Going Unnoticed

Going inside with 13 reasons why a Netflix tv program.

This would of been Friday Time Recap Time! Blog last week Friday 8th September 2017 but never got round to finishing it so I decided to move it along a bit. Since completing on 13 Reasons Why on a tv program on Netflix; it’s has hit home a lot, especially with me personally where a girl called Hannah Baker struggled to open up but fear of being judged and making out that she’s a lie etc. Cyber bullying isn’t okay no matter if it’s at school and continuing still out of school just behind the computer screen.

There are so many ways of people who could get build and it just goes unnoticed from being at home; clubs, school and especially social media. Just out one tiny little detail that blows out proportion; remember my recent Dairy Entry for Haters, Social Media, Press and Exs – look what you made me do? No matter how much I tried to get away from the horrible things like people say “oh how cute do they look?” And so on on or the whole thing that people spread rumours that aren’t even true, or things set you off and feel like that you can’t move on.

To be honest I’ve been off Instagram, Facebook and Twitter for a good while now as I don’t have the apps on my phone or tablets but the best thing is it’s taken off a whole lot of pressure off me. Not having to worry or be insecure about myself. One thing I do have to say is that everyone has a story but they just take it out on one person and one person alone.

Some it gets too much and when the victims ask for help but they have the fear of being judged; yet that one person may not even take them seriously enough, or even try and stop them. It’s a complete warning signs to everyone have been missed. It’s like saying where did it go wrong?

Yet I’ve noticed personally if I try and talk I get shut down quite easily when there’s other things as well not just the one thing. Then it’s a lot harder to talk about things when people say it’s always the one thing. It’s like I explain it to one of my closes friends the other day and they can see entirely where I’m coming from. They quickly apologies for making me open up to them when they realised that they open a can of worms. To be honest I don’t blame them to be honest.

That’s basically what the 13 Reasons Why story is about; where one individual can’t talk about what is going on in their lives but then you have the one person who can control all of them, until someone does something but then two people come and try to get their voices to be heard.

All I’m saying is if your a parent or a teacher or a councillor or in that area I recommend you watch 13 Reasons Why to understand what any child is going through. See if you pick up anything that you may of missed.

Sorry Not Sorry if I got a chance

Things that I would do if I got a chance to do; but I would be sorry about it, in the end I wouldn’t be sorry. #InamemoryofDaisy #fightingforCaspain&DC

Payback is going to be one horrible thing;

And you know what,

I’m the baddest of them all

The fact I’m now looking for revenge.

The best feeling is smashing your leans and cameras,

Yeah I know how much it must of hurt you,

Yet your don’t know how much I you hurt my two friends

Just taking photos whilst their mother was dying;

Never went and help to save her life.

I can make you out a lot worst as it already is;

Now your looking for redemption and look like a lost puppy,

The regret should of eaten you up over the past 20 years

Now payback is a bitch

You’re saying I’m a savage

But I’m sorry that I’m going to have to do this,

But actually I’m not sorry for doing this.

Showing up like this I knew

that I would take it out on you

You know that I would too

Seriously I am not sorry

For punching your lights out

I’m not sorry

For sticking it up everywhere.

Leaving you there.

Yet you still have no remorse

No dignity

No nothing

You say your sorry but your not sorry

Sorry 20 years too late.

All of the Special Milestones she missed

Because of you.

Now you say your sorry.

Sunday Special- Our Cases, Our Stories, Our Voices – Can’t afford School Fees

(The fact that I haven't made my good morning Sunday Special Post for this week I've decided to use Sentebaleblogs post just help me out a bit. Just to cover my arse really. Haha not literally guys; just been a paperwork weekend, and I have s new system for Sentebaleblogs I thought hey why not try it out with the lizzysweeklyblogs. Well we all know how that went didn't we? As you have worked out what I'm like on here. Yep compete utter mayhem. Anyways I'll let the kids do the talking now not me. Chow for now)

