Star Light Categories – Throwbackthursday – Relationships Advice

Relationship advice…Relationship advice….I’m pretty much not good at theses things to be honest. It’s all down to common sense to perfectly honest with you; well from the outside of someone’s else’s relationship going down the pain but sometimes it is hard to see ones own problems, and get defensive about other people sticking their noises in. 

We are all human at the end of the day. Well depends on what the relationship type is; from abuse, trafficking and etc that’s not right or human way to act in my opinion.  Each to their own ways of dealing with arguments, love, happiness and etc at the end of the day you may of met you’re true love. Arguments are pretty normal if you ask me in any situation of a relationship; you both work together on the problems, get through them and be there for each other. 

Sometimes relationships don’t work out and that’s fine. Move on and learn from it. Yes it hurts. Yes it takes time to heal. Yes you think it’s you and that there’s generally something wrong with you. I have those quite a lot when I have an argument with someone that I love or something along those lines. 

I pretty much believe that there is something is wrong with me at the best of the times no matter what people say to me. It takes me awhile to get my head around the fact that it isn’t me and I should literally let go off it all and the pain.  

It does help if you have a good friendship with someone who can just be there for like no one else would. Know your pain and suffering. Also to help you get yourself back up again. Just remember you are you and there’s literally nothing wrong with you. 

 

Everyday Online Diary Entries – (26.7.18) Thursday – The Thursday headaches when it’s been 32 degrees

In the end last night (25.7.18) I ended up doing a all nighter where I was up until 5 this morning couldn’t sleep for ages. Anxiety was ridiculous along to the point of giving up sleeping whatever I did I tried to relax not worked one single bit. I slept for at least an hour or so before I left to go out for a bit. 

I went to have a shower as you do when you have this ridiculous heatwave. Yet it still didn’t work one single bit I was literally sweating like buckets; as I was meeting up with an old school peer that I hadn’t seen in a very long time, whilst being close by in case my best friend needed me because she’s going through some tough time. 

The old school peer was like you definitely sweating like buckets after giving me a hug. I was literally drenched through it was like me saying I need guttering just walking from my house to where I was meeting them; I was like what is the point of me having a shower if that’s going to happen, it was gross to the point of me giving up having make up on. 

I don’t even know why I even bothered meeting up to be honest because he said would text me later or at some point but typical blokes who say that actually don’t do what they suppose to do. Just walk back into your life and be all relaxing and etc then it’s like they walk straight back out again. I’m not really too bothered to be honest I’m jus happy being on my own in my own company at the best of times. At least I wasn’t too far for my closest friend who needed me. 

I’ve been keeping myself busy along with catching up with some sleep as I didn’t sleep to well the night before. Done my usual water the garden had water going up in my face because the nosel came off the end and then the tap decides to make the water go around the hose and not through the hose. Yet I manage to water the garden and feed the fishes along with I’m not picking up or sorting out the pond plants that have fallen over. For once I actually listened to my parents but to be fair the garden has been giving me the run around the past couple of days. 

Star Light Categories – Throwbackthursday – Have you got a nickname? What’s the story behind it.

Today I’ve thought as I looked what to write about on a Throwbackthursday on Pinterest. Very handy for these types of things especially Star Light Categories well 5 out of the 7 days; not 4 out of the 7 days lizzy silly brain of mine it’s the heat it’s getting to me now haha. Just wait when you read my Thursday Entry  for tomorrow (27.7.18) blog post. Just gross even just thinking about it haha. 

I’ve had two nicknames that stuck for years but one of them I’m not sure where the story behind that one was. The two that I had were “Littlebit” and “Elizbetroo” so the story behind “Littlebit” I think it was down to because I was little or they just decided to use some of my letters in my name. Not sure the reason for it but everyone in the family called me it so it was stuck ever since. 

“Elizabetroo” had to be funny and cute at the same time because one of my older brothers couldn’t pronounce my name properly and he thought people were calling me it. So one day he went into school one of his teachers asked him what my name was and he told them what it was. They really weren’t sure if he got it right or not so they came out at the end of the day to double check with my parents; my parents corrected them what my actual name was, I think personally my brother of all people got fixated on Whinnie the Pooh but then again my brother is funny anyways. That has always been stuck too. 

It’s only rarely that people call me those names now but I still respond to them when they do like it’s second nature to me to be honest. My sister on the other hand has saved me on her phone as “Lizbutt” I’m not 100% sure why but heyho maybe it’s because I had already had two awesome names to begin with and they were taken haha. As she’s younger than the rest of us. 

Star Light Categories – Throwbackthursday – What bothers me?

