Online Diary Entries: Love Story

My head is always under the water you watch everyone laugh seeing me drowning; you hear them tell me to breathe easy for a while but yet the breathing gets harder even I know that there’s no room for me to cope as much, yet you know I’m terrified but it’s too soon to show it and I put a fake smile and put my fake confidence on showing that I’m happy holding your hands knowing that I’m actually fine. I’m unusually hard to hold on to when I push you away.

I know when I’m sad and can’t cope I just stare blanking at the pages as they stare blank to me; there’s no easy way to say this you mean well but you make this so hard on me, yet I’m not going to write you a love story because you asked for it or because you need one and you will see that I’m not going to write a love story because you tell me it’s make or break in this I know you’re on you’re way. If you all have is leaving me standing alone not knowing what’s going on; I’ll write how I feel in this love story because you don’t seem to realise the attention between us, I chose things to ignore and be with you in supporting you in everything you do. Yet I always learn the hard way because they all say the same things you want to hear and my heavy heart sinks deep down under your pain of my mistakes that you still love me even when we are both mad at each other.

Just seeing you with her around you just makes more of an insult not to me but to your mother and the country because we get left high and dry. Yet you convinced me to please you thinking that I needed this too but I’m trying to let you hear me as I am; you promised me you’ll leave the light on to help me see you with the daylight on as my guide had gone, because I believe there’s away you can love me because I say so because I’ve walked the seven seas for you today.

Thursday’s Online Diary Entries: Thank god Valentines Day is over!

Thank god Valentines Day and it’s Challenge is over for another year; I hope you liked the Valentines Challenge this year give a thumbs up, and a follow if you like to see more challenges and etc throughout the year and so forth. For me Valentine’s Day for me is a waste of space I always hated it; this year I hated it even more to be honest because I wished that I stayed in bed to be honest with you, all I did was having personal problems, crying, stressed and everything else. To which to be fair could of been helped if everything went to plan if things actually happened but it didn’t.

Really don’t want to think about it to be honest. What is the point of pleasing everyone? When other people can’t be bothered to respect anyone or do anything on how they want it to be? Not even sure who actually invented it in the first place to be honest. I’m just generally having a rant because I can really on a Wednesday night writing this and hit published.

I haven’t ranted for awhile over stupid things to be honest. That’s what you get when you go to sleep at 5:30 in the morning and then everything still falls apart because of it all. At least I made lasagne from scrap with help of course and I didn’t really particularly want to do it in the first place. Yes of course it’s all good to learn and all when you have your own place and etc. Rant over because I’m starting to repeat myself and getting worked up by things that I can’t control.

Wednesday Evening Post: Gypsies in the Wood Story

There’s gypsies in the wood. They’ve been watching for you from far far away; they want to take your baby away because they know that things that you know, yet they’ve been calling you to follow them. Can you come out and please? Yet you don’t know that devil has your number when the gypsies draw you into the woods; he will know he’s going to find you as he’s right behind you staring through your windows, he’s creeping down the hall to your room before entering your baby’s nursery room to steal him.

Knowing that your fast asleep he left the inch of the door open; the sound of creaking floor boards woke you up seeing dark shadows walking past, that’s when you realised it’s not your partner and that was when you realised the devil had finally reached your son. The past of your own had finally crept up on you; you screamed with cries waking up your partner up with a massive shock, you both ran out of the room and headed towards the woods as you followed the dark identity carrying your child.

Yet you had lost the dark identity as he was too far gone; yet the man your with has gone mad in the town tonight because the devils got your number, yet the hubby is going to shoot somebody down tonight to the point of losing his mind tonight. There’s a mad man running round and round tonight pleading anyone to join him in this mad plan of his; yet you know the devils got your number you can feel him running right beside you screaming deep inside you.

“Mrs Lurid! Mrs Lurid!” Cried Tilly hammering Mrs Lurid’s door down to wake her up and answer the door. The lights came flooding opening the front door flung open both Mrs Lurid and Mr Lurid stood there wrapping their dressing gowns around them as Mr Lurid started to put his wellington boots on he listened to Tilly.

