Life crisis your only 26 years old 

You guys are probably thinking oh why am I listening to her about her life crisis; I can tell you now when you read this, or when you have finished you will think “oh damn she’s right”. So button it shrimpy! Haha jokes on you. 

So this is a story that I’ve never told; well publicly I haven’t but making you aware young ones, even adults might want to hear this or read this as well. To which they can be aware the warning signs of health issues within themselves or their child. 

About 12 or 13 was the time when I first start my first period; yes I’m going there people, tough luck people it’s got to happen one way or another. Even I didn’t want to do it but then I had to push the boat out and do it; not for myself but my fellow readers, also young readers who feel embarrassed about these things and most importantly peer pressure around school. When I started I was at wedding in a my local church that my parents went to; I had started not to feel to brilliantly with tummy cramps and everything, I didn’t know what was happening. Until I got home and went to the bathroom that’s when I noticed I had started; so I didn’t know want to do, so I called my mum to come up and she explained everything to me. 

Over the years at school I would have to be sent home because I was feeling brilliant it was always around the time I was on; the most awarked time was when I was out with my dad one day with my sister and one of my brothers, didn’t really think much of it to be honest with you at that time when you were having them that something was wrong in health wise. 

Until I was 21 years old I had noticed that I would get really bad period pains but nothing happened; it would continue to so throughout the summer of 2012, to which point I had to go to the doctors because it was rather strange at the time and worrying that something wasn’t right. So I went for my appointments and tests; to learn that I had Poloystic Overies Syndrome, were the eggs are bigger than normal that’s the reason why I was getting bad pains. The downside was that I may not be able to have kids in later in life; but I’m not having my hopes up to be honest, also don’t want to think about it too much. I just thought if I can get through being not hearing and having a learning disabilities; I can manage to get through this thing whatever it was, so my doctor gave me contraceptive pill to which I reacted quite badly to. Every 21 days I would have my head down the toilet to which to their surprise; to make me stop taking them and see how I get on without it for a few months, then May 2013 I had implant put in and since then I’ve been perfectly fine. Odd occasions I would get the odd bleeds but I would go straight down to the doctors to ask why it was happening. Other than that I was good to go. 

Between 23/24 years old I had started to become more drawn to myself in away that people were starting to notice that I wasn’t myself; it became more and more apparent as I had started back at work, then becoming signed off work. That’s when I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety; I had the most darkest times then but now that I’m currently not working, I’m starting to feel a bit more well and being able to do things more. However I do have my down days as well but it’s okay I always have great support in the family and friends around me. 

I know get signs for what might be Lacoste Intolerance haven’t been diagnosed with it but due to family members having it; kind of know what it is that’s causing it, so I’ve been voiding as much chocolate even though I love it. Anything with dairy in it because it would send me to a I don’t feel so great mood. Should get it tested out incase it is. Noticed it more between 25/26 years old than any other years. 

If you have any worries that you can’t talk to someone or need an advice on something email on especial account for your enquiries on the topics you have read. 

All the best good luck 



The feeling of lost and confused.

The feeling of lost and confused.

The weekend that had my whole world just got turned upside down. To the point of freaking out and confused. 

The hardest part of this is I don’t know where to begin to write; I suppose I should start from the beginning, then find the end somewhere. Would be a good start wouldn’t it. I like to make sure that my readers and clients know this is everyone’s worst nightmare; for themselves, but also for a parent or a child witnesses their love ones crumble or confused. This is what I want to share with you on my daily basis; I do have good days really good ones, however I have really bad days that I can’t seem to get out off. 

As I’m writing this I would like to say thank you for reading and listening to my story; also I’ve actually got a clear head, where I’m doing loads of posts for you think I’ve writing about three in one day; one was a hit and miss but it was alright, two with clear head. Which is achievement. 

My story begins with meeting a guy who I thought he really liked me; felt like we known each other for months, but it was only a week. When it came to the mid week we met up; he really liked me and I really liked him, I thought he said would you go out with me and come round. By Friday I was trying to contact him as I was having a complete nervous breakdown; until I found out that someone else messaged me back to which my whole world turn upside, I had wished he would talk to me first but the whole weekend he hadn’t messaged me at all. 

I couldn’t understand why someone would do that to someone who they really liked; then something more unusual happened to me, on which I can’t say private client confidentiality etc etc etc. To be honest my head is still coming around to the idea; but they didn’t know or what was happening at the time, probably now know why my head is over the place. All I can say nice one guys. Not like I’m complaining or anything it’s rather nice to be able to be recognised with the whole what I do; how I do things, and what not. 

