This week I want to con-bind Teenagers Life Crisis with this The Unknown Fear Category; because I believe teens can relate to this in so many ways, that no one understands unless they have been throw it themselves.
I find myself at the current stage in life but always will because that's who I am unless I turn my mind set and beat the beast that’s controlling me inside my mind. Each day I try and take a photo of myself as I see who I really am inside and out; as you can see in the four pictures, I actually like who I am, how I do things and how truly pretty that I really am. The fact that I capture it and post it through social media it has given me the confidence of taking pictures of who I am; I'm in control of the camera no one else is, I wouldn't take a photo of myself if I have an really bad off day and put it up. No way I'll be doing that I can tell you that right now. That's how insecure I am about it all. This is my little tale of how my beauty and beast is like in my life; my story, my life of all the issues that I have within myself.
Tale as old as time can this be true as it can be; as I'm barely even friends with the beast inside me, them somebody bends the unexpectedly and a little change some say at least but both a little scared of loosing each other. Neither one is prepared to give up on each other but that's what I call as beauty and the beast battling her out.
Ever just the same but always a surprise like it was once before; just to be sure when the that will rise, the same old tale at this time is played in the same old tune in the distances like a distance memory. Bittersweet and strange like I'm finding that I can change; when I learn that I was wrong at the time I don't want to listen to what other people are saying,
There's always the certain sun that will always come out; making me feel better about myself like I'm confident in myself that's what the beauty of it when the sun is in the east, but there is the other certain sun that doesn't come out and it rains then the beast will rise in the east.
Our take is now as old as time along with the song that has as old as the rhyme; but I call it pour beauty that takes over winning over the beast, even when it's the hard times beauty and the beast always battle it out no matter what happens. That's why I call it the beauty and the beast.
People in celebrity world who have to look good and etc in the eye of the public; which every girl and boy growing up wants to be like them, for me it's completely different.
This weekend just been has it me the worse; not because I haven't watched much tv or anything, but because I have days when I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone and etc. I try each day to wake up to feel positive, do my make up each day with out fail even if I don't feel like or I notice that I've got my hairs growing back on my chin because of one of my health issues cause it to grow there. The unnecessary hairs that are a waste of space; that's what I call it anyways because that's what I call it, yet I try and cover it as best I can even if I don't shave it off if I'm feeling rather crappy about myself.
The fact that most female stairs are like putting it on for show saying “oh look at me I can get what I want because I'm so damn hot; making all the men population across the globe fancy me, and all of the celeb male stars even the royals in some of the countries who have them. All because I have big boobs and well dressed” and so on, so on. I could list them all but I don't want to waist your time or my time on how pathetic they are to be honest. “Oh I don't want him, I want him instead” can think of a few people in that picture.
You could just say that I'm just being paranoid and jealous; yes but that's because guys who butter me up, either just want me for one thing and one thing only or just end up being close friends of mine to be honest. The fact is though I'm so use to being on my own but as soon as I let my guard down to anyone something bound to happen; like they disappear off or go away with another female and say “we just good friends” I can understand if they’re working need to go away for something that's fine but when they don't tell you that they are going away and you then find out that it was with the opposite sex. Then how else are you going to believe that they are telling you the truth. But then again old habits of being paranoid is because of someone in the past that you thought you got over it but obviously happens. Then like jealousy came out so bad and what the hell is that all about; when it comes with the stars it bothers me to the point I hate them because they think they are all it, to be fair their are some you think seriously how the hell did you become a celebrity then you realise who their parents are. So they didn't have to try hard to get what they want.
To the one of those annoying 6 little words that I hate the most right now; who, what, where, when, how and why. They can all just do one right now; never done something so complicated in my life, blogging my own stuff is easy.
As I've just use one of the annoying six words from the picture; this week I've come crawling for help from my fellow readers and fellow bloggers, to give me a hand or give me some advice of how the hell I’m going to run this with hardly any money to get it going.
So far I have got a Facebook Page, Blog Website, Fundraising Sites, Instagram and Twitter. Oh don't forget I have a board on Pinterest on it as well.