“Tilly Tilly calm down what’s the matter” exclaimed Mrs Lurid. Trying to understand Tilly’s emotions “he’s got a gun..Michael…Michael’s got a gun. They’ve got our son Johnston they took him up to the woods” Cried Tilly as she dropped to the wet pavement. “Oh my word. Eddie go to the town hall sound the alarm then go to the woods” he nodded and told them to stay inside and lock all the doors and windows. “And for goodness sakes Mrs Lurid don’t open the doors to anyone unless you know my signal.” As he called back after him.

There’s a mad man running round and round the woods you know that the devils got your number; you know he’s right beside you screaming deep inside you, and someone said that he’s going to be calling your number up today.

Online Diary Entries: Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land with a pen in my hand and my notebook in the other like they knew the pathway to where we needed to be. I felt the earth beneath my bare feet as I sat by the river and it made me feel complete. Oh simple thing where have you gone? I am here to talk to you because I’m getting tired of the life that I’m leading I need someone to rely on have you found someone for me as I came across a fallen tree that use to be yours; I felt like the branches where looking at me, I wrote in my notebook as I sat on your tree. Is this the place we use to love? Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of? I can’t see your little doors anymore or the door that you made me to climb in.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I’m getting old and I need something to rely on. If you have a minute why don’t we go back to where you are now as we can talk about it only somewhere we know. This could be the end of everything if we don’t meet; your my peace my everything, so why don’t we go to your land through that door of yours. Somewhere only we know so that no one can find us for hours.

Let me finish your story in my notebook. I like it when you sit on my shoulder and flying around getting excited that I’m there looking over my shoulder trying to read what I have written. Oh simply thing where have you gone? Oh there you are you cleverly disguised yourselves as dandelions; you did your magic with lots of pixie dust, so no one can come in or see what’s happening around me. I’m glad that we are back into somewhere only we know.

Day 14 Of 14 Days Valentines Challenge: Your My Best Friend

Your making me live whatever the world can give to me; you will always be there when I need you because you’re the only one that I can, baby your making me live now honey and you’re my best friend my soul mate that I have ever had. I’ve been with you now for such a long time; you’re my sunshine whatever the day is, whatever time of day it is and I want you to know that my feelings are true I really love you. You’re my best friend.

I’ve been wandering around feeling lost and confused on some days but I still come back to you in the rain or shine; you’ve stood by me honey I’m happy at home knowing that I’m safe with you, because you’re my best friend. You make me live through the bad times whenever the world is cruel to me; I got you to help me forgive myself more than I need honey, your making me live.

You’re the first one that I turned to when things turn out bad; you know I’ll never be lonely, as you’re my only one that really loves me and love the things that I do. I really love the things that you do now honey. You’re my best friend. I’ll say it one more time you make me live now honey you’re my best friend.

Online Diary Entries: Standby Me

There’s nothings impossible where there’s nothing unreachable when I’m so weary; you made me stronger due to your beautiful love that you give me which is unforgettable, I feel none of the winters cold when we are together. Immediately upon your touch, warmth, kindness and protection will you stand by me? Hold me and never let me go? Will you stand by me? Where I’m with you I know where I belong when our story gets told.

When the day turns into the night I look into your eyes I see my future now; all of the world and it’s wonders, I know this love won’t fade away even through the darkest and hardest days that we faced and going to face. I know now I will never question us anymore as you’re the reason and my only reason to keep on living. I am blessed to find what I need because you bring me back to life; like the world is loosing hope around us. You’re my only belief, you make things right everytime I need you like you risk it all for me like running in the fire for me after the time I do the same for you.

Stand by me. Stand by me. As I call in the winds as you can hear my voice with the rain acting as my tears; would you stand by me as I stand by you?, no more loneliness my darling you don’t have to be scare anymore. Just say I want you by my side and I’ll be there straight away like you are always there for me.

Day 13 Of 14 Days Valentines Challenge: Really Don’t Care

You want play me, you want stay with me, you want to have it all but start messing with my head until I hit a wall. I should of know that you would walk out the door; since we said we were done then you met someone else, and you rubbed it in my face. Let’s cut to the chase where she broke your head and ran away; you should of known that would happen, you know I would talk about it like you stole my heart and ran away.

