Who’s the worst critics Paperwork or Readers?

Due to all weekend paperwork everything seems to been gone out of the window. Let me explain.

The worst feeling ever is you don't even know if your the the worst critic about yourself when doing your paperwork or when you have readers who are like really supportive in what you do but then you have the crappy horrible critics. To be honest with you I'm the worst critic to myself than anyone else; but then again I can prove myself, my work and make a success out of it. Yet you have fair few who may think your a fake, you scamming them or something because they are either jealous or that they haven't got anything better to do other than try and rip you to shreds.

Hate those sort of people who want to be successful but actually they just see you as potential threat; because your making a success of yourself one way or another, yet for me I'm just pushing through life and want to do things for myself. In my way of thinking now is no matter how much negativity I'm getting from the critics now; I'm just thinking I don't give a sh*** anymore want to criticise for doing something I want to do, get off your own backside and do something you want to do than criticise other people. If anyone has any ideas on how I can fundraise for children in Nigeria let me know; I'm having great difficulties with the critics trying to shut me down with the fundraising through justgiving, and etc.

Paperwork always paperwork when it comes to blogging more so now as I've got two blogs to write for; double the amount of work to do, double the amount of paperwork to do and you have no idea how hard it is to get one set of paperwork to work. Then the other one you think yeah this would work for the other and yet the one you worked with for so long decides to trip you up at every hurled when you try and do it. Not cool man. You never guess which blog website it is? Ah that's what I thought not Sentebaleblogs but lizzysweeklyblogs.com is doing the whole tripping me up business. That's just because I'm starting from scratch again but coping it from the notebooks. She says then made a complete c*** out of it and had start all over again. You think it's should be easy if you did it the first time around with the other blog….but nooo when it comes to my brain it just has a complete brain fart as it does. After doing it for hours on end thinking it's never going to end. Still haven't finished what I was going to do with the paperwork because I was miffed about the whole fundraising thing I couldn't concentrate on it properly. Will get it done sooner than later. The one rant hustle and bustle advice of blogging that doesn't happen very much.

What has made you angry recently?

That part when you scheduled a post; you just about to post the same picture on another website, then you see what it had been written on the top. Your like opps! All well are you bothered about it? I’m not because guess what its a Monday extra in the first place during the week anyway. 

I’m quite glad that I found this title for this week and of course the subject. I did get mad when I realised what I had done; now I’m like whatever it’s a Monday extra feeling, no ones going to complain. Are they? Better not be….haha I’m joking really. 

What made me angrily recently was rules and laws that Caspian has to obey. No matter how much we try and raise the money; or do things we always seem to get blocked at every turn, even if we have had a lot of help to begin with. It just seemed to be never ending; yet no matter how much we argue or share our frustrations, we still love each other and always find away. Even when I’m having a lot of health wise kicking in; knowingly he can’t be there to help, knowingly he frustrates his job and family rules and law that they follow. Especially when you don’t have any money to do anything doesn’t help the situation either. That makes me more angry; as I’m working so hard that I’m just not getting anywhere hard enough, even though I’m trying my best to do everything that I can.

The second most recent thing that has made me feel so angry is people who; think I should apologise for something that I did, when it’s their own actions that have caused me to do that in the first place. That makes me angry; I hate where they think that they are so important because they have the highest status, you think actually are they for real and they show signs that that they can be frauds. Then deni that they aren’t abusing you; they are actually abuse comes across in lots of categories, mentally abuse is one of them and I should know.

Last but no means having the possibility of a hearing aid in one ear; after all this time not having to have one for 26 years or so, yeah it’s one of those things you will have to have them at some point in your life. I am grateful that I haven’t had to have them so far but now the whole sense of feeling like; I’m going back on myself again, proving myself that I can do things and to be able to carry on doing the things that I want to do. I just hate major set backs every time when something happens like my health issues kick in one way or another.

I think this blog has turned into more of a rant than what made you angry recently; unless it is a rant title name that give you the permission to do so, them I’m going to take this as advantage of using it as a rant Friday Time Recap Time! Along with sharing my rant anger with my fellow readers and bloggers who probably feel the exact same feeling that I do about certain things in life that shouldn’t happen but it does.

The worst bit is and this is the last complaint, rant, whatever you call is that my ear is causing so much pain that it’s much better if I had my head laying down. I can’t do that all day long can I. I have work to do ear and your not helping the situation haha.