Thursday’s Online Diary Entries: Thank god Valentines Day is over!

Thank god Valentines Day and it’s Challenge is over for another year; I hope you liked the Valentines Challenge this year give a thumbs up, and a follow if you like to see more challenges and etc throughout the year and so forth. For me Valentine’s Day for me is a waste of space I always hated it; this year I hated it even more to be honest because I wished that I stayed in bed to be honest with you, all I did was having personal problems, crying, stressed and everything else. To which to be fair could of been helped if everything went to plan if things actually happened but it didn’t.

Really don’t want to think about it to be honest. What is the point of pleasing everyone? When other people can’t be bothered to respect anyone or do anything on how they want it to be? Not even sure who actually invented it in the first place to be honest. I’m just generally having a rant because I can really on a Wednesday night writing this and hit published.

I haven’t ranted for awhile over stupid things to be honest. That’s what you get when you go to sleep at 5:30 in the morning and then everything still falls apart because of it all. At least I made lasagne from scrap with help of course and I didn’t really particularly want to do it in the first place. Yes of course it’s all good to learn and all when you have your own place and etc. Rant over because I’m starting to repeat myself and getting worked up by things that I can’t control.

Online Diary Entries: Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land with a pen in my hand and my notebook in the other like they knew the pathway to where we needed to be. I felt the earth beneath my bare feet as I sat by the river and it made me feel complete. Oh simple thing where have you gone? I am here to talk to you because I’m getting tired of the life that I’m leading I need someone to rely on have you found someone for me as I came across a fallen tree that use to be yours; I felt like the branches where looking at me, I wrote in my notebook as I sat on your tree. Is this the place we use to love? Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of? I can’t see your little doors anymore or the door that you made me to climb in.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I’m getting old and I need something to rely on. If you have a minute why don’t we go back to where you are now as we can talk about it only somewhere we know. This could be the end of everything if we don’t meet; your my peace my everything, so why don’t we go to your land through that door of yours. Somewhere only we know so that no one can find us for hours.

Let me finish your story in my notebook. I like it when you sit on my shoulder and flying around getting excited that I’m there looking over my shoulder trying to read what I have written. Oh simply thing where have you gone? Oh there you are you cleverly disguised yourselves as dandelions; you did your magic with lots of pixie dust, so no one can come in or see what’s happening around me. I’m glad that we are back into somewhere only we know.

Online Diary Entries: Standby Me

There’s nothings impossible where there’s nothing unreachable when I’m so weary; you made me stronger due to your beautiful love that you give me which is unforgettable, I feel none of the winters cold when we are together. Immediately upon your touch, warmth, kindness and protection will you stand by me? Hold me and never let me go? Will you stand by me? Where I’m with you I know where I belong when our story gets told.

When the day turns into the night I look into your eyes I see my future now; all of the world and it’s wonders, I know this love won’t fade away even through the darkest and hardest days that we faced and going to face. I know now I will never question us anymore as you’re the reason and my only reason to keep on living. I am blessed to find what I need because you bring me back to life; like the world is loosing hope around us. You’re my only belief, you make things right everytime I need you like you risk it all for me like running in the fire for me after the time I do the same for you.

Stand by me. Stand by me. As I call in the winds as you can hear my voice with the rain acting as my tears; would you stand by me as I stand by you?, no more loneliness my darling you don’t have to be scare anymore. Just say I want you by my side and I’ll be there straight away like you are always there for me.

Online Diary Entries: Breathless

If you believe this or you don’t it’s up too you. I like to share my emotions and feelings in this story for the Online Diary Entries.

If I knew what I know now that our love was a fairy tale back then I would take charge and rescue you then on a yacht baby I know we would sail far away to a island where we say I do. We make the island our own and if we have children they would so look like you because you’re awesome, special, sexy and hot. You don’t even know how very special you are to me; you leave me breathless as your my everything that is good in my life, every time your picture comes up or you come into the room you leave me breathless.

I know that I can’t believe that you’re mine even when you have to leave to go out for the day you kiss me leaving me breathless. Our love is was written like a story book; where would it start? Would it start on the very first page on how we met or how I would dream about you all the time? You choose how to start it as it’s your story on how I walked into your life. The last chapter would be about how we are thankful we choose this life that we made together.

