Sunday Special: Hallelujah

In my sleep in a distance of my dream I once heard there was a secret chord that David had played and it pleased the lord but you really don’t care for the music, do you ya? Well I can tell you that it goes back and fourth with every minor fall and there will be a major lift that will baffle the king as he composing the word “hallelujah”.
Your faith inside is so strong but you needed the proof but you saw her bathing on the roof; her beauty and the moonlight had overthrew you. As she tied you to her kitchen chair; she had broken your throne, and cut your hair as you withdrew your lips of a kiss the words came from her lips as you felt her breathe from her mouth against yours “hallelujah”.
Maybe there’s a god that’s up above; however I’ve ever learned from love is how to shoot somebody down who had withdrawn you out, it’s not about a cry that you hear at night and it’s not someone who’s seen the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s a cold and it’s broken “hallelujah”

Saturday’s Topics: the most hated part when your trying to fit in

Don’t you just find that you hate social events of any kind; yet you try to go and fit in just for the sake of that person, yet when your trying to fit in and everything then someone says something just send you over the edge when you cry over it you don’t have anyone to turn to. That’s when you just go to bed crying and feel alone knowing that know body here’s your cries so then you cry even more.

Your just like I wish I never bothered to come if I would get the hatred for no apparent reason; wether they know me or not what have I done wrong to upset them to get the complete moan at or have ago at, I didn’t ask for it or anything I’m only here to support a friend or a love one and I don’t need their permission to be here.

I’m somebody who’s just wants to sit in the corner and be left alone. I like that I’m not that good at people person; even when I’m trying because at the end of the day I’m in control of my destiny, not my anxiety or anything like that and I have to make small talk now and then even if I haven’t got a clue what I’m talking about.

All you have to do is fake a smile and fake being confident in front of people because they won’t see the vulnerable side of things. I know when I get anxious I start talking jibbirsh and etc that’s when I know I will say something stupid or do something stupid like Bridget Jones’s Diary.

Anyone else have this problem of social anxiety at all? Or having tips of how to get over it? Please I want to know how to get over it as much as I can. Thank you in advance.

Everyday Post: “My Prerogative” – Story Based

People in this world can take everything away from but there’s always one thing that they can never take away from you and it’s your truth. Yet the question is can they handle mine? They think and say that I’m crazy but so I look like I care because I really don’t care even when they say that I’m nasty. You know something I really don’t give a damn how I’m getting the boys; it’s how I live my life by being normal to which lead to some who ask me questions, why am I so real? Yet they really don’t understand me because I like to keep to myself and make them work hard for it. I don’t know the deal about my sister but yet I try hard to make it right not long ago before I won the fight.

Everybody’s talking all this stuff about me that isn’t true why don’t they just let me live my own life and worry about theirs. I don’t need their permission to do things because I make my own decisions that’s my prerogative it’s the way that I want to live. The newspapers and you can’t tell me what to do; don’t get me wrong ego trips isn’t my thing all these strange relationships they make it out to be gets me down, I see nothing is wrong in spreading myself around to have fun with my friends who are guys and girls.

Everybody talking all this stuff about me like I’ve done something wrong why can’t they just let me live? I don’t need permission from any off them because I make my own decisions as it’s my own prerogative. It’s the way that I want to live as it’s my own prerogative that you can’t tell me what to do; why can’t I just live my life without all of things that people say, they continue to think that I’m crazy because we don’t live in that time period anymore and they think I’m nasty who doesn’t need permission but make my own decisions but this is my prerogative.

It’s my prerogative.

Friday Time Recap Time: What makes you fabulous?

This morning I posted a Superdrug Haul (2.3.18) the things that I had brought only if I could film what I do on average morning of my make up I would of done. Along side the idea of what the full works of readying my hair; drying my hair, make up and the full works it’s my hair and extensions it would be so easier than me typing it up. Plus I don’t have to talk either haha all I have to do is film and do what I normally do in the time of the process of everything.