Facebook Page: @sentebaleblogsnigeria
Blog Website: sentebaleblogs.wordpress.com
The fundraising sites are practically nearly on every site that I use; along with lots of paperwork that I use for this website, also now that I'm doing paperwork for this blog and etc it's like how much paperwork do I really need to do. So over the weekend just been (5th-6th August 2017) me and my friend were in the library I was photocopying and she was counting how many sheets I've got if I missed any out. Probably about £20 worth of photocopying; some of it was for this blog as well, I'm currently half way sorting it all out and then realised that I brought the wrong sheets for the laminator so I can't laminate them either.
Lots and lots to do yet alone trying to keep up with blogs for here; looking for another job to gain more money, and everything else. Not sure how people say I was a Wonder Woman doing everything all at the same time. Who knows I’ll get there in the end I suppose.
Anyone knows or got ideas that can help me with raising money for the foundation for Nigeria all let me know by emailing me on this email address firstname.lastname@example.org thank you muchly and appreciated as I'm stumped for it and I'm asking for your advice for it as well.
Yep I know it's a Sunday but I can't help in doing this blog on a Sunday when it comes to one of those days that you had one too many off.
The fact that I have admitted on my national blog on a Sunday Special; that I can be a total d*** at the best of times, but not that sort of a d*** where someone is always is one all the time. I have mine when my insecurities, jealousy and many more come out all at once. Then start feeling rather s**** about it because you just wish you hate those feelings of not being good enough; feeling threatened by someone else who maybe good looking, right sort of person and what not.
Yep that's me. I'm one of those sort of people that feel like I'm going to get replaced because of not matching the right boxes; I end up listening to my insecurities, the past pain and etc. Which to means that I blow everything out of proportion and hurt the people that I love the most. That's pretty much me. It's only rarely that happens if I'm on a War path with myself then it's more dangerous territory; once I'm in the no mans land and someone who knows me too well, try and break the barriers down more they don't even know if they are going to come out alive or not. They actually turn out alive when I break down crying and wave the white flag to say it's alright.
There's been so many times within the two weeks I've been in floods of tears; then been actually been a complete arse, because of it as I've been all over it and there's been coming to my aid from left right and centre. On that no mans land and they've been like no matter what I thrown at them; they wouldn't budge because they know it's not me at the end of the day, they just want to keep me safe.
This is where you get your true identity of life where you know where your good friends are in life.
This Topic makes me feel so sick, upset and angry to the point of why am I even bothering doing my job that I loved doing for so long. When people whom became disabled through a disease or accident or something and they want to die because they can’t cope with it anymore.
In my brief summary of this topic that I just mentioned about this; is that every time it comes up on the news I physically have to leave the room, or trying not to listen to it because it makes me feel so sick, upset and angry that people who are capable to do anything had their world turned upside down. Either a disease, accident or something else that made them become disabled; they want to fight for the laws to be changed so that a physician can help them by assisting them in suicide, because they can’t cope with the torture of thought of not being able do things that they use to do.
The fact people who use to be able to walk, talk and etc couldn’t understand how people from adults, teens and children be able to live like the way are. I mean being disabled and their families have to look after them with constant care all the time; until one day something happens to them, they become throwing a hissy fit and take laws into their own hands because they don’t want to be like it anymore.
Personally they should stop being selfish; they shouldn’t have the right to commit suicide with the help of a physician. Kids, young people and adults who were born with a disability who may not understand; non verbal, and many more things don’t can’t say how they feel or anything. They grew up with the constant care, medication, hospital treatment and everything else.
At least people who had a life that lead to be a normal one before anything else happened; at least they got a life before it was taken away from them, so just grow a pair and do one because I’ve been on both sides. You have no understanding or how hard it is to see children having seizures, and everything everyday. They have it far more worse than we do when we become disabled; so don’t be blooming disgusting by asking a doctor to help you die, get over yourself and deal with it like everyone else can. Even Stephen Hawkins has out lived his condition; he was just having a normal life, then became the most cleaver of them all. Even when he’s disabled. If he can do it you can.
