Star Light Categories – (28.6.18)- #throwbackthursday – Who believes in 3’s?

Who believes in 3’s? I don’t know if I do or not but I’ve just had my two day; well this evening (28.6.18) down to something knocking over a pint of peach squash all over my floor, then just got in the bathroom and got into the bath as you do. What did I do? Yep forgot my pjs. Ready for the third one now don’t know what that would be but I just hope that I’m in bed before then before anything else. However bless technology when your in dyer need when your stuck in the bathroom; you get to message your sister to get your dressing gown along with the wet floor, I could of left that bit out and make her stand in it. I’m not that mean to her unless I forget and she moan at me for not telling her but that would be fair point to her. 

It literally was like space of me coming up stairs after taking my medication to my room; having the accident, going back downstairs realising that I left my iPad and leads on the kitchen window top and coming back up putting my leads in my room. Then running my bath after the accident and everything that I literally forgot to do or pick up that’s when I realised I forgot my pjs. 

Yesterday however was even weirder than that. (27.6.18) normally I don’t get nightmares when I’m on medication it’s normally the other way around I get them. It was weird I had a panic attack in my sleep on a friend doing face time or something;  once that was over I had another dream similar with another friend, this time it was with snakes and alligators. I’m literally thinking what is going on why I am having panic attacks in my sleep. 

I did wake up however thinking that’s weird was I screaming or something in myself I have done that literally 7 months ago Christmas Day going into Boxing Day around then literally waking my mum up screaming or yelling in my sleep. That’s just without my medication. I seriously don’t dream that much to be honest with you but oh boy when you know when I’m dreaming I’m dreaming whether it’s good or bad. Things happen don’t they for a reason. 

Star Star Light Categories: (20.6.18) Wednesday Evening At 8 – The Strangest Things

Just want to give a massive big shout out to a lovely sales assistant in my local mini supermarket who gave me 6p as I thought I had enough money but she came to the rescue and did it for me. I think I would of given up to be honest but because she said I was a regular and that she sees me in there all the time. That’s just goes to show a Good Samaritan is out there and you don’t find nice people out there who care about other people. 

That’s given me a positive mood than what I just had few hours before where I had someone venting at me because they were so mad at someone. I could understand so much but when I wasn’t myself in the first place and I knew they would be on one about something. 

I’m just literally so tired at the moment my medication is starting to kick in a bit more now so I’m more tired than anything. Did have a splitting headache first thing this morning so I slept it off as best I could. Pushed myself to have a shower and do my hair because my hair needed to be done and it was driving me mad with itchy ness because obviously been told I have dermatitis is a type eczema that can be triggered be contact by a certain substance. 

Eczema is the name for a group of conditions that can cause the skin to become irritated and dry. Most people with contact dermatitis can expect their symptoms to improve some cases will clear up completely. Contact dermatitis cause the skin to become red, blistered, dry and cracked. 

Strange things that we have to come to face in life you either have to take on the chin or let it define you. At the end of the day you choose what you want at the end of the day. You let the strange things happen and control you or not. 

Star Light Categories: (14.6.18) #throwbackthursday: Why are my eyes feel so puffy?

So last night (13.6.18) tried to sleep as you do when one is tired but you can’t because you might wake up at stupid o’clock the time you want to sleep so you stay up a bit longer. As the hour passes you start to fall asleep through your favourite YouTube videos what do you do? Stop what you’re doing and try to get some sleep but oh no something doesn’t want you to go to sleep.

I knew this time my mind wasn’t the one that was causing the problem this time; nor the heat or the cold with the window being open and closed, what else could possibly go wrong now? Correct I gave you a clear clue in the title for tonight’s blog. Why is my eyes so puffy?

Come to realisation that it could well and truly been hayfever annoying thing because now I can actually breathe through my nose other sounded stuffy and bunged up. Today (14.6.18) is been nice and cool not to hot and not too cold. Just about right with the clouds forming.

