Sunday Special Topics: “By The Time” – Story Based

Don’t wake up. Won’t wake up can’t wake up. No don’t wake me up. It’s the early morning as the lights flick on sleepy eyes peek through the blinds at something wrong; motionless remains the mess of someone who has been crying it’s such a shame, such a beautiful beautiful young life disappearing right before your eyes. By the time I’m dreaming you’ve crept out on me sleeping I was blissfully unaware what was happening. Tell me how am I suppose to care if you don’t wake me to check it out.

Don’t wake up. Won’t wake up. I can’t wake up no don’t wake me up. I blame myself for your death and our child. A trail of bloody clothes of the 2 year old why did you both have to go and me behind; if it wasn’t for you’re screams waking me up I wouldn’t off known what was happening before it was happening, the dream that I had wasn’t so blissful at all.

Tell me how am I supposed to care if I hadn’t let you go in my arms it could of been different now I’ll never know. I didn’t get the chance damn the person who killed you but I will find them make sure what they have done to you is real. If you could forgive me Lord and look after the love of my life and my child to keep them safe better than I could.

Sunday Online Diary Entries: “Bohemian Rhapsody Of My Life” – Story Based

I wake up somewhere different I begin to wonder whether if this is the real life? Or is this just a fantasy? Or am I just caught in a landslide because there’s no escape from the reality as I open my eyes and look up to the skies as I lay on the warm summers day; I see a poor child cloud that looks like me but I don’t need no sympathy, I’m easy come easy go but have my highs and my lows. Yet when the wind blows it doesn’t really matter to me.

Oh mother I’m sorry I just killed a man put a gun against his pulled my trigger now he’s dead. Oh mother my life sentence has just started; I’ve gone thrown my actually thrown my good life all the way; I didn’t mean to make you cry but if I’m not back again this time tomorrow, carry on like nothing really matters and it’s too late my time has come sends shivers down my spine. My body is aching all the time goodbye everybody I’ve got to go and face the truth of what I have done.

Oh mother I can hear your voice saying “any wind blows I still love you.” I don’t want to do die but at best of times I’d wished that I was never been born at all. I can see a little silhouette of a man in my cell hunched back and depressed. Scaramouche scaramouche will you do the fandango; thunderbolt and lighting in the cell very very frightening me, I’m just a poor boy nobody loves me and he’s just a poor boy from a poor family. Spare my life from this monstrosity.

Easy come, easy to will you let me go? Bismillah! No we will won’t let you go! Please let me go my head is going crazy like beelzebub had put a devil inside me for me; so you think you can really stop me or spit on my eyes? So if you think that you can love me enough but to leave me to die? How can you do this to me. I just want to get out of here.

Nothing. Nothing really matters anyone can see that nothing really matters. Nothing really matters to me. Just whenever the wind blows.

Sunday Special: “Fix a heart” – Story Based

As Jesus’s mother Mary sat next to me on the hill by the cave that once laid Jesus behind a rock; no matter if I believed in him or not she knew that I need someone to hear my broken heart, as it was screaming out in pain because it was never been in so much pain and it wasn’t going to fix anytime soon. “It’s probably what’s best for you I only want what’s best for you” she told me I knew that I wasn’t best for you then your stuck because I’ve tired to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind.

It’s like you’re just pouring salt in my cuts to make it more stingy for me to endure. Yet I just ran out of band aids I don’t even know where to start to explain to Mary what’s gone on because you can only bandage the damage but you can never really fix a heart.

Even though I knew what’s wrong but how could I be so sure because you never know what to say what you feel; I must of held Mary’s hand so tight as I didn’t have the will to fight I guess I needed more time to heal, you must be a miracle worker swearing up and down like you could fix what was broken. Jesus please don’t get my hopes just tell me how could you be so cruel?

You never knew how to fix people it just causes more pain; you never there when I needed you, now you think as you’re mother is here you think it’s okay to pour salt on my cuts but you couldn’t never really fix my broken heart.

Sunday Special: “Singing my heart out” – Mothers Day Special UK (11.3.18) – Story Based

In the winds of the British Isles words float from every country and commonwealth that belong to the United Kingdom; even with every tune from every country playing for Mother’s Day, the words sounds like how much people love each other especially their mothers who may have passed away or out in war zones or somewhere else.
Some words they can’t be spoken but only sung. So when you hear a thousand voices shouting love there’s a place where there is actually time in this life where you can sing what you are feeling. I remember you telling me to find my feet and stand my ground because don’t you see the whole world is listening to what we have to say right now?
The winds sing it louder sing it clearer knowing that everyone will hear you because as your making some of the noises you would find your voice tonight; make it stronger by singing it together which will make this moment of love last forever, even the love and the young are shouting their love tonight.
To be able to sing we had to wait like a lifetime to be able to see a thousand faces to celebrate together; you had brought hope, brought life conquer fear when it wasn’t always so easy but as you stood your ground by keeping your faith, yet you don’t see it right now but the world is listening to what we have to say.
As we sing it louder and more clearly knowing that everyone will hear you speak because you always told us to make a noise to find our voices tonight; by singing it stronger and being together we can make this feeling last forever, wether your old or young we are shouting love tonight.
Some words only be spoken but otherwise they can’t be spoke but only to be sung. To be able to hear the thousand voices is to be able to open your window of your bedroom hearing the words of love, life and hope. To be able to hear a thousand voices shouting love for you.

