Sunday Special Online Diary Entries is what you decide if it’s true or not. You have a opinion there should be judgement what so ever. If this sounds Truth to you then it’s okay. I know the truth and what isn’t. Funny because I’m the one that’s writing it.
Okay mental health you can have if you want it then take my happiness; I shouldn’t of said it before because I tried to hide it, even tried to fake it but I can’t even pretend anymore. I only want to die alive never by the hands of a broke heart or you’re nasty thoughts. I don’t want to hear anymore of your lies tonight now that I’ve become who I really am.
This is part of me but when I say I don’t want you anymore because I’m stronger than ever before; this is part where I’m going to break from you because I can’t resist you no more, you were better deeper as I was under your spell for so long like it was a deadly fever like it was in the highway off heal.
The thought of your body trying to take over inside me in the past it was lethal and fatal. Now that in
my dreams it felt when I woke up every time I knew I was coming alive. If I was a rich girl and had all of the money in the world it still won’t make me happy or be confident in my life; it’s only people in my life that are more important to me, the fact that I’m tired of being sorry for not made of money and longing for a life. Yet I’m breaking free within the silver moon giving me the more confidence of to break free from it all.
I’m not standing out in the street crying out to you to take over me because I’m just laughing in your face. Your losing all of your thorns that you had tangled inside me; there’s sounds in the air as I’m standing on the bridge I can hear sirens in the air, I can hear Caspian’s voice talking to me to calm down and to come down. I knew I was scared of heights so I was just sitting there on the bridge; he whispered in my ear “let me be your hero”, I turned round by swinging my legs round with his help and helped me down. I wrapped my arms around him feeling so happy that he was there being my hero; kissing all my pain away, standing by me for ever and I knew I was breaking free forever.
This Sunday Special Diary Entries Online is based on a true facts of everyone who feels the same way but don’t say it. The signs are there in the lines of the pages of the book. Weather you believe in this or not it’s your opinion but yet I’m doing this for me and I know how I feel. It’s your opinion on the matter of all things.
“Don’t look at me” we say when everyday is so wonderful that’s when all of the sudden it’s hard to breathe because now and then I get so insecure from all the pain and I’m just so ashamed. No matter what they say nor my mind say I am beautiful no matter because words can’t bring me down. I know that I am beautiful in every single way; yes, words can’t bring me down but not today I’m taking no prisoners today so don’t bring me down today.
I see all of your friends standing there being delirious because your so consumed in all of your doom; trying to hard to fill the emptiness as the pieces have gone, the puzzle is now left undone as is it the way it is? You are beautiful no matter what they say; words can’t bring you down anymore because you are beautiful in every single way, words can’t bring you down today and so don’t bring me down today.
No matter what we do no matter what we say. We are the song that’s inside the tune that is playing full of beautiful mistakes and everywhere we go the sun will always shine and tomorrow we might wake up on the other side. So don’t you bring me down today. Don’t bring me down today.
This is your own decision Weather this is just a story or based on a true fact. I would like to remind you this is your own opinion and I know the truth behind this story.
I use to run home everyday glad to be away from school and etc as I use to be called names, made fun at, they wouldn’t let me play and the words or laughter “hey Elizabeth why did you do that?” “Hahaha, you can’t spell girl” they would pull my hair and took my chair away. I kept on pretending that I didn’t care “Hey Elizabeth you’re so funny you got teeth like bugs bunny”
Oh so you think you know me now. Spreading lies about me all your life but actually have you forgotten how you would make me feel; when you dragged my spirit down but thank you for my the pain, it has now made me raise my game I’m still rising and rising who doesn’t give a damn about you anymore. Yeah!
Yet so many of your jokes now are broken they don’t work on me no more; you’re the one who is now alone, but who’s laughing now as the bar has raised up a lot higher than you set it. You can hit me hard with your playing cards to become a star but you know who’s the actual star of the show.
Oh now I’m making money more money than you are; you just want to use my fame by sending Facebook request because you went to school with me, but you only know my name. “Oh Lizzy we knew that you could make, I would love you to sign it for me” So you think now that I’m signed to book deals and etc; my pockets are lined with gold, four years down the line I’m still in the que to get the deal. “Oh Lizzy I saw your blog work and decided to tag old photos when we were at school”
Lizzy! she broke out of the box you swallowed your pride when you got that ego cough, (cough cough) let the haters hate when they see the man who I am with. I’m like your way too late to be my close friend now; click click to see I got a message from you. “Hola, I’m proud of you” I roll my eyes and say what I’m thinking out loud “who’s laughing now” I just don’t care what you say to me now that I’ve got my chance in life and now I can laugh at you all the way. Tell you where to shove it where the sun doesn’t shine. I’m the one who’s laughing at you now.
This Is still a Sunday Special but with the Online Diary Entries as I feel that it should be the one of those things that I should be able to say how I feel and etc at the end of the week and share my stories. It’s up to you if you believe it or not it’s your opinion and I know the truth.
I love it when you just do your own thang honey; I can feel it from the start since we first met, now this time is the hardest part because I can’t stand it anymore or any longer. Your something special to me that caught my eye which moved me deep inside. Yet you don’t know what you did but you had it and I’ve been hooked. Both past and present had disappeared as everytime I see you or speak to you everything starts to make sense. I know I can be the royal pain in the arse when it comes to my head; I do things really stupid but I do really care about it all especially our relationship, if I could turn back the clock I would and now that I’m paying the price of it.
There’s no other man that can stand up next to you because you do your own thang honey. I know that your the right kind of man for me putting up with my stupidity for things that no one else can. There isn’t any other man on this planet that I want but you; it’s true without you I wouldn’t be able to go about my daily basis, or feel comfortable with myself because I know I have my knight in shinning armour.
I never thought I’d be alright until you came into my life and changed it. There was once cloudy mind that I don’t know how to get through it but know that it’s clear you’re the light that I needed. Your the one I want and I am not going to give you up I’m going to fight for you; even if it’s going to kill me either way, because I’m in love with you. I want everyone to know that you are mine and no one else’s.
You were there when I was a mess. You talked to me down from every ledge you give me your strength when I needed it the most boy you are the best and you’re the only one that has passed every test. I am telling you know that there is no other man but you in my life.