Hauls: 1st March Haul 2018 – Superdrug Haul

Been awhile since my last haul which I do have to add it was my birthday haul at the time; I thought finally I have a bit of money that I can get a few bits that I need for myself that I need, so I go online for Superdrug which is a store in the UK that I get monjority of my make up and etc. Guess what the parcel came today. I ordered it Monday, it was shipped Wednesday and came today (Friday 2nd March 2018). Yeah me. Let’s see what’s in my box. No I won’t go into singing “what’s in the box?” Megs I’m not there anymore jeez man.

Took me awhile to get to the box which reminds me of a shoe box to be honest. As it was tightly stuck down and quite rightly so because it’s somebody’s order and everything else. Then inside I have found my lovely goodies inside here’s what I found in my box neatly packed by someone from the store.

All my little things that I needed and what I was running out off but also what I’m going to try as well. Funny thing was is that I didn’t remember ordering one thing twice but I looked at my shipping thing and it said I did but all well. I like doubles of things when I have the money to do so.

Red Passion Live hair dye: I needed to redye my hair anyway it needed doing especially to stop the grey coming through I’m quite paranoid about my four greys showing I’m only in my late 20s jeez. I like my red hair too and you guys associate me with red hair than any other colour; that’s if you follow me on instagram or on facebook page or twitter then you know why, haha. Plus it will go well with my hair extensions as well that I have as well.

Collections Products: I needed a new concealer and I wanted to try out the Collections purple correction stick thing. So it was on a deal where you buy two Collections products for £5 or something you get a Collection Extreme Bold Eyeliner missed a whole lot of the name of it but all well. Yet I got it for free.

Barry M Products: Flawless Original Primer I use this religiously because it helps to tone down the foundation and stays on my face longer unless it doesn’t snow or rain stays on for longer.

Revolution Products: I wanted to try out the Duo Brow Definer liner as it looked awesome and I haven’t used one in a long time. Somehow I managed to order two without knowing that I did but doesn’t matter at least I have another one ready. Then a small Revolution Make Up Revolution London Ultra Contour Kit Lightening Contour I wanted to try it out to see what it was like if it was good I’ll get again.

Sorry guys I’m have got a picture but it’s not letting me post it up sad times.

I always like to try something new and then if it’s worth it then get again. There is no reason to try something different if you like it you like it but if you don’t you don’t. It’s no harm done because you can just use it up and then look for another one to try out.

Everyday Post: Another snow day!

First day of a new month another snow day; all I can say is that it is very cold indeed, and most importantly snow comes and goes laying on the previous snow that had once fallen on the ground the previous day. All I can say is this that the UK has got some sort of idea when it comes to snow to close schools and etc making sure that everyone’s safety is put first, as such for me work was cancelled once again for me and to be honest quite right so to be honest. I didn’t really fancy going out in this sort of weather to be honest but a friend of mine decides to go out in it to see someone but I’m not going to go into it.

I decided that without the annoying dog from a neighbour I would rather sleep, watch Netflix’s and keep warm to be quite frankly with you. I always like watching the snow but I never much like going in it these days maybe it’s because I’m getting old or something I don’t know but yet just watching it makes me just want to fall asleep it’s just soothing and quiet. I’m like that with the rain I wouldn’t go out in it unless if I have to because it’s like the snow it’s soothing but loud as you watch it. In the summer is the only time I actually like it because I open my window just a tad to listen to it and bobs your uncle I’m asleep.

Netflix I’ve been watching Pride and Prejudice with Colin Firth in it along to which a friend of mine read a book as he was telling me about it; he literally said that Elizabeth and Jane in the story reminded him of me, to which I thought it was quite nice of him to say until I decided to watch the program again. To his fair point he is actually right about something. Today is a chilled out day which is nice for me nothing to have to worry about or anything. Safe in my own house and snow can’t get me in the house hehe. Stay nice and warm guys.

Wednesday Evening Post: Catch Up Catch Up Post!

So sorry guys I spent the day out and never posted any blogs. I’m sorry but the internet has been dodgy because we are experiencing rather strange thing called the snow over here in the UK; it’s this sort of white stuff that floats from the sky, lays on the floor when it wants to be. Anyways. I didn’t have to work either because of the alerts of the snow and etc but few other people had too.

Apparently it my phone app says partly cloudy -4C; wrong I’m wearing about three layers of clothing, don’t even get me started on the bed covers and the throws. Have you not looked outside phone it’s snowing and most of all the clouds are most likely to burst it’s clouds. I don’t think it will carry on for much longer than this.