"Young lives who’s family has no money to send their children to school." – Sentebaleblogs
“I'm Jackson age 7 on the right looking rather cool and really? Really do I have to have my photo taken? Question face along with Ekure really? I rather hide away”
“I'm Tobe I'm 6 years old I will be 7 in December. If my parents didn't come to the home for help I'll just be looking at the pictures and no idea where places are. Fortunately for me I got that chance to change my life. Oh I'm the one next to Jackson reading supposed to be”
“I'm Theresa who's sitting next to Tobe and my annoying funny twin brother Tony who's invading my space as normal. I'm 5 years old I'll be turn 6 in November yet I'll be sharing it with Tony’
“I'm Tony. I'm also 5 and be turning 6 in November along with my twin Theresa; I'm the most outgoing out of the two of us, as you can see in the picture and I am the most cheesiest but I have this special connection if there's something wrong with Theresa I would feel it too. But also she has that special super power too.”
To the start every parent worst nightmare is not being able to provide, support, or even give their children the best start in life. That's what happened to these lovely children; there parents couldn't afford the school fees as it was too expensive for them to pay for the material, uniform and many more. Yet for these awesome guys they are going to school because their parents came to us for help; we've given them the life time of having the best start, achieve the goals that they want to achieve.
Their parents quick thinking and no who to come to for help. We worked with their parents to proved their school fees; to which now they are going to school everyday to be able to learn, and to succeed in life that they want to be when they grow up. There are so many families like our four stars that need our help to get their children into schools to achieve what their parents couldn't achieve.

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When you have more than one day of being a total d***?

Yep I know it's a Sunday but I can't help in doing this blog on a Sunday when it comes to one of those days that you had one too many off.

The fact that I have admitted on my national blog on a Sunday Special; that I can be a total d*** at the best of times, but not that sort of a d*** where someone is always is one all the time. I have mine when my insecurities, jealousy and many more come out all at once. Then start feeling rather s**** about it because you just wish you hate those feelings of not being good enough; feeling threatened by someone else who maybe good looking, right sort of person and what not.
Yep that's me. I'm one of those sort of people that feel like I'm going to get replaced because of not matching the right boxes; I end up listening to my insecurities, the past pain and etc. Which to means that I blow everything out of proportion and hurt the people that I love the most. That's pretty much me. It's only rarely that happens if I'm on a War path with myself then it's more dangerous territory; once I'm in the no mans land and someone who knows me too well, try and break the barriers down more they don't even know if they are going to come out alive or not. They actually turn out alive when I break down crying and wave the white flag to say it's alright.
There's been so many times within the two weeks I've been in floods of tears; then been actually been a complete arse, because of it as I've been all over it and there's been coming to my aid from left right and centre. On that no mans land and they've been like no matter what I thrown at them; they wouldn't budge because they know it's not me at the end of the day, they just want to keep me safe.
This is where you get your true identity of life where you know where your good friends are in life.

Gender Identity Quotes Extra 

Just coming back to the revisit of Gender Identity that I have writing couple of weeks ago or just attached it for Vocal Media. I have amazing feedback from people who I have asked and they have commented. I do like to advise that please respect other’s comments about their thoughts and people who are brave enough to come out to talk to me about their experiences.
The fact that I wanted to revisit this article that I had written; we because there are so many young people out there, who are afraid to come out. This is either afraid of being judged, know how strongly about one or both parents feel, or they know in the past that there have been laws about it. I will most likely to re-re-visit in a few months or so if people would like me to come back to this topic. 

The comments so far that I have received so far from people that I have asked around. Please remember respect the people’s opinions and how they see it. One person called Lee has offered to answer any questions if anyone is struggling to come out; or ask for advice, if you have any please contact me through lizzyarrow@outlook.com this is where you can ask your questions and I’ll email them over to him. I will do visa with the response that he has given. Due to protection and policies and etc. If you like to remain anonymous please inform me as I email I will leave anonymous against your question or comments. 

“Can’t say I wasn’t shocked but I’m fine with it. It’s her life not mine lol (smiles)’ ‘She is what she is at the end of the day. She still my beautiful Sammi’ by Sarah her daughter is Bisexual 

“Yes always been straight hun. Been involved in a lot of sexual action with men and women both; there are some more than other in different situations, but never been attracted to male. Only female.” “I can appreciate a good body looking or body buy not want to kiss it or sleep with it. Have no problem being naked with other men though” By Gareth who is straight 

“Why not…they are allowed to get opinions from anybody” “so they could know the advantage and disadvantage of that”. “‘No’ its not a sin to the Muslim faith’ By anonymous on religious backgrounds side of things

“My parents were absolutely fantastic when I told them. I introduced them to my boyfriend whilst I was at university and never expressed any problem with it all. I had known that I was gay since Secondary School (UK meaning); maybe towards the end of college, and told my friends. None of them seemed surprised and all accepted to was normal with no fuss. There wasn’t a clear point at which I knew I was gay but to realise that I had much stronger feelings and attractions towards male models. I did briefly wonder if I was bisexual but I understood quickly that I didn’t have romantic feelings for people of the opposite sex. I have had any negative reactions thankfully. I’m happy any questions but I hope this helps” By Lee who’s gay. 