There is life after having a terrible outcome but you jus have to work through it; the pain barriers are there to get you to fight back, what do you think the soldiers do when they become disabled. Give up hope or pick themselves back up again? They pick themselves up again. Not everything is about you. Going to stop as this makes me so mad.
This week I had to write something with a meaningful meaning but also I hadn’t had a chance to write a story for this week. So it’s poetry this week guys. It’s a little short one for you.
It’s probably what’s best for you; if I went and left you too it because I only want the best for you, and if I’m not the best then you’re stuck. I don’t want to be third best at everything; I want to be there for you, I want what’s best for you but I just feel like I’m a third wheel. I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind. It feels like when you can’t talk to me about things; it feels like you’re pouring salt in my cuts.
I just ran out of band-aids because I don’t even know where to start as you can only bandage the damage; you can never really can fix a heart, even though I know what’s wrong but how could I be so sure. If you never say what you feel, feel. I must have held your hand so tight; you didn’t have the will to fight, I guess you needed more time to heal,
You must be a miracle worker because your swearing up and down; like you can fix what’s been broken, yeah. So please don’t get my hopes up if I’m going to be a third wheel in this relationship; no, no, baby, tell me how could you be so cruel?
Calling out to all businesses from the back and beyond, don’t forget local business in Guildford and surrounding areas of my hometown.
Calling out to all businesses from the back and beyond, don’t forget local business in Guildford and surrounding areas of my hometown. I would like to ask you to help donate and retweet this blog to your fellow business friends, clients and all of the galore. Think I’m starting to sound big headed all well got to advertise one way or another haven’t I; by throwing in my amazing skills of dry sense of humour into the works of things, the reason why I want to reach out to you awesome people is because I have been assigned to this mammoth task of helping a charity called Sentebale but only just one area of West Africa and the country that I am based of helping is Nigeria.
In Nigeria there children who are out there who need your help, be their voices, and your love. The charity has only set the foundation in Nigeria barely six months of this year (2017), they literally have nothing to help the children to read, write or learn knew skills that will equip them for life. My offer is too is this. If you help us to raise the funds to be able to get things up and running. We will be able to help train the children who can learn new skills; how money works, how long it takes them to make the projects and most importantly know that with the money of each product that they make gets sold. The money will go back to them through the charity; if this sounds right up your street by helping the children, to provide for themselves and to achieve positive goals.
Let me tell you the story of what their life is like out there along side quotes from one of the countries that has been founded by Sentebale already. You may need tissues or a shoulder to cry on when you read this.
Story of Nigeria and the children who need our help
Nigeria is a country that nestled itself in the middle of Benin which boarders which is the West of Nigeria; in the East you will find Chad and Cameroon, in the North is Niger and in the South lays the coast of Gulf of Guninea which is facing out to the Atlantic Ocean. Nigeria is actually known as Federal Republic of Nigeria; it is also referred to as the ‘Giant of Africa’ owing to the population and economy, as it is the most popular country in Africa and the seventh most populous country in the world.
Nigeria has also been known to one of the most population of youths in the world; along with approximately 188 million inhabitants in the country alone, the fact that this is a well known and popular country to go to. However I would like to take you down to behind the scenes of the reason why I want you to come, read and donate.
The fact is in Nigeria no one really talks about the needy, the homeless and the orphans in the country. There are children who have witness loosing their parents to HIV right before their eyes; there are some children who don’t even know that they have contracted the disease, or even been passed down from their parents until they get tested and some come back with positives.
Children become homeless due to being rejected from their families, their communities, or even when they eat with other children at school the teachers think that they are going to pass it on to other students. Children from all ages do not understand how or why they are being treated as an out cast to everyone. There are some children who cannot finish their education due to the fact that their families or friends cannot afford the uniform, materials or even worst luck is to looking after their other siblings due to the fact that no one else can due to their parents or any other family members passing away from HIV.