Sunday Special: Hallelujah

In my sleep in a distance of my dream I once heard there was a secret chord that David had played and it pleased the lord but you really don’t care for the music, do you ya? Well I can tell you that it goes back and fourth with every minor fall and there will be a major lift that will baffle the king as he composing the word “hallelujah”.
Your faith inside is so strong but you needed the proof but you saw her bathing on the roof; her beauty and the moonlight had overthrew you. As she tied you to her kitchen chair; she had broken your throne, and cut your hair as you withdrew your lips of a kiss the words came from her lips as you felt her breathe from her mouth against yours “hallelujah”.
Maybe there’s a god that’s up above; however I’ve ever learned from love is how to shoot somebody down who had withdrawn you out, it’s not about a cry that you hear at night and it’s not someone who’s seen the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s a cold and it’s broken “hallelujah”

Sunday Special: “Oh Mother” – Story

Dear lord I must confess the thoughts of loneliness but you have to understand why I get so defensive about guys who want to be with me. I can tell you now that I couldn’t tell you before but I know you know as you have witnessed over the years of the horrible man he was to my mum. Let me tell you the story through my broke child eyes but I know now my mum is safe with you.

You have to understand that my mother was so young with such innocent eyes with dreams of a fairytale life and all of the things that money can’t buy. Yet lord she had thought he was a wonderful guy until he changed since he now claimed that she was all his the day she had taken on his name; the first time he took his anger out on her face was when they were on their honeymoon, did you know as she prayed to you she kept all of her pain locked away since then especially in front of us and yet you weren’t there to save her.

Oh mother we are now stronger because of all the tears that you have she but mother don’t look back you will know he will never hurt us again. I would like to thank you for all you have done and still showing your conditional love to us; you got me I got you together we always pull through, oh mother you never stopped us from being who we are and reminding us no matter what happens continue to pray to the lord for protection. One day we got told that we were staying home for the day because the social workers came one day whilst we were at school; that was the day he turned on his kids as one of us spoke out but we kept it quiet like you told us too, my mother knew she had to leave him in order to protect us from anymore harm and there was so many voices inside her head.

Saying over and over and over that she deserved much more than this because she was so sick of believing the lies that he told about her on how she got the cuts and bruises; even hurting the kids on every other odd occasions, because he couldn’t hurt my mother anymore yet she had covered the bruises as much as she could on herself and ours before we went to school. My mother got so tired of defending for her life and ours she could have died fighting for the lives of her children.

Oh mother look at us now we are stronger than ever before because from all of the tear you have shed; don’t look back now because he can’t hurt us again, god had heard our prayers sent guardian angels to come and save us. I would like to thank you for all that you’ve done and still do. Don’t forget that you’ve got me and I’ve got you together we always pull through. We always pull through as a a family like we always do with each other’s love.

All of this our life you have spent burying he hurt with regret of not doing it any sooner but remember mum he can’t touch us again. Remember every time he tried to break you down just remember who’s still around; until we as your children stood our ground finding our voices it was over because we are stronger than before, we weren’t afraid of him no more when he would come home drunk or got high or things that made him mad and would take it out on you we jumped in to save yours. We will never have to go back again because we are stronger from all of the tears that you have shed don’t look back from all of the pain because he can’t hurt us again.

So mother I want to say thank you for everything that you have done and still do; you got me I got you together we always move on, together we always pull through, know your happy with someone who treats you right there’s no turning back now.

He will always going to be there to help you get through everything as it was your turn to be protected from everything that was coming your way. He’s the best step dad we can ever have no matter how much we were protecting you; he showed that he wasn’t going to harm you or us like our real dad, to me our step dad is and always will be my real dad no matter what. I love you mum.

Lord you gave us the strength to carry on finding away to move on I like to say thank you no matter how much we hated you at the time you gave us the time but also you sent us the most beautiful guardian angels and now mum is happy once again and not afraid anymore.


Readers

I would like to say this is just a story that I have created please don’t think this is what’s happening in my life right now because it isn’t. This story could happen to anyone around us but don’t know what’s happening behind closed doors. Just bare it in mind that if someone says they are okay and make an excuse of getting bruises and etc. Don’t ignore it okay.

Lizzy

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Sunday Special: Save Me From Myself Story

Sitting in a church all alone just to get peace within me; I know it’s not so easy loving me because it gets complicated all the things that you got to do, everything that I do changes but you know the truth and I’m amazed by all of you’re patience with everything that I put you through. When I’m about to fall somehow you’re always waiting with your arms open to catch me; you were ready to save me from myself, myself yes you were there ready to save me from myself.

My love has been tainted by your touch because some guys who say that they would be there just show me aces; yet you have that royal flush I know it’s crazy everyday but tomorrow maybe shake you will never turn away. Don’t even ask why I’m crying because that’s when I start to crumble; you know how to keep me smiling as you know how to save me from myself, from myself yes myself you’re the one going to save me from myself.

I know it’s hard. It’s hard even when you’ve broken all my walls I’m stand there vulnerable; yet you’ve been my strength where you have been so strong to get me through all of this, don’t ask me why I love you because it’s obvious that your tenderness is what I need to make myself a better woman to my self and you are going to save me from myself. My self…