#throwbackthursday: What have you done today to make you feel proud?

As you may of guessed my head hasn’t really been with it this week as much like last week but I’m slightly getting there I think. She says with few red marks on the outside of her elbow arm on the radiator that was on; didn’t really think much off it to be honest because I was happily colouring in my next picture that I had made, along with watching something on the Really app yeah I could feeling it burning but didn’t really think much off it. That’s what you get for not wearing long sleeves.
However with the whole what have you done today to make you feel proud? Well I manage to do a days work with two shifts morning and afternoon with a same driver and the a supposed run at lunch time but cancelled whilst on it haha but hey get paid for it. Even though I didn’t really fancy working at all today to be honest but someone has to earn money don’t they.
In the mist of people making it out that it’s my fault for things as per normal but I managed to create a new picture and corrected it somehow but not sure if I like it or not heyho. Still in the works but I’ve also made a healthy dinner this evening for myself; I know people me craving health food when I’m also craving junk food at the same time, I definitely need my head scanned to see if I’m feeling alright haha.
What have you done today to make yourself feel proud? I would love to know to be honest but I know you guys won’t comment haha. Unless you do then I’m proud of you that you made yourself proud that you achieved something.

Everyday Post: Playing around with stamps to create art work

Your probably thinking why would she use postage stamps to create art work; it would be expensive hobby to do if she did it that way, but be interesting to see what she came out with. Good idea but WRONG! Due to my expensive hobby of crafting when I have my moments however I was given an Paperchase Sketch pad for my birthday a few months ago; I thought I really want to do something really nice in there but what can I do, I know my drawings are pretty rubbish but still and that’s when I realised that I had craft stamps in a box.
The fact is that I enjoy art very much in my own time when I’m feeling like I want to do something nice for a change and keep my mind occupied for awhile. It’s one of my go to things at the moment just to take my mind of things; I thought I’ll give the craft stamps ago to create a picture using the stamps that I have, I did trial and errors to begin with which turned out alright but then I got the idea of what I was going and started to think and plan in what I want to do.

This is my first proper planned design piece that I’ve done to which I actually liked the most because I thought about it and what colours would go with it. To begin with I wasn’t too sure how it would turn out; as I was going along finishing colouring it all in, and once it had finished I looked at it. I thought this is awesome I like this very much indeed. If I did my art GCSE again and they would let us use craft stamps or something that involved them I would be so in for it. Doing lots of pictures and scenes without a problem yeah it might be called cheating but arts and crafts is still art at the end of the day it’s still your own piece of work at the end of the day.
I’m currently in the midst of doing this one at the moment and I’m enjoying every moment of it because I picked out what I wanted then placed them where I wanted them. Making the castle as a centre
piece of the picture like it’s in the woods. I will share with you what it would be like after it’s completed.

 

Wednesday Evening Post: Amazement of how much I love you guys

I just want to say thank you to everybody so far reading my blogs; I am internal grateful for continuing to come back each day, reading my stories and other blogs that are surrounding them. I’m so glad that you guys like them very muchly not sure if that’s a word but it is now haha.

The fact that you guys are giving me so much positivity of being able to continue to write; I know that 20-30 views along with 10-20 visitors isn’t a big deal to anyone but to me, I am glad that I’ve got the regular people who like to come back and read them time and time again. I’m having awesome time writing these sort of things as if I know what I meant to be writing; that’s what she said, but at the end of the day you guys are the ones that are making it happen and by that you’re getting good blogs out of it all.

I wonder if you remember earlier this week on Monday 5th January 2018 that I had launched a payment/donation page along side my Hustle and Bustle Advice of Blogging this week about it. If you can donate anything it would be grand if you are under the age of 16 please ask your parents permission to help donate the two charities that are listed in the page in the top box. I have also attached the button down below also. You’re help, kindness, generosity and thoughtful many will help others in a long run. Let’s turn this world into a positive one for who we are.

Online Diary Entries: “When I grow up” – based on a story

As I was growing up boys would call you sexy you just walked on by with a flatter smile or just give them a look to say “oh really” like you actually don’t care; you see every time you turn around you would scream to get my attention, yet I wasn’t interested in that sort of thing even if I should have done and now that I’ve got a confession. When I was young I pretended that I didn’t want attention but secretly I actually wanted attention from all the boys; I promised myself that I’d do anything to not get noticed but wish I did, then again I ain’t complaining now because I like my little lot of admires and I like my attention that I’m getting.