The question of tonight’s Friday Time Recap Time I wanted to do this a few days but I was in a sort of a bad place where I couldn’t write about it because I didn’t feel fabulous at all. Yet this passed week it’s been snowing and what not so I had a bit of time to myself; where I’ve had words with myself because my eyes can always tell you there’s a storm happening, and then you know when I’m calm because my eyes go back to light blue.

I always terrified of myself because I never felt fabulous about myself; I always see how pretty other people are, people always compliment me and etc. Yet as soon as I redo my hair and make the time to do my face and everything I know I feel fabulous and confident. Being able to put make up on and doing my hair everyday gives me a purpose in life that I’ve actually accepted myself that I am pretty and etc.

I should be happy with myself knowing that it’s okay to me; yes it’s taken me a long time to accept myself but now that I’ve got an idea of who I am, how I like myself and what not the scares that normal open and shown had faded away it’s not psychological scaring that its on the skin. Mentally and internal inside it goes to show who is winning and whose loosing; yet sometimes it’s no okay when your doing so well, then bam the scares and mental state comes out without warning. All that I can say is it’s okay to be you and no one else.

Hauls: 1st March Haul 2018 – Superdrug Haul

Been awhile since my last haul which I do have to add it was my birthday haul at the time; I thought finally I have a bit of money that I can get a few bits that I need for myself that I need, so I go online for Superdrug which is a store in the UK that I get monjority of my make up and etc. Guess what the parcel came today. I ordered it Monday, it was shipped Wednesday and came today (Friday 2nd March 2018). Yeah me. Let’s see what’s in my box. No I won’t go into singing “what’s in the box?” Megs I’m not there anymore jeez man.

Took me awhile to get to the box which reminds me of a shoe box to be honest. As it was tightly stuck down and quite rightly so because it’s somebody’s order and everything else. Then inside I have found my lovely goodies inside here’s what I found in my box neatly packed by someone from the store.

All my little things that I needed and what I was running out off but also what I’m going to try as well. Funny thing was is that I didn’t remember ordering one thing twice but I looked at my shipping thing and it said I did but all well. I like doubles of things when I have the money to do so.

Red Passion Live hair dye: I needed to redye my hair anyway it needed doing especially to stop the grey coming through I’m quite paranoid about my four greys showing I’m only in my late 20s jeez. I like my red hair too and you guys associate me with red hair than any other colour; that’s if you follow me on instagram or on facebook page or twitter then you know why, haha. Plus it will go well with my hair extensions as well that I have as well.

Collections Products: I needed a new concealer and I wanted to try out the Collections purple correction stick thing. So it was on a deal where you buy two Collections products for £5 or something you get a Collection Extreme Bold Eyeliner missed a whole lot of the name of it but all well. Yet I got it for free.

Barry M Products: Flawless Original Primer I use this religiously because it helps to tone down the foundation and stays on my face longer unless it doesn’t snow or rain stays on for longer.

Revolution Products: I wanted to try out the Duo Brow Definer liner as it looked awesome and I haven’t used one in a long time. Somehow I managed to order two without knowing that I did but doesn’t matter at least I have another one ready. Then a small Revolution Make Up Revolution London Ultra Contour Kit Lightening Contour I wanted to try it out to see what it was like if it was good I’ll get again.

Sorry guys I’m have got a picture but it’s not letting me post it up sad times.

I always like to try something new and then if it’s worth it then get again. There is no reason to try something different if you like it you like it but if you don’t you don’t. It’s no harm done because you can just use it up and then look for another one to try out.

Everyday Post: Another snow day!

First day of a new month another snow day; all I can say is that it is very cold indeed, and most importantly snow comes and goes laying on the previous snow that had once fallen on the ground the previous day. All I can say is this that the UK has got some sort of idea when it comes to snow to close schools and etc making sure that everyone’s safety is put first, as such for me work was cancelled once again for me and to be honest quite right so to be honest. I didn’t really fancy going out in this sort of weather to be honest but a friend of mine decides to go out in it to see someone but I’m not going to go into it.