I told you stupid phone never listens to me it’s started again haha. Since this week of snow I’ve now picked up another cold ay ay ay. Pretty much today I’ve been out with a best mate of mine because her job had closed and for the rest of the week as well lucky sod haha mine might be if I’m lucky but then again I could get away with it. I don’t know haha.

If I haven’t posted up any blogs up the next few days don’t panic don’t panic now you know that I’m having snow blizzards and it effects EVERYTHING! So don’t panic okay you have other blogs to read about as well. Go on read my other blogs as well don’t be scared. Go on.

Teen lifestyle: Blah Blah Blah

I’m standing in the tennis court at school with a group around me; I just can’t believe what’s coming out of your mouth, it’s just blah blah blah to me because all of it is wrong, lies and everything so just zip your lips like a padlock nobody needs to know how said your life is or how jealous you are about mine. Just meet me at the back with jack and the jukebox I really don’t care where you live or which boy you stole because let me just hit you as I know I’m not that little bitch that you been chit chatting about. Just show me where your dick is at if you have one that is.

My music is up I’m just listen to new hot stuff; I’m in love with this song called “ignorance” so just hush, oh please love just shut up I’ve heard enough with your talking.Stop ta-ta-talking about that because it’s all blah blah blah; you think you’ll be getting this, getting all that because your a spoilt little brat and everybody knows that you self centred. Nah nah nah your not sitting in my back car or getting a lift home because you think we are good friends.

You just keep on talking about that how you love mum because she’s way better than yours blah blah blah. Oh come on I really don’t care about your middle name is or how much you delay the class for your stupidity because you flirt with every guy teacher. You always be saying some shit and I all I say is out loud is “BLAH BLAH BLAH,” just stop talking already. I just want to set your hair alight or smash your face in because I just don’t care anymore.

Monday Topics: Find the Nigerian Girls now!

Abductions has raised again in Nigeria the most chilling tale that back in April 2014 and now February 2018 four years on; the chilling similarities are that the kidnappings and stay silent where the jihadists had diving more than 270 girls into the bush and set up camp. In April 2014 the military and the government had denied that the abductions that had been taken place in Chibok which is 275km (170 miles) south east of Dapchi.

Yet they had never able to find the girls over the four years; yet the four years on the world and the country has once again witnessed the denials and misinformation, that have been given from the authorities to which lead the disbelief and anger that has been seen from the parents. You may find that some in Nigeria have accused the government for being slow to respond or issuing a public statement for acknowledging that this will reoccur more now than it has been.

According to a BBC news reporter who’s based in the capital of Abuja that the government had lead to believe that the girls had been later on kidnapped to which they only accepted at the time. However the story became more confusing as it was slowly coming to a light that as different brunches of the government and the army had begun tit diverging their own accounts; who would the Nigerian people believe now, to which point where was the extent of how many girls had been rescued from the dreaded nightmare. It came more alight at the time of the announcement there wasn’t any acknowledgement had been made of the kidnapping but any official.

There’s been a biggest argument there is where the government and the parents of the missing girls of how many girls who are missing that day. The persistence of the parents have told them from the beginning of the abduction from the school was more than 100 girls that had been missing to which has 926 students; according to the authorities that the figure that they were giving were 40 but continued to say that many had run away into the bush, and would no doubt reappear soon.

This lead in the end of the stress and fed up of all of the confusion parents had formed a group to produce a list of 105 names; which in fact the government had come back with total number of girls who are missing, the total of missing is 110. It goes to show that the government hasn’t really understood how serious this is when their country is well known to have crime, kidnappings and etc. Yet more than 100 girls from a boarding school in the North eastern Nigeria had gone missing; plus the ones 4 years ago its becoming more apparent that their government is becoming weaken more and more if they don’t do something about this, all we know is that group of militants presumably from Boko Haram arrived in the town of Dapchi Yobe State during the evening of Monday 19th February 2018.

They were heading for the Government Girls Science and Technical College yet they were fleeing while later. Original claims that many of the girls had escaped and no one had been kidnapped; a week later authorities have retreated back to what they had said a week ago that the girls were taken by the Islamist extremists, which is it? Did they run away from the nightmare or actually been taken by the Islamist extremists?

Now that they realised how serious this situation is they should of gone straight into the huge scale search a week ago; not taken them a week that the girls have actually been taken, the fact that they should realise the extent of how many of the girls were taken before and now roughly the same amount have been taken. They could of been taken out of the country or soon be taken out of the country if they had a week a head.

I just pray that the girls will come home to their families soon because its the worst thing that any child or parent have to go through. Wether they are dead or alive or still in the country.