Then at that age we all wanted to be famous and date stars knowing that its all too good to be true. Yet now go ahead and say what you want to say because you know what it’s like to be nameless; you might as well make them know that know what your name is, when I was younger I knew what I wanted to say then and my dream was at the age.

This what I would of said when I was younger; when I grow up I want be famous, I want to be an star, and I want to be in movies. My closes guy friend once said to me was “when I grow up I want to see the world, drive nice cars and I want groupies” another girl replies “when I grow up be on tv where people know me read about me on magazines” and another girl replies “when I grow up I want to be fresh and clean be the number one chick who steps out onto the scene”

Yet you have to be careful what you wish for because you might actually get it; you just might get it but people use to tell me that I was silly, until I popped up on tv in their living room making them drop their cups off tea or coffee and I always wanted to be a superstar and knew singing songs would get me this far.

They never told you to be careful what you wish for because you might actually get it. Now that I see them staring at me because I’m such a trendsetter all I can say is yes this is true because what I do no one can do it better; you talk about me like I’m a hot topic but yet I see you watching me back then thinking I wasn’t going to do anything with my life, but now your watching me like “I wish I gave you the benefit of the doubt knowing how much you wanted it”

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: “Better Than Today” – Story

No matter how bad your day had started out but I can see what you can do but I know that you can do it better than that if you turn it around because it’s the talk of the town and I’ll make you forget all of the nasty comments that’s she has made towards you. I know you hate that something that you have even tried doing because you always got told that you can’t do anything better than them; all you got to do is lose the control almost every night because at the end of the day, you don’t care what other people may think of you and so you got to see what they do when we do it better. Yes I’m talking to you who’s reading this blog post.

You’ve got to feel it. You got to see it. Know how much you mean it because at the end of the day what’s the point of living if you don’t take a chance? You got to make today better than yesterday as you’ve for to lose it. You got to cruise it like I would do if I was there not giving a flying monkeys what other people think of me. Knowing that you got a chance of believing, feeling it, seeing it and know you do that dance of being proud of yourself each day.

Oh believe me I know how life is hard during the week but I live it for the weekend when you can hurt underneath; I guess it can really deepens that you know that you did awesome work on being positive towards yourself, what’s the point of worrying about being cool? As there’s a million things to learn that they never teach you at school; I can tell you that now don’t believe what they tell you because all we want is tomorrow to be better than today.

The whole fabrications that complicate the word in the world because theres too much useless information that plays in your head. Yet very clever people don’t know how much we all struggle and need a chance; then the clever people can’t understand the most simple things like we can do but it won’t stop our clever business.

You know what to do by feeling it, seeing it knowing how much you mean it because what’s the point of living if you know take the chance? You just lose it, cruise it like knowing you’ve got the chance to do it.

Teenagers Life Crisis: We are Who we are

Mama, mama, mama made me the way I am; my face, my face, my eyes could someone turn me up because I’m going to be speaking my mind. I’ve been waisting a lot of time looking in mirrors hating on me but now I like what I see. I know, I know that I will never be perfect but I’m going to work it now all I need is to let it go and you need to let it do. So put your new shoes on the new you.

We are who we are. Pretty just a pretty word; I’m gonna shine like a star because I’m the only me in this world, throw away all the books and the magazines I will never going to be like a beauty queen. I’m just going to be doing it for me and no one else. Mama, mama, mama made the way I am she had told me that I should looks up to the world with my head held high. As I’ve been wasting a lot of time looking at myself in the mirrors and hating on me now I like what I see.

I wake up every morning I look at myself in the mirror I like who I see because I know I’m just pretty than the rest of them. In the evening I carry on feeling the true meaning of me and when I go to the mirror I can tell that I’m tired of being strong all day long and just cry but sometimes I feel perfectly fine feeling happy with myself. On top of the mountain felt like we weren’t meant to come or be welcome here at all as everyone would look at us; but guess what I don’t care I like who we are, so to me it doesn’t matter if we’ve over stepped the mark or that we are not allowed to be in the party of being who we are.