I decided that without the annoying dog from a neighbour I would rather sleep, watch Netflix’s and keep warm to be quite frankly with you. I always like watching the snow but I never much like going in it these days maybe it’s because I’m getting old or something I don’t know but yet just watching it makes me just want to fall asleep it’s just soothing and quiet. I’m like that with the rain I wouldn’t go out in it unless if I have to because it’s like the snow it’s soothing but loud as you watch it. In the summer is the only time I actually like it because I open my window just a tad to listen to it and bobs your uncle I’m asleep.

Netflix I’ve been watching Pride and Prejudice with Colin Firth in it along to which a friend of mine read a book as he was telling me about it; he literally said that Elizabeth and Jane in the story reminded him of me, to which I thought it was quite nice of him to say until I decided to watch the program again. To his fair point he is actually right about something. Today is a chilled out day which is nice for me nothing to have to worry about or anything. Safe in my own house and snow can’t get me in the house hehe. Stay nice and warm guys.

Wednesday Evening Post: Catch Up Catch Up Post!

So sorry guys I spent the day out and never posted any blogs. I’m sorry but the internet has been dodgy because we are experiencing rather strange thing called the snow over here in the UK; it’s this sort of white stuff that floats from the sky, lays on the floor when it wants to be. Anyways. I didn’t have to work either because of the alerts of the snow and etc but few other people had too.

Apparently it my phone app says partly cloudy -4C; wrong I’m wearing about three layers of clothing, don’t even get me started on the bed covers and the throws. Have you not looked outside phone it’s snowing and most of all the clouds are most likely to burst it’s clouds. I don’t think it will carry on for much longer than this.

I told you stupid phone never listens to me it’s started again haha. Since this week of snow I’ve now picked up another cold ay ay ay. Pretty much today I’ve been out with a best mate of mine because her job had closed and for the rest of the week as well lucky sod haha mine might be if I’m lucky but then again I could get away with it. I don’t know haha.

If I haven’t posted up any blogs up the next few days don’t panic don’t panic now you know that I’m having snow blizzards and it effects EVERYTHING! So don’t panic okay you have other blogs to read about as well. Go on read my other blogs as well don’t be scared. Go on.

Teen lifestyle: Blah Blah Blah

I’m standing in the tennis court at school with a group around me; I just can’t believe what’s coming out of your mouth, it’s just blah blah blah to me because all of it is wrong, lies and everything so just zip your lips like a padlock nobody needs to know how said your life is or how jealous you are about mine. Just meet me at the back with jack and the jukebox I really don’t care where you live or which boy you stole because let me just hit you as I know I’m not that little bitch that you been chit chatting about. Just show me where your dick is at if you have one that is.

My music is up I’m just listen to new hot stuff; I’m in love with this song called “ignorance” so just hush, oh please love just shut up I’ve heard enough with your talking.Stop ta-ta-talking about that because it’s all blah blah blah; you think you’ll be getting this, getting all that because your a spoilt little brat and everybody knows that you self centred. Nah nah nah your not sitting in my back car or getting a lift home because you think we are good friends.

You just keep on talking about that how you love mum because she’s way better than yours blah blah blah. Oh come on I really don’t care about your middle name is or how much you delay the class for your stupidity because you flirt with every guy teacher. You always be saying some shit and I all I say is out loud is “BLAH BLAH BLAH,” just stop talking already. I just want to set your hair alight or smash your face in because I just don’t care anymore.

Monday Topics: Find the Nigerian Girls now!

Abductions has raised again in Nigeria the most chilling tale that back in April 2014 and now February 2018 four years on; the chilling similarities are that the kidnappings and stay silent where the jihadists had diving more than 270 girls into the bush and set up camp. In April 2014 the military and the government had denied that the abductions that had been taken place in Chibok which is 275km (170 miles) south east of Dapchi.

