ago was the First World War between 1914-1918. In the running of the 100 years; Christopher Nolan had created a film about Dunkirk; the tragic, the fear, the frightened has come to the screens as actors recreate the days of Dunkirk. What it must of felt like when the Second World War happened from 1939-1945. In the days of the 1940s on the beaches of Dunkirk.

The miracle evacuation of Dunkirk in the Second World War has brought to real life again; through actors who played the roles of the soldiers who had died that day, trying to come home but left vulnerable on open lands of the beaches and the sea. Director Christopher Nolan has turned to the evacuation of Dunkirk for his latest acclaimed film; the fact that he brought back the the stunning great escape that helped Britain avoid defeat in the Second World War, showing that we had risked everything in the days of saving the British army. 

100 years ago was the First World War saw lots of unnerved, scared, frightened men who didn’t want to be out in the war zone; in May 26 and June 4, 1940 and that year saw some 338,000 troops rescued from the beaches of Dunkirk. Following Nolan’s success of blockbusters such as The Dark Knight and Inception; Nolan’s latest film that tells the story of Dunkirk, “the event that shaped our world”, as the poster says.

Nolan and his crew have gone to great depth of history, research and pains to faithfully to recreate Operation Dynamo to able to see what it may of looked like and feel like the time that had taken place.

Dunkirk – The Event That Shaped Our World/ Shaped Our Country

Lizzysweeklyblogs Review of Dunkirk 

I got invited to go to see the film Dunkirk by my best friend that I use to work with called Meg Anne. Who wanted to see it because it hard Harry Styles from One Direction in it; not sure at the time she knew the true history of the event, until I had to explain it all to her at the end of the film when she got confused on some areas. Which is understandable to be honest when I’m a bit older than her and did study it at school, went on the trips to the areas where they were fight in both wars (not at Dunkirk) and also knowing a bit more due to own self research along with family who are into different types of historical facts themselves.

The film was very in tense throughout the film; not much dialogue throughout the film but the fact that I was literally hugging my cardigan close to my face, meant I felt like I was there on the beaches with the soldiers who were frightened and scared at the time it was happening. 

Every time the camera panned to Tom Hardy and Kenneth Branagh when something serious was about to happen. I was like NO! And OMG! They are going to die but yet they survived every time it happened for another second, another minute, another half an hour, another hour and another day. You could tell something wasn’t going to be right; when the cameras went onto Kenneth Branagh, it was the way he looked up into the sky and he soon realised what was coming towards them all.  
I believe that all the actors who did the film have to be well and truly magnificent because to be able to experience something like that as acting if your adrenaline kicks in; the fear of the unknown what’s coming next, the fear of I’m going to be next one to be killed. 

I would rate this film as 5/5 because it’s absolutely brilliant. 

Guest Review: Megan Anne’s Dunkirk Review 

Apologies for strong bad language from my friend; she has no concept of her language, especially when it comes to Harry Styles. I’ll try my best to reduce the amount of swearing by bleeping them out but keeping them in as it’s her words not mine. However she wants me to had more to it just to make her look smarter but I’ll see what I can do.

I personally didn’t know what to to expect to begin with; but I was happy with the film based on the true facts of history, of our past that had changed our future that we live in today. The film was so tense that I was on the edge of my seat; making me feel like I was there on the beaches of Dunkirk, like I wanted to help save each solider that were in danger whilst putting myself at risk. The fact that I was confused at some parts of the film; yet having Lizzy’s knowledge and understanding of what it would be like out there, also having the understanding that one of he actors were actually the ones of the good guys as she explained to me which airplanes are which and which side they belong to. The fact that I know I can pick Lizzy’s brains for things like these topics; I know I can’t go wrong either way, and I like to learn new things that I didn’t know before. 

All the actors were amazing bringing everything to life; bring me into their world of what’s happening throughout the film, as there’s not a lot of dialogue throughout the film but the actors showed that their feelings of being anxious, panicky, petrified, running scared and terror stricken. Oh and the most important thing was that Harry Style was unbelievable; he was playing a character that I really didn’t expect play, but as he brought out the heart racing that my heart was going to come out of my chest. As there were lots of tense scenes that he was in; as I thought my life was going to be over if he died in battle of survival, “because of Harry F********* Styles” sorry guys I can’t help it he’s absolutely beautiful! 

Fantastically directed film by Christopher Nolan. I would rate it overall 5 stars. 

I have days when I want to give up blogging

The fact that I had little sleep and been up all night. Then have someone come in saying that another phone call from another cold caller etc. Then saying that they are looked it up and etc. 

The point of having no little sleep when I started this blog piece; due to not being able to sleep, so many things going on in my mind at the time. Then spent the whole day not being myself either; I couldn’t face doing a day of paperwork or blogging prep, it was that bad that everything got too much for me. I’m okay now just on the mends; but hey at least I’m getting all my blogs done now, the thoughts of giving up on it was hard enough.

The feeling of wanting to give up on my blogging; was when the feeling of not being able to think why my blogs aren’t good enough? Why am I putting all my time and effort into something like this? Why isn’t it going anywhere? It’s just probably that I was just going into a crap stage possibly or I wasn’t feeling well. I don’t know but I seem to notice that; I have stages in life that my life gets so overwhelming, the one thing that I’m like good at is the one thing that I actually want to give up on. 