“1) How did you know you were gay, lesbian, trans or straight

In high school around mid teens bisexual 
2) How did you feel in telling your parents? 

Worried not to sure how to go about it never told my dad and mum told me i was going through a phase 

3) How did you feel in telling your friends or your close friends?

Friends no problem understood 
4) Have you told anyone about your sexuality or you still keeping it a secret?

Well friends know im bi but do keep it behind closed doors, my hubby doesnt like it and never has done. But i know that me and hubby are ment to be, sole mates so doesnt really bother me but i know its still there.”

5) What is the best advice for the young generation of today? 

Be yourself, you are who you are and you only live once so if you want to have experience go for it and if its not for you, its not for you x ” Anonymous who’s Bi

Who Says?

I wouldn’t want to be like anybody else. 

You made me insecure about myself; told me that I wasn’t good enough for anyone else, but who are you to judge when your just a control freak that just wants to own me. You’re just a diamond in the rough on the ground getting kicked about. I’m pretty sure that you got things you would like to change about yourself; but when it comes to me, I wouldn’t want to be like everybody else. Yet you want me to be like everybody else.

I may not be a beauty queen. I’m just beautiful little me. You have got every right to a beautiful life. So who says, who says that your not perfect? Who says you’re not worth it? Also who says that your the only one that’s hurting? Trust me as I’m the one who’s going to be fighting back.

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust? believe me or the bully trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you. 

It’s such a funny thing; when you know that nothing is funny when it’s you, you tell them what you mean and yet they keep over riding the truth like it’s a work of art that really never seen the light. Yet your beneath the stars which won’t let you touch the sky.

I may not be a beauty queen. I’m just beautiful little me. You’ve got the every right to a beautiful life. So who says, who says that your not perfect? Who says you’re not worth it? Also who says that your the only one that’s hurting? Trust me as I’m the one who’s going to be fighting back. 

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust an believe me or the bully trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you.

Who says that you’re not star potential? Who says that you’re not presidential? Who says that you can’t be in movies? Listen to me, listen to me. Who says that you didn’t pass the test? Who says that you can’t be the best? Who said, who said? Would you tell me who really said that?

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust and believe me or the bully? trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you.

Who says, who says your not perfect? Who says your not worth it? Who says your the one is hurting? Who would you trust an believe me or the bully trust me, that’s the price of beauty. Who’s says your not pretty? Who says your not beautiful? Who says? Could you point them out for me. I’ll take you under my wing and make you feel better and won’t change you.

Who says that you’re not star potential? Who says that you’re not presidential? Who says that you can’t be in movies? Listen to me, listen to me. Who says that you didn’t pass the test? Who says that you can’t be the best? Who said, who said? Would you tell me who really said that?

Who says? Who says that you can’t be different? Who says? 

When is it time to say enough is enough?

The thought of loosing so much sleep and dreaming a lot; all because your feeling anxious or depressed or even stressed, you just want to say enough is enough.

Today’s Sunday Special I thought about things; it made me think about turning to God or to the church, I know that I can turn to Caspian as he’s been a life saver and someone who I could trust. However can I turn to god; what can I trust religion side of things, even growing up in a Christian family but it’s a lot more in trusting to turn to faith than someone that you love. That’s just my opinion of how I think and feel about things; of who to trust and not to trust, that’s where I maybe its my anxious and depression kicked in.

Past week I had felt the lowest of the low; stressed out, depressed and anxious. Which by the end of the week with the things; I ended up feeling ill emotionally, headache’s, another with health had started to kick in and everything else had started to kick in. To the point of not being able to cope; the initial fear of people coming too close to my liking in my bubble, when I’m in that state of mind that I couldn’t cope with more symptoms kicking in.  

The question is when is it the time to say enough is enough; is it when you know when your ready for time is right?, when are you going to next fall?, who is going to catch me if I did fall?. The whole flight and fight mode had started or would started to kick in. 

