Saturday Online Diary Entries: “Coming back home” – Story Based

Another summer’s day has come and gone away like in Paris and Rome; I just want to come home because I missing you so much and you know it, yet I’m surrounded by people that I don’t truly know and I feel more alone I just want to come home. I miss you more and more you know me so well. I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you with one a line or two with “I’m fine baby how are you?” I know I would send them but it’s just not enough because you deserve more than that of the words that are cold and flat.
Another aeroplane. Another sunny place. I know I should be lucky but I just want to go home; I’m pleading with my assistants and security to take me home because I got to go home, let me go home I’m too far from where you are I’ve got to go home I’m missing you so much. I’ve had my run baby you know when I’m done I just want to come home to have my hug and have my safety net near me at all times.
The fact that I just feel like I’m living someone else’s life like everything is going right as I stepped outside; I know you couldn’t come along with me because this wasn’t you’re dream but you always believed in me and you decided to come with me a few times. Yet another winter day has come and gone away either in Paris or Rome and I want to come home to be with you because I miss you so much you know.
Let me go home I’ve had my run because I’m done now I’ve finished my tour around the world; I’m done now everything will be alright because I’ll be home tonight, I’m coming back home.

To rehabilitate and help others 

To rehabilitate and help others

This week I do have to say I struggled in the way of what to write for you guys in your hour of need; as my thoughts are still with the victims and who had passed away, but I believe there is good to come out of this and also it is very useful for every single of you as you read this today. 

I’m going to research or have researched quotes that you guys may like in the way of you can relate too; most importantly you guys have way cooler films at your age than when I was your age, believe me they were still in the making and starting out in my day. 

“Fairy Godmother: Now off you go… for you *shall* go to the ball.” – From Cinderella film. 

No matter how you feel about yourself; how scared you are? Or how anxious you are of going out to place? Due to the fact that bad things have happened to you; always have this quote with you, to give yourself the courage that you need to do when you get out of the house. That’s the best step forward is going to be able to go through that door and keep living. 

“Belle: [singing] I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I can tell… And for once it might be grand to have someone understand, I want so much more than they’ve got planned!” – From Beauty and The Beast. 

Don’t let your adventures stop because they have taken away your dreams and what they have planned for the rest of the world. Show them who’s boss. Show them that you are the one in charge. Let them. Know that you are standing up to them; with everyone who was a victim of the terror attacks understand, what it must feel like of the unknowing and what to do with themselves. 

“Aladdin: Wow. The palace looks pretty amazing, huh? 

Princess Jasmine: [glumly] Oh… It’s wonderful. 

Aladdin: I wonder what it’d be like to live there, and have servants, and valets. 

Princess Jasmine: Oh, sure. People who tell you where to go and how to dress. 

Aladdin: That’s better than here. You’re always scraping for food and ducking the guards. 

Princess Jasmine: You’re not free to make your own choices. 

Aladdin: Sometimes you feel so… 

Princess Jasmine: You’re just… 

Aladdin, Princess Jasmine: …trapped” – Aladdin

To be able to hold someone’s hand once again; like saying “do you trust me” and you hesitate of the uncertainty of what is going to happen if you set foot outside again, when they ask you again and you put your hand in theirs. Reply with a “yes” as they open the door still holding your hand not letting go; you feel anxious of not letting go, you know the massive big success in yourself. To acknowledge that you just got yourself out of the house; so you wouldn’t feel so trapped inside watching the world go by, but making the decisions off that are right for you. 

Just finding quotes that matter to you and how you feel. Even best way to do it is to analysis the quote of what it means to you; you alone and no one else, expect you as your the only one that can make it happen. People have different types off ways that the quotes mean to them; it’s not right or wrong people, are different to everyone else. Give it ago what do you think quotes mean to you.

My garden back then!


This week has to be the most topsy turvy week everything is going in the wrong places; blogs not being done, don’t worry all will go back to normal soon as I’ve got everything sorted. Being ill, bank holidays and going to work then not going to work just mess everything up. On the good note I have a surprise for you this week it’s an old picture of my garden way before it looks now. 

My garden back then!

This is a picture curtsy of my next door neighbor for 26 years of my life but longer than that before I was born. 29 years as my parents moved in when they were expecting my second oldest brother at the time. 
The garden then was pretty awesome not saying it looks awesome now; but at the time of growing up the whole garden looked big, with a big space you could play in you could put more play things in. On which my parents did over the years; I don’t remember much now but you tend to forget over the years, as the times and the eras change. 

At the end of the garage there was a Wendy House; that my dad had built for me when I was a kid it apparently was turned into lots of things, like flower shop, shrieking shack, Chinese Restaurant and many others that I don’t remember. My sister had the Wendy House after I didn’t need it; however me and my siblings use to jump off the roof as for fun, that’s what we did in those days, well my brothers did in those days. They would get up to loads of things back then. More settle down now but still up to no good when they want to be. Now in the Wendy House’s place for my mums 50th present she wanted a green house; the fun of knocking down the Wendy House, along with three of us. Me, my sister who was about 11 or 12 I think not sure at the time and one of my brothers were knocking it down. Just the two of them would go flying into the Wendy House every so often with the sledgehammer; at that time they were bit of light weights, as I was a bit heavier who could stand my ground a bit more. Haha not boosting or anything but I think now they can do more than I can I think as they’ve put more weight on. 

Where the climbing frame is, the rabbit hut is and the little seating area is. Is now currently has a trampoline in the corner, my mums vegetable patch and the green house is now sitting. From the rabbit hutch to the shed is now a more adulty seating area to get away from the house, if you can these days now when you have the Sainsbury’s car park and etc.

In a few weeks time or so I’ll do another #throwbackthursday with a most recent update photo of my back garden to show you how much it has changed over the years.