You must think I was sent from the heaven to earth to change you but actually you changed me because your like my angel; the thing that u feel is stronger than love believe me when I say “you’re something special to me” I only hope that one day I should deserve what you’ve given me but all I can do is try in my everyday life.

The fact that I love you more than anything in the world and leave me breathless every time.

Friday Online Diary Entries: Autism vs lost of someone that they love

The hardest part when you have a Autism child and someone who they love the most passes away. What do you do and how do you deal with in telling them in the way that they can understand. It’s never easy to tell a child that a love one has passed away; from experience where an Autism child has been told that a love one had passed away, I managed to entertain the child needed for four hours between both shifts of work that I do.
I took them into town for a bit got a few bits. We went back to his we watched a film that he had mentioned that his love one had gave him for his birthday before she passed away, so we watched it in the memory of them. I knew parts that would make him laugh from the minute go.

The film we watched was Harry Potter and Philosopher’s Stone; the things that might not of been funny to us but funny to him, he would just cracked up laughing especially with one scene with a troll having a wand stuck up his nose and the club landed on his head.
The fact that he laughed at the scenes that made him laugh but also he asked questions about the film that he didn’t understand but he understood after I explained it to him. He wanted me to tell him what was going to happen next a few times but I just said just wait and see.
It was nice to see that to have some fun and laughter inside him to the fact that he had forgotten about the bad times for a while. Just something that has close to put on knowing something was close to him had given its; I knew that he had two close people near him, he had his favourite cousin and watching someone who brought the Harry Potter Collection.

Find ways to do things with your Autism child in away that they can remember them along with something that will help them to stay in touch with them in their special way but also create new memories as well. In the process of letting them go as well.

 

Thursday Online Diary Entries: Week today starts the Valentines Challenge (Vomit ahaha)

The fact that I thought I had another week left of January I thought man I’m struggling here; then I soon realised that this time next week will be 1st February 2018, the start of 14 Days Valentines Challenge and I thought what a plonker Rodney.

Yes it’s right first Challenge of the year this year for 2018 what’s the best way but to kick it off with Valentines Challenge ay. I wasn’t too sure wether I was going to do this Challenge or not because I hate Valentine’s Day for lots of reasons and I thought no Lizzy you will do this challenge no matter how much you hate it.

I have made a list of 14 days of titles for each day to write for and it will be schedule for each day until we reach to the final day. When I say schedule for each day it could be or could just be written on the day who knows. I prefer to schedule you them to be honest it’s one lest thing to worry about at the end of the day.

To be honest I should be writing them now as we speak to be honest but they can wait for another a day. As I’m struggling to write the rest of the weeks blogs this week as I was on a roll to begin with but seem to have stopped. Ah well you got to win and loose some don’t we.

Wednesday Online Diary Entries: Footprints in the sand.

In a memory of someone that I have recently lost and the rest of my family.

You walked with me along the sand; as I could see you’re footprints in the sand and helped me to understand where I’m going. You walked with me as I was alone with so much unknown along the way; then I heard you say “I promise you I’m always there. When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair I’ll carry you even when you need a friend. You’ll find my footprints in the sand”

I see my life flash across the sky so many times have I been so afraid and just when I thought I’d lost my way. However you gave me strength to carry on that’s when I knew you found the rest of the family and someone else who’s close to me and someone else. That’s when I heard you say “I promise you. I’m always there when your heart is filled with sorrow and despair. I’ll carry you when you need a friend. You will find an extra footprints in the sand even if your weary I will know that you’ll be there.”

Tuesday Online Diary Entries: Jars Of Hearts

Whatever you think if this is true or not it’s your opinion. I share my emotions and etc through my stories and I know the truth.

I know I can’t take one more step towards you because all of this waiting is regret but I know that Caspian, TP and Terry are my strong, will power and to see me through. I just need to tell you that I don’t want to be your ghost anymore; you can’t have the love that I love most, I’ve learned to live half alive and now you want me to break one more time.