As I was watching a few youtube video clips for research and etc for this page; I have picked out a few stories from three different generations one from a 9 year old, a teenager and a nurse. Why not read on; see for yourself how they manage to cope with having HIV, along with a nurse who is helping one of the children today. Please bare this in mind that; these are real life stories that I’m talking to you about, along with their ages may have changed since I have taken on this role.
Children/nurses in Lesotho have come to tell their story (when it was documented at the time). Here are their stories of how they deal with it all. First story quote is being told by Mots’ Eliso Motaung from Lesotho “My name is Mots’ Eliso Motaung. I am 9 years old. It’s terrible living with HIV. I never tell anyone that I have HIV’
The second story quote is from a teen (I didn’t really catch the her name) but this is her story. “When I was young I got sick, I didn’t feel good about myself. People didn’t like me playing with their children. At school I wasn’t allowed to eat from the same plate as them because they said I would infect the others. I was very upset. I wondered why me? What have I done that makes me different from other children”
Third story is where a nurse who knows the teen’s background and this is what she had said “she was very young only 6 years old and she didn’t understand what was happening. I think HIV was stigmatised because people didn’t understand it. HIV is the same as any other disease and we’re now able to treat it, and get better.’
That’s just one country tackling the HIV that has effected the children no matter what; this is what we want to do in Nigeria to be able to tackle the needy, the homeless and Orphans that have been effected in this way by the terrible disease. One volunteer that I have asked what is it like in the home that he works in he replied ‘It’s fun (working with the children) Nigeria is a place of fun. Different kids with different talents and when a volunteer worker see’s a new kid, they start to wonder, what does this kid have now?’
We want to raise money to be able to help us to buy enough materials that can produce enough to be able to products and to teach the children new skills; how to make money, how to achieve things in life no matter how bad their life is or what they had to go through in their time they have. Along with we need to have enough money to be able to fund everyday essentials that we can use; like toothpaste, toothbrushes, hair brushes and etc.
Every little donation that you make will help go towards these supplies; no matter how little or how big, we appreciate it and it will go along way to help the Nigerian children who need the love and support that is coming from everywhere else. In showing that they are being heard, listened to, being loved and cared for no matter how it is received in the correct manner.
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In memory of 100 years ago was the First World War between 1914-1918. In the running of the 100 years; Christopher Nolan had created a film about Dunkirk; the tragic, the fear, the frightened has come to the screens as actors recreate the days of Dunkirk. What it must of felt like when the Second World War happened from 1939-1945. In the days of the 1940s on the beaches of Dunkirk.
The miracle evacuation of Dunkirk in the Second World War has brought to real life again; through actors who played the roles of the soldiers who had died that day, trying to come home but left vulnerable on open lands of the beaches and the sea. Director Christopher Nolan has turned to the evacuation of Dunkirk for his latest acclaimed film; the fact that he brought back the the stunning great escape that helped Britain avoid defeat in the Second World War, showing that we had risked everything in the days of saving the British army.
100 years ago was the First World War saw lots of unnerved, scared, frightened men who didn’t want to be out in the war zone; in May 26 and June 4, 1940 and that year saw some 338,000 troops rescued from the beaches of Dunkirk. Following Nolan’s success of blockbusters such as The Dark Knight and Inception; Nolan’s latest film that tells the story of Dunkirk, “the event that shaped our world”, as the poster says.
Nolan and his crew have gone to great depth of history, research and pains to faithfully to recreate Operation Dynamo to able to see what it may of looked like and feel like the time that had taken place.
Dunkirk – The Event That Shaped Our World/ Shaped Our Country
Lizzysweeklyblogs Review of Dunkirk
I got invited to go to see the film Dunkirk by my best friend that I use to work with called Meg Anne. Who wanted to see it because it hard Harry Styles from One Direction in it; not sure at the time she knew the true history of the event, until I had to explain it all to her at the end of the film when she got confused on some areas. Which is understandable to be honest when I’m a bit older than her and did study it at school, went on the trips to the areas where they were fight in both wars (not at Dunkirk) and also knowing a bit more due to own self research along with family who are into different types of historical facts themselves.