I wish I could revel my clients but I promised myself and to them I wouldn’t. Yeah whilst everything was going on in my head; the guy that I liked, having multiples of anxiety attacks and along with private clients. I think I have lost quite a lot of sleep in one weekend; I don’t even know if I’m going to get much sleep tonight after I’ve finished here. Sunday 11th June 2017. 

Living with anxiety is hard everything is out of your control; sometimes when I’m completely out of control, I don’t know what I’m saying and apologies if I had offended them. It’s going to be a long night now; just had a paracetamol just to bring down how hot I’m feeling, but also to help calm my nerves as well I was literally getting the shakes. On which it might of trapped a nerve in my wrist or I’ve done something to it, so use to it now it’s like my second nature if you ask me. Good night I hope you all have a lovely sweet dreams as I’m going to try and get some sleep. If not I have no idea what I’m going to do. 

Nothing is like bitter sweet

Nothing is like bitter sweet

Nothing is like bitter sweet! But when it comes to mental health that’s when everything falls apart. The past 24 hours I’ve hardly had much sleep; the last time I had slept I think it was my first anxiety attack.

I wanted to write this today; to show people how things can be difficult if one lives with one mental health issue, for me living with it comes with a price. Price that I’ve regret as I wasn’t thinking straight; I couldn’t really pull myself out of it this time, I was in it far too deep. Despite what was going on around me; I still couldn’t seem to get out of it no matter what, sometimes I have to apologise for what my actions may off caused people at the time of when I was having it. 

Hang on a second let me just go and do something first; I then return back to continue this post for you guys, it’s not going to be easy but I have to make the first step. It’s the first time that I’ve actually had a major one in a very long time; I knew it was coming because it was the feeling of sick, the anxious feelings at certain times of the day. The hardest bit I think is not having someone wrapping their arms around me; holding me tight making sure that I was going to be alright, safe and most importantly knowing that I can trust them to pull myself out of it. 

The worst bit is when one is in that frame of mind; you start to look for things that you can blame yourself for or others, so it can trigger anxiety off even more. You can’t help it; the nature of its course has to be careful, no matter how things wind you up or how selfish other people are you think you just want them to get over themselves and grow up. 

Each morning no matter how hard it is for me to get up on some mornings; I still manage to put on make up, do my hair and look ready for the day. No matter how much I don’t want to and stay in bed all day and recover from the whole attack. I still have to press on and carry on the day like nothing has happened. Well after a few hours of actually completing my hair and make up on which it shouldn’t of taken as long as it should of done but always; now back to work with writing this blog, even though I’m so tired but heyho as least it’s nice and sunny today. 

Today agenda is not really much but most probably sleep and working on blogs. In which trying to catch up on myself a bit as I didn’t do much for the last couple of days as it has been quite difficult think of what to write. The joys of the after effects of having anxiety attacks is that it really tiring and you can’t do much the next day; sometimes I’m alright and get on with it, like no body knows because I get through it all. 

78 words left to go and I’m starting to ramble; ramble isn’t it good in my opinion unless your making sense of what your talking about, or knowing where your going with it all. 20 words left to go; does anyone else do this when they can’t think of anything to write, I do it all the time when I was a kid doing exams when you have to do x amount of words in a eassy. I’m not much of an eassy fan it freaks me out. But yet I’m doing blogs of 600 words and now gone over haha. The joys of anxiety and what not make you do things your really don’t think your good enough. 

The Body Shop Haul

The Body Shop Haul 

The most favourite shop so far this year has to be the Body Shop. Hardly shop in there until this year on my birthday and recently ran out of my favourite Shower gel.

The Body Shop located in my hometown as it’s been placed up the most historic monument full of cobbles; old buildings, statues and historic buildings on the high street. It’s quite a small shop not that small that you can only fit 5 to 10 people like Lush in the Friary Street; when I first went in there and came out with something for myself, it had to be on my birthday which was back in January. Lucky me really. I cam out with Strawberry shower gel that was like 75ml I think it was on which lasted me 5 months when it ran out on me; I really like that scent of strawberries lingering on my skin, I also brought the villina and chili body butter. It’s one of those things that I haven’t really worked it out if I like it or not; it was try and error if you ask me, as I wasn’t really into hand cream and what not at the time but now I have been using quite a lot on my skin as it’s been so dry and sweaty my skin had been horrible. That was because of the heat we’ve been having recently; now we’ve got the rain, so it’s been a bit cooler than it has been.