Caspian has been my been my awesome rock; he be there when I needed him the most, I know that he’s not going to abounded what so ever. He also when I know that he’s the one trying to help me; be the supportive, caring and everything else. I know I can trust him more and more; trying to find ways to be together is harder than we thought, until I say something out of the ordering and we both know how stupid the whole situation is at the time. 

That’s how a true friendship or relationship goes because you know when you get that close to someone; you love them to bits, along side with the whole I trust you along the way. Yes I can be like I’m backing out at times but he knows how insecure I am; how I haven’t got much believe in myself nor the courage to ask things, in case of being rejected in one way or another. 

When things come back to me; he knows as soon as I start flipping out on him, he reminds me that he’s not going anywhere, not going to give up on me along with the three words of I love you. It gives me that sign of encouragement that I’m not going to give up on myself; I have my knight in shinning armer ready to come and save me no matter what it’s wrong, knowing I have him by myself. That’s when I know enough is enough for me to keep fighting and fighting him. Meaning that I trust him more than previous relationships I had in the past; he is such a nice guy all round, I wouldn’t give up on him either if he had his moments. 

You basically know how to fight things if you know; you have that person to fight things with, no matter how tough it is to begin with but at the end of the day you know you have that one person being dependent on and visa. 

Cameron’s are way up themselves!

I’m calling you out Cameron’s! You never understand what a working life is or how to get there. 

Excuse me David Cameron how can it possibly be “SICK” that nurses and doctors want higher wages. You never know what hard work is in your life. I had huge respect for you and your family when you lost your son due to his condition; but now I don’t feel anything for you or your family what so ever, due to the comments you and your wife having been making. 

People like the Cameron’s I disapprove off quite a lot; especially more now than ever, this is because they are so far up themselves it’s like they own everything. From Cameron’s wife saying that she can’t afford her children designer wear to buying David shirts from Marks and Spencer’s to waking up to 4 in the morning to do phone calls and emails for her business. I’m sorry love thats called work and managing money. That’s what life is about to pay for luxuries over your head and everything else. Sacrifices have to be made; to be able to continue in doing that you can even get good quality in Primark these days for your money worth. Guess what’s that called? SAVING BLOOMING MONEY! And working class is a lot harder than you think; you have had all the luxuries you wanted, it’s now come back down to level 20 or cloud 20 and start becoming one of us. 

As for David Cameron. You’ll be interested in what I have found out since he had left the Downing Street and his mp place in Witney. Since David Cameron resigned as PM on 13th July 2016 when failing to persuade the UK public to remain as one part of the EU. Barely two months since his leave as a PM on 12th September 2016; he had then stepped down as an MP for Witney, this goes to show how much the Conservatives are loosing it all together. As he yet not found his next big job that he either muck up or something; he continued to campaign for the stories during the 2017 general election, is there something wrong with that. You can’t continue the whole I’m still working with the party and government business if you quit your job. 

However you this might actually think this would be a massive con or something; yet he has begun writing his memoirs; to which he had been promised that he would secure an £800,000 in advance for what I would like to know, to which continues with the whole conferences and events. I would like to point out that it will come with hefty payments also. Don’t you think that’s all wrong? You can’t just walk in to any job and say “I can sell my you my memoirs if I have x amount of money in advance” people have taken years to get where they are to be able to write something good and interesting. Yet he goes swarming in because he can tell the best story ever and his view on things.

Going back to my previous paragraph of David Cameron’s horrible chose of words and most importantly most insulting to anyone who work in the public sector. So I found out more why he was claiming that services like the nurses who are struggling to get a decent pay rise; being called “selfish”, hang on they are doing a pretty well work damn hard for what they do. Even with recent events that have been happening; they still manage to not get paid enough, how can that be selfish? The only selfish people in the world is David Cameron and the rest of the parliament. Yet he gets called “The Millionaire Tory”; within the 7 years he oversaw the austerity when he was a primeminster, but claiming that it was so “uncaring” even to want to lift the cap on the public sector pay.  

Yet he just rakes out a vast sums of money from the public speaking and blew it on a £25.000 luxury garden shed; just hang on for a second there Cameron, your calling the services who put their lives on the line because it’s their jobs and not getting pad more money they should “selfish”. Your the one making us stand there or sit there listening to you talking about a load of crap and you go and spend so much on a luxury garden shed. You and your wife need a rain check and speak to each other clearly you both don’t have the same wave length as each other.