There should be a reason to copy other people just to make us feel good; in every season I’ll take everyone’s name down in my jealous book because they are just jealous of who I am not who they are, I am just strong independent person like everyone else who knows who they are. I’m just a pretty girl who can do all the same things as they can; just choose not to do it but yet I do it in my own personal way with my friends, who love me for me not like a fake person you see around in groups.

How to conquer fears and self doubts!


The point of sleeping is that you were meant to be asleep but due to the heat I was up very early indeed; so I thought hey let’s get most of my blogs done or get some of them started so that by the time it’s gets so hot, I can stop and chill until its cool enough to do more. Let’s see how that plans out shall we. 

Everyone has fears and self doubts but people who say they don’t are calling themselves liars; no one is perfect, everyone has fears and doubts about things. If people saying to I don’t have any fears or any doubts; don’t believe them unless they can prove it to you that aren’t, if otherwise they are lying to you. They are just big headed people; who are just so up themselves that, they don’t care about anyone else but themselves. 

With me when my fears and self doubts kick in I beat myself self up for a few days; not quite like that but oh you know what I mean, jeez guys come on you know me. Can I just explain what I mean about how I conquer my fears and self doubts please? Thank you. I’ll give you a couple of my fears and self doubts as examples to help you picture it more clearly than a plain written texts sitting right in front of you; to which isn’t fun what so ever, other than someone like me telling you to just get over it. I’m not that sort of a person; I’ll guide you in the way it is a positive direction, so that when you take on theses challenges you can say I did that because someone believed in me and I believed in myself to do so. Yeah I believe in everyone who puts their mind to it. 

Okay for me my main massive fear is heights. Heights are like the most deadliest fear of mine in the world; you may think I’m going over the top with this, I wish I was but I’m not honest because I can’t bare the thought of something being so high and you have to climb it. Yet I push myself to do it as much as I can but when the time is right; all I have to do is I can’t do it anymore, there are times that I can do so many but when I know that I’ve put myself through enough I would break down crying because I know I’ve done what I can. This is whole height business is never going; even if you paid me I wouldn’t do it because I will not just get over it in any hurry, I can promise you that. 

But however I can say is that if you are determined to do something that you have a fear off; go and do it be brave, don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do it or tell yourself that you can’t do it. That’s called self doubting yourself in the long run; to which I do a lot but I can conquer things like that, where as soon as a fear starts to come in weather it’s a job interview, my writing isn’t good enough or anything that I might endure as a fear and then come out of it to think “oh I don’t think that went well” or “my writing isn’t good enough” but yet at the end of the day you get the job and your writing is really good look how many views you’ve got already. 

By realising that your in that flight and fright mood; your thinking what the hell was that about, nothing good really happens to me?, have they got the right person who is this person that they wanted to see and read about? All you have to do is believe this you can do it no matter whatever throws at you.

Vile People


There’s no good in vile people; vile people have the blackest hearts in the world, no good can heal what they have done.

As I woke up with headache in the early hours of Thursday morning but late Wednesday night; I had turned to my phone as I do for a bit of comfort as now I couldn’t sleep with the massive headache, I generally probably reply to my messages even though people maybe asleep. Sometimes I actually get a response from them unexpectedly; not all the time though, it’s just a fluke to be honest with you. 

In today’s society there’s so many vile people out there from ISIS, Government, Trump, May, Johnson is now one (should quit now whilst he’s a head), along with bad step – parents (there are good step-parents as well), friends, colleagues and many more. There is a long list of vile people who disrespects other people because they think that they can. 

Hey guess what you won’t be winning their trust or support or anything like that if you do that to them. I can easily just point out I have had my fair share of vile people; I may of done myself at some point but, at the end of the day I’m not one of those people who want power over people. Killing innocent people every two weeks and not see any progress; not saying any names but I’m going to have to Theresa May and her party. 

Furthermore to this vile human nature that we live in a bypasser yesterday/maybe today where so many lives got taken away; along with the victims who got out alive, who lost their homes. Decide to do the most indecent thing you can ever ask for; taking photos of people who couldn’t get out of the tower block in body bags, thinking it was the best and funny thing to do. That’s how low people can be who have no respect of the living or the dead; then today Theresa May well what can we say, she visited the aftermath but to the fire services and expectations of the building and she never really went to speak to the victims who had survived the burning building. Jeremy Corbyn well he showed sympathy to the victims and the services; not sure if it’s just a publicity stunt or not but he shows better leader skills than May, May really doesn’t care about the people does she. 