Now that I’ve got your attention of what I first brought in The Body Shop; I’m going to introduce you to the small cute box that had my goodies in, my they were even more cute in the box. I really didn’t want to upset the rangement; that was careful arranged by someone who had done it, that’s why I took pictures of it so that I could do my haul. 

I’m going to start with let me see; let’s go with my strawberry goodies as there’s more off them than anything else in the box, as I said previously my big bottle of strawberry shower gel had ran out and I had to go back to the normal boring dove soap for awhile until my parcel arrived with my order. I use to like dove but I’m not anymore as I’ve got so use to having strawberry shower gel; I’ve became accustomed to using everyday weather it’s in the bath or a shower, I think I might off gone over board with the strawberry collection from The Body Shop all well. What makes me happy makes me happy. So I have a medium size bottle of strawberry shower gel if you can call it that; well I just did so I’m going to stick with it, I then couldn’t help get the mini bottle of the shower gel. Not even shower why I put it in my handbag; along with some other things, you never know when you going to need them do you if your out and about. Then I’ve got the most dinky little hand bag size strawberry body butter; I was like in heaven when that came, was like I’m so putting it in my handbag with my peach flavour that I had been given from a work colleague at the end of term of last year’s academic year. Love that flavour as well. Mmm. 

The next one I think I’ll go to is milk almond and honey; now this is something that I haven’t used before so I wanted to see and try it out on my hands, also I’ve put it in my handbag with the other two. The smell of the hand cream was so nice; that I know that I can get some more of that when I run out of it near the time, it’s handy to have three small different kind of body butter hand cream in my handbag because when you really need to moisturise your hands you get that sense of feeling off my hands can breathe. 

Last but not least Shea. Shea has to be the most gorgeous smell that I have ever smelt and tried on; Shea is a spray bottle, the bottle is glass so be careful if you get this product. Shea reminds me of the sea side; with the sea salt air, the smell of the warm damp summers day that was coming towards us or it has been and gone.  

To rehabilitate and help others 

To rehabilitate and help others

This week I do have to say I struggled in the way of what to write for you guys in your hour of need; as my thoughts are still with the victims and who had passed away, but I believe there is good to come out of this and also it is very useful for every single of you as you read this today. 

I’m going to research or have researched quotes that you guys may like in the way of you can relate too; most importantly you guys have way cooler films at your age than when I was your age, believe me they were still in the making and starting out in my day. 

“Fairy Godmother: Now off you go… for you *shall* go to the ball.” – From Cinderella film. 

No matter how you feel about yourself; how scared you are? Or how anxious you are of going out to place? Due to the fact that bad things have happened to you; always have this quote with you, to give yourself the courage that you need to do when you get out of the house. That’s the best step forward is going to be able to go through that door and keep living. 

“Belle: [singing] I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I can tell… And for once it might be grand to have someone understand, I want so much more than they’ve got planned!” – From Beauty and The Beast. 

Don’t let your adventures stop because they have taken away your dreams and what they have planned for the rest of the world. Show them who’s boss. Show them that you are the one in charge. Let them. Know that you are standing up to them; with everyone who was a victim of the terror attacks understand, what it must feel like of the unknowing and what to do with themselves. 

“Aladdin: Wow. The palace looks pretty amazing, huh? 

Princess Jasmine: [glumly] Oh… It’s wonderful. 

Aladdin: I wonder what it’d be like to live there, and have servants, and valets. 

Princess Jasmine: Oh, sure. People who tell you where to go and how to dress. 

Aladdin: That’s better than here. You’re always scraping for food and ducking the guards. 

Princess Jasmine: You’re not free to make your own choices. 

Aladdin: Sometimes you feel so… 

Princess Jasmine: You’re just… 

Aladdin, Princess Jasmine: …trapped” – Aladdin

To be able to hold someone’s hand once again; like saying “do you trust me” and you hesitate of the uncertainty of what is going to happen if you set foot outside again, when they ask you again and you put your hand in theirs. Reply with a “yes” as they open the door still holding your hand not letting go; you feel anxious of not letting go, you know the massive big success in yourself. To acknowledge that you just got yourself out of the house; so you wouldn’t feel so trapped inside watching the world go by, but making the decisions off that are right for you. 

Just finding quotes that matter to you and how you feel. Even best way to do it is to analysis the quote of what it means to you; you alone and no one else, expect you as your the only one that can make it happen. People have different types off ways that the quotes mean to them; it’s not right or wrong people, are different to everyone else. Give it ago what do you think quotes mean to you.