Hustle and Bustle Advice of Blogging: Invisible and Non – Invisible Of Blogging

Sometimes you think what’s the point of me writing because everyone seems to not like my blog work or anything; what’s the point of carrying on? What’s the point of doing this? What am I doing wrong? Don’t panic I have those days I can tell you that right now even with the whole I think my blogs are rubbish and etc. It’s all okay to be invisible at the best of times but you just have to sit tight and work through it. Even if you get reviews that are between 20/30 or below it’s still good that’s your good that’s a stable amount yeah you think your still invisible.

At the best of times you get something out of the blue a massive big spikes of views and visitors you then get the whole non-invisible everyone know who you are. That’s when you know that you have written like good and people are interested in your work. The fun fact is that just don’t give up on writing just carry on; take a break if you get stuck because you are allowed to it’s not against the law if you get stuck, and you always have your other blogs to fill you in whilst your working on your new niche.

True writers like J.K.Rowling she became invisible because publishers at the time declined her first Harry Potter book so many times but she never gave up; until her current publisher took a gamble, and now look at her a multi-millionaire author who still continues to write stories and experimenting new things as well. Now the publishers that declined her novel writing are kicking themselves years later for not believing in her or her stories. Just believe in yourselves and your work it will take time. Just keep knocking them dead with your work.

Everyday Post: The time when I should be spring cleaning!

It’s that time of year that you should start doing spring cleaning after you hearing someone getting the hover out and doing the hovering but you just can’t be bothered to do it. Yep that’s me. Right now I just haven’t got the patience or the willingness to tidy up my room right now. You may think I’m just lazy or something but it could be true at the end of the day it’s how I feel at the time sometimes I just haven’t got the energy or I’m not feeling right and all I want to do is sleep.

There’s a reason for me not feeling right and sleeping a lot but my room really does need to be done a lot and my bruo needs to be fixed and everything else in the room. Yet I just can’t be bothered too. I have started to do a bit of spring cleaning on my blog website because there were a few categories and tags that I thought I don’t use those anymore or why did I come up with those at the time. What was I thinking.

That’s when I realise that when I first started doing my blogs I hadn’t got a clue what I was going what so ever. So it was a bit of blessing in disguise that it was time to start clearing out a few bits of my blogging site; to which I can create more things that are relevant to the blog site over the next few weeks, months and etc. I just want to say thank you ever so much for reading my blog pages over the years and so far today it does give me great pleasure that you enjoy them. Letting me continue writing them and giving me the confidence that I need.

Last time I checked it was like 57 views and 13 visitors thats just before 4:00pm UK time and this morning I woke up too 44 views and 3 visitors at the time I think it was and that was barely 9:00am UK time. It goes to show how much you guys value your time reading them as I publish things that I believe to think they are pretty rubbish but goes up anyways.

Knowing that they aren’t rubbish means I’m doing something right. As you keep on coming back for more and more. Just keep on coming back, liking, comment and follow I guess but hey it’s up too you. Thanks for believing in me and my work. I always believe in you guys to do amazing work too. Happy sunny cold Sunday for a Sunday.

Sunday Special: “Oh Mother” – Story

Dear lord I must confess the thoughts of loneliness but you have to understand why I get so defensive about guys who want to be with me. I can tell you now that I couldn’t tell you before but I know you know as you have witnessed over the years of the horrible man he was to my mum. Let me tell you the story through my broke child eyes but I know now my mum is safe with you.

You have to understand that my mother was so young with such innocent eyes with dreams of a fairytale life and all of the things that money can’t buy. Yet lord she had thought he was a wonderful guy until he changed since he now claimed that she was all his the day she had taken on his name; the first time he took his anger out on her face was when they were on their honeymoon, did you know as she prayed to you she kept all of her pain locked away since then especially in front of us and yet you weren’t there to save her.

Oh mother we are now stronger because of all the tears that you have she but mother don’t look back you will know he will never hurt us again. I would like to thank you for all you have done and still showing your conditional love to us; you got me I got you together we always pull through, oh mother you never stopped us from being who we are and reminding us no matter what happens continue to pray to the lord for protection. One day we got told that we were staying home for the day because the social workers came one day whilst we were at school; that was the day he turned on his kids as one of us spoke out but we kept it quiet like you told us too, my mother knew she had to leave him in order to protect us from anymore harm and there was so many voices inside her head.

Saying over and over and over that she deserved much more than this because she was so sick of believing the lies that he told about her on how she got the cuts and bruises; even hurting the kids on every other odd occasions, because he couldn’t hurt my mother anymore yet she had covered the bruises as much as she could on herself and ours before we went to school. My mother got so tired of defending for her life and ours she could have died fighting for the lives of her children.