If you think of how many people we had lost in the past three months from the first terror attack to the last terror attack; then followed by the tower building fire losing lives about 53 people who have lost their lives from 4 different attacks, the number will be rising from the tower block aftermath as they are still looking for people. It’s sickening that no government cares about us what so ever; if they did what’s stopping them, why aren’t our voices being heard? Why doing something about it after something bad went wrong? Most importantly why is it happening now for the whole government and House of Commons looking into the whole what could of prevented? and what could of stopped it from happening? The answers will most likely to go unsolved; I can guarantee you that we will never know what might of caused it, I just feel sorry for the victims and families who have lost members.

Again we as public pulled together; Muslim and Islam communities broke their fast to come running to there aid, that shows courage for everyone that not every Muslim or Islam are bad people. I do show respect for those people who broke their tradition to help others; I personally would thank them because they must feel like we blaming them for things recently, but all so they want to show people that they are here to respect our laws and rules in the country. 

No matter how long the government will ignore us especially the Conservatives; we will win no matter what they do, say or even think. We will continue to come out on top and reduce the number of deaths as we can; we will fight back with the help of our communities, what’s more they will not separate us or break us. 

Got to see my godmother!


Got to see my godmother!

I have to say today let’s scrap the introduction for this week as I just want to do it all in one this week; as I have a massive announcement but the title gives it away, quite a lot though. However also it might even given you the surprise of that I was actually baptised; yes I don’t believe in it all but my godparents are there for their uses at times, especially one that you don’t see as much. 

The last time I saw my godmother was about 2008; at that time it was still awarkard but it was nice to be able to spend of time with her with the family, 9 years later my godmother and her husband now adoptive godfather came back over from all the way from Australia as they’ve moved over there 18 years ago. When they came over my godfather was nagging me everyday since they arrived back been nagging me to come to their get together of old familiar faces that knew them on 26th May 2017, on which I did actually go to it was actually quite special even more special that being with but also I was lot closer to my great gran as it was her house to begin all those years ago. 

I had fun memories of going round there every day; sitting, playing and being with her up until she passed away, I think she might of passed away when I was about 3/4 years old before my sister was born. My sister and cousin never really got to meet her as they were born later in the 90’s; however the house went to two good people over the years, where they looked after it well and most of all I could go round there anytime I wanted because I know the people who are currently in the house. It went from my great nan’s house to my godparents to lovely people who I grew up to know through the church that I went to personally but I don’t believe in it. However I believe having both sets of godparents; it’s nice to have the balance of views, more to go to sort of people. My other set of godparents are my uncle and aunt; I have gone to them over the years but due to the certain stances, it’s been tricky for them well my aunt. 

However I am going to miss my godparents; as they have now gone back to Australia, my godfather’s next trick is to get me to come to Australia and visit them. Not too sure how that’s going to happen; as I’ve never been on airplane nore I like heights, so it’s going be difficult for him to convince me to go and visit them. Haha.

All time favourite quote


All time favourite quote 

Let’s not have an introduction break up! Going to do it all in one today; that’s right I’m breaking up with my long term introduction this week, it’s a long old month and plus it’s the second to last week of a Wednesday. So why not do the all important no introduction what so ever; but also I can’t think of any introductions for the moment in time, might as well get on with it and go straight through the whole thing as all in one. 

“We’ve all got both light and dark inside us. We choose to act on. That’s who we really are” – Sirius Black. I 100% agree with this quote because no matter what background you come from; you always choose which route to go down, no one tells you to go down the route you take. Unless you have been influenced by someone but it is your choice to go down it no matter what it is. 

There is similar saying “I accept that there is no right or wrong. There are many ways to see the situation.” – Rozine. Everyone does it differently there is no right or wrong answer; or no right or wrong way of doing things, however people think they know best don’t actually know best. It’s how everyone’s brain works differently; it goes to show that if everyone was on the right page, we would get on swimmingly but we need the equal balance in life to do things.