The worst feeling when you still feel sick

The worst feeling when you still feel sick

No matter what you do or how you do it; you somehow still feel sick, does anyone get that feeling. I do once in a while but I was feeling like it as soon as I was nearly home from seeing my brother who lives in Northampton; I don’t even know what it was to be honest, then I still felt sick the next day but it was like a wave of nausea until I ate something and now it’s gone. 

I had a few hours sleep; to which I find out that I had loads of messages, one was a cancellation of a date/meeting up. Not going to start blaming myself for it to be honest with you; doing that quite well on my own on that one, however the feeling sick and nausea is still playing up. I think it’s my medication playing up again not too sure but heyho; at least I’ve worked out how to plan my goals for my blogs, as it has taken me two months to work it out how to do it. 

Just had a pretty much a chilled out day; people cancelling on me or making up excuses or something because I’m not worth the hassle, but hey I was out in the sun getting sun burnt. Let the sun be more sunny and enjoyable than the rain. 

How do you sort out dried/raised skin when you have been sweating so much?


Everyone sweats time to time and they can’t help it at all; no matter what shape or size you are everyone gets sweaty, you make think I’m skinny and I don’t sweaty. Oh boy I can tell you now I’m not skinny and I do sweat a lot even when I don’t do anything. 

How do you sort out dried/raised skin. When you have been sweating so much?

I sweat in all of the wrong places that I don’t want to be sweating believe me it’s horrible; this is because my skin is so soft and sensitive, it reacts to the point of it leaves marks where I have to turn to moisture to calm it all down before I didn’t have to worry so much because I would wear my leggings. For example that’s where I get marked quite easily on the inside of my thighs; that’s because if I didn’t wear my leggings or a dress that can let the air get to then sweat, that’s when they begin to rub. At the best of times it doesn’t work if it’s really hot and I haven’t got leggings on. It’s a shame that it got to that point of I have to wear leggings monjority of the time because it’s just horrible when it happens; but I do use cream a lot when something like that happens because the constants of putting moisture on is like saying I’ve got to do this everyday for it to calm down.

Where ever the dried skin or raised skin is I would recommend moisture or body butter to use; apply it each morning, each night when you wake up and go to bed because this will help you to reduce the sweat through out the day and night. It actually helps preventing the whole dried or raised skin from happening; I use body butter where I had raised spotty skin in the most inconvenient place ever, right under my boobs sorry guys quite embarrassing place to mention. I have to put cream on before I put clothes on; if I don’t I start to sweat so badly to the point of my bra starts to become increasingly annoying and I start to each; but since putting body butter on underneath that has to be one easy thing to do, sometimes I think oh I don’t think I need to put it. Oh yes I blooming do; so I do try and put it on everyday without fail; I can certainly say guys it has cleared up so much, it hasn’t even left any marks on my skin, also make sure that you dry off properly if you have a shower or a bath under there ladies before you put anything on. 

I hope this all helps and another thing I’m trying out is a crop to bra thing it’s just a little top from Primark that I had brought years ago; I just thought I’ll see how this goes for a week because if I’m wearing full tops in bed, it’s a lot harder to let the air get underneath and I do have to say it’s working wonders. 

Mental Health for young people


For young people

Young people can experience a range of mental health problems. Childhood and teenage years are a time when you are usually changing rapidly and developing all the time.

You also often have to cope with many different situations and unfamiliar challenges like exams, relationships and the other pressures of growing up.

While often it’s possible to talk to parents or carers about feelings, you may find it hard to do so. You might express how you feel through being moody, getting in trouble at school or at home or by becoming angry easily. Some people also get odd aches and pains that can happen when you’re not able to say what you’re feeling.

If you’re able to carry on your usual life and don’t experience lasting unpleasant feelings, the best help is for parents, relatives or friends to be available to listen, to talk things through and to support you where they can. 

More rarely, you may experience difficulties that are more severe or long lasting, or you may find yourself reacting to setbacks in a more extreme way. You may tell parents or friends that you are distressed or unable to cope, or you may try to hint that you are and hope they speak to you.  This can lead to the support you want.  Often though, you may find you show distress through acting differently, with more intense moods or behaviour, either at home, at school, or with friends.

Occasionally, your feelings or mood may be so extreme or upsetting that you need urgent help. If you’re self-harming, running away, or saying you no longer want to go on living then you may need immediate support. If this sort of feeling continues for some time it is a particular clue that you might need to look to get help to cope with your mental health.

For parents

If you are a parent living with a mental health problem you might find our guide to parenting and mental health useful. If you are concerned about a child then see organisations listed under Useful contacts for more information.