Oh mother look at us now we are stronger than ever before because from all of the tear you have shed; don’t look back now because he can’t hurt us again, god had heard our prayers sent guardian angels to come and save us. I would like to thank you for all that you’ve done and still do. Don’t forget that you’ve got me and I’ve got you together we always pull through. We always pull through as a a family like we always do with each other’s love.

All of this our life you have spent burying he hurt with regret of not doing it any sooner but remember mum he can’t touch us again. Remember every time he tried to break you down just remember who’s still around; until we as your children stood our ground finding our voices it was over because we are stronger than before, we weren’t afraid of him no more when he would come home drunk or got high or things that made him mad and would take it out on you we jumped in to save yours. We will never have to go back again because we are stronger from all of the tears that you have shed don’t look back from all of the pain because he can’t hurt us again.

So mother I want to say thank you for everything that you have done and still do; you got me I got you together we always move on, together we always pull through, know your happy with someone who treats you right there’s no turning back now.

He will always going to be there to help you get through everything as it was your turn to be protected from everything that was coming your way. He’s the best step dad we can ever have no matter how much we were protecting you; he showed that he wasn’t going to harm you or us like our real dad, to me our step dad is and always will be my real dad no matter what. I love you mum.

Lord you gave us the strength to carry on finding away to move on I like to say thank you no matter how much we hated you at the time you gave us the time but also you sent us the most beautiful guardian angels and now mum is happy once again and not afraid anymore.


I would like to say this is just a story that I have created please don’t think this is what’s happening in my life right now because it isn’t. This story could happen to anyone around us but don’t know what’s happening behind closed doors. Just bare it in mind that if someone says they are okay and make an excuse of getting bruises and etc. Don’t ignore it okay.



Online Diary Entries: “Don’t know if I can…” – Story

Who do you think you are? Coming into my life saying that you love me more than anything in the world; now that I’m lost, confused, sacred and I don’t know if I can do this anymore even if I’m trying to take one more step towards you because all of this waiting is regret. I don’t know if you know that I’m starting to become your ghost and your figure of imagination; I have this feeling that you have lost the love that I loved the most, I have learnt that to live half alive but I need to know if you still love me one more time.
Who do you think you are? Running around leaving more scars on me whilst your collecting more jars of hearts; I hope they will catch a cold from the ice from your soul because I don’t know if you will come back for me anymore, who do you think are? I don’t hear you asking all around for me to see if I can be found but I’m trying to grow strong but I know if I ever fall back into your arms I will know you want me one more time.
It took so long just to feel alright with you but remember how you manage to put back the light in my eyes; I wish I could have missed all of this pain if I hadn’t gotten so scared to begin with because you broke your promises that you wouldn’t hurt me again knowing my fears of being hurt, and now you’re back trying to get me back.
Yet one question for you to answer do you want to come back for me? If not just don’t come back at all as I can’t keep waiting for you if you keep on having leaving unempty promises. Just tell me if you don’t really love me anymore because I can’t keep on breaking my heart like this anymore. Come back for me? Or just don’t come back at all. Then I know you have made the decision for me than me to make one for you. Who do you think you are?

Online Diary Entries: “Breathe Slow” – Story

As I’m walking away from you on the cliff face because I’m running out of patience because I can’t believe what the hell I’m hearing and speaking of hell it doesn’t compare what I am feeling but I love you took much it goes to show that all my emotions go out of control. You think it’s good for you but bad for me I can’t hardly see from the tears that flow wishing you could take this pain away from me. I just can’t forget to breathe slow count from one to ten with my eyes closed because ladies you have to take it in and get your composure before I lose it so I have to get my composure too.
I am going to breathe slow with my eyes closed counting from one to ten because ladies you have to take it in and the composure because ladies never lose you’re composure. I’m not going to lie or even try to win because I’m not the one with the gun who’s going to shoot because that would mean that you will be winning. No matter how much I love you or how many times I show all my emotions because you should know that I can be out of control which is bad for me but good for you know to know how much you hurt me.
When you hardly see the tears that flow because someone should be better hold me back as I will go for someone like the fake person who’s currently at your side; you’re lucky I know how to act as I’m not going to attack, I’m being calm and cool believe me you wouldn’t be taking much lightly and your breathing lightly right now. Just wait when your with me that’s when your going to loose your composure and the worse of it will come with my psycho will show. I’m just breathing slow right now to keep calm and carrying on.