Right now my eyes still hurts but not as bad as it has been and I’ve also found out why I’ve been blacking out recently. It’s because I leave the house on a empty tummy a few times and there’s nothing for my medication to feed off from. All sorts themselves out in the end one way or another in the end. Lesson learnt not to go out on a empty tummy grab a piece of bread whilst leaving the house.

Everyday Evening Post: (9.6.18) Saturday – hate sleeping the day away

Finally the weekend here. I literally just spent the day sleeping practically I hate days like that; just wasted the day when you could be doing something fun or something positive that will help you get through life, well I guess when you’re feeling down about something all you want to do is sleep I guess.

I did manage to post out two blogs today, done my paper work from yesterday data collection, had a BBQ and what not. Not impressed that one of my siblings confessed that they might of used all the hot water this morning. Siblings you got to love them so in the end didn’t bother having a shower; there we go you can’t have everything, you know you have that one annoying neighbour who every year at this time (summer) screams, yells and everything else.

They’ve been alright recently until you hear their annoying dog who constantly barks in the back garden and goes to the fence towards the local small supermarket store. You’re like shut up already the constant annoying barks. I use to like dogs but now I don’t like them to the point of being a table tennis net between two houses in two different streets. Before my garden was dominated by cats over the number of years but now I can’t even sit in my own garden peacefully due to the dogs and local small supermarket deliveries coming in and out.

Just finished having a BBQ with a helicopter hovering over my area quite literally over my area. Where my road is it comes off a main road to another road where the local supermarket is then you have the first road on the left which is my road; further on the left you have another road, then bit further on from that up the long road on the right you have another road leading to three other roads two of which leads off to the main road.

The helicopter was literally above the other side of my road and the other road at the time. It was literally right on my doorstep but not literally on my doorstep because it was above the other houses; it’s not the first time a helicopter has been literally on the doorstep, at least 2 times before that they had a helicopter above my area for two different times.

Not sure what’s gone on there but surely find out within a week why and what happened to be honest. Who knows. Fun fact though I was told that I use to jump out of my skin because there was helicopter going over ahead (this is when I was younger and I couldn’t hear) I still didn’t understand what people were saying until it was literally above me. Now I can pin point where the helicopter is coming or close by because I can hear it now but before I couldn’t. I have the annoying habit when I’m on a job run that if a siren is coming I have to prep for the children and be the second eye for the driver incase they can’t see where the services are.

Everyday Evening Post: (7.6.18) Thursday – “What should I do with my life?”

One of the most important questions that I ask myself “what should I do with my life?” I always find myself pounding about this question every so often even more when I’m in a bad place. I have dreams I have goals. Yet I always come back to the same old question; yes I want to be writer, yes I want to go traveling, yes I want to drive and so forth.

The fact that I always believe and give hope to other people. I am quite straight forward person who seems to come across very direct and confidant when I have something on my mind I would say it. Trust me it does get me into trouble but not that bothered at the end of the day.

I’m not that confident or self believe in myself or take a chance to do something that I actually want to do with my life. I’m currently in a bit of a limbo in what I want to do with my life at the moment; I love what I’m doing at the moment, I just want to see what I want to do who knows maybe this might take off one day.

I’m just not getting my hopes up at the moment but that’s because I’m being realistic but I’m going to keep on writing and writing my little thumbs can type to it’s heart can content. Not sure if that makes sense but you guys know what I mean. However I like to remain positive as much as I can; share the positive with you guys, promote the “Life On The Open Road Project” as a positive category as you can see with the new pictures it has the titles promoting it.

I want to take you on my open road how I can continue to be positive, creative, achieving things and many more things throughout blogging. I want to help get you guys motivated no matter how much you struggle with things; I know how it feels struggling with confidence, self esteem, mental health issues and many other issues that I face.

I think I might actually just answered my own question on that fact I don’t know what I do with my life. I want to share with you something that I created a video of my favourite youtubers that help get through my darkest times recently. I share the think down below you can copy and share with friends and family.

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Motivation Team Trailer

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