Even if the starts and the moon collide I would never want you back into my life even you take your words and all lies with you; I really don’t care because I can’t believe that I ever stayed up writing songs about you, you don’t deserve to know the way I use to think about you and now you don’t have that right anymore as you had your shot but you let go.

If we meet out on the street I won’t be running scared because I would walk right up to you and put one finger in the air. To make you understand that you had your chance but you let go; no matter how much you try to get me back because I really don’t care, how much you try to win my heart again.

Online Diary Entries: Breathless

If you believe this or you don’t it’s up too you. I like to share my emotions and feelings in this story for the Online Diary Entries.

If I knew what I know now that our love was a fairy tale back then I would take charge and rescue you then on a yacht baby I know we would sail far away to a island where we say I do. We make the island our own and if we have children they would so look like you because you’re awesome, special, sexy and hot. You don’t even know how very special you are to me; you leave me breathless as your my everything that is good in my life, every time your picture comes up or you come into the room you leave me breathless.

I know that I can’t believe that you’re mine even when you have to leave to go out for the day you kiss me leaving me breathless. Our love is was written like a story book; where would it start? Would it start on the very first page on how we met or how I would dream about you all the time? You choose how to start it as it’s your story on how I walked into your life. The last chapter would be about how we are thankful we choose this life that we made together.

You must think I was sent from the heaven to earth to change you but actually you changed me because your like my angel; the thing that u feel is stronger than love believe me when I say “you’re something special to me” I only hope that one day I should deserve what you’ve given me but all I can do is try in my everyday life.

The fact that I love you more than anything in the world and leave me breathless every time.

Hustle and Bustle Advice of Blogging: What are the difficulties you’ve overcome in your blog?

Each and every blogger have different difficulties when they come to their blogging; mine was not having enough ideas for blogs which is known to writers as writers block, wanting to give up on my writing and blogging and not wanting to achieve anything. Part of it was down to the personal issues at the time when I reached to those points of giving up on everything; due to the fact that I thought it was pointless at the time nothing was happening, they weren’t great blogs at all, to be able to overcome those negative thoughts and the writers block I had to decide to create a different niche of things for my readers to read.

Most importantly keep them interested in reading them but how? I wondered and pounded for awhile; researched things what other people have done but sometimes never came out anything good, then it occurred to me what about Diary Entries and Challenges everyone seems to like them one way or another. I gave it ago to see where they would take me.To my surprise I had noticed that they had taken off quite well as they seemed to be liked more and more as each challenge came about. Even with the Online Diary Entries encouraged other blogs that I had forgotten that I had written came swimming back up to the top.

I always believed that you should always take some time out at the end of the day when your stuck for ideas take a break time to time; so that when you clear your head you’ll get fresh new ideas coming to you, and think oh yeah that will be a great idea to do something like that. Then you think yes! That’s a great way of doing things. Always take a break but don’t leave it too long otherwise it will take you ages to get back into it again. Also believe that you can overcome your fears that may cause your difficulties in the near future but tackling it dead on instead.

Day 12 Of 14 Days Valentines Challenge: I love your smile

As I’m sitting in my class just drifting away staring into the windows of the world thinking about you; I can’t hear the reach asking for the books as I walk down the corridors I don’t see the bad boys trying to catch some play, but all I could see is your smile and because of that I love you more than anything in the world. I just love your smile.

I’m sitting behind my desk at work the clock says three I want to be free; free to scream “I love you”, free to bathe with you on a hot summers day, free to watch you all day working. The amount of times I told you to come and save me when I’ve told you my boss is so lame so is the pay. Baby, I just love to see you smile and tell you how much I love you.

Time came when you showed me your direction now that I know I’ll never ever go back to the way I have been taught because I can be that better girl with the love that you gave me and how much you rocked my world. You believed in a girl like me knowing that you’re the one to be with. Yet when I’m caught all alone I start confessing it’s from the state of depression but baby when you start to begin laughing and smile. That’s when it becomes infectious baby I just love your smile and I just love you.