Maybe it’s a love hate relationship that I have with it; along side the love hate relationship that I have with my dyslexia, the fact that I have that shows that I’m not giving on the whole writing thing. No matter how crappy I’m feeling or feeling frustrated with myself; there’s always the next day of something inside me saying, come on pick up a pen, or pick up the iPad stick a YouTube video on your phone and write what you want to write that comes to mind. 

I’m not 100% sure why I have days that like I want to give up on blogging but I don’t think I would ever give it up properly. The time and effort that I put into it; shows that giving up is the weakest thing you can ever find, for me personally I’m always in the determination of getting through the pain power one way or another. Then I’m okay I have the sparks of creative and I get loads of the blogs and writing done before anything else happens.

Learn from it!

Remember when you were going to do something; to which you had something that you were going to do, yet you spend two days that someone got you to make the priority over, now your in the dog house because your so behind.

When you have schedule planned out of what you need to do that week; you soon realise without that things go out of the window, when you need to do other things on which leads to two days of not being able to do anything. That’s when your work has piled up that you should of done in the two days that you were doing other things; never again I’m going to do that again I don’t think, unless I have pre-planned the whole thing what I’m writing and have the scheduled for that week. 

I for one normally quite good at doing it a week early than I should of done; I guess I learn from it now, knowing that I don’t have enough man power to help me do everything. I practically spent all afternoon on Tuesday 19th July 2017 catching up on paperwork which I’m nearly done I think not hundred percent; there are somethings that need to be written up onto the proper recording sheets, working on Teenagers Life Crisis at 3pm. To which when I posted it on my other paid website I didn’t have enough words; so I had help in writing more to boost it up, along side reposting it again on my own website with the update and take the old one down. But I have kept both together so I have the evidence of what I have written before and what the update version is now. 

That was all on Tuesday. On Wednesday 20th July 2017 whilst having appointment with someone for personal reasons; I managed to keep up to date with blog posting, I had time to focus with more on what needed to be done such like getting another post up for that day or two…when you know that you have the one that you have scheduled for that day as you already pre planned it all the following week. Whilst planning the rest of the week event blogs and have them scheduled. On top of that blogging paper work; it does bother me that much to be honest whilst my iPad is on charge, I can do that as I have everything in front of me and enough to get on with whilst that’s charging. 

I pretty much do everything on my iPad really; except my notes if I have ideas or transferring things over to my notebooks, then I would have the back up of what I need to do and what I have done on that day. When it comes to the day that I have nothing to write about I can just have a field day of paperwork; I am looking for that day to happen but currently it’s not going to happen anytime soon, that reminds me I need to do a colour chart for Vocal Media so I know what colours are for which blog posts when I’m writing up the data collection. See I have so many ideas and everything but there’s only one of me to do it all at the moment. 

As soon as I have everything sorted; I know what I’m doing, things are starting to run smoothly and getting paid for the blogs etc. I can start thinking about taking people on maybe and give them certain people the jobs that need to be doing. At the moment; I am know where near of doing that at the moment, because my work ethic at the moment keeps on swapping and changing at the moment. I haven’t even found the correct way of doing it now; on the plus side I like the one that I’m currently working on at the moment, but….there’s always a but with this one. How long is it going to last if you ask me….

The worst bit about shaving!

The worst part of grooming is shaving! Oh my gosh you will understand why I don’t like my legs from the hips down. 

Over the years since I have entered my 20’s I have caught myself so many times shaving that were so deep to the point they ended up scarring. Don’t think I’m doing it on purpose I’m really not honestly; scouts honour that this is not what you think, I wouldn’t do that. 

When I am shaving I tend to get little ones that I can manage but when it comes you catch yourself the wrong way. Oh my gosh! So painful the first time I think I did it was when I was 21/22 where I caught myself on my left leg; where your foot and your leg joins together, that was so deep that it turned into a scar. Every summer when the English weather comes as a beautiful I notice the scar; which makes me think how the hell did I do that, then I remember how I did it. 

The second one was when I was 25 and I was going on a second date with someone; thats when I caught the inside of my right like I think it was just above the small ankle bone on the inside of the leg, I was so annoyed that I had done it just before a date as well. So embarrassing that was. 

My most recent one at the age of 26 was on my right leg above my ankle; only recently, well the other day that it was on a tendon where I cut it. If it went any deeper than it was I’m not sure what I would of done to be honest; I don’t think I could freak my sister out any more that weekend, as I had to calm her down because she was thrown in the deep end of being a responsible adult along with annoyed with people all week. Don’t blame her to be honest. So I’ve got to wait for that to heal; be great one to tell a boyfriend to be if I ever had one how I got my scars all over my legs, even the tiny ones can scare on your legs as well. 

Oh my gosh do you know what’s even more embarrassing that having scars on your legs from shaving? Is a whole chunk of hair that you missed shaving and you barely notice it until your out someone and something catches your eye. Your like oh my gosh; how the hell did I manage to miss that, then you start being paranoid about how many people walking behind you and notice the clump of hair on the back of your leg? Has anyone done that before? 

I’m quite paranoid about my legs on show in the first place because I’m not use to them being out; along with when my legs rub together and they mark my skin, which makes me feel a whole lot worse about it being on show in the first place. Does anyone have the same issue as me or do they not? I want to know who’s on the same boat as me because everyone has those insecurities about something about their bodies; one way or another but I have loads that I don’t like about my body, I think I’ll talk about that on a different day as this was about what the worst thing that could happen to you when shaving. 

Has anyone else got any thing about their worst time when shaving? Let me know down below I am very intrigued on their worst time shaving is? I know that I’m not alone.