Yet they had never able to find the girls over the four years; yet the four years on the world and the country has once again witnessed the denials and misinformation, that have been given from the authorities to which lead the disbelief and anger that has been seen from the parents. You may find that some in Nigeria have accused the government for being slow to respond or issuing a public statement for acknowledging that this will reoccur more now than it has been.

According to a BBC news reporter who’s based in the capital of Abuja that the government had lead to believe that the girls had been later on kidnapped to which they only accepted at the time. However the story became more confusing as it was slowly coming to a light that as different brunches of the government and the army had begun tit diverging their own accounts; who would the Nigerian people believe now, to which point where was the extent of how many girls had been rescued from the dreaded nightmare. It came more alight at the time of the announcement there wasn’t any acknowledgement had been made of the kidnapping but any official.

There’s been a biggest argument there is where the government and the parents of the missing girls of how many girls who are missing that day. The persistence of the parents have told them from the beginning of the abduction from the school was more than 100 girls that had been missing to which has 926 students; according to the authorities that the figure that they were giving were 40 but continued to say that many had run away into the bush, and would no doubt reappear soon.

This lead in the end of the stress and fed up of all of the confusion parents had formed a group to produce a list of 105 names; which in fact the government had come back with total number of girls who are missing, the total of missing is 110. It goes to show that the government hasn’t really understood how serious this is when their country is well known to have crime, kidnappings and etc. Yet more than 100 girls from a boarding school in the North eastern Nigeria had gone missing; plus the ones 4 years ago its becoming more apparent that their government is becoming weaken more and more if they don’t do something about this, all we know is that group of militants presumably from Boko Haram arrived in the town of Dapchi Yobe State during the evening of Monday 19th February 2018.

They were heading for the Government Girls Science and Technical College yet they were fleeing while later. Original claims that many of the girls had escaped and no one had been kidnapped; a week later authorities have retreated back to what they had said a week ago that the girls were taken by the Islamist extremists, which is it? Did they run away from the nightmare or actually been taken by the Islamist extremists?

Now that they realised how serious this situation is they should of gone straight into the huge scale search a week ago; not taken them a week that the girls have actually been taken, the fact that they should realise the extent of how many of the girls were taken before and now roughly the same amount have been taken. They could of been taken out of the country or soon be taken out of the country if they had a week a head.

I just pray that the girls will come home to their families soon because its the worst thing that any child or parent have to go through. Wether they are dead or alive or still in the country.

Hustle and Bustle Advice of Blogging: Invisible and Non – Invisible Of Blogging

Sometimes you think what’s the point of me writing because everyone seems to not like my blog work or anything; what’s the point of carrying on? What’s the point of doing this? What am I doing wrong? Don’t panic I have those days I can tell you that right now even with the whole I think my blogs are rubbish and etc. It’s all okay to be invisible at the best of times but you just have to sit tight and work through it. Even if you get reviews that are between 20/30 or below it’s still good that’s your good that’s a stable amount yeah you think your still invisible.

At the best of times you get something out of the blue a massive big spikes of views and visitors you then get the whole non-invisible everyone know who you are. That’s when you know that you have written like good and people are interested in your work. The fun fact is that just don’t give up on writing just carry on; take a break if you get stuck because you are allowed to it’s not against the law if you get stuck, and you always have your other blogs to fill you in whilst your working on your new niche.

True writers like J.K.Rowling she became invisible because publishers at the time declined her first Harry Potter book so many times but she never gave up; until her current publisher took a gamble, and now look at her a multi-millionaire author who still continues to write stories and experimenting new things as well. Now the publishers that declined her novel writing are kicking themselves years later for not believing in her or her stories. Just believe in yourselves and your work it will take time. Just keep knocking them dead with your work.