 

Living with a Hearing Impairment is tiring at the best of times.


Living with a Hearing Impairment is tiring at the best of times; I should know there is so many times that I can think off, when I sit there during training programs with other people by the first 5-15 minutes I’m lost or they’ve lost my attention because my concentration has actually gone. Even if someone is talking to me; they know I’m trying to concentrate on them by lip reading, whilst listening to them that’s just exhausting itself when it’s a one on one. 

I don’t even mean to do it. It’s part of my disability that I have. I could technically apply for the disability allowance if I wanted to but it’s up to me if I want to or not; people who sometimes think I’m being rude by not listening or not hearing them, I can’t help it to the point of someone getting arsey with me because I didn’t hear. It really wasn’t my fault along with my hearing does get me into trouble at the best of times; all because of the impairment that I have, it is frustrating for me to the fact I blame myself for the hearing it’s not my fault that I have a problem with it. 

Having a hearing impairment there will always going to be problems; from going to be okay for awhile to not being well, and not being to hear. To which makes me wish I rather still not be able to hear to be honest; I know that it doesn’t sound nice but at the end of the day, what else can you do, I will always loose either way with getting sick and my ears will always be effected no matter what. 

Should probably reset as I’ve just planned a whole week of events blogs in one weekend possibly started it during the week; the joys of the last weekend of June 2017 you get most of your blogging work done before you know it, to which point I could actually focus on the everyday during the week if I can. Saying that this a Sunday Special post for this week; so you probably already read my blog posts already this week just been, what do you reckon to them?

When will this ever end?


All the pain and the truth; I wear like a battle wound, I’ve got scares to prove it along with empty shell of the tower block showing us that we are not safe anymore. As more bodies and more people still missing assuming that they are dead; lots of anger, hatred, wanting their voices to be heard. Grenfell patients face ‘months’ of recovery; 14 people are in hospital, 8 received critical care and some induced comas. 

Mr. Hammond claims that weren’t useful trying to blame the services who were saying it needed them. On which Theresa May today apologies that they should of listened sooner than later; however it was too late to sort the major problem now, the thoughts are now to learn from it and will focus on the dangers of what can happen. 

“Sixty-eight social housing flats in Kensington, London, are to be made available to survivors of the Grenfell Tower fire, the government has said.

The one, two and three-bedroom flats are located in two blocks that stand alongside a large luxury development, where private homes go for up to £8.5m.

At least 79 people died and many more were left homeless after fire engulfed the North Kensington tower a week ago.

PM Theresa May has apologised for “State” failures after the blaze.

“People were left without belongings, without roofs over their heads, without even basic information about what had happened, what they should do and where they could seek help,” she told MPs in the Commons.

“That was a failure of the State – local and national – to help people when they needed it most.

“As prime minister, I apologise for that failure.”‘ From BBC News Website 

“By Jennifer Scott, BBC News

Nestled off Kensington High Street, and a short distance from Westfield shopping centre, Kensington Row is the perfect example of London’s booming real estate market.

It’s £700 a week to rent a one-bedroom flat – for that price you get to live in the same borough as Prince William and Simon Cowell.

Builders are beavering away to finish the new blocks for the incoming residents, whilst placards that surround the site promise you can “find yourself in the clouds” after you move in.

You get a true feel for the development from the flats already completed.

On the hottest day of the year so far, the sun reflects off balconies and glass panels onto the tree-lined street and busy main road. The flats all have the luxury finish you would expect of this area – but of course the social housing blocks won’t have the same trimmings.

George, a Kensington resident for 30 years, said his new neighbours would be welcome.

“In times of disaster, the communities in both the north and south of this borough come together,” he said. “The survivors and their families will be looked after.”

Since the fire, some Grenfell Tower families have been staying in hotels and B&Bs, and there were concerns that more permanent housing would be offered in other parts of the country.

But Kensington Row complex is just over 1.5 miles from Grenfell Tower.

It includes a 24-hour concierge service and a private cinema, the website of developer St Edward says, but it is thought unlikely the new tenants from Grenfell will have access to such facilities.

Each new home in the two blocks set aside for social housing will be fully furnished and completed to a high-specification, the government said.” By BBC News 

Video of run tribute to the Grendell Tower