What bothers me on this late hour of Thursday (19.7.18) is that no matter what I do whether it’s my blogging on my daily lifestyle I generally feel like I’m not working hard enough. I know it’s all in my head but it bothers me the point of wanting to give up on everything. I was talking to my friend earlier about this they said I shouldn’t because I’m strong enough person to carry on doing what I love doing; it’s also end of term, along with you just started your new medication as well so your going to be pretty much rubbish for awhile. 

To be honest she’s right just tying with last nights Wednesday Evening Post at 8 last night (18.7.18) the one with is crying a sign of weakness or that you been strong for so long that post. If you haven’t read it go on go and read it; it will all make sense to you and this one, or you make sense of this one without reading the other one. Either which read it anyways because it’s awesome.

I really do sometimes feel really unappreciated monjority of the time in what I do no matter what; I’m generally saying this as a whole where I do so much for a lot of people, no matter where I go and what I do I get the impression that I’m not good enough. 

One thing that got to me yesterday doing my job (18.7.18) that I got given a present from a child and their parents because they really appreciated of me looking after their child for so long whilst the original person that they normally was off sick. Plus their child keeps on requesting after me and loves the fact that they see them laughing and being happy seeing me in the mornings. 

Yeah that’s a good thing for me because I like to have a impact on a child’s life and make them happy. It distracts me a lot even if I have to play nursery rhymes on which currently sends me to sleep which isn’t good. So I’m trying to fight it off every time but at least I don’t have to sing them because I would be making them up as I go along to which I normally do in the first place. Good old internet when you need it at the best of times. 

This probably sounds like I’m a needy person but I’m not it’s down to determination and want to succeed well at the end of the day. Yet I never get a chance to succeed in life where I want to do things that I want to do because there’s always something holding me back or things happen that get me into trouble. The fact that I don’t care but other people do care at the end of the day and I don’t think about it but it bothers me when people say you can’t do this, you can’t do that and so on. 

Then what am I suppose to do go and jump off a cliff or something if someone told me to do that? Sorry… I won’t even do that because I’m scared of heights anyway so that’s bad luck for anyone else who tells me to go and do it. Sorry this kind of turned into a rant. 

Star Light Categories – (28.6.18)- #throwbackthursday – Who believes in 3’s?

Who believes in 3’s? I don’t know if I do or not but I’ve just had my two day; well this evening (28.6.18) down to something knocking over a pint of peach squash all over my floor, then just got in the bathroom and got into the bath as you do. What did I do? Yep forgot my pjs. Ready for the third one now don’t know what that would be but I just hope that I’m in bed before then before anything else. However bless technology when your in dyer need when your stuck in the bathroom; you get to message your sister to get your dressing gown along with the wet floor, I could of left that bit out and make her stand in it. I’m not that mean to her unless I forget and she moan at me for not telling her but that would be fair point to her. 

It literally was like space of me coming up stairs after taking my medication to my room; having the accident, going back downstairs realising that I left my iPad and leads on the kitchen window top and coming back up putting my leads in my room. Then running my bath after the accident and everything that I literally forgot to do or pick up that’s when I realised I forgot my pjs. 

Yesterday however was even weirder than that. (27.6.18) normally I don’t get nightmares when I’m on medication it’s normally the other way around I get them. It was weird I had a panic attack in my sleep on a friend doing face time or something;  once that was over I had another dream similar with another friend, this time it was with snakes and alligators. I’m literally thinking what is going on why I am having panic attacks in my sleep. 

I did wake up however thinking that’s weird was I screaming or something in myself I have done that literally 7 months ago Christmas Day going into Boxing Day around then literally waking my mum up screaming or yelling in my sleep. That’s just without my medication. I seriously don’t dream that much to be honest with you but oh boy when you know when I’m dreaming I’m dreaming whether it’s good or bad. Things happen don’t they for a reason. 

Star Light Categories: (14.6.18) #throwbackthursday: Why are my eyes feel so puffy?

So last night (13.6.18) tried to sleep as you do when one is tired but you can’t because you might wake up at stupid o’clock the time you want to sleep so you stay up a bit longer. As the hour passes you start to fall asleep through your favourite YouTube videos what do you do? Stop what you’re doing and try to get some sleep but oh no something doesn’t want you to go to sleep.

I knew this time my mind wasn’t the one that was causing the problem this time; nor the heat or the cold with the window being open and closed, what else could possibly go wrong now? Correct I gave you a clear clue in the title for tonight’s blog. Why is my eyes so puffy?

Come to realisation that it could well and truly been hayfever annoying thing because now I can actually breathe through my nose other sounded stuffy and bunged up. Today (14.6.18) is been nice and cool not to hot and not too cold. Just about right with the clouds forming.

Right now my eyes still hurts but not as bad as it has been and I’ve also found out why I’ve been blacking out recently. It’s because I leave the house on a empty tummy a few times and there’s nothing for my medication to feed off from. All sorts themselves out in the end one way or another in the end. Lesson learnt not to go out on a empty tummy grab a piece of bread whilst leaving the house.