Website I got this from is 

Mental Health for young people

I sometimes find when I read or hear on the news that sometimes parents don’t even notice that their children are depressed or self harming; before they realise it’s too late when they commit suicide or run away, then you have no hope to understand why until they find all the evidence and they wish they could of seen the signs, read more and have more knowledge about mental health. 

Some parents are always there for the kids who go throw it; help them to get well, be there for them and let them come to them or go to them if they need to talk. Monjority of the young people’s parents know they are helpless; but trying to help them fight it along side them, gives them more encouragement to do so. 

You then have your parents who can only give you so much care; until they have had enough of it, telling you to do things, snap out of it and etc. Makes you feel a whole lot worse than you already are; that’s because people don’t understand what it’s like living with it, when they are feeling down about things or stressed about things. They start to take it out on you because they know your the weakest; that’s when you start to withdraw yourself more and more, but yet they still can’t see it and do it more.

All of your useful tips as parents and young people please go to the website under the introduction. This has more information and contacts for you to look for in guidance and to help.

Life of living with MHI and PCSOS


May I like to say is that I have plucked up the courage to inform you that; I am raising awareness of two topics that this blog is about, I’m going to tell you how I cope with them with everyday life.

MHI = Mental Health Issues

PCSO = Polycystic Ovaries Syndrome 

These are what the codes mean when I use them throughout the blog; as it is easier for me to write more easier and more freely as I can, when I’m sharing with you about them all. 

Life of living with MHI and PCSO

Living with these conditions can come easy at the best of times; however sometimes it is harder than to expect when one can play off the other if both go at the same time, or they can be perfectly fine. 

At 21 years of age I was diagnosed with PCSO due to massive big badly period pains; but yet no period that came, throughout my teens I use to have bad period pains and they would come. I use to go home early from school because I would end up in tears or wanting to throw up or worse off be in so much pain that I had to go home because I have to take something and sleep it off.

When I was diagnosed I had to take contraceptive pills on which made me ill; every 21 days I would have my head down the toilet every time I had finish it, then I had to stop taking it and now I have contraceptive implant that’s been perfectly fine odd occasions over the 6 years I had now and then periods but not for long or just in pains. 

However most recently it’s started to flare up again with a lot of stress that I’m under and in so much pain along with mood swings which is effecting my other health issue. Which is called mental health issues.

By the age of 22/23 I was diagnosed with depression and GAD (General Anxiety Disorder); this has been challenging for very long time, been on lots of different medication for it and etc. Still trying to find ways to be able to reduce the stigmas of them; but haven’t quite find out what ones work and etc, been to youth counselling and CBT. It has been a very long ride; however with my current situations it has been a lot harder to battle through it all, on which has effected my PCOS on which I have mention up above. This is still a work in progress for me but will talk about it more in the near future and I never let define me or defeat me as much as it tries to.

How do you distress yourself after a day’s work?


You may realise that you might see a regular of the same person in different pictures for my categories; it’s okay I have permission for using the pictures as she is my cousin and she has that look about her that is very photogenic, on which gives me ideas for categories or useful pictures for other things. 

How do you distress yourself after a day’s work? 

Some days I’m actually okay that I don’t really need to distress myself; some days I really do especially today (12.5.17 which was a Monday) after the day I’ve had I literally needed a long walk home from work, even longer than the two routes that I’ve been taken for the past two weeks. 

I was that stressed out; I needed it, needed to be on my own and I needed my space before I literally hunted someone. (Not that kind of way honest) by the time I got home I had one massive splitting headache; on which the air was so humid that I had a headache, my lower back was killing me and both of my health issues had started to play up as well. 

I got to my bedroom I literally in so much pain that I just wanted to lay on my bed on my front; couldn’t even turn around to say bye to my parents because I was in so much pain, I literally after awhile I don’t even know how much time has passed since they left to see a relative to be honest. Must of fallen asleep or something because I was getting dinner for myself; that was done, eaten and put into the kitchen. I was in the bath by 6:15pm got out; my sister had arrived home; I could feel the paracetamol kicking in by that stage with a bit of help with the warm bath, that I just had put my pjs on because I forgot to bring my cream with me at the time. 

Took more medication that I actually needed to take anyways; just incase I feel asleep and not take them, I was literally in bed by 7pm normally I’m in bed by 8pm. My normal bed time is pretty much between 9-10pm but because of work and health issues its down to the energy that I can face of doing at the moment. Feel like I’m going back to being a kid going to bed when it’s still light outside. 

Now I’m currently chilling out in bed not doing much; just managed to stay awake doing this blog to be honest with you, I’m that determined to do it for you guys and get it up and running.