I walked across an empty land with a pen in my hand and my notebook in the other like they knew the pathway to where we needed to be. I felt the earth beneath my bare feet as I sat by the river and it made me feel complete. Oh simple thing where have you gone? I am here to talk to you because I’m getting tired of the life that I’m leading I need someone to rely on have you found someone for me as I came across a fallen tree that use to be yours; I felt like the branches where looking at me, I wrote in my notebook as I sat on your tree. Is this the place we use to love? Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of? I can’t see your little doors anymore or the door that you made me to climb in.
Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I’m getting old and I need something to rely on. If you have a minute why don’t we go back to where you are now as we can talk about it only somewhere we know. This could be the end of everything if we don’t meet; your my peace my everything, so why don’t we go to your land through that door of yours. Somewhere only we know so that no one can find us for hours.
Let me finish your story in my notebook. I like it when you sit on my shoulder and flying around getting excited that I’m there looking over my shoulder trying to read what I have written. Oh simply thing where have you gone? Oh there you are you cleverly disguised yourselves as dandelions; you did your magic with lots of pixie dust, so no one can come in or see what’s happening around me. I’m glad that we are back into somewhere only we know.
There’s nothings impossible where there’s nothing unreachable when I’m so weary; you made me stronger due to your beautiful love that you give me which is unforgettable, I feel none of the winters cold when we are together. Immediately upon your touch, warmth, kindness and protection will you stand by me? Hold me and never let me go? Will you stand by me? Where I’m with you I know where I belong when our story gets told.
When the day turns into the night I look into your eyes I see my future now; all of the world and it’s wonders, I know this love won’t fade away even through the darkest and hardest days that we faced and going to face. I know now I will never question us anymore as you’re the reason and my only reason to keep on living. I am blessed to find what I need because you bring me back to life; like the world is loosing hope around us. You’re my only belief, you make things right everytime I need you like you risk it all for me like running in the fire for me after the time I do the same for you.
Stand by me. Stand by me. As I call in the winds as you can hear my voice with the rain acting as my tears; would you stand by me as I stand by you?, no more loneliness my darling you don’t have to be scare anymore. Just say I want you by my side and I’ll be there straight away like you are always there for me.
If you believe this or you don’t it’s up too you. I like to share my emotions and feelings in this story for the Online Diary Entries.
If I knew what I know now that our love was a fairy tale back then I would take charge and rescue you then on a yacht baby I know we would sail far away to a island where we say I do. We make the island our own and if we have children they would so look like you because you’re awesome, special, sexy and hot. You don’t even know how very special you are to me; you leave me breathless as your my everything that is good in my life, every time your picture comes up or you come into the room you leave me breathless.
I know that I can’t believe that you’re mine even when you have to leave to go out for the day you kiss me leaving me breathless. Our love is was written like a story book; where would it start? Would it start on the very first page on how we met or how I would dream about you all the time? You choose how to start it as it’s your story on how I walked into your life. The last chapter would be about how we are thankful we choose this life that we made together.
You must think I was sent from the heaven to earth to change you but actually you changed me because your like my angel; the thing that u feel is stronger than love believe me when I say “you’re something special to me” I only hope that one day I should deserve what you’ve given me but all I can do is try in my everyday life.
The fact that I love you more than anything in the world and leave me breathless every time.
The hardest part when you have a Autism child and someone who they love the most passes away. What do you do and how do you deal with in telling them in the way that they can understand. It’s never easy to tell a child that a love one has passed away; from experience where an Autism child has been told that a love one had passed away, I managed to entertain the child needed for four hours between both shifts of work that I do.
I took them into town for a bit got a few bits. We went back to his we watched a film that he had mentioned that his love one had gave him for his birthday before she passed away, so we watched it in the memory of them. I knew parts that would make him laugh from the minute go.
The film we watched was Harry Potter and Philosopher’s Stone; the things that might not of been funny to us but funny to him, he would just cracked up laughing especially with one scene with a troll having a wand stuck up his nose and the club landed on his head.
The fact that he laughed at the scenes that made him laugh but also he asked questions about the film that he didn’t understand but he understood after I explained it to him. He wanted me to tell him what was going to happen next a few times but I just said just wait and see.
It was nice to see that to have some fun and laughter inside him to the fact that he had forgotten about the bad times for a while. Just something that has close to put on knowing something was close to him had given its; I knew that he had two close people near him, he had his favourite cousin and watching someone who brought the Harry Potter Collection.
Find ways to do things with your Autism child in away that they can remember them along with something that will help them to stay in touch with them in their special way but also create new memories as well. In the process of letting them go as well.