#throwbackthursday: Haunted Mansion board game

Today (12.4.18) I was keeping one of my grandparents entertained whilst one of my parents were doing bits and pieces; bless them that they have dementia but the classic grandparent and granddaughter relationship, where we have our sass and etc. 

However the board game called “Haunted Mansion” quite an old game to play I use to play it a lot when I was growing up when I went round my grandparents house. Sadly one of my grandparents don’t remember it but it was one of my all time favourite games but I had to pack it away because they were going on about it that they didn’t know where it came from and what not. 

The game was so fun but I can’t remember how you play it but if I remember it rightly if you land on a space that was a purple card with a witch on it. You read it and if something like a something unexpected to happen it triggers the something to knock your player off the board. I can’t remember rightly how to play it  but it something like that.  

It’s better know as Which Witch? It’s a children’s board game that was published in 1970 by the Milton Bradley Company it was also invented by Joseph M. Burck of Marvin Glass and Associated. The board represents a house the lay out on the board has four large rooms; the Broom Room, the Witchin’ Kitchen, the Spell Cell and the Bat’s Ballroom. 

You have to assemble the game before playing into a three dimensional model house with vertical walls and a large plastic chimney in the center. There are four tokens coloured red, yellow, blue and green. Each token is shaped like a child either a boy or a girl with four corresponding mouse tokens of identical colour. 

If anyone remembers this game give it a like or a comment below because it would be nice to know who remembers this game. It would be awesome to know. 

#throwbackthursday: The wish list that never made it

Finally caught up what I needed out of my makeup box and now hair and makeup doubles of things box currently not an ideal box/basket thing by it will do for now. You’re probably thinking why does she need a new hair brush don’t she have another one? I have got another hair brush but I like two hair brushes one to keep in my bag and one in my normal daily life but I tend to lose one in my room but I broke one a few weeks ago let’s not get into it on how I broke it. I do double of things up and planning on getting some from the store and some from online so it’s easier for me to have the doubles come at different times.
So here is my wish list if I had money and all that jazz.

Superdrug Haul Wish List April 2018
Red Passion Live hair dye x2
Primer Barry M x2
Finished ivory foundation Barry M x2
Lasting perfection purple colour correction concealer Collection x2
Lasting perfection colour concealer Fair 2 Collection x2
Extreme bold 24 felt tip callgraphy liner Collection x2
The nudes maybelline New York eyeshadow x2
Revolution make up london ultra cream contour palette x2
Revolution make up london ultra base corrector x2
Collection pressed powder x2
Collection sheer loose powder x2
Revolution make up london contour kit 02 x2
New hair brush

#throwbackthursday: “You never really ready to save me” – Story Based

All I do is think of you and what all you’ve done can you tell me do you see or have I gone? While the whitest eyes are wasting tears. Have you just left me here? I need too much but the timing is wrong but in another time in another place would I even be awake?
You told me to let go when I had my eyes closed but why would wake me if you’re not going to save me from me? You made me wan you even though I didn’t want to tell me why would you wake me if you’re not going to save me? I didn’t know what you’d become the thought never occurred to me that I would see you run; yet you should off left me to sleep and now you really shouldn’t of waked me up, and now it’s chemical that you were never mine.
When I needed you I couldn’t find another time or another place but would I even be awake? So just talk to me. What is going on all the things that I’ve heard were never meant to be so please talk to me don’t go. You told me to let go when I had my eyes closed why would you even wake me if you’re not going to save me? You made me want you even though I didn’t want to so why did you wake me if you’re not going to save me?
You were never ready to save me!

#throwbackthursday: What have you done today to make you feel proud?

As you may of guessed my head hasn’t really been with it this week as much like last week but I’m slightly getting there I think. She says with few red marks on the outside of her elbow arm on the radiator that was on; didn’t really think much off it to be honest because I was happily colouring in my next picture that I had made, along with watching something on the Really app yeah I could feeling it burning but didn’t really think much off it. That’s what you get for not wearing long sleeves.
However with the whole what have you done today to make you feel proud? Well I manage to do a days work with two shifts morning and afternoon with a same driver and the a supposed run at lunch time but cancelled whilst on it haha but hey get paid for it. Even though I didn’t really fancy working at all today to be honest but someone has to earn money don’t they.
In the mist of people making it out that it’s my fault for things as per normal but I managed to create a new picture and corrected it somehow but not sure if I like it or not heyho. Still in the works but I’ve also made a healthy dinner this evening for myself; I know people me craving health food when I’m also craving junk food at the same time, I definitely need my head scanned to see if I’m feeling alright haha.
What have you done today to make yourself feel proud? I would love to know to be honest but I know you guys won’t comment haha. Unless you do then I’m proud of you that you made yourself proud that you achieved something.