Who do you think you are? Running around leaving scars and collecting your jars of hearts. Tearing love apart because you think you have it all; all I can wish for is you to catch a cold from the ice that’s inside your soul or to drop dead from your cold blooded heart. So don’t come back for me as I’m already gone way before you arrived; only my close friends just got it back for me, yet I hear you asking around and if I am anywhere to be found. I have grown far to strong and well protected to ever fall back into your clutches. Who do you think you are? Keep on asking for me. When you been told not to reach me or contact me.

It’s took me so long just to feel alright; remember how Caspian had put back the lights in my eyes, the fact that the first time we kissed and you didn’t like that one bit. You broke all of your promises and now you’re back to try and get me back for stealing your one true dream. All I can say is you will never get him back because we all know what we can do to ruin your reputation.

Day 23 Christmas Log Blog: “We belong together” Diary Online Entries

Weather you believe this or you don’t it’s your own opinion but I know the truth and some of my close friends know the truth too.

I didn’t mean it whenever I said I didn’t love you so; I knew I should of held on tight but I should of never let you go because I didn’t know nothing, I was stupid, I was foolish and I was lying to myself. I wouldn’t be still here without your love never imagined I’d be sitting here by myself. Guess I didn’t know you, guess I didn’t know me but I thought I knew everything but I never felt that I’m feeling now that I don’t hear your voice or have your touch and your kiss on the lips. I don’t have a choice what I could give to have you lying by my side right here.

When you left I knew I had lost a part of me; it’s still so hard to believe even when I ask come back baby please, because we belong together. Who else am I going lean on when times get rough? Who’s going to talk me out on the phone till the sun comes up? Who’s going to take your place because there’s ain’t nobody better than you? We belong together.

I can’t sleep at night when you are on my mind; Bobby Womack’s on the radio singing to me, if you think you’re lonely now? Wait a minute this is too deep, too deep. I got to change the station so I can turn the dial trying to catch a break and then I hear the baby face. I only think of you it just breaks my heart I’m falling apart; I’m feeling all out of my element I’m throwing things, whilst crying trying to figure out where the hell I went wrong. The pain reflected in this story ain’t even half of what I’m feeling inside; I need you, I need you back into my life.

Sunday Special Online Diary Entries: Who’s Laughing Now

This is your own decision Weather this is just a story or based on a true fact. I would like to remind you this is your own opinion and I know the truth behind this story.

I use to run home everyday glad to be away from school and etc as I use to be called names, made fun at, they wouldn’t let me play and the words or laughter “hey Elizabeth why did you do that?” “Hahaha, you can’t spell girl” they would pull my hair and took my chair away. I kept on pretending that I didn’t care “Hey Elizabeth you’re so funny you got teeth like bugs bunny”

Oh so you think you know me now. Spreading lies about me all your life but actually have you forgotten how you would make me feel; when you dragged my spirit down but thank you for my the pain, it has now made me raise my game I’m still rising and rising who doesn’t give a damn about you anymore. Yeah!

Yet so many of your jokes now are broken they don’t work on me no more; you’re the one who is now alone, but who’s laughing now as the bar has raised up a lot higher than you set it. You can hit me hard with your playing cards to become a star but you know who’s the actual star of the show.

Oh now I’m making money more money than you are; you just want to use my fame by sending Facebook request because you went to school with me, but you only know my name. “Oh Lizzy we knew that you could make, I would love you to sign it for me” So you think now that I’m signed to book deals and etc; my pockets are lined with gold, four years down the line I’m still in the que to get the deal. “Oh Lizzy I saw your blog work and decided to tag old photos when we were at school”

Lizzy! she broke out of the box you swallowed your pride when you got that ego cough, (cough cough) let the haters hate when they see the man who I am with. I’m like your way too late to be my close friend now; click click to see I got a message from you. “Hola, I’m proud of you” I roll my eyes and say what I’m thinking out loud “who’s laughing now” I just don’t care what you say to me now that I’ve got my chance in life and now I can laugh at you all the way. Tell you where to shove it where the sun doesn’t shine. I’m the one who’s laughing at you now.