The film was very in tense throughout the film; not much dialogue throughout the film but the fact that I was literally hugging my cardigan close to my face, meant I felt like I was there on the beaches with the soldiers who were frightened and scared at the time it was happening.
Every time the camera panned to Tom Hardy and Kenneth Branagh when something serious was about to happen. I was like NO! And OMG! They are going to die but yet they survived every time it happened for another second, another minute, another half an hour, another hour and another day. You could tell something wasn’t going to be right; when the cameras went onto Kenneth Branagh, it was the way he looked up into the sky and he soon realised what was coming towards them all.
I believe that all the actors who did the film have to be well and truly magnificent because to be able to experience something like that as acting if your adrenaline kicks in; the fear of the unknown what’s coming next, the fear of I’m going to be next one to be killed.
I would rate this film as 5/5 because it’s absolutely brilliant.
Guest Review: Megan Anne’s Dunkirk Review
Apologies for strong bad language from my friend; she has no concept of her language, especially when it comes to Harry Styles. I’ll try my best to reduce the amount of swearing by bleeping them out but keeping them in as it’s her words not mine. However she wants me to had more to it just to make her look smarter but I’ll see what I can do.
I personally didn’t know what to to expect to begin with; but I was happy with the film based on the true facts of history, of our past that had changed our future that we live in today. The film was so tense that I was on the edge of my seat; making me feel like I was there on the beaches of Dunkirk, like I wanted to help save each solider that were in danger whilst putting myself at risk. The fact that I was confused at some parts of the film; yet having Lizzy’s knowledge and understanding of what it would be like out there, also having the understanding that one of he actors were actually the ones of the good guys as she explained to me which airplanes are which and which side they belong to. The fact that I know I can pick Lizzy’s brains for things like these topics; I know I can’t go wrong either way, and I like to learn new things that I didn’t know before.
All the actors were amazing bringing everything to life; bring me into their world of what’s happening throughout the film, as there’s not a lot of dialogue throughout the film but the actors showed that their feelings of being anxious, panicky, petrified, running scared and terror stricken. Oh and the most important thing was that Harry Style was unbelievable; he was playing a character that I really didn’t expect play, but as he brought out the heart racing that my heart was going to come out of my chest. As there were lots of tense scenes that he was in; as I thought my life was going to be over if he died in battle of survival, “because of Harry F********* Styles” sorry guys I can’t help it he’s absolutely beautiful!
Fantastically directed film by Christopher Nolan. I would rate it overall 5 stars.
The time when you know that your going to get a really bad headache coming; when it gets to the point of thumping like Thumper from Bambi comes along, and ends up getting his bouncing gear on and starts thumping against your skull. Yep I got that we’ll get that most days.
So 10 things that makes me want to stop Thumper from thumping my head on average day to day life; so that I can get on and do things can be quite tricky, especially you know whats causing the problems of the headache in the first place.
- Overthinking can cause my Thumper to thump my brain like I’ve been hitting my head against a brick wall.
- Stress can cause my Thumper to come when you just at least expect it.
- Mental Health when my brain starts to go all funny and you can just about to hear and feel Thumper in the background thumping hard trying to be heard.
- The fact that when I’ve been crying so much I strain myself without realising and theres that thumping sound again.
- Cold or a flu thats coming my way and thats when I begin to wonder why I get the thumping against my skull.
- Sinus headache when they are all blocked up and begin to throb hard
- When shouting at someone or something thats when it makes my head hurt due to the fact that; I’m so like one of my parents that I go from 0-60 in five seconds.
- When my face starts twitching so much that it gives me the headaches because my face cant stop twitching.
- Sleeping too much or too little or just feeling goggle in the mornings
- Just when you feel like your a net between two houses that shout and your like a ping pong ball or tennis ball being hit back and fourth. That can give you headache at the best of times.
The fact that I just didn’t write what the title was actually about but heyho might as well change it like 10 things to avoid Thumper coming to attack my head. Or 10 things that I wish Thumper wouldn’t do to my head. I think I might of made a gobble goose of this weeks Wednesday post; it was a good idea to do it at the time when I had it, heyho Thumper looks to